Arylie FF: Full circle, Chapter 21, note updated on Pg 94 - Page 61

Originally posted by: mltr16

Forgot to tag Pooja. See my response to Lisa, P.

itna bada 😭

i'll read later @ work

abhi only lurking around, deciding whether to take baits 😆

Originally posted by: SundariP

itna bada 😭

i'll read later @ work

abhi only lurking around, deciding whether to take baits 😆

Originally posted by: mltr16

Lisa ka koschin hi itna bada tha….I am taking full on chutti today and going to focus on writing and my family who has barely seen my face in the last 72 hours. So they will be airing an episode tonight and tomorrow night, na?

yep... next chhutti toh next saturday hi milegi... no episode 😔

Originally posted by: SundariP

yep... next chhutti toh next saturday hi milegi... no episode 😔

🙁 chalo koi nai, at least the actors will get some time with their families. I have heard their schedules are grueling.

Originally posted by: mltr16

🙁 chalo koi nai, at least the actors will get some time with their families. I have heard their schedules are grueling.

we get break from addiction 😆

First of all, thanks so much for tagging me. I am done dabbing my eyes with a tissue and can finally write. A very close family member of mine is a breast cancer oncologist and Malini’s battle with the ‘emperor of all maladies’ hits close to home.

This chapter has so many wonderful layers to it. Be it Imlie and Aryan trying to explain as honestly as possible what death means to a 5 year old child, Malini coming face to face with her mortality/ reflecting on her life, her what ifs and what happens after thought process, Aditya being hopeful of being together with HIS son one day ( it’s interesting to see this progression in him since till now he struggled to get emotionally attached to Neel) / maybe a possible friendship with Arpita in the future and finally, Aryan and Imlie’s relationship itself- both in it together, 100 percent; trust and communication ( silent through eyes or spoken) being the solid foundation of their relationship.

Really appreciate your writing. Thanks again for a wonderful read and looking forward to reading future ones.

Thank you M for sharing this piece of your mind and soul. It's definitely a far different perspective from what what my perspective has always consisted and what I think. And you articulated it really well, I read it again and again. Will need time to process my thoughts regarding this. I will get back to you when I collect my thoughts a bit. And again, thank you for giving me this space to open up to, you might have gathered by now that this story has become much more to me than what it started with.

Originally posted by: CaffeineMuggle

Thank you M for sharing this piece of your mind and soul. It's definitely a far different perspective from what what my perspective has always consisted and what I think. And you articulated it really well, I read it again and again. Will need time to process my thoughts regarding this. I will get back to you when I collect my thoughts a bit. And again, thank you for giving me this space to open up to, you might have gathered by now that this story has become much more to me than what it started with.

My mentor called that space Dwell Time. Take all the time you need. This is food for meditation, contemplation and an evolution. ❤️

Lisa- I can't imagine the strength needed to have shared your experiences with us. *hug* I'm sorry you've experienced such a loss. Being left behind with no answers, no memories, is a feeling I quite well understand.

I got a lot of "there's a reason why this happened, it was God's will". No. Just no. No reason is good enough for the person not to be there, no reason is valid enough for us to have been deprived of an opportunity to make memories with them. I'm in the camp of better to have loved, than never to have loved at all.

That said, M's responses regarding karmic debts and finding peace in letting go of the need for answers is a journey I'm on. It's not for everyone. It's not easy. I can't even say that it works because it comes in waves. There are days when I can reconcile myself with the loss and still, so many days when the bitterness, the sheer longing of everything that could have been makes me want to curl up and do nothing. When the battle that rages is within yourself, how exhausting it is to try to figure out which side is winning.

Sometimes allowing yourself the space to accept, as you have, that you'll never have closure ends up being the only form of peace for that trauma.

Sorry for jumping into this conversation willy nilly Lisa, M and Pooja. You guys have had such a sweet, respectful conversation about such a heavy topic that I'm going to take back everything that's been said with me as I work through all these feelings.

❤️

Originally posted by: egle

Lisa- I can't imagine the strength needed to have shared your experiences with us. *hug* I'm sorry you've experienced such a loss. Being left behind with no answers, no memories, is a feeling I quite well understand.

I got a lot of "there's a reason why this happened, it was God's will". No. Just no. No reason is good enough for the person not to be there, no reason is valid enough for us to have been deprived of an opportunity to make memories with them. I'm in the camp of better to have loved, than never to have loved at all.

That said, M's responses regarding karmic debts and finding peace in letting go of the need for answers is a journey I'm on. It's not for everyone. It's not easy. I can't even say that it works because it comes in waves. There are days when I can reconcile myself with the loss and still, so many days when the bitterness, the sheer longing of everything that could have been makes me want to curl up and do nothing. When the battle that rages is within yourself, how exhausting it is to try to figure out which side is winning.

Sometimes allowing yourself the space to accept, as you have, that you'll never have closure ends up being the only form of peace for that trauma.

Sorry for jumping into this conversation willy nilly Lisa, M and Pooja. You guys have had such a sweet, respectful conversation about such a heavy topic that I'm going to take back everything that's been said with me as I work through all these feelings.

❤️

@Egle I am so glad you joined this discussion! Please no apologies whatsoever. I have some thoughts but will come back in a couple of hours once I compose my thoughts better. 🤗thank you! For joining this complex and sometimes uncomfortable discussion.