Originally posted by: Learrntowrite
You-know-who
I agree so much to mrieshka. Are you by any chance a writer too because let me tell you, the way you articulated all your comments has been absolutely amazing to read.
Your opening comment here was a masterpiece. I thought it was very smoothly written. It felt like Appy di has given these hints to us throughout the tale and we all felt the same way subconsciously. But you were able to articulate our feelings.
I loved the analogy of seeing Khushi from Arnav’s eyes. You are right. Not once does his finger point at Khushi. This Arnav confused me. Sometimes my heart feels he had absolutely butchered her trust and he never loved her. But then I read the chapters and I feel that cannot be true. Here is a small paragraph from Khushi’s hospital stay.
‘There were several instances, when he would open his mouth to say something, only to shake his head last minute and ask her about the pain in her leg instead. He listened to the doctors with rapt attention and followed their advice and instructions to the T. He would join her after office, sleeping on a bench outside as he sent her Amma home. Khushi knew he checked up on her several times at night, tucking her sheets around her properly as Khushi pretended to be asleep and not in pain. She felt his hand caress her face and hair, his lips pressed against her forehead, but he never said anything.’
I don’t know why. I straight up started crying while retreading this paragraph. Not only for Khushi who was in pain and hid it, but for Arnav too who was coming over to check on his wife several times a night. His whole confession when he brings her back from hospital is very emotional to me. Appy di did not even go into details of all those days and it still summarised his emotional pain to me. How he must have felt seeing Khushi in that state.
But most of all, present Arnav’s reaction to Khushi’s letter trumps me. He says to himself.
She choose you over a child. Be selfish.
It tells me he has come to terms with the fact that he wants Khushi back. I cannot wrap my mind around the fact that this Arnav hurt Khushi so much.
And this is why my heart is hurting so much. This Arnav is a mystery to me till now. But Khushi’s pain is something that is real and it breaks me. I may feel confused as to why Arnav did what he did, but I definitely want justice for Khushi who is honestly a devotee in Arnav’s love.
She had only broken down once. Arnav met her a couple of times after this divorce thing. His study and then penthouse. She was still polite to him. She had admitted her heartbreak as something permanent. She only lashed at him when Arnav tried to reach out and tell her things like he could not live without her.
I cringe listening to that not because I completely doubt Arnav(still waiting for today’s chapter) but because I cannot help but feel how it must have sounded to Khushi. A husband who she knows has cheated on her, ghosted her, telling her that he cannot live without her would sound so hollow. And this is coming from a man whose words she probably considered gospel.
All in all, my whole heart, my entire being is in agony because of this story and these two characters. Their pain is hurting me as if I am watching someone I know go through this gut wrenching time.
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