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Mumbai, 10th September 1998
She was walking down the lane in the evening with the rainfall mingling with her tears ... She didn't care for her tears ... she was sobbing and due to the tears; she could not see anything yet her feet didn't stop ... She was about to walk further when she felt a strong grip over her wrist and bit her lip ...
He followed her - he had planned something beautiful but it was turning out all wrong ... He had to stop her, he couldn't let this moment go ... He increased his speed and held her wrist tightly ... "Anna, what happened?" Her throat was choking, she sighed and softly said, "Nothing Chris... nothing ..." Chris made her face him and could see the tears rolling down her cheeks ... He moved his hand to wipe them off but she she pushed him away ... "Anna?" "Chris please!! Just leave me alone okay, I don't ..." He was staring at her to search the reason behind her tears - he never wanted to see her like this .... She wanted to go away but he held her arms and stopped her, trying to make her look at him ... "Anna, tell me what happened?" She looked at him with anger in her eyes and burst out, "I don't want to talk to you, you don't care about me, do you?" Chris was getting confused and spoke up, "What did I do?" She had started crying and he just didn't like what was happening, "I mean nothing to you!!" That was the last thing he wanted to hear, she questioning his feelings towards him, "How can you say that!!! Can't you damn see the love in my eyes for you??? Are you that blind?" She flared and shouted, "I AM NOT BLIND!! I saw you dancing with that girl and you were holding hands!! Don't try to fool me!!" Chris gasped and held her arms firmly, "She was my cousin you fool!!! She is scared of parties and so I was holding her hand and dancing with her and you thought--!!" She calmed down and stared at him with tears still rolling down her cheeks .... He cupped her face and wiped her tears, "I Love You Anna and no one else ... it's you and only you ... I can't live without you ... You are my life and I can never break your heart ..." Her sobs were subsiding as she softly said, "You love me?" Chris smiled and nodded, she closed her eyes and lowered her head, "I am sorry ...." He interrupted and keeping his hand on her lips and looking straight into her eyes, "That's not want I wished to hear ... I am waiting to hear something else Anna ..." She softly smiled and as he removed his hand, she whispered, "I love you Chris ... if I lose you, I'll lose myself ..." He touched her forehead with his and as she held his hand which cupped her face ... He pulled her near and softly kissed her lips sealing their promise of loving each other till the end and even after that .....
New Delhi, 20th November 1998
She was getting weaker and weaker - his absence in her life was acting as a slow poison which was killing her and ruining her completely ... She was sitting under the shower, crying over what her life had turned into - she just wanted to be with him but even that one desire was trampled by the world and here she sat crying over her broken dreams ...
Mumbai, 1st October 1997
She was sleeping peacefully when she heard some noise from the window ... After trying to shut her ears from all the noise and failing, she woke up with a frown on her face ... She walked towards the window and opened it only to see Ali standing out ... She gasped and kept her hand on her mouth, "Ya Allah, tum yahan kya kar rahe ho?" "Tumse baat karni thi", he replied plainly ... She was getting scared and looked back at the room's door to check if it was closed or not, "Tum jaao yahaan se, Abbu ne dekha to qayaamat aa jaayegi ..." She pushed him a little saying, "Jaao yahaan se, koi dekh lega ..." She was rambling while he got irritated and with entering the window swiftly; held her from her waist and kept his hand on her mouth - all of this in mere seconds ... He looked into her eyes intensely and she could not utter a word after it ... He slowly removed his hand from her mouth, "Chup, bilkul chup ... ab main bolunga aur tum sunogi ... Main tumse kuch kehne aaya hun .... samjhi?" She got nervous and simply nodded .. "Tumhe mujhse door rehna hoga Saba - mere saath tumhaari koi zindagi nahi hai ... Main ek mujrim hoon, khatarnaak hun - log darte hain mujhse ... main andhere mein jeeta hun aur mere saath tumhe sirf andhera milega ... Bhool jaao mujhe, apni zindagi tabaah mat karo - mat karo mujhse pyaar - tumhe dard ke alaawa kuch nahi milega--" Before he could utter another word, she placed her hand on his lips, her eyes were holding her tears and her face had a determinant look which he had never seen before, "Main jaanti hun, sab jaanti hun phir bhi apne aap ko rok nahi sakti - bahut der ho gayi hai ... Tumse door huyi to mar jaaungi ... Tum mujhse door nahi ja sakte, main tumhe nahi jaane dungi ..." He removed her hand and sighed, "Tum nahi samajh rahi--" "Main samajhna chaahti bhi nahi ... main tumhe nahi bhula sakti aur main jaanti hun ki tum ye sab kyun keh rahe ho?" "Agar jaanti ho to maan kyun nahi jaati? Mere saath tumhe kya milega?" "Tumhe kho diya to main khud ko kho dungi .." Tears finally rolled down her eyes as she buried herself in him, he sighed and enclosing her in his arms; said, "Saba, mujhe maaf kar do, main bas tumhe dard nahi dena chaahta tha; tumhaari zindagi tabaah na ho jaaye bas isi ka dar hai mujhe ... Main tumse pyaar karta hun ..." She lifted her head from his chest and looked at him, he smiled and kissed her lips in an attempt to remove all the pain he just gave her ....
Mumbai, 20th November 1998
He sat in the corner of the prison with tears rolling down his cheeks ... he was just surviving on her memories - he kept writing her name on the ground ... He had lost all his strength - he was waiting for death to take him to her ... he just wanted to live a beautiful life with her but they snatched her from him - broke the castle of their dreams ... He closed his eyes and drowned himself in her memories, again .....
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