Dreams
part 69
he falls on his knees trembling.. how can I hate u.. Geet..
his couldn't stop the tears from coming if only she could listen his cry.
Cry to take his hand & tell him.. everything is fine.. tell him.. she would never leave him again & hug him tight in her embrace. He just cried sitting on the floor wonder rejoice the moment he dreamt for or cry for the pain that moment gave to her.
I want...
I want to hold you close, lock you in my arms,
Hide you in my embrace,kiss you breathless,
Plead forgiveness, cry my heart out,
Whisper sweet nothings, those three words endlessly,
Treat you like a princess, kill all your fears,
Cuddle you both together,be with you forever...
Alas! My past sins stand in my way,
Instead of being close, away I have to stay!
What I want doesn't matter,
What I deserve is what I gather...
by
swati
She went back to her palace.. her heart felt lighter. She felt so contented she could tell him. He said he didn't misunderstand her. ..she felt like that was the most beautiful thing she has ever heard in this whole life. She was blushing.. she was nervous.. she was sacred ..her happiness vanished the moment she thought about how she will face him the next day. How will the things be normal again between them. She got really scared. But then she had to be strong.. not for anyone else but for the little baby who needs her. She inhaled sharply & closed her eyes.
Maan couldn't believe..she actually couldn't believe she told those three word to him .. he called anni..immediately.. he cried like a baby.. she said she loves me.. she said she can't stay without me..
she loves me.. after all wat I have done.. she loves me..
he said all that in one breath.. crying.. weeping..screaming.. trembling
anni ' bhai.. bhai..
he didn't seem to stop.. she loves me anni.. she loves me...
how can babaji do this to me..how can he make her love me...
anni got really excited ' bhabi maan gayein?
Tumne bhabhi kab sab kah diya?
Maan's voice caught in his throat.. he gulped hard in fear
anni ' bhai???
Maan went mum
a min earlier he was screaming.. yelling.. crying.. now fear took over. He didn't know how to tell her. He will lose her. He will lose every thing he has. Their baby..wat if she leaves them.. wat if she takes the baby with her.. he won't be able to say anything.
Anni ' bhai?
Tum kuch bolthen kyun nahi?
Bhai?
Phone dropped from his hand in fear.
Anni.. kept shouting as the line went dead.
Anni kept calling the for hrs.. finally Maan picked it up .
Maan ' I couldn't tell her anything
he said very meekly
she smiled sadly.. so bhabhi fell for her classmate.. who is also a papa
Maan smiled ironically
anni teased him with a tear in her eyes.. bhai.. not bad.. u still a charmer like college days.
Maan ' main kya karon..she thinks I hate her.
How can she think like that? Main bhagwan se ek bar naraz hosakta hoon.. lekin ussen kasien
I love her .. so.. much... she is all i have
he cried holding the phone.
He lowered his voice worried abt his cries may disturb the little one. He sobbed silently..
anni how can she think like that...
anni ' bhai aap bhabhi se ek bar baath karke dehko
Maan voice trembled ' main ussen kaisen kahonga main ne uske saat.. his voice faded. as he cut the call...
He hit his head against the wall. She loves him.. why.. why did she have to love him..
why did she ? Why why????
why he screamed... closing his mouth.. tight with a towel.. chocking himself.
no.. I don't deserve anything.. no.. he hit his head harder against the wall.. no..
she shouldn't love me..
all I could give her is pain. I am curse in her life. All I did his hurt her ruin her life.. her dream.. & now her innocent love. He splashes water on his face again & again.. No .. I have to tell her. Let her decide. It will be easier for her to forget me.. hate me.. let her keep the baby. At least they will be happy.
He composed himself after punching the wall nth number of time.
Next day Geet very reluctantly came to the flat. To her surprise Maan was still there in the. She didn't know whether to rejoice or be embarrassed. But a part of her danced in joy just seeing him. Maans eyes where red. She could make out he definitely was deprived of sleep.
Geet looked at the baby he was still a sleep.
Maan came into the room looking down.. he knew he couldn't definitely say a word looking at those eyes.. that was filled with love .. hope.. faith. he could keep nun.
Mujhe tum se baat karni hain
abhi nahi, she said sternly
he looked at her & immediately looked down scared to be drawn into those pool of emotions. He had to be strong.
She held his hand & made him sit on the bed. She made him lie down softly.
I want to tell u something.. its really impt
she softly pressed her forefinger on his lips.. shhh
main idhar hi hoon
he looked at her mesmerized.. those words..main idhar hi hoon
kanhi nahi jaa rahi
kanhi nahi jaa rahi .. echoed in his ears.. how his heart wished it was for ever.
She slowly caressed his forehead down her eyes. Abhi aap so jayen
her touch was magical.. he felt out of this world. It was natural to fall a sleep feeling secured, safe in her arms. especially knowing probably this will the last ever time.
She chuckled seeing him asleep. She leaned closer to his forehead.. she gulped her saliva .. wondering her audacity off late. She quietly pulled away & turned to leave.. only to see her hand strongly in his. She looked at him & then at his hold. Her heart jumped in joy..she straight away told herself.. jada khush mat ho.. but the happiness.. the blush.. the pride the excitement was so obvious on her face.
Uff the baby had to get up now only.
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Edited by muskanp - 13 years ago
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