I just finished downloading and watching the episode, and I finally see why the forum was rocking last night and this morning!! What an awesome show. Due to the time difference, this might be late, but what the heck. After seeing the show (even if it was on my measly computer screen), I just need to get my thoughts out, you know.
Butter, I always said that Karthik was one step up from Prithvi in my books by a slim margin, and yesterday he proved to be so again. Prithvi looked as if he could kill Karthik on the spot….which, frankly speaking, wouldn't be a stretch as it wouldn't be anything new to him…..shooting those evil stares towards Karthik as he stared back unwaveringly. Karthik had some class yesterday, at least that is until he made a move hit Zaib….that's a no-no Karthik, you hear. No one lays a hand on my Angoo (well, except Kripa at times….but she has the right, now doesn't she)
Karthik, has a right to be pricey (to use Nitu's words), after all, he and his family were publicly humiliated, he had his heart trampled, and like everyone else, he does bleed…..and for Prithvi to expect him to forgive and forget, so soon, for Prithvi to expect him to be buddy-buddy, and let water under the bridge……..dude, which planet are you living on!!! You and Mishty…..and Zaib (said reluctantly be me) were at fault. In this case Karthik was the injured party, so how dare you go around feeling offended, and insulted that he was invited to the party!!!
And that's beside the point…..Prithvi, it isn't your party, you have no say in the guest list, and Manek already has his hands full trying to cope with AniTah, he doesn't have time to get your stamp of approval on everything, just to make sure you wouldn't be inconvenienced!!!
Mishty, lady, at least you had the common decency to look guilty for the part you played in this whole tale. At least you had the decency to lower your eyes and look away from the man that you broke, a man that, despite all that I might dislike about him, truly loved you. At least you didn't glare at him as if he were at fault, like your brother.
Naina, your mamta ka pyar shone through today, and you still hurt at the loss of your child. We all saw how empty your life is without your son, we saw your yearning for your "blue-eyed boy", your spoken memories of your child were biiter-sweet, thanks for sharing them with us. It gave insight into happier times. Angad, as a carefree, happy son, seemed to be a gem of a person, and together with you, I also shed tears at the loss of this person. Life can be cruel sometimes, but you can never imagine what a huge role you played at the party. You managed to unknowingly do what Daadi has been unsuccessfully trying to do all this time, you healed one of his wounds. You showed him your love for him, you showed him that you do still miss him, you showed him that you didn't easily accept his death, so for that, thank you. I truly feel your pain, and I'm glad that in return for your gift to Angad, Zaib could soothe your wounds and offer you solace the only way he knew how. At least Zaib could ease your pain, if only for a short time.
Daadi, you're the coolest, most rocking daadi in the world, you know. You tried so hard to get Angad to do what's right by his mom, yet you understand and feel his pain. You tried to tell our resident denial queen to look beneath the surface of Angad's actions, that he couldn't bare to see her hurting, just like she couldn't bare to see him hurting, but to no avail. Don't worry daadi, you keep on trying and maybe one day they listen to you. It's not your fault that Angad and Kripa are loveable fools.
Kripa………my dear, dear clueless Kripa. What am I going to do with you, dear gurl??? Angad's pain is your pain. You see it, you feel it, why don't you just admit it (o.k. so you did admit it)….umm….admit it without any hidden agendas, admit it without any reservations. You cried with him at the party, you saw how despondent he was, you saw how he was hurting, and you wanted to comfort him…..so why not go with your heart and your instinct……why over think the situation…..and Angad grabbing your hand, didn't that tell you anything??? The man has always shared his pain with you, and wanted to do so yesterday as well, so why didn't you help ease the pain. You wouldn't have been a lesser person for that. In fact, you would have grown in stature in my books had you done exactly that, but what do……you do….you run, like you always run…..in the opposite direction!!!
Angad…. Angoo, my baby……sniff, sniff,…..why do you always do this, to yourself and to me….why do you always have to be so headstrong, so stubborn……sometimes it helps to show your vulnerable ness, especially to a certain denial queen, because seeing it will help melt the icicles around her heart. My heart broke for you when you saw your mom's reaction to the birthday cake. You wanted to take her into your arms but you couldn't at the risk of everyone finding out who you really are. I wish that you had seen this earlier, but at least you got to see for yourself how much your mom misses you, how much she loves you, how empty her life seems without you. I understand that you were helpless, but you gave her a great give, you gave her the gift of your presence, and in appeasing yourself, and your heart, you helped her soothe hers. At least you received some sort of closure as to how much you are truly missed, and for that I'm glad, and one day soon you'll be able to take her in your arms and wish her happy birthday, that you, her son, long to do.
Angad and Kripa…..why do both always put us on a roller coaster ride of emotions. I swear, I feel as if I've been put through the ringer every time you two get together. I cry, I laugh, I sigh, I scream, I lament, and I cheer. I don't know whether you are good or bad for my heart. You made me soooo happy when you both finally admitted to each other that you still love one another. It was a long overdue conversation and I for one am glad that you had the opportunity to get it out there…..but what's this I hear, Kripa……you're only using him to reveal he's Angad…..TUT TUT!!! Naughty Girl!!! You finally have the man of your dreams telling you that he never forgot you, that he still loves you more than life itself, and you are just using him!!! My dear, you are finally where you've been longing to be all this time…..in Angad's arms, yet instead of savoring the moment, you're plotting against him!!! Woman, are you nuts??? A hopeless case, I tell you. Sigh!!!
Luv
Hafsa