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i'm in a sulk, i must warn you. first, the vanilla cake i had to make for dinner turned out to be a ... large vanilla biscuit, 'cause i didn't put in enough baking powder. and on top of that, i had to endure watching the show with one of my least favourite people -- the proh-pah lady-daughter of mom's friends, who came along for the dinner. with whom i cannot hoot. or howl with laughter. or hurl shoes anywhere. all i can do is compete on how stiffly one can sit on a couch that begs to be slouched on. 'cause a lady doesn't slouch... bah!! 😛
isn't it good then that the show rocked??? 😆
y'know? after all the prem-heer-are-one was fully and incontrovertibly established (after ''main prem juneja, aaj... '') i used to wonder - exactly what would make prem-heer have a honest-to-goodness confrontation. no, really. i really couldn't see anything - anything! - where they would not automatically understand each other and adjust. where they would glare at each other... ever! 😲
now i've got my answer: prem-heer can't ever have a confrontation. but prem-faking-ml-heer can! heh. oh, 'kay, 'kay. *going back to sulking* we don't know that's prem... *yeah. and i've got a mansion in sunset boulevar that i need to sell you! 🤣*
so, we know that ''the guy''-heer can have a confrontation. *sulking* and we finally get to see what it could possibly look like to have both those prem-heer faces glare at each other! which was -- veeerrrry interesting.
* heer thing: i tell you, when prem left and heer assumed prem-heer-are-one status, she sure absorbed a lot of what prem-the-business-man was all about. i remember the time that she went to ratpal's office to deliver a briefcase full of money on his table. but now? she's been collecting evidence on (trying to remember what she called it..) all his black/evil-doings??? wow. when? how? more than that -- how the heck did she know that ratpal was in bombay to meet with ''the guy'' and the third person? er... does she know someone in the cbi who tapped into ''the guy'''s phone to keep her uptodate on all his calls?? 😆
actually, i have a conjecture 'bout that one. i seriously think that she had help in that department. wanna know who my guess is? *drumroll* kodiyon-pal!! yes, that's right! sumer ''i read kodiyon for your future'' singh! i've always wanted to know what it was that he read in heer's kodiyon. *🤣 that sounds sooooo funneeeee... heer's kodiyon. do i get estee kodiyon too?? 🤣* now, i'm guessing that he saw in heer's future... his future master! and since the kodiyon said it, he had to obey! so he's been following her instructions - ever since rajasthan! - to dig out all the dirt on ratpal! *oh c'mon! of course, it's possible. ratty may .. uh .. own his body. but heer owns his mind, heart and soul! 🤣*
and that solves another puzzle in my head: if ratty and ''the guy'' had done the unholy deal in rajasthan itself, how come kodiyonpal looked soooo surprised when ''the guy'' turned up before the wedding, and then at the wedding? 'cause ratty had never told him 'bout ''the guy''.
(lowering my voice to a whisper: know what my favourite scenario is, though? that kodiyonpal knew 'bout ''the guy''. and that heer had known about ''the guy'' from the beginning too! heh!)
* little thing: but o. m. g. the way that heer practically grinds out ''gaurav sharma'' between her teeth. that is some serious dislike! and why ever not? ''the guy'' with the most beloved face in her world, ... apparently isn't prem!
* hc thing: he had not a word to say in this whole show.
but of course, being hc, how could he be in an episode and not make an impact? those eyes were speaking all the time! nice eyes, too... 😍 *slapping myself on the upside of my head to refocus..* but y'know? since those eyes were not making conversation with heer eyes - i am not sure what they were saying...
is funny how i appreciate and understand pheyeooooh conversations. but put the guy eyes alone, and i'm just ..um.. appreciating! 😆
* little/big thing: 'twas striking, no? usually, a prem-heer moment is always soooo private. whether it's passionate. or it's a discussion. or an other-worldly converation 'bout responsibilities and society and stuff ordinary mortals don't talk'bout. they've always been private.
but this one? this unmasking of ''the guy''? is in public. at an art exhibition, no less.
the one heer thing that had me snuffling out laughter behind my hand in a lady-like manner (i hope! 😆) was how beautifully she dove-tailed her speech about paintings not capturing the essence of a person and the fact that ''the guy'' cannot be prem. first, she's new to bombay -- how did she know that such an exhibition was on at kala ghoda to make a perfect setting for the unmasking of ''the guy''? er.. maybe it was in the in-flight magazine? 😆 next! er... did she or did she not imply that all the paintings exhibited were .. er ... third rate? 'cause great painters do capture the essence of the person? although *thinking* heer was probably right -- never recalled seeing a da vinci quality painting at kala ghoda ever...😆
but all in all, that was a superb scene. heer had a lot to reveal to ''the guy''. and ''the guy''? he respectfully stood and listened -- all the time??? wha..? that was strikingly odd, no? made me wonder: what the heck is going on in that pretty looking head of his? 😆
* little? big? thing: but what actually had me gasping was... that lady like hand pointing away from where the cameras were weaving a tight web 'round heer and ''the guy''. and then! then, my forum pals! didja see the way ''the guy'''s eyes gaze went along her arm, her hand, her finger ... and then lifted to see ratpal?!?!
'kay, i don't know 'bout any of you -- but that was ''ooooooh'' material! seriously. i didn't have a glimmer of an oooooh with the bangles scene yesterday. (but then, i hate 'em bangles! irritating impediments to phhandooh! 😡)
but today? today ''the guy'''s eyes made me gasp ''prem!?''. *well, i gasped inside my head. 'cause ms. i'm-a-lady-what-are-you? was watching the damned show with me...😡*
* big thing: what the...? heer has ratpal arrested? heer??? sita? *thinking with a frown* 'kay, i know that we were getting ready for a crushed-ratpal-day this week at the phhandooh-at. but this is not the crushing i was expecting.
'cause let's admit it: ram's got to do the crushing of ravan. i know that heer is prem-heer-are-one. and ''the guy'''s just ... well ... ''the guy'' just now. so mebbe heer getting ratty arrested is ram getting ravan. but....
*suddenly chaffing under my adopted religion of non-violence and lowering my voice to the merest whisper*
i want some crushing, damnit! *d'you know how difficult it is to say damnit! in a whisper?? 🤣* 'cause a crushed ratpal does not - cannot! - smirk. i want that face never to be able to carry a smirk again...😡
so me? i think that the ratpal-in-jail story is not yet done. there's gonna be some real crushing - hopefully rsn - and it's gonna be ..uh.. ram h'self whose gonna do it. 😃 *hey! why do you think they call me estee the hopelessly hopeful??🤣 *
* little thing: but i was fiercely glad for heer getting the satisfaction of seeing the rat being pushed out in handcuffs. i remember all the misery - the rotten, rotten misery that that rat! had put her through in beautiful rajasthan - and i am glad she got to see his smirk vanish when she told him that she was the third person in the loop! *i'm afraid that i startled ms. proh-pah when half a woot! escaped my lips then... like i cared! 😆*
* little thing: did anyone else go tee-hee when heer's eagle eyes of fire shifted it's blaze from ratpal's retreating back to ''the guy'''s back as he was turning away...
once again - just like in the airport yesterday, i don't think ''the guy'' was planning on leaving her. but i do think heer was being nervy 'bout the possibility that he might. poor heer. so many things she's juggling - the possibility that gayatri-mom will be perfect like before. the possibility that her prem's family are finding the confidence and happiness to become whole and happy again. the knowledge that she will never have her prem with her. the burden of needing to find a way to keep ''the guy'' there till all of prem's desires are fulfilled. poor heer. i soooo wanted to give her a hug then. i do hope someone is working on her side. even if it is kodiyonpal. she does need .. someone. poor darling.
* little thing: oooh, so finally kuldi's husband is trying to make a living?? wooohoooo! 😆
* (god) preet thing: i soooo love it when preet does what he's supposed to do in the family -- making everyone smile! he's ... my (god)! all hail (god) preet.
the way he tries to joke his father out of walking barefoot to the gurudwara. and when that fails, the way he goes with him. i've said this before, and i'm saying this again. while prem-lj had a strange and otherworldly father-son relationship, preet-lj's just totally rocks. it's balanced, it's sane, it's jokey, it's us, it's... sooooo bloomin' real. just the way it ought to be. and of course, it's all 'cause of (god) preet! all hail? (god) preet!!! *preening preetstess muh*
* sweet little thing: (god) preet sitting at lj's feet while lj tells him that he will work with prem from now on to learn the business... such a small moment. but so deep in sweetness...
* little thing: heer doesn't want to know where ''the guy'' came from or why ''the guy'' chose to do this? *frowning* that's not a good business approach, little heer. must always understand the motivations of people you're gonna get to work with you... *worriedly frowning now*
please find out everything about this guy, no, heer, please, please? please get someone to do a background check on him? puhleaaase?? 😊
* big thing: why, oh why, is ''the guy'' so quiet???
i mean, this is supposed to be hip-hop, no? the bunny with fleas? the guy with the verbal diarrhoea? and suddenly, he's looking respectful at times, impenetrable at times, and dangerous in the end? what's up with you, dude? or aren't you even hip-hop? who is ''the guy''? 'cause one thing that strikes me 'bout ''the guy'' is this - he has been trying to get to bombay for a while now, no? first he gets distracted 'cause of heer's marriage-to-ratpal attempt. and this time? he had his heer baggage around. 😆
why did he want to get to bombay so badly? who is ''the guy''? i want to know!
* little thing: someone had - long ago - said that someone from the juneja side would pay hip-hop to be prem to fix gayatri-mom. and it would be heer. i guess they guessed right.
*sigh* there was a moment when fierce heer pointed ratty-in-cuffs (oh joy!) to ''the guy'' when she then ... looks back at ''the guy'' and he looks at her. and i wondered why. what was she trying to tell him? what was he trying to tell her? at that moment, why did they matter to each other? they should've just been focussed on the rat. but no! they were busy looking at each other -- what was that look about?
for some reason, for me, that look coloured the rest of the heer-pr..''the guy'' interactions for the rest of the show. when heer was laying out her ''perfect business proposition'' to ''the guy'', i remembered that look. and i also remembered that i really want to know what these two talked 'bout the night after he sindoored her. and that led me to remember that i wonder whether his sindooring her was part of the unholy deal with ratpal. which in turn made me wonder whether heer is not worried 'bout being (technically) married to this ''the guy''.
but when i thought 'bout it, i figured out heer's angle in this: she has been married (and married again and again and again!) to prem in her heart, mind and soul. and being heer, she couldn't give two hoots about now belonging to anyone. the only thing that gives me pause is that she was soooo desperate 'bout not getting married to ratpal in rajasthan. but now? now, she doesn't seem to give a damn 'bout anything but getting gayatri-mom to mend and become whole. and it made me a little sad to think that she would truly do anything for gayatri-mom's happiness. but she is totally aware that the only one who can give gayatri-mom happiness is prem. not her. poor heer.
and i wondered afresh: is there any love story on earth that is anything like this? her promise to prem that their love story will be different - in how it will not be about two people who die for each other. but one will live while the other dies. to fulfil the dreams of the one who has left forever. 'cause if that is the love story, then i have never seen another such. 'cause heer truly does live only for prem.
if ''the guy'' works out not to be prem, heer is never going to have anyone (well other than her prem family). 'cause heer will always be prem-heer-are-one. *sigh* 'cause that's heer...
* little thing: but y'know one thing i do wish? well, other than heer finding out all 'bout hip-hop's background?
that she'd let him speak. 🤣i soooo want to know what he's been thinking all this looooooong while!!!🤣🤣 🤣
'cause ... er ... if it's really ''the guy'', wouldn't he want to take his chances with going to jail and getting out quickly and resuming the rest of his life? no?
man! how does this show get me to really want tomorrow to be today? right away?? 😆
highlight of the episode: oooh, heer standing glaring-nose-to-glaring-nose with ratpal and assuring him (fiercely) that there's so much dirt she's got on him he's not even gonna get bail. 😲 so stay in jail and rot! soooooo loved it!!! 🤣 *although, ratpal's so used to being in sewage -- he's probably not gonna rot in jail... that's probably gonna be clean for him! 🤣*
i was intrigued by all of hc's expressions ... but seriously need 'em to be decoded. and of course, that sweet moment when (god) preet catches up with his father and tells him that since he will be praying for pb's happiness, he figured he'd pray for his father's... oh, (god). i hail thee... from the bottom of all the heart that i would've had if your stooooopid pb hadn't take it away from me... 😆
isn't it good then that the show rocked??? 😆
y'know? after all the prem-heer-are-one was fully and incontrovertibly established (after ''main prem juneja, aaj... '') i used to wonder - exactly what would make prem-heer have a honest-to-goodness confrontation. no, really. i really couldn't see anything - anything! - where they would not automatically understand each other and adjust. where they would glare at each other... ever! 😲
now i've got my answer: prem-heer can't ever have a confrontation. but prem-faking-ml-heer can! heh. oh, 'kay, 'kay. *going back to sulking* we don't know that's prem... *yeah. and i've got a mansion in sunset boulevar that i need to sell you! 🤣*
so, we know that ''the guy''-heer can have a confrontation. *sulking* and we finally get to see what it could possibly look like to have both those prem-heer faces glare at each other! which was -- veeerrrry interesting.
* heer thing: i tell you, when prem left and heer assumed prem-heer-are-one status, she sure absorbed a lot of what prem-the-business-man was all about. i remember the time that she went to ratpal's office to deliver a briefcase full of money on his table. but now? she's been collecting evidence on (trying to remember what she called it..) all his black/evil-doings??? wow. when? how? more than that -- how the heck did she know that ratpal was in bombay to meet with ''the guy'' and the third person? er... does she know someone in the cbi who tapped into ''the guy'''s phone to keep her uptodate on all his calls?? 😆
actually, i have a conjecture 'bout that one. i seriously think that she had help in that department. wanna know who my guess is? *drumroll* kodiyon-pal!! yes, that's right! sumer ''i read kodiyon for your future'' singh! i've always wanted to know what it was that he read in heer's kodiyon. *🤣 that sounds sooooo funneeeee... heer's kodiyon. do i get estee kodiyon too?? 🤣* now, i'm guessing that he saw in heer's future... his future master! and since the kodiyon said it, he had to obey! so he's been following her instructions - ever since rajasthan! - to dig out all the dirt on ratpal! *oh c'mon! of course, it's possible. ratty may .. uh .. own his body. but heer owns his mind, heart and soul! 🤣*
and that solves another puzzle in my head: if ratty and ''the guy'' had done the unholy deal in rajasthan itself, how come kodiyonpal looked soooo surprised when ''the guy'' turned up before the wedding, and then at the wedding? 'cause ratty had never told him 'bout ''the guy''.
(lowering my voice to a whisper: know what my favourite scenario is, though? that kodiyonpal knew 'bout ''the guy''. and that heer had known about ''the guy'' from the beginning too! heh!)
* little thing: but o. m. g. the way that heer practically grinds out ''gaurav sharma'' between her teeth. that is some serious dislike! and why ever not? ''the guy'' with the most beloved face in her world, ... apparently isn't prem!
* hc thing: he had not a word to say in this whole show.
but of course, being hc, how could he be in an episode and not make an impact? those eyes were speaking all the time! nice eyes, too... 😍 *slapping myself on the upside of my head to refocus..* but y'know? since those eyes were not making conversation with heer eyes - i am not sure what they were saying...
is funny how i appreciate and understand pheyeooooh conversations. but put the guy eyes alone, and i'm just ..um.. appreciating! 😆
* little/big thing: 'twas striking, no? usually, a prem-heer moment is always soooo private. whether it's passionate. or it's a discussion. or an other-worldly converation 'bout responsibilities and society and stuff ordinary mortals don't talk'bout. they've always been private.
but this one? this unmasking of ''the guy''? is in public. at an art exhibition, no less.
the one heer thing that had me snuffling out laughter behind my hand in a lady-like manner (i hope! 😆) was how beautifully she dove-tailed her speech about paintings not capturing the essence of a person and the fact that ''the guy'' cannot be prem. first, she's new to bombay -- how did she know that such an exhibition was on at kala ghoda to make a perfect setting for the unmasking of ''the guy''? er.. maybe it was in the in-flight magazine? 😆 next! er... did she or did she not imply that all the paintings exhibited were .. er ... third rate? 'cause great painters do capture the essence of the person? although *thinking* heer was probably right -- never recalled seeing a da vinci quality painting at kala ghoda ever...😆
but all in all, that was a superb scene. heer had a lot to reveal to ''the guy''. and ''the guy''? he respectfully stood and listened -- all the time??? wha..? that was strikingly odd, no? made me wonder: what the heck is going on in that pretty looking head of his? 😆
* little? big? thing: but what actually had me gasping was... that lady like hand pointing away from where the cameras were weaving a tight web 'round heer and ''the guy''. and then! then, my forum pals! didja see the way ''the guy'''s eyes gaze went along her arm, her hand, her finger ... and then lifted to see ratpal?!?!
'kay, i don't know 'bout any of you -- but that was ''ooooooh'' material! seriously. i didn't have a glimmer of an oooooh with the bangles scene yesterday. (but then, i hate 'em bangles! irritating impediments to phhandooh! 😡)
but today? today ''the guy'''s eyes made me gasp ''prem!?''. *well, i gasped inside my head. 'cause ms. i'm-a-lady-what-are-you? was watching the damned show with me...😡*
* big thing: what the...? heer has ratpal arrested? heer??? sita? *thinking with a frown* 'kay, i know that we were getting ready for a crushed-ratpal-day this week at the phhandooh-at. but this is not the crushing i was expecting.
'cause let's admit it: ram's got to do the crushing of ravan. i know that heer is prem-heer-are-one. and ''the guy'''s just ... well ... ''the guy'' just now. so mebbe heer getting ratty arrested is ram getting ravan. but....
*suddenly chaffing under my adopted religion of non-violence and lowering my voice to the merest whisper*
i want some crushing, damnit! *d'you know how difficult it is to say damnit! in a whisper?? 🤣* 'cause a crushed ratpal does not - cannot! - smirk. i want that face never to be able to carry a smirk again...😡
so me? i think that the ratpal-in-jail story is not yet done. there's gonna be some real crushing - hopefully rsn - and it's gonna be ..uh.. ram h'self whose gonna do it. 😃 *hey! why do you think they call me estee the hopelessly hopeful??🤣 *
* little thing: but i was fiercely glad for heer getting the satisfaction of seeing the rat being pushed out in handcuffs. i remember all the misery - the rotten, rotten misery that that rat! had put her through in beautiful rajasthan - and i am glad she got to see his smirk vanish when she told him that she was the third person in the loop! *i'm afraid that i startled ms. proh-pah when half a woot! escaped my lips then... like i cared! 😆*
* little thing: did anyone else go tee-hee when heer's eagle eyes of fire shifted it's blaze from ratpal's retreating back to ''the guy'''s back as he was turning away...
once again - just like in the airport yesterday, i don't think ''the guy'' was planning on leaving her. but i do think heer was being nervy 'bout the possibility that he might. poor heer. so many things she's juggling - the possibility that gayatri-mom will be perfect like before. the possibility that her prem's family are finding the confidence and happiness to become whole and happy again. the knowledge that she will never have her prem with her. the burden of needing to find a way to keep ''the guy'' there till all of prem's desires are fulfilled. poor heer. i soooo wanted to give her a hug then. i do hope someone is working on her side. even if it is kodiyonpal. she does need .. someone. poor darling.
* little thing: oooh, so finally kuldi's husband is trying to make a living?? wooohoooo! 😆
* (god) preet thing: i soooo love it when preet does what he's supposed to do in the family -- making everyone smile! he's ... my (god)! all hail (god) preet.
the way he tries to joke his father out of walking barefoot to the gurudwara. and when that fails, the way he goes with him. i've said this before, and i'm saying this again. while prem-lj had a strange and otherworldly father-son relationship, preet-lj's just totally rocks. it's balanced, it's sane, it's jokey, it's us, it's... sooooo bloomin' real. just the way it ought to be. and of course, it's all 'cause of (god) preet! all hail? (god) preet!!! *preening preetstess muh*
* sweet little thing: (god) preet sitting at lj's feet while lj tells him that he will work with prem from now on to learn the business... such a small moment. but so deep in sweetness...
* little thing: heer doesn't want to know where ''the guy'' came from or why ''the guy'' chose to do this? *frowning* that's not a good business approach, little heer. must always understand the motivations of people you're gonna get to work with you... *worriedly frowning now*
please find out everything about this guy, no, heer, please, please? please get someone to do a background check on him? puhleaaase?? 😊
* big thing: why, oh why, is ''the guy'' so quiet???
i mean, this is supposed to be hip-hop, no? the bunny with fleas? the guy with the verbal diarrhoea? and suddenly, he's looking respectful at times, impenetrable at times, and dangerous in the end? what's up with you, dude? or aren't you even hip-hop? who is ''the guy''? 'cause one thing that strikes me 'bout ''the guy'' is this - he has been trying to get to bombay for a while now, no? first he gets distracted 'cause of heer's marriage-to-ratpal attempt. and this time? he had his heer baggage around. 😆
why did he want to get to bombay so badly? who is ''the guy''? i want to know!
* little thing: someone had - long ago - said that someone from the juneja side would pay hip-hop to be prem to fix gayatri-mom. and it would be heer. i guess they guessed right.
*sigh* there was a moment when fierce heer pointed ratty-in-cuffs (oh joy!) to ''the guy'' when she then ... looks back at ''the guy'' and he looks at her. and i wondered why. what was she trying to tell him? what was he trying to tell her? at that moment, why did they matter to each other? they should've just been focussed on the rat. but no! they were busy looking at each other -- what was that look about?
for some reason, for me, that look coloured the rest of the heer-pr..''the guy'' interactions for the rest of the show. when heer was laying out her ''perfect business proposition'' to ''the guy'', i remembered that look. and i also remembered that i really want to know what these two talked 'bout the night after he sindoored her. and that led me to remember that i wonder whether his sindooring her was part of the unholy deal with ratpal. which in turn made me wonder whether heer is not worried 'bout being (technically) married to this ''the guy''.
but when i thought 'bout it, i figured out heer's angle in this: she has been married (and married again and again and again!) to prem in her heart, mind and soul. and being heer, she couldn't give two hoots about now belonging to anyone. the only thing that gives me pause is that she was soooo desperate 'bout not getting married to ratpal in rajasthan. but now? now, she doesn't seem to give a damn 'bout anything but getting gayatri-mom to mend and become whole. and it made me a little sad to think that she would truly do anything for gayatri-mom's happiness. but she is totally aware that the only one who can give gayatri-mom happiness is prem. not her. poor heer.
and i wondered afresh: is there any love story on earth that is anything like this? her promise to prem that their love story will be different - in how it will not be about two people who die for each other. but one will live while the other dies. to fulfil the dreams of the one who has left forever. 'cause if that is the love story, then i have never seen another such. 'cause heer truly does live only for prem.
if ''the guy'' works out not to be prem, heer is never going to have anyone (well other than her prem family). 'cause heer will always be prem-heer-are-one. *sigh* 'cause that's heer...
* little thing: but y'know one thing i do wish? well, other than heer finding out all 'bout hip-hop's background?
that she'd let him speak. 🤣i soooo want to know what he's been thinking all this looooooong while!!!🤣🤣 🤣
'cause ... er ... if it's really ''the guy'', wouldn't he want to take his chances with going to jail and getting out quickly and resuming the rest of his life? no?
man! how does this show get me to really want tomorrow to be today? right away?? 😆
highlight of the episode: oooh, heer standing glaring-nose-to-glaring-nose with ratpal and assuring him (fiercely) that there's so much dirt she's got on him he's not even gonna get bail. 😲 so stay in jail and rot! soooooo loved it!!! 🤣 *although, ratpal's so used to being in sewage -- he's probably not gonna rot in jail... that's probably gonna be clean for him! 🤣*
i was intrigued by all of hc's expressions ... but seriously need 'em to be decoded. and of course, that sweet moment when (god) preet catches up with his father and tells him that since he will be praying for pb's happiness, he figured he'd pray for his father's... oh, (god). i hail thee... from the bottom of all the heart that i would've had if your stooooopid pb hadn't take it away from me... 😆
