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Taniya
Part 3
Inside Soha's place, she is sitting on her bed in her cute pink pj's. She had a very serious look on her face. Soha had never been so confused in her life ever. It was too much to deal with at once. Her past was unfolding in front of her day by day and it was putting her in a huge turmoil. She had no escape, she wanted to leave and forget everything but it wasn't possible. What was she supposed to do. It had been exactly two days since she had last met Prem and Adi. She missed Adi terribly, she wanted to be by his side and see him grow up. She knew it wasn't possible or was it? She knew she couldn't ask for full custody for him because it would be unfair to Prem. But what he did wasn't fair either. He had no excuse and no explanations could change the fact or lessen the pain he had given her. For the past seven years the question which revolved her mind was WHY? Why did he do that, why did he just leave her like that and never returned? Did she hurt him in someway or was there something else? Even though she was now near him she didn't have the courage to ask him. Why, was life so complicated she questioned herself. Today, they were going to sign their divorce paper and then they will be submitted to the court and in two to three days she would be free. She would be a free women but not for long. Then she would be married to Raj, the guy who had stuck with her through thick and thin. If he wasn't there she would have not been here either. She loved him but only as a friend but that didn't matter. He had helped her so much, she couldn't let him down. So what if she didn't love him, it wasn't like she was in love with someone else. Did she still love Prem? No, why was she even thinking about it? She could not love him after what he had put her through. Each day had seemed to be longer than a century, putting her through so much torture. She had to decide did she want custody for Adi or not? He was her baby, her blood and Prem's too. She knew Adi was close to Prem and vice versa. He didn't even know her, she meant nothing to him in his life. There was no difference to him if she was there or not. But it mattered to her. She had to make up her mind and do it soon. All these thoughts were troubling Soha throughout the morning. To let her feelings out she had poured them out in her diary. Writing a dairy was a way to escape the reality and let all her feelings out. When she felt like she could not talk to anyone. She used to write them as a young teenager but stopped when she met Prem because everything seemed perfect with him. And there was nothing she could not tell him so it would be useless to have one. But then after he left her she started to write one again and had not stopped since then.
It was now almost the time to leave and she was still in her pj's. She had been thinking for quite a while now and she had not reached a conclusion. She closed her dairy and put it on the book shelve. She then went inside the kitchen to make herself some coffee. She loved the strong and fresh scent pf the coffee. She took the ground beans out and put them in the coffee maker. She was waiting for the coffee to brew and went back to her thoughts. It was too hard for her to decide. She was never good at decision making that was why Prem use to handle all the big decisions when they use to live together. She used to give her input but never make the final decision. Even now after seven years she had not learnt how to make a decision. She finally decided to go change when the door bell rang. She looked through the hole and saw a perfectly dressed Raj standing there. She opened the door and was shocked to see her like this. He entered the apartment and opened his mouth like he had just received the biggest shock of his life.
"I don't believe this!" he exclaimed in complete amazement.
"Believe what, Raj?" she asked him curiously.
"That Soha, Soha Saxena is in her pj's after eight o clock in the morning." he said and then laughed.
"Very Funny, Raj. I was just going to change. You make yourself at home." she replied.
"As you say honey." he said.
She left in her room to change while he went to the book shelve and was looking around. When his eye caught a tiny pink diary with a heart on the middle. He was about to reach it when he heard Soha yelling and his attention diverted.
"Raj would you please check if the coffee is done."she yelled from inside the bedroom.
"Sure honey." he said.
He went inside the kitchen and got her coffee in a mug. He went outside to see Soha looking lovely in a pair of dark blue jeans with a plain black fitted sweater. Her hair were open today and she looked good. She was putting one of her sandal's while standing with a smile on her face.
"Here you go Soha. I put in two spoons of sugar with a little bit of milk. Just the way you like it." he said while admiring her beauty.
"Thanks." she replied.
"Do you want to leave now?" he asked her.
"In a minute." she replied while sipping her coffee and then said "it's good."
"It has to be because I made it." he said.
"Very Funny."she remarked and grabbed her coat.
They both left the apartment. Soha and Raj entered her lawyers office and were surprised to see Prem already there sitting on a chair and Adi was sitting next to him. She was shocked to see him there, he was actually there even before her. She checked her time and she was right on time, so it meant he was there early. The lawyer then called her.
"Ms Soha, will you please come here." he said.
"Yes." she said, then she went and sat right next to Prem. She looked at Adi who was busy playing with his video game with his head phones on. He looked adorable.
"Ms Soha, are you ready to sign the final paper?" he asked.
She took a deep breath then replied "Yes I am." She took a pen and signed her name as Soha Khanna for the last time. Then she gave the papers to prem who basically snatched them from her. He took the pen and signed on the paper. He gave the papers to the lawyer who looked through them when Raj's cell rang.
"Excuse me." Raj said and left the room to attend his call.
"I just looked over the papers and you guys will be divorced as soon as I submit them." he said.
Right then Adi screamed "Dad I need to go."
"Where?"Prem asked.
"I need to go to the bathroom." he said in a whiny tone.
"Okay," he said to Adi "will you excuse us for a moment,"to the lawyer.
"No let Adi go alone and you have to stay here."he said.
"Can you go alone?"he asked Adi.
"Don't worry Dad I'm a big boy now."he said.
Adi left the room in a hurry. Then the lawyer continued his speech.
"I need to ask you something really important." he said in a serious tone which made them worried.
"What?" Soha exclaimed.
"Who is going to take custody for Adi?"he asked them.
Prem and Soha looked at each other and no one had an answer. There was silence in the room which no one was breaking.
"Umm...I don't know."she replied.
"We haven't decided it yet."he said.
"Okay then decide soon we need to know who the kid is going to stay with."he said.
Then Raj entered and went up to Soha. He took her outside the room. He was standing with a worried look on his face and wasn't saying anything. Soha was getting scared so she asked him.
"What happened Raj?" she asked.
"I just got a call from my office there is some problem and I have to go check." he said.
"You are going to leave me here all alone." she asked in a sad tone.
"I'll be back soon."he said while hugging her.
"So when do you have to leave?" she asked him.
"Tonight."he answered.
"What?"she almost screamed.
"I am sorry."he said.
"It is okay."she said.
"I better go now, I have to catch the earliest flight."he said.
"I'll miss you."she said.
"I'll miss you too." he said.
Then they hugged each other and he left. She went inside again and sat down.
"So Ms Soha, when will you let me know about your decision?"the lawyer asked.
"In a few days." she answered him.
"Okay great, I guess this is it. You guys can leave." he said.
Soha stood up and left the room and Prem followed her. He was going to say something when Adi came up to him and by then Soha was gone. He took Adi's hand and they both went outside in the car he had rented. He sat in the red Mercedes convertible, and was about to leave when he saw a figure standing outside. He drove his car up to the figure and saw Soha standing there. She was standing there looking for a cab but there was none in sight. He rolled down his window and yelled her name. She looked at him in a surprised manner.
"Do you need a lift?" he asked.
"No it's okay. I'll manage."she replied.
"Come on for old times sake."he said with a puppy face, and there was no way she could refuse him. She was opening up the back door when she saw Prem motioning her to sit in the front, because Adi was sleeping on the back seat. She sat in the front seat next to him.
"So where are you staying Soha? At a five star hotel probably."he said.
"Actually I'm staying at our old place." she said.
"What?"he said in a shock tone.
"Yes."she replied.
"Is it still ours."he said.
"Yes, I didn't sell it there were way too many memories there and you owned it too so I couldn't sell it."she said.
"So what do you do now?"he asked.
"Me, well I am a journalist for a magazine in NY. "she asked.
"Really?"he asked surprise.
"I do the reality news column for the 'IT' magazine."she said.
"Wait a minute, doesn't some Mary Jones write it." he asked.
"Yes, that is my printing name."she replied him.
"Oh."he said.
"So what do you do?"she asked him.
"I have a business in London."he said. "That is nice. Could you stop the car?"she said.
"Why?"he asked.
"We're at my place. I mean ours." she said.
He stopped the car and Soha got out. He turned around smiled at him.
"Thanks for the lift."she said,
"Your welcome."he replied.
"I was wondering do you want to come in for a while?"she asked.
Prem was hesitant at first but finally agreed. He picked up Adi in his arms and took him towards the apartment. Soha opened the door and they all entered inside. Prem saw their place after seven years but it seemed like decades. It was pretty much the same, the same furniture, the same setting. Everything was the same except them. He looked towards Soha who was putting her purse on the table, he was about to put Adi on the sofa when he saw Soha motioning him to put him in their bedroom. He went inside and put Adi on the bed and all the memories of them together in the room rushed to his mind. He went outside and couldn't find Soha there. He went inside the kitchen and saw Soha cooking something.
"Are you cooking Soha?" he asked.
"What does it look like I am doing in the kitchen...I am definitely cooking." she said.
"But you don't know how to cook." he said.
"I learned how to." she said.
"From whom?" he asked.
"Raj...he's a great cook..."she replied.
"Oh...Soha are you and Raj like together?"he asked.
"Yes...we are together and we are going to get married soon."she answered him.
"So like is everything over between us?"he asked.
"It's not over now...it was already over when you left me."she said.
"I am sorry."he said.
"Sorry can't bring back those seven years that we lost and can't lessen the pain I had to endure."she said.
"Do you think I just left you like this without any reason?"he asked.
She put her arms across her chest and looked at him with a serious face "What was I supposed to think...you left me all alone with our baby without any explanations. No, seriously tell me what did you expect me to think."
"So you don't even want to know why I left you?" he asked her.
"Duh...I want to know...that question has been haunting for me for quite a while now...it was the only thing I could think about except how my baby was."
Prem was about to say something when Adi's crying voice was heard. Both of them ran to the room to see what happened. Adi saw his dad and jumped off the bed and hugged him tightly. Prem was consoling Adi, while Soha stayed at the door and looked at them. She left the room and went outside in the living room and sat down on the sofa. After a while Prem came outside with Adi, and saw Soha sitting on the sofa like a statue. Soha sensed them in the room and got up. She went inside the kitchen and said "I'll bring dinner outside."
"Okay." was Prem's reply.
While Adi was looking around the place and then went inside the room which was supposed to be his. It was filled with toys and he missed his room and toys in London. Soha put the dinner on the table and was setting the table when Prem came and helped her. She left to look for Adi. She went in the room and saw Adi looking at the toys. She went closer to him.
"Do you like to play with toys?"she asked him sweetly.
"Yes, I love toys. I have a lot of them in London and I miss them." he answered her.
"Do you want to play with these until then?"she asked him.
"Sure I would love to."he replied.
He went and grabbed one of the toys and started playing with it. She saw him playing and smiling. She felt so good to know she had made her son happy for the first time in his life.
"So do you also have a kid?"he asked her innocently.
"Yes, I have a son."she answered him.
"Really how old is he?"he asked her.
"About your age."she answered.
"Where is he?"he asked.
"In front of me."she answered in a low tone.
"What I couldn't hear you."he asked.
"Nothing."she said.
"Let's go eat dinner."she said.
"Fine."he replied.
They both went outside to the dinning room where Prem was already sitting on the table waiting for them. Adi sat next to Prem while she sat down across for him. Prem served dinner to Adi and then himself. Soha took some out on her plate. Prem and Adi were eating cause it was really delicious pasta while Soha was lost in her thoughts and was playing with her food. They were eating in silence but eating all eating together for the first time. They were done eating soon, Soha started to clear the table and took the dishes to the kitchen. She was cleaning them when Prem entered the kitchen.
"Need some help?" he asked.
"I can manage on my own." she answered.
"Fine...I was just saying that I think we will head back to the hotel."
"Fine."she answered without looking at him.
He left the kitchen and went outside to get Adi and then leave. Soha came outside too and saw them about to leave. When they looked outside the window and saw that there was a downpour outside and it was raining really hard. He looked at her and she looked back at him.
"Why don't you guys stay over here tonight?" she said.
"Are you sure?"he asked.
"Yes, I don't want something to happen to you guys. It's not safe to drive out there."
"Yeah."yelled Adi, "I can play with the toys tonight."he said. He went in the room.
"Thanks for caring about me and letting us stay over here." he said gratefully.
"I didn't let you stay because I care for you, I said it because I don't want Adi to get hurt." she said.
"Fine."he said in a hurt tone.
Soha went outside on the patio to look at the rain. Prem came outside shortly and saw her watching the rain intently. He was standing right behind her and she had not noticed it because she was too absorbed in her thoughts. When lighting struck which scared her and she turned around to go inside but instead bumped into Prem. They were very close and were staring in each other's eyes. When the lightning struck again and louder this time, scaring Soha. She grabbed on to Prem, she hugged him tightly and hid her face in his chest. She was hugging him tightly and he was about to put his arms around her to give her comfort. But she pulled away and murmured "Sorry!." He was staring at her intensely and she was getting uncomfortable under his gaze. She started to go inside when he came in her way.
"Move it."she said.
"No, I need to talk to you."he said.
"I don't care. I want to go inside." she answered.
"You have to listen to me. You can't just ignore me and make me the bad guy. I know I am at fault but there is a reason." he screamed.
"I am sure there is a great reason for you to separate a mother from her son."she said sarcastically.
"I want Adi to know that you are his mother."he yelled.
Suddenly, Adi came outside and he heard everything. He had tears in his eyes, he looked at Soha and was happy to finally to find out who his mother was. He had never been so happy, he went up to her screaming "You are my mom."He was really near her but then stopped in midway. He yelled, "No, you can't be my mother. You never saw me ever, or called me or anything. I hate you, you give nothing but pain except to me and my dad. I hate you." he ran inside. While Prem ran after him saying "Adi, listen to me. Adi." Adi went inside the room and closed the door. Prem knocked on the door but Adi wouldn't listen. He kept on knocking for a while but there was no response. Meanwhile, Soha was crying abruptly on the patio with tears flowing out of her eyes. She was sitting on the floor crying tears of pain. Adi her own son had said he hated her. She didn't want to believe it but it was true. Prem came outside and saw her in pain. He went to console her but she got mad at him instead.
"My own son hates me." she screamed.
"He doesn't he was upset." he said.
"No he does hate me. I was a bad mother. I am a horrible human being. That is why you left me and that is why you didn't want me to raise him. I finally understand everything." she said with tears in her eyes.
"No this is not true. You don't know what happened. You are a wonderful person and would surely be the best mother ever." he told her.
"Then why did you leave me Prem? Why?"she asked him frantically.
"I had to I had no other choice." he exclaimed.
"What do you mean you had no choice?"she asked him.
"I had to go to, I had to do it. You want to know why I left you. Then listen to me."
Seven Years Back
Mumbai, India
Soha had just delivered her baby and was unconscious. The baby was sent to the nursery, Soha was a little bit critical so her parents were with her and Prem went to see his baby in the nursery. He was looking at his son and was happy with tears in his eyes. When his cell rang and he was asked to come to his dad's house because his dad's lawyer wanted to meet him there. His dad had died a couple days back which had shattered him because now he had no family left except his step brother. His mother had died of cancer when he was younger and now he had lost his dad too. He reached his dad's place where the lawyer was already there. The lawyer told him that about eighty percent of the property went to Prem's baby and twenty percent to his step brother. He had to sign some papers. He did the formalities. The lawyer told him to let his step brother Rahul know about this. He went towards Rahul's room but then stopped in the midway when he heard Rahul talking on the phone. Rahul was screaming and looked like he was in a bad mood. He yelled "I know what my dad did. He gave most of the property to prem's child and I only have twenty percent. That is not fair and I want you to kill his baby. I need you to do the job and do it quickly."he finished talking. He turned around to see a shocked Prem standing there. "Oh good you heard that, I am sorry but I have to do this." Rahul said. "No I won't let you to that." Prem said. He ran form there and drove to the hospital. He looked for his baby who was still in the nursery, he was relaxed, he took his baby. He went to Soha's room and she was still unconscious. He then saw a goon behind him trying to take his bay from him. He ran away from there and Soha's mother saw him run with the baby. She asked Prem to stop but Prem didn't because he had to safe his baby. Prem ran for his baby and his life he went to his car and drove really fast trying to escape the goon. The goon had other partners who were chasing him with their car. He knew he had to leave the country for a while till things had cooled down. He dodged the goons and went to his apartment complex to grab a few things. He got his passport and packed his bag quickly He went to the airport and took the next flight to London, where he was brought up. He was extremely sad he had to leave Soha but he knew he couldn't put her life in danger so as long the baby was with him she was safe. It had been a month since he had went to London and he could not live without Soha. He wanted her, he need ed her, he went back to India. He reached India and found out his step brother was dead, he died in a car accident a week back. Prem had never been happier to know about someone's death but Rahul's dead had given him so much relaxment. He went to his place and didn't find Soha there, the neighbors said she went to her parents place. He went there and found out they had sold their house and moved out of the country after her husband had left her. He felt guilty, he had lost Soha and it was his fault. He tried to find her but couldn't. No one knew where she went. He didn't wan t to live but then he realized he had to live for his son. He had realized now he would give his son so much love and happiness in his life. He tried his best to raise him and never gave up on finding Soha but unfortunately he didn't succeed in it.
Now
"I am so sorry Soha, I never meant to leave you. The circumstance had forced me to got for a while but I tried hard to find you but I couldn't. I am so sorry I know it is all my fault." he said.
"I don't believe this." she replied.
"I knew you wouldn't believe me, you would think that I just left you like that." he said hurt.
"No, I can't believe your brother would ever do that to you. I hate him because of him I lost you and my baby. We were separated for such a long time and our happiness was taken away from us." she said.
"So you don't hate me?"he asked hopefully.
"I never hated you. How could I hate my own self. But you did hurt me a lot."she said.
"I said I am sorry. I'll do anything for you. I love you too much. You have no idea how I have spend my life hoping everyday I might meet you one day. The countless times I have thought about you or dreamed about you. I missed you like crazy."he said.
"I have missed you a lot too. Everyday I hoped all this was a nightmare and I would wake up one day finding you next to me with our baby. I was so hurt and alone. I had to endure so much but I guess it wasn't your fault. But whose fault was it?" she said.
"I guess it was a game that destiny played with us."he said.
"Then I think it was a terrible game." she remarked.
"But now we are now together." he said
" I know." she answered him.
She went towards him and was about to hug him. When she moved back and looked at him.
"No this can't happen." she said.
"What?" he asked.
"Us, we can't be together."she answered.
"Why?"he asked her.
"Because I am with Raj and I can't forgive you." she said and ran inside her room closing the door shut. Prem was standing there motionless and slowly dropped down to his knees while crying.
EnJoY
Edited by taniya_22 - 19 years ago
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