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Part 91

It was very early morning, Radhika softly moved his arm away and got up slowly. She went to the washroom, and tried to freshen up quick. Sitting on that floor she tried to do the meditation for sometimes, her one finger pointed on the inner knuckle space and the other hand maintained the number. After that she took her book out with a hope to read., but she felt the burning inside her stomach. She was feeling that burning for last few days, and especially after that long trip to kids performance place and then after yesterdays trip back to here, she was trying to ignore it maximum, she was unable to eat anything either.

She stood for sometime to feel better, then thought to drink some water, she looked around and found nothing. She decided to go down, suddenly she felt the acidic taste burning her chest towards her throat she ran towards the washroom, and the fluids just filling her cheek space inside, and soon she tried to get a relief by gauging it out. Her eyes felt so watery , the gauging went on, she held her stomach tight, but the burning taste was killing her , making her to gauge more. It was there for few days at the beginning, and then it subsided itself, but this was unbearable. She gauged again loudly and holding onto her stomach with one hand, she held that wall for support, but then slowly she slide down to sit on that floor.

"RADHIKAAaaaa........."

"Are you ok?' his concerned fearful voice reached her ears...

Radhika nodded with agreement

Dev tried to give her support to get her up: come, I will take you to bed, don't sit like this, come..

His concerned voice again asked : are you ok?

Dev: let me call mom

Radhika: no no, no need, I am fine. Sometimes it comes like this, it will go away soon.

Dev: but still,

She tried to breath better, she tried to rinse her mouth in that tap water, but then the smell of it was killing her, she gauged again. Dev was feeling her weight more on his arm and he knew it is not right at all.

Dev looked at her, and wiped off her eyes, and then unknowingly his eyes filled up seeing her physical struggle, he just placed a soft kiss over her forehead and getting up quick: Radhika, don't get up, let me call mom, ok. DON"T GET UP, he shouted at her as he took those steps towards the door.... I will be back in one minute. reassuuring her...

Radhika was feeling really uncomfortable. She took another pillow and tried to support by sitting more up.

Soon she saw Suchi and Rohini rushing in, accompanied by Surender and Mohan, lead by panicking dev.

Seeing their concerned face , rushing in , Radhika: I am fine, I am fine. Her eyes were rolling down and soon darkness covered her eyes. She had very vague image or feeling of somebody checking her wrist side, and lifting her up, she felt like she is moving around. She tried to mumble : I am fine, I am fine., she thought she is hearing loud noises around, but her lips its try to get thru that noise: I am fine, I am fine.

Later she felt better that, with little effort she opened that heavy eyelids, and found Rohini sitting at the bedside. She tried to bring a smile , saying : I told you I am fine.

Radhika tried to lift her arm up and said: I told you mom, I am fine, let me get up

Rohini getting up and standing on her feet , with the angriest voice: didn't I tell you to lay quietly.

Radhika then only noticed the tube that extending from her hand and noticed her mom standing with heavy face with wet eyes, Radhika looked at her mom's face with widening her eyes

Rohini bending down slightly, brushing her hair back: What happened to you Radhika, you are not my Radhika who left this place, you are totally different.

Radhika: maa, where are we?

Radhika: no mom, he doesn't know anything. I was fine, I am fine mom

Radhika looked around and found the IV stand and the hospital cupboards...

Radhika: mom, what happened?

Radhika: where is he?

Radhika: what did they say?

Radhika: no mom, I was eating fine, didn't you see me eating well yesterday?

A tear drop escaped from her corner eye......

Rohini: now Don't cry Radhika. At least you should think of your baby dear. you were actually punishing this little one Radhika, with your small small tantrums. And look at Dev, he just listen to you, whatever you say he agrees easily. If it was your babuji, then you know. He will be shouting at me from the bottom of his throat, Dev is so nice, you can play any prang on him easily.

Her eyes felt dry as the drop rolled down making a small streak..

Rohini: Suchi came and called him and they went o doctors office, maybe will be back now. Babauji and Surender bahyya just went to the pharmacy. You really scared all of us Radhika. All of us, till we get here. It is good that we didn't go, otherwise.

Radhika: ma, I am feeling tired, can I close my eyes..

Rohini: thank you sister.

But then Suchi , Dev, Mohan, and Surender came in.

Rohini: she woke up , now feeling tired.

Dev came rushing in, looking at her face, to see her with open eyes,

Dev' s curious voice came out : how are you feeling now Radhika?

She was unable to speak out, she just tried to give a forceful smile to comfort him, he looked deep in her eyes, and sitting next, he tried to brush her hair back. Suchi checked on the numbers that the sister just wrote and left, and then coming near Radhika she asked: still feeling tired? Take rest, you will be better by evening, ok. How is your stomach feeling now?

Suchi: um, take rest, ok.

Suchi: I am feeling hungry now., so let's go out to the restaurant

Suchi with a comforting smile: ha, she is much better, maybe by evening they may discharge her too. For now let that fluid run, and let her take rest, Dev is there na nearby. So come , I can't eat the canteen food, and we didn't had anything in the morning either.

Suchi: we will get something for both of them, anyway it was their mutual decision to travel right, so let him also suffer . and see and learn life is not just giving surprises.

Suchi controlling her voice: I told you, let them talk and figure it out, whether their decision was right or wrong, so now let us go and have something, I am really feeling hungry.

Mohan: ha Surender, come

Rohini and Surender , Mohan , followed Suchi to outside room and Suchi closed the door and on her way she talked to one of the nurse. And then told her gang: don't worry , they will take care, or if they need anything, they will call us. So let's go.

Dev held her hand and brought that up to his chin, he saw the weakness , of that arm and her soft hands, bringing that up he placed a soft kiss over her wrist and looking in her eyes he asked: why did you run away from me Radhika? If this is the result of being away from me. Then I don't want you to leave me for a second either. Why did I blindly trust you Radhika? How could I imagined that you can travel by yourself and you will reach here safely, why did I take your silence so lightly, why did I trust your nodding so easily, ...how did I thought everything will go just the way I thought, and you are waiting for me here. .....You know I got the amaze award , and when I got that the first face came to my mind was yours, imagining how happy you will be, seeing that smile on your face.

Radhika looked at him : did they scold you very badly?

Dev raised his head up and looked at her face

Radhika: did they all scold you badly?

Dev releasing one of his hand and brushing her hair back with that: no, nobdy scolded me, they are really cared about you, that's all.

Dev: no Radhika, not you. I am fine. It is you who is in actual trouble na. why you are thinking about me. Then after a thought: oh, did Rohini mom say something? Then tapping on her chin: don't worry about it, the doctors were asking me, so many questions, for which I don't have any answers.

Dev bringing his face more to her face: nothing

Dev with a pause , placing their hand down , resting near the bed, and crossing his other hand caressing her cheek and her hairline as if trying to tuck those small black threads behind nicely : nothing Radhika, and then after a pause: they were asking me about our baby? How old is our baby? When did we went for last check up? What was your weight at that time? Then a drop of tear just fallen down from his corner eyes down to her hand, and with smile he added: for which I just stood silently. he continued: they asked mom too, you know because she is working in this same hospital as the gynecologist, so they thought she might be knowing everything.

Radhika in her soft voice: what mom said?

Radhika: all because of me na. the guilt was reflected esily on her small talks..

Radhika: mei, mei...

Sarada: What is going on here? am I dreaming or something? Is it you Dev? Nobody told me?!!!! No wonder your mom was silent for few days, I didn't even get a chance to see her. Um, she was hiding from us, so that she doesn't have to share the sweets. No way.

Dev: that' s actually...

Sarada: no Dev, you don't need give any explanation, that I will ask Suchi only, directly. Let me see her, then looking around "where is she?"

Dev: they went out to eat

Sarada: what? Making you two to sit here? They all went!!!!!

Dev: ha, they will be back soon.

Sarda: let them come.

Suchi looking at Rohini: Rohini, I will be right back, let me give her nice treat. Otherwise she is not going to sit silent

Sarada: ye, what you think, buying me a sweet and I will keep quiet... no way..

They all just smiled. Rohini gave food to Dev, and asked Radhika to try some too, but she refused, they kept on scolding her, advising her, and with much hesitance she opened her lips to take one bite.

Meanwhile Suchi was guiding Sarada to her personal check up room.

Suchi: no, this way only, come, please, I need to talk to you.

Nurse nodded her head.

Time passed by. tick tick tick....

The doctor came and said Radhika is doing much better. And asked for Suchi

Surender: Suchi went out with Sarada and it's been long time, hope they are not bargaining to buy the store itself..

Radhika was still trying hard to gulp that food down and Mohan and Rohini was asking Dev, how he was managing her back in U.S.

Sarada: um, I will wait

Suchi feeling better went out and then went to Radhika's room.

Surender: finally!

Suchi: what finally?

Surender: doctor came and asked about you, and they said Radhika is fine

Suchi coming near to Radhika's bed side: I know she is fine, right Radhika, with a smile on her face....

Suddenly suchi: Oh Dev, I forgot, I brought a sweet box and it is with sarada ,go get it

Suchi: no no, that we can later, this is just for the staff who is coming in, you know, it's a courtesy, they know me well, and my daughter is here now and , just for them

Radhika looked at Suchi again, hearing back that caring loving words for her.

Suchi : Dev

Dev: ha mom, just one minute

Suchi: no take your time, nobody is in a hurry here.ok

Nodding his head Dev went out while Suchi took the plate from Rohini and tried to feed her and said : who will eat this food, it smell really bad. Don't worry beta, when we get back home, I will make nice food ok.

Suchi hiding her face, looking in that plate: that time it was smelling good and I thought it will be tasty too, but see, now it all got cold and

Mohan: um um, now you are trying to support Radhika, right.?

Rohini: you don't know for how long I was trying, she just took five or six gulps, that's it.

Surender: so you two are going to go!

Suchi: I also know what she likes, but I will give you chance this time.

Mohan: and you?

Suchi: I got used to this surrounding, so actually I am feeling fresh. You all go

They got ready to go and Surender looking at Radhika: take care beta. Mohan and Rohini also came near and asked her to take care and left.

Radhika's heart started pacing faster , suddenly she felt suppfocated being alone with Suchi in that room, what all she will ask, what will I say? Will she talk? Will she angry with me? Will she........?

Her self questioning got interrupted as she heard Suchi's soft voice.

"ji , theek hum" Radhika answered like student

"I am sorry mom" Suchi heard the feeble soft sound of Radhika, she looked and found Radhika bowing head accepting her mistake, her guilty conscious took the courage to say those words finally but her eyes failed to meet those loving eyes.

Suchi in a calm way: it is not about asking sorry beta, you need to understand that at any circumstances, you have a family here, it is not just thinking they are here only when you are happy, there maybe so many around when you are happy, but when you need help, when you are in doubt, you should turn to your family only.... then, that is the meaning of family dear..

Radhika listened to her actively.

Suchi : now don't think much, and try to sleep , ok.

Radhika just looked at Suchi's face again with a sorry face.

......stroking on her hair, laying side ways next to her Suchi said: I still remember that radhika's face,when she came first to live with us, that sad face, that depressive state and when she hear about chandenpur her face just light up automatically, how did I forgot that beta, that also leaving all of us for such a long time, and without anybody to notice that sadness in your eyes, nobody to give that hug to comfort you.

.. actually Radhika when it comes to work, he is like his dad, they forget us for sometime.so it is not his fault, it is your papa's , so we can question him when he comes back ok. That a brought a smile on Radhika's face, seeing that Suchi:. No I am not joking dear, think, how many days and evenings and nights he left me all alone, so if I have tried to run away, where should have that ended.

.....Life is beyond all those questions dear, beyond Sita or Urmila, you need not to become Sita or Urmila, you need to become Radhika, Radhika who will be the strength of my son, whom my son can trust blindly, when he has to leave the house for oneday, he should feel like, Radhika is there, she will take care .. like Lekshman might have thought, when leaving Urmila behind. So there is no menaing in comaparing them, you are Sita, you are urmila, but comparing them and trying the comparison with them won't help you to give any strength , or reasoning, or that won't even justify your action, but you need to be you, with all their qualities inside you.

......So now don't think anything bad, like I said; what ever happened is happened for good, for you to realize the fact, your action, ..... for me to realize myself , and think twice before taking things in my own mind. So you are not at fault, neither Dev, nor I, its all our ignorance beta, but now we know, we need to correct ourself, I need you , just the same way I need my dev or Lekshmi, you are my daughter, my family, and I can't even imagine anything bad happening to you. So, now you take rest and wake up fresh with nice thoughts and happy moments OK. I am not angry with you at all.

......Then propping her head : no, I was angry, I felt hurt, and I thought I won't even talk to you anymore , But now I know you better, so don't worry, your mom is not angry at all, she just want her kid to come back to her life , the same way, she took her for that chandenpur rounds......

Then to change her mood Suchi : when you feel better na, let's go to chandenour, and this time I will steel the guava for you from Mohan bhayya's field, she showed up her hand to shakehand: deal, I am not joking Radhika, my mouth is watering feeling the taste of it...

Suchi: If I sit here some more time, I will continue my preach and won't let you sleep, and when they come back, they will scold me. So you better take rest, you need it. Ok

Rahdika looked at Suchi as she got up from the bed, adjusting her saree , suchi tied her hair one more time. By then one nurse came and checked on Radhika..

Radhika closed her eyes with a relief, with a sooth heart, the unknown fear that was circling her started fading away. Within her closed eyes she saw the smiley face of Mathaji. With that smile tucked on her corner lips Radhika went back to that evening, where she asked matha ji the same question.

Mathaji: Sita or urmila! Why?

Radhika: patha nahi, thought maybe you have the answer for it?

Mathaji after few minutes of thought, maybe understanding the reason behind that question: what you think Radhika?

Mathaji with a smile: ha, the whole Ramayan is about Sita, her devotion, then why the confusion?

Radhika: I never thought of Urmila in that sense, but she was with her husband's family and was taking care of them.

Radhika: then what?

Suddenly Radhika: no she loved her husband

Mathaji: is the intensity of her love was lower than Sita's to Ram?

Mathai with a smile: ha, there is no difference in that intensity, but people behave differently. Like some people show that off easily, some hide in their mind. Sita prefferd to go wtih her husband to the forest which is fearsome, Urmaila satyed back to take care of her husband's old parents.

Mathaji folding her hands behind: Radhika, it is not what you asked? your question may be your search for an answer to your own action, to depend on something for your moral support. But after reading or learning all these Ramayana and Mahabharatha, people just take things as it is, they never think beyond it. Just like you. You are trying to find a support for your action. But let it be Urmila or sita, let it be anyone from this two the upper hand, and you choose Sita, does giving upper hand for sita's action justify your action.

Mathaji taking small steps on that muddy path: ha Radhika, your first answer to me was sita, ok I agree with you. Sita went with Ram with her family and with her husband 's permission. But whatshe did after reaching the forest. She disobeyed her husband's words, she act just like any other woman and forced Lekshman also to go behind that deer, listening to her husband's cry. Didn't she believe in her husband's power. Why she doubted that something fatal can happen to her husband? why she didn't went along with lexman to see her husband safe, with the same words she used to get the permission to accpmpany him to this thick forest? Why she didn't listen to her BIL 's words, but then after sending him also, why she crossed that Lexman rekha. Just to give that offering to Ravan's shadow. So ..how do you reason her action in that situation; you justfy Sita's action, do you want to hold onto Sita Maa in upper hand. And then the Yudh kand. But that was destiny and Lord Vishnu's incarnation as Ram was for that., to defeat Ravan and to bring peace, so her action is getting reasoned thru that, but that is later. but they are God's with powers...

.... But as I said ? why Ravan, why he is called das sir vala ravan, does he had really 10 heads?

Matha ji looked at Radhika for the answer

Radhika: that's' what the epic says

Mathaji said with a smile: that is what I said, just don't read things as you see in those words, you need to think beyond it. Can you imagine a person having 10 heads.

Mathaji with a smile: ha Radhika, but I want to believe that he was that intelligent, his intelligence was equal to 10 heads. Maybe he had actually 10 heads, but it will be easy to imagine a highly intelligent person who was able to block all those asthras, that brought swayam Lord Vishnu into this world to defeat him, for the betterment of humanity. Ravan used his intelligence in a wrong way, so it doesn't matter how intelligent one is , it is how we use it. So as normal people we should behave in that way. He was clever enough to take advantage of the situation.

🤣 ye one funny thing.. few started checking on my profile pics to get the clue of next part.... OMG🤣

Devika,

Thank You, Thank You, Thank You.......
As you know, I was waiting for this update (and the next one too)...and you were absolutely amazing...I am still pondering and will keep thinking ....

I love your Suchi--what a wonderful person you have created; like Radha said --I wish all MIL were like her..her strength, her understanding, her unbiased way of looking at the situation was beautifully done--her ability to overcome her own hurt and be there for Radhika....

And her friendship with Sharda--yes, we all need friends to unburden--they are priceless..

And the discussion re Sita and Urmila---to me Ramayan was always about Ram and Sita..and so the answer to radhika's question seemed pretty straightforward in the beginning--it had to be Sita; but through this episode--you have made me ponder more...Urmila did make sacrifices too, at least Sita had her husband but Urmila did not have that either---so whose sacrifice was greater???Yes, we all at times turn to the stories we have heard growing up---stories which are just that, until we try to draw a parallel to our own life---isn't that what Radhika was doing?------One tries to justify one's actions through the actions of others---but there are no right and wrong answers to many situations---you just hope that the path you choose---will be the right one---

As much as I love Dev and Radhika and their interactions, Suchi is my hero in this FF.....

So your profile picture has changed?...the spring is around the corner????will the snow melt and the flowers bloom???...

Waiting for Dev -Radhika interactions..

Devika Radha Radhika a very mature analysis will make lot of people rethink about their life. liked this update long time back in college read on this aspect on Urmila Virah written by a poet and he went into the how Urmila spent 14 years away from her husband.

Thank devika for the updates... nice interactions between Radhika and Suchi 🤗 witing for the Radev interaction ..

di your thoughts are supperb..I also learnt some thing from this...thanks di...love your thoughts