Fetters of Love

"Let only that little be left of me whereby

I may name thee my all.

Let only that little be left of my will whereby

I may feel thee on every side,

and come to thee in everything,

and offer to thee my love every moment.

Let only that little be left of me whereby

I may never hide thee.

Let only that little of my fetters be left whereby

I am bound with thy will, and thy purpose is

carried out in my life – and that is the fetter of thy love"

- Rabindranath Tagore (Geetanjali)

Is it so difficult for mortal beings like us to say to the person whom we love that we actually love them, think the whole world about them, keep on breathing just to be able to be alive so that we are able to remember them during all those godly hours and beyond, yearn for them, care for them, cry for them, die for them, hurt for them, lie for them or for that matter, simply exist just for them? For some of us, it will be a YES while for the remaining it will be a resounding NO. 😳

This confusion has existed from times immortal and even today, it keeps on hunting us down and creating havoc in our lives to no end.

Yes, I am thinking off-key over here (just like Jai's singing, poor soul – got stood up by his wife of all people in the world 😉) but all these ramblings definitely concern Jai and his befuddled state of mental affairs!

I was just thinking how difficult would it be for him to declare his love for Bani (ok, I know the HUGE confession scene is coming up sometime pretty soon👏), but what I am trying to say is the present situation he is going through. Its practically got to do with his not being able to convince himself as yet about his love for Bani, because what he feels for Bani is VERY different from what he has felt for some other women during his lifetime, even including his eye-candy fiances like Roshni and Pia. With them, Jai never realized the selfless aspect of love, an aspect of love that is so frightening that it will probably lead one to the edge of an abyss and beyond. THIS is what he feels for Bani. ❤️

The feeling for Bani has changed dramatically during the last few weeks – the person whom Jai had vowed to hate and to destroy has suddenly become the very meaning of his existence, HIS TOUCHSTONE. 😳He is more concerned and vulnerable about the Park Road secret not because he is involved in it directly, but because it is going to hurt the only person in the world who has faced him on a one-to-one basis, who has seen him in all his unrestrained emotional fluctuations and outbursts and who probably tries to understand him for the person he is and not for a carefully chequered out man, his achievements and aspirations.😛

Jilted at the altar by Pia, Jai had lost his faith in love (whatever he had understood of it till then) and had embarked on a path of revenge and vengeance. Only to be stopped by a guardian angel in the path, who literally took his every single blow and led him down the desert to an oasis where he has once again been given the chance to love. He has been in love a couple of times before (we all know for sure😉), but for the first time he's realizing how breathtaking, spell binding, scintillating and yet frightening it is to be IN LOVE. Once he wanted to hurt Bani because that would be the easiest way to get back to Pia, and now he doesn't want to hurt Pia and Pushkar anymore because he doesn't want Bani to be hurt in the process – LIFE indeed does keep on taking revenge on us poor souls in this fashion. 😆

The fact that he doesn't want to lose Bani in the entire confusion about Park Road and its probable fallout indicates that he has realized Bani's importance in his life and beyond, he's trying hard to come in terms to his feelings and emotions with respect to his beautiful and lovable wife (I forgot utterly butterly kissable😉😆😉). Jai knows it's a different kind of feeling, which is as strong as the vibes he gets from his wife, but he isn't able to comprehend it for LOVE. Bani spelt out her feelings for him when she stopped him from divulging his dark secret regarding the Park Road secret on the ground that she rather stay with him and love him rather than hearing out the secret, which is of course of instrumental significance in her life.

Surely, love has such powers. Bani, in love, fighting against all odds to stay with Jai and make life easy for him and Jai, in love, fighting against all odds to protect her from any harm, to give her all the love in the world. How and where they will get together is anybody's guess? But, the unfolding of various unwanted events are presently leaving them completely vulnerable and emotionally upturned for their own good.

The consummation between the two was also symbolic in a lot of ways👏, apart from showing the entire scene very aesthetically and beautifully, that it manages to leave goose bumps every time we watch it (I know guys, I am a Despo, Raaga will be happy😃😃😃). Though under the influence of liquor and some drug, both Jai and Bani were completely IN the event. Just look at the hand clasping, you don't need anything else to understand and feel how attuned they are to each other's senses, feelings and emotions. Also, it was not a frantic, just-kissing and consummating event, the scene went much beyond that and the love between the two just overflowed the brim of the cup! Bani and Jai just let go control for time being and let the love between them speak volumes, rather than making clich dialogue sessions between them. The two of them are caught in the eternal chain of love, longing and trust which will be extremely difficult for them to break away from. This is the principal beauty of this pair, whom we have come to love, respect, adore and cherish from the bottoms of our heart.😳

The Park Road secret expectedly will lead to a new turn of events and throw the two protagonists against each other, pitting them against nature but decidedly proving to be the main agent for polishing the rough diamond of their love for which other, which will eventually sparkle once de-mined. Time will now have to play the main catalyzing effect in bringing out their feelings and in uniting the two star-crossed lovers together.😊

As Kahlil Gibran would proudly say

" … love,

With its magic rays,

Opened my eyes AND …

Brushed my soul

With its fingers of fire."

wow hun!!...that was...beautiful!!👏👏👏