For Dutta: "Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future."
Yesterday's episode was quite gratifying. It was one of the most beautifully emotional moments in Dutta's life and to be deprived of Mishal's on-screen brilliance (in such an intense scene) is beyond frustrating. I felt Dutta's remorse and pain so vividly in that moment between him and Naku as she explained to him how hard and confusing things were for Madhu ever since she entered his home. I do wish that Madhu had somehow expressed a bit of it all herself as that would've developed the relationship between Dutta and her - increasing the amount of understanding and respect through a direct heart-to-heart conversation. Dutta needs to hear this, but also from Madhu's mouth. That's the only way that their relationship can continue to grow rather than be on a standstill.
It was obviously hard for Dutta to be faced with the truth of the situation - though Naku put things as mildly as she could. But I think that they both realized how he'd neglected Madhu's responsibility in a way (pre-accident) and how, even now, he was trying to avoid certain things that were intertwined with his responsibility toward her. Perhaps because he still doesn't understand where he stands in relation to her, and perhaps because she loves their father so much and accepting her entirely will mean accepting that part of her as well - the part which love and trusts their father and the part that she wants to share with him. For her, it's a "take it all or leave it all" thing. Either he accepts her entirely, including Damodar, or there will remain a wall between Madhu and him as she will never feel completely at home.
I think that Dutta fears loving Damodar, because that would entail regret. He isn't very good at handling past mistakes. They eat away at him - living in him like regrets forever. Loving Damodar, realizing that he might've actually felt remorse and have attempted to make amends, it would be more painful than hating him. Dutta would have to come to terms with the fact that he wouldn't give his father a chance while he lived.
Dutta and Damodar are more alike than they might seem. I think that's partially why Dutta disliked him so much - after all, he didn't remember being sold as a kid, so the knowledge burned him, but the emotions would've been alien to him as he had no real relationship to Damodar and had lived a relatively good life with his new family. The thing that hurt him and angered him was the fact that he wasn't AS's biological son, that a man like Damodar could commit such a crime and return to wreak more havoc in his life when he was happy, and of course losing his identity was the worst part of it all.
But I think that the fact Dutta can see himself in Damodar (in a way) is what really him kept from forgiving Damodar. His father was an alcoholic who actually comitted manslaughter, and then lived the rest of his days running an underworld dhanda - a bit like Dutta. The irony is like an elephant in a room. Not having been raised by his biological father, Dutta still - somehow - ended up going in his footsteps, a bit.
That's bound to conflict Dutta even more.
However, back to Dutta and Madhu, I loved that Madhu stood up to him, challenging him without flinching. She can match his stubbornness if she has to. And especially right then and there, it was important that she did so. Out of regard to her feelings, he should perhaps keep his own emotions toward Damodar a bit suppressed. She has spent 12 years of her life loving her father, seeing a side of him that Dutta never got to see - Dutta's dislike of Damodar might be justified, but the way he has been showing it in front of Madhu is not.
I hope that with Naku's explanation, his demeanour toward Madhu will see a tiny bit of refreshing change.
Moving on to the rest of the episode. I loved Balu Dada's return. His dialogues are simply ingenious. Credit to the writers for this fabulously fun character with a real and serious edge to him. Chaskar was only fun and at times annoying, but Balu Dada reminds me of Jagtap so much - fun but with a serious edge. Jagtap, however, was just epic as he (more than the serious edge) had a tragic edge to him. Like Dutta.
I quite enjoy Balu Dada's scenes with Dutta. They're like fire and water. The fact that he dares to pat Dutta's shoulder and all that is frigging hilarious. Hats off to him. He could've lost that hand 😆
What's with everyone mentioning this Sanjayrao as their leader? I doubt that this man is the actual culprit behind the women trafficking. He's being used by Nana to mislead Dutta, which is also increasing Dutta's hatred toward everything Damodar stood for.
Madhu back in her childhood home was an emotional sequence. Must've been pretty hard to return when her father is no longer alive and then to find that her nanny - hilarious moment when she was searching for the right word and Roops supplied her - was killed all those years ago... Tragic.
Baji's still on Naku's side concerning the whole Damodar-Ramdas-Nana affair? Good to know. I'm glad that they didn't search for clues at Damodar's place, but that the diary was found by Madhu and they just happened to see the picture. I wonder what they're going to do next? Tell Dutta? Just as long as they stop playing Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson, I'm happy.
Dutta-Leela moment? More, please 😃 Dutta needs to be a bit more attentive with Leela if he wants their relationship to become strong again. If it ever was.
Suds, of course, hasn't changed. I'm actually relieved that he hasn't. Otherwise it would've seemed weird with what Kala said ("your husband was born kamina") and as Kala knows Suds quite well and has creepy understanding of human nature and people's weaknesses, etc., she couldn't have made a mistake in recognizing Suds.
Brilliant episode 👏 Sorry for the essay here 😳
Shiv Shakti
