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And I just remembered these lines from DTPH...
Do chaar kadam par hum the,
Do chaar kadam par tum the,
Do chaar kadam ye lekin,
Sau milon se kya kam the...
Dont know but these lines kept on playing when I saw Kesar adamant and Gulaal stubborn...wanted so desperately to shake them both and say that Guys time out!! Kesar ! you need to give breathing space to her and Gulaal you need to come out of that self imposed exile and realize that you have a heart and that beats too..feels too...how can you forget this guy for whom you fought the whole household and the whole village...
So although I am not liking this ugly turn of the things...today I found two broken hearts hurting each other to no extent...
Gulaal I think I have spoken of enough on the other thread...
But Kesar...
He is not thinking straight...and I guess it goes with the age too..that fanaticism, that obsession that pagalpan and ofcourse,,,,the stubbornness ...which Gulaal also has in abundance...
But I think that when Gulaal said that she did not see him in that light and for her it has been only Vasant...I found him matured enough to take it at the face value...
He was not hurt or angry or anything at her words...If she didnot see him in that light..he understood...
You see he is not insecured anymore in his love...there was a brief time, when he did not realized his feelings and was feeling insecured because of the Dushyant angle...
But after the showdown that love has settled its dust ...now it is no more on a shaky ground...It is firm...he knows what he is and where he stands...
But that absence factor...*sigh*...that has always been his weak point... When he was away from Gulaal for 10 years, he knew she was there with him...she used to write to him, used to come to meet him...
There was one kind of satisfaction ...one kind of assurance that she is there...but now without her around ...he has kind of lost it...lost his wits, his ability to think and to judge...
Because wrong or right...heartless or cruel...Gulaal is the balance in Kesar..and the moment she is out, his world is topsy turvy...
And so he pleads her to come back...
I dont know if I can call it his 'zidd'..It is a kind of 'zidd' ...yes...but then what is he asking???
She says that she has not seen him in that light...he is ok with it...
She says that he cannot take Vasant's place...he is ok with it...
She says that she will not come back...he is NOT ok with it...
There is something so essential in her presence ...he needs her aura around him...
the kind of frenzy that catches him is so unawares..he doesnot even realize who much obsessed he becomes with the thought of bringing her back...that he doesnot realize that his persuasiveness is turning into one whole "zabarzasti' and Gulaal is not going to bow down like this..
A woman who had to fend off for herself and for Kesar for years and then ultimately who has had her own way for years too...her supermacy established and no questions asked is not likely to cower down like this,...And she is turning inside her protective shell...
Like a tortoise who would not differentiate between the person trying to harm him or person trying to protect him...it would not come out of the shell...it would only come out slowly if you give space and time to it...then it would lurk out a bit and see whether it is safe or not to venture out...
Kesuda so needs to give her that space...
But Lo!! me here not to do Gullu gullu...but Kesu Kesu!!
and that is what I did when I saw him writing Gulaal over and over again in a notebook...
It is really very striking similarity that both of them share...both Gulaal and Kesar have a tendency to put their thoughts on paper...and talking to the people who are deeply inscribed in their hearts through letters...Gulaal talks to Vasant..and Kesar talks to Gulaal in that manner..
Now, me a person who used to hate such kind of adoloscent tactics of drawing hearts and arrows and cupids..but there is something about hte way he writes...
It is Gulaal without any decorations or hearts and arrows that actually makes me adore the guy some more...
I dont know I have a tendency to read more in all his actions ..
but his writing simply 'Gulaal' in hindi...without any adorations or decorations or doodles around it, made me feel like he would always take her, like her, love her and want her as she is...for him she is Gulaal and that is it...
she is the rain on his parched land heart...She can pour down or just drizzle... he is happy...
And Raman...I swear...Duggu needs to take him away ASAP and register him as the newbie transgender 😡...Sometimes I wish that Dushy had thrown him also in the deep waters or that Ramu's lover had taken his hand while falling down from the terrace we would have been spare th horror of his presence😡...
I so hate the vulnerable look Kesar gets on his face when he listens to these people...
The only people who actually are with him are Raman and JK...and amazingly both speak Kesar's heart...today also Raman said it ...that you love her what is wrong with it...it is so ironical...the only person who actually said this thing after the whole show down is Raman...who doesnot know the first letter of Love...and Kesar is listening to him...What irony!!!
And every word that Raman says makes perfect sense and is in perfect rhyme to Kesar's thought...What is wrong in asking for what was his own... That was the first time anybody told him in not so many words that Gulaal was HIS...
Even he himself doesnot see it that way anymore...he sees it the way that HE is HERS...APNE KESAR se tu kaise aisa kar sakti hai...that is what he said...even during that revelation about Dushy...he had broken down on only one thing 'How could you have kept the secret from me...YOUR Kesar!'
Damn!! The saffron boy so takes my heart away with his antics..and I crave for those days instead of this total ugliness and doomsday feeling we are having
and slowly and steadily Raman wins over the disturbed mind and Kesar pounces on Dushyant...
It is kind of frenzy that takes over him with the thought that she is away from him...you can see that in his voice, gaining its momentum as he talks about it...
No amount of wisdom would penetrate his skull...she is sooo oxygen in his lungs that the thought of her deprivation makes him breathless...
The way he absolutely and pointblankly says that he CANNOT live without her...
I think if ONCE, once Gulaal comes back...he will be normal...he would not even hound her in the entire house...he will just be happy that she is back ,...as we saw after the fail of the impending Talli disaster...not once had he approached her...It was she who had come trying to find him...it was she who had gone to put the letters back in his room...
he had not sought her out once...
It is not the physical proximity he seeks...it is that security that her presence brings to his existence, the balance that Gulaal gives to his life... it is that feeling he craves...
and in that craving he has gone senseless..and is in a state of complete disarray...
His recontre with Revjibhai I think we have discussed it all...and ofcourse after a long time Revji got his due..I personally think that hte actor was a dubbing artist..and his voice is the voice of many lead english characters in hollywood films dubbed in hindi...
But that apart...Revji's stand was right and I think he did try to show mirror to both the stubborn lives...he had shown it to Gulaal..and today he showed it to Kesar as well...he was right when he said that Kesar was not doing Gulaal favour by going to Panchayat...ofcourse we all know Gulaal had gone there first...but after the marriage fiasco..and Gulaal under the impression that Kesar had done all that to harass and get back to her..I think it was a natural reaction...she did not expect Dushy to rule against her...
But Kesar knew that if he tried to implement the order...his and Gulaal's family would be in danger of being stopped the hukkapaani...He even forgot that his sister was in that house, who could very well face difficulties...and I think Revji would have just gone and said few things to get Kesar on track had JK not butted in...
JK and Kesar have lots of similarity...both speak the exact truth but are liked by none...JK did have a point in what she said ..but the way she said was disgusting and Kesar too was disgusted,,,Poor guy had got a ally in devil's disguise...His cupid was too fat to get him his lady love...😆
I loved the fact that whatever the circumstances he cannot tolerate her insult..the moment JK said that Gulaal should be grateful that Kesar is accepting her as she is you could see the change in his facial expressions... he was not liking this...he was not comfortable with the thought that she was not up to the par by anybody's standards...for her she was always so far above that he did not even consider her to be within his reach...
and the moment JK said that Gulaal was older to him and also his brothers widow...you could see him utterly disgusted and walk away...
I guess if he had stopped JK at that time, Revji would have softened up... But kesuda does have bad timing na...he runs up the stair only to see his fate being decided and ruined by his so-called elders...
And again the line..'Gulaal will not come back ever in this house'! it knocked the daylights out of him...
The one thought which terrifies him and gives him nightmares is now again out to haunt him...
So now what would he do!!!
The challenge he throws to that Bin-Buddhi-Sudhi😡...I wonder what he plans to do next...
I swear I am having major hair loss probs because of this guy!!!
God save my hair!! Bhad mein jaaye baaki sab😛
And I just remembered these lines from DTPH...
Do chaar kadam par hum the,
Do chaar kadam par tum the,
Do chaar kadam ye lekin,
Sau milon se kya kam the...
Dont know but these lines kept on playing when I saw Kesar adamant and Gulaal stubborn...wanted so desperately to shake them both and say that Guys time out!! Kesar ! you need to give breathing space to her and Gulaal you need to come out of that self imposed exile and realize that you have a heart and that beats too..feels too...how can you forget this guy for whom you fought the whole household and the whole village...
So although I am not liking this ugly turn of the things...today I found two broken hearts hurting each other to no extent...
Gulaal I think I have spoken of enough on the other thread...
But Kesar...
He is not thinking straight...and I guess it goes with the age too..that fanaticism, that obsession that pagalpan and ofcourse,,,,the stubbornness ...which Gulaal also has in abundance...
But I think that when Gulaal said that she did not see him in that light and for her it has been only Vasant...I found him matured enough to take it at the face value...
He was not hurt or angry or anything at her words...If she didnot see him in that light..he understood...
You see he is not insecured anymore in his love...there was a brief time, when he did not realized his feelings and was feeling insecured because of the Dushyant angle...
But after the showdown that love has settled its dust ...now it is no more on a shaky ground...It is firm...he knows what he is and where he stands...
But that absence factor...*sigh*...that has always been his weak point... When he was away from Gulaal for 10 years, he knew she was there with him...she used to write to him, used to come to meet him...
There was one kind of satisfaction ...one kind of assurance that she is there...but now without her around ...he has kind of lost it...lost his wits, his ability to think and to judge...
Because wrong or right...heartless or cruel...Gulaal is the balance in Kesar..and the moment she is out, his world is topsy turvy...
And so he pleads her to come back...
I dont know if I can call it his 'zidd'..It is a kind of 'zidd' ...yes...but then what is he asking???
She says that she has not seen him in that light...he is ok with it...
She says that he cannot take Vasant's place...he is ok with it...
She says that she will not come back...he is NOT ok with it...
There is something so essential in her presence ...he needs her aura around him...
the kind of frenzy that catches him is so unawares..he doesnot even realize who much obsessed he becomes with the thought of bringing her back...that he doesnot realize that his persuasiveness is turning into one whole "zabarzasti' and Gulaal is not going to bow down like this..
A woman who had to fend off for herself and for Kesar for years and then ultimately who has had her own way for years too...her supermacy established and no questions asked is not likely to cower down like this,...And she is turning inside her protective shell...
Like a tortoise who would not differentiate between the person trying to harm him or person trying to protect him...it would not come out of the shell...it would only come out slowly if you give space and time to it...then it would lurk out a bit and see whether it is safe or not to venture out...
Kesuda so needs to give her that space...
But Lo!! me here not to do Gullu gullu...but Kesu Kesu!!
and that is what I did when I saw him writing Gulaal over and over again in a notebook...
It is really very striking similarity that both of them share...both Gulaal and Kesar have a tendency to put their thoughts on paper...and talking to the people who are deeply inscribed in their hearts through letters...Gulaal talks to Vasant..and Kesar talks to Gulaal in that manner..
Now, me a person who used to hate such kind of adoloscent tactics of drawing hearts and arrows and cupids..but there is something about hte way he writes...
It is Gulaal without any decorations or hearts and arrows that actually makes me adore the guy some more...
I dont know I have a tendency to read more in all his actions ..
but his writing simply 'Gulaal' in hindi...without any adorations or decorations or doodles around it, made me feel like he would always take her, like her, love her and want her as she is...for him she is Gulaal and that is it...
she is the rain on his parched land heart...She can pour down or just drizzle... he is happy...
And Raman...I swear...Duggu needs to take him away ASAP and register him as the newbie transgender 😡...Sometimes I wish that Dushy had thrown him also in the deep waters or that Ramu's lover had taken his hand while falling down from the terrace we would have been spare th horror of his presence😡...
I so hate the vulnerable look Kesar gets on his face when he listens to these people...
The only people who actually are with him are Raman and JK...and amazingly both speak Kesar's heart...today also Raman said it ...that you love her what is wrong with it...it is so ironical...the only person who actually said this thing after the whole show down is Raman...who doesnot know the first letter of Love...and Kesar is listening to him...What irony!!!
And every word that Raman says makes perfect sense and is in perfect rhyme to Kesar's thought...What is wrong in asking for what was his own... That was the first time anybody told him in not so many words that Gulaal was HIS...
Even he himself doesnot see it that way anymore...he sees it the way that HE is HERS...APNE KESAR se tu kaise aisa kar sakti hai...that is what he said...even during that revelation about Dushy...he had broken down on only one thing 'How could you have kept the secret from me...YOUR Kesar!'
Damn!! The saffron boy so takes my heart away with his antics..and I crave for those days instead of this total ugliness and doomsday feeling we are having
and slowly and steadily Raman wins over the disturbed mind and Kesar pounces on Dushyant...
It is kind of frenzy that takes over him with the thought that she is away from him...you can see that in his voice, gaining its momentum as he talks about it...
No amount of wisdom would penetrate his skull...she is sooo oxygen in his lungs that the thought of her deprivation makes him breathless...
The way he absolutely and pointblankly says that he CANNOT live without her...
I think if ONCE, once Gulaal comes back...he will be normal...he would not even hound her in the entire house...he will just be happy that she is back ,...as we saw after the fail of the impending Talli disaster...not once had he approached her...It was she who had come trying to find him...it was she who had gone to put the letters back in his room...
he had not sought her out once...
It is not the physical proximity he seeks...it is that security that her presence brings to his existence, the balance that Gulaal gives to his life... it is that feeling he craves...
and in that craving he has gone senseless..and is in a state of complete disarray...
His recontre with Revjibhai I think we have discussed it all...and ofcourse after a long time Revji got his due..I personally think that hte actor was a dubbing artist..and his voice is the voice of many lead english characters in hollywood films dubbed in hindi...
But that apart...Revji's stand was right and I think he did try to show mirror to both the stubborn lives...he had shown it to Gulaal..and today he showed it to Kesar as well...he was right when he said that Kesar was not doing Gulaal favour by going to Panchayat...ofcourse we all know Gulaal had gone there first...but after the marriage fiasco..and Gulaal under the impression that Kesar had done all that to harass and get back to her..I think it was a natural reaction...she did not expect Dushy to rule against her...
But Kesar knew that if he tried to implement the order...his and Gulaal's family would be in danger of being stopped the hukkapaani...He even forgot that his sister was in that house, who could very well face difficulties...and I think Revji would have just gone and said few things to get Kesar on track had JK not butted in...
JK and Kesar have lots of similarity...both speak the exact truth but are liked by none...JK did have a point in what she said ..but the way she said was disgusting and Kesar too was disgusted,,,Poor guy had got a ally in devil's disguise...His cupid was too fat to get him his lady love...😆
I loved the fact that whatever the circumstances he cannot tolerate her insult..the moment JK said that Gulaal should be grateful that Kesar is accepting her as she is you could see the change in his facial expressions... he was not liking this...he was not comfortable with the thought that she was not up to the par by anybody's standards...for her she was always so far above that he did not even consider her to be within his reach...
and the moment JK said that Gulaal was older to him and also his brothers widow...you could see him utterly disgusted and walk away...
I guess if he had stopped JK at that time, Revji would have softened up... But kesuda does have bad timing na...he runs up the stair only to see his fate being decided and ruined by his so-called elders...
And again the line..'Gulaal will not come back ever in this house'! it knocked the daylights out of him...
The one thought which terrifies him and gives him nightmares is now again out to haunt him...
So now what would he do!!!
The challenge he throws to that Bin-Buddhi-Sudhi😡...I wonder what he plans to do next...
I swear I am having major hair loss probs because of this guy!!!
God save my hair!! Bhad mein jaaye baaki sab😛
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