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hey u guys..i jus have dis situation going on..well it was going on before..well i hooked up wit one of my cuzin's friend. my cuzin and i were really close..we used to tell eachother everything. he really cared abt me alot. he treated me soooo well like even better than my own brother. and like me and my bf we hid this matter from my cuzin cuz we were scared. we were planning to tell him later on when my bf was on da right path and once he becomes sumthing(in career wise) but sadly my cuzin found out and it jus became a huge mess..well dat time my cuzin was in india...(he was gone to get married and i was der too but came bak before him)..so yeaaa he found out on my bday..he called me from india when it was midnite..so he wished me first. n it was all good..den like when i went to skool ..n everything i get a call from him again..n he started screaming at me..n he was swearing at me..it was da first time he saying bad words to me...he NEVERRRRR ever did dat..and it killed me sooo much..i cudnt stop crying...he told me dat i was dead for him n dat he was going to tell my dad abt me and my bf n everything. i was soooooooo scared..dat time i was wit one of my best friend. n she was trying to calm me down...n i was also suppose to see my bf dat day cuz it was my bday. n my friend was telling me dont worry he wont tell my parents n all..n to be honest..i really wanted to commit suicide. i was toooo scared to go home. n e ways..i went home in da evening n saw dat everything was normal..so dat meant he didnt call my dad. but he was plannin to tell my dad when he came bak..n he actually did tell my dad when he came bak. n a big mess happend. my family is REALLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYY strict so dats da main problem. my family knws my bf well..n they all like him..but they jus have one problem..he's not educated. they want sumone educated..and like me n my bf r still young for marriage..he's 22 and im 20..so both of us still have to finish skool..n like they r going to accept him once he becomes sumthing...all that is sorted out. but they dont want me n him to meet cuz they're scared of indian ppl see us..they'll start rumors n everything..u knw how indian parents r. they dont mind us talking on da phone..but jus not see eachother..my mom n my aunt(dad's sister) knw dat me n mehul r a couple..but rest of da family dont knw if we're actually seeing eachother or anything like dat..they probalby knw dat we talk..but we dont talk in front of family members meanin on da phone. so yea.. well da problem is..my cuzin. my cuzin will start tlaking to me..if i start tlaking to him..he believes that i shud start talking to him cuz he's older than me. me n him dont even look at eachother when we see eachother..like im sooo scared to talk to him..so i dont have da guts to start talking..we dont even stand in da same room..lets say i wud be in da kitchen at my aunts house..he wont come in da kitchen..its dat bad! i dont mind talking to him..but my bf doesnt want me to talk to him..cuz of what my cuzin said to me..my bf hated the fact that my cuzin called me a couple of things...n he's not willing to forgive my cuzin for saying all that to me..i dont knw wat to do!! help plzzzz!!! in a way i dont mind talkin to him..but then when i remember wat he said to me n everything..it hurts sooooooooo much!!!
Anupamaa
