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Hey guys!
After a pretty dramatic and intense epi...here goes the usual emotions post-
here's the link to my other post today...
Both feelings are combined and enmeshed :)
Her moonlit skin intoxicated
a rush in my brain, thought obfuscated
a heady feeling it was..
i didn't want to let go..wanted to make it last
what this 'it' implied, I knew not
only knew she needed to be here a lot
i couldn't let go..not yet..
so i moved closer..enmeshed as if in a net
Focussed on her beautiful moon-lit face
nothing else sprung into my mind in haste
just to make her mine..and keep her in my arms
i moved closer, as she moved back in alarm
and then..something happened..her eyes shut down
as if anticipating with a smile, instead of a frown
she welcomed me it seemed..so i moved towards her more
till i was inerrupted ruthlessly by a darn ringtone!
my heart in my chest beat fearfully fast
as if it would fly away from me, at last
he came close and then closer even more
and i felt hypnotised so closed my eyes to his eyes' lore
interrupted, my eyes flew open and he left me alone
leaving me confused though my eyes still shone
what had just happened? i tried to reason with myself
it seemed either he, or I or both of us needed some help
I confronted him...and he told me he wasn't answerable
he held me tight and was back with his labels
he didn't answer my questions and told me to leave him alone
oh if only i could do that..if only i could ignore his eyes and heart of stone
how could i lose control so fast?
when i had held on to myself for years' past?
how could i answer those truthful eyes?
I couldn't so i told her to leave me alone with more lies
My heart called out- stay with me..but i stifled it
it deserved to be shot this diwali light, not brightly lit
I held her tight..so tight that i hurt her bad
i closed my eyes..unable to see her in pain, but more pain was to be had
I walked away..closed myself in..
the cruel result of my own doing
there she stood..i showed her my answers bold
and she cried..without any support or hold
her sad eyes, were torture enough for me
but i couldn't let her in..i couldn't let her see
so i nodded along and hoodwinked all around me
and instead showed her an indifference I knew she'd believe
there he was..with eyes as sad as life itself
looking at me, almost begging me to walk away from this hell
but i stayed and i will smile too
he made me see hate..but i saw the hidden pain in his heart that grew..
Sad sad epi...
But dont' worry...united in pain or love..
just becuase you hurt someone doesn't mean you don't care...
let the drama begin!!
i can't wait to see how it all enfolds!
love to all!
Jodha Akbar
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