The question isnt about love or feelings.
Sai is clear that going back to V is NOT an option. Infact her immediate reaction to Vs gesture of date surprise setup is one of discomfort rather than happiness or attraction. She doesn't want to hear him confess love now because now its only gonna confuse her and burden her. She sought this courage to take a stand FOR her when she was his wife . Now she's not his wife, P is.
This is Sai.
If roles were reversed and V or P were in Sai's place their first reaction would be to play along happily and then make accusations, blame others.
Remember how p behaved after V essentially confessed loving Sai in holi publically. As soon as she saw him do some decorations in bedroom she was SO happy and running to go celebrate. Its like she has NO shame.
Vs first reaction to P expressing hurt is to physically comfort her and make promises he cant keep or lead her on. . He hasnt maintained any boundaries. He decorated bedroom after holi kaand. He easily made her vaadas. Took pheras. Went on honeymoon. Allowed her to cuddle. Almost had sex. Woh toh shukar hai she was injured and got sick, varna poora consummate karke P ko pregnant karke hi maanta. He didn't hold back. He showed some hesitation but it was momentary. Even now his priority isnt to first break things off with P.
Even if he genuinely wants Sai to be back, does he not know that Sai will not think about it at all unless P is out of the picture. This woman kept on raising the deal marriage for clarity when she was his legal wife. So now the first step in reconciliation is to reassure her that he has mutually ended things with P before proposing. How disrespectful and undignified it is to proposition a person when he's in a marital bond with another! What proposal is this?! He's essential telling Sai to be the "other woman" until he sorts out P. And he knows P isn't gonna accept it easily. She already blames Sai for stealing V, Vinu. But he's a selfish prick. Its clear P is his backup if Sai rejects him.
But if Sai was in these situations of V or P, she'd not give in.
Sai's first reaction is to hold back. To be uncomfortable.
Even in holi she was getting emotional but she didn't hug him back. She held back from getting too close. She took care of him because he was drunk but Ayesha did a great job of showing hesitation and awkwardness with his proximity.
She's got an undeniable history with V, a soft corner, residual feelings, a sense of gratitude for him being her guardian at a very vulnerable time in her life as she was orphaned and now he's the father of her TWO kids. She will not get over that despite all the heartache so easily. She has a truckload of negative memories, complaints, angst too..
Sai is not like V who swings like a pendulum.
In her mind, love/feelings are not the important things now. Trust, respect and righteousness are.
She's not interested in reconciling. She doesn't want to be seen as "available" at all. Because she's not. Her being single all this time is because she's unavailable to anyone- even V himself. Maybe she'd have entertained the idea of V if only he'd not married P. Because then she would feel that he loved her as much as she did. But he's shown her he's just a two timer.
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