Them and their LOVE!!

So after being emotionally manipulated by a friend I consumed Ghum Ganja after 5 days..

Today Virat was broken.. Realising that he might not be able to stop her from leaving him was destroying him within. To think that he would not be able to probably get her back , not be able to spend his life with Sai was getting him anxious.. He also is too affected by his actions which indirectly led him to almost lose his life(Sai)...I have mentioned before as well, If he gets the confirmation that Sai is not leaving , Virat would be okay with a loveless marriage, unrequited love, would believe his love is enough for the two of them... He did mention it to Patralekha, whether Sai loves him back or not, but he is going to love her forever..and thats the Virat I saw today. He was not able to breathe when he realised he would not be able to even have that life. Neil was Virat today, the Virat I understood and fell in love with.. Neil brings him to life , Neil brings his emotions on foray, Neil makes me want to forgive Virat....He went on to pack her things himself in order to convince himself that she is going to leave and yet the moment she starts doing it herself, he became restless... He did not know what to do.. While apologising to her and Aaba he went in a trance. A trance where he wanted to end his life, anyway a life without Sai is not something he wants to think about.. And in all this, I realised that though Virat knows he loves Sai , Sai loves him way beyond her self respect, her anger, her ego , her life..

Sai had forgiven the moment the morning he came with her clearance paper. If at all there was anything else to forgive, she forgave him in her heart when she saw him standing there, while she was leaving with Pulkit. When she entered CN, she was overwhelmed with whatever love she was showered with. She knows Aai loves her, Mohit loves her , Devi Tai loves her, SHivani Bua loves her, even Mansi Bua and Sai on that hospital bed thought that she had no home to go, no one to call her own.. She forgot about these people specially about her Saayi...because for her , her home, her world is her Virat Sir.. Sai in that room , when realises Virat is packing her bags and is not willing to talk about her and him , she came back with her garb or rather her armour and started packing herself trying to distance him from her.. She hated when he removed her hands from her waist..She wants to be called his, she wants to be his and the moment he denies that in anyway, she gets hurt. When Virat came to hold her suitcase, she wanted to know if she is feeling bad because she is leaving and the moment she saw him breaking down to an extend , becoming anxious on her leaving, asking her to beat him wanting to kill, all covered with sweat and tears, she melted...She gave up ..she disrobed herself from that armour that garb, for her Virat Sir..She can see him angry..she can see him rude, she can see him as a controlling husband , but not a broken man. Virat said Aaba can break her zidd, without realising that in this world, its just him who can break her zidd and no one else, after Aaba gone.. She made him relax, she assured him of her forgiveness, of her presence, of her not going away....wiped away his tears, his sweat, set his collar because she cant see him that disoriented.. making him the Virat Sir she loves and yet denies to realise or accept..

That was Sai and her Virat Sir for me today..

Tagging few friends I wanted to share this post with.

We were just complaining yesterday and today was such a nice surprise. It had substance and feels to it. I like how they talked and cleared about the track issues, character assassination, sai humiliation and virat guilt were all addressed.

The precap cringey moment came and passed but I could still connect to the epi. They compensated by being real good in the other moments. I liked epi today after a long time

Originally posted by: Magnifique

We were just complaining yesterday and today was such a nice surprise. It had substance and feels to it. I like how they talked and cleared about the track issues, character assassination, sai humiliation and virat guilt were all addressed.

The precap cringey moment came and passed but I could still connect to the epi. They compensated by being real good in the other moments. I liked epi today after a long time

Yeah thats the point... These people are lazy..They would give these episodes once in a while and get back to their pathetic ways.. And hence it has been irritating me lately.. I have kept these issues to myself assuming these are the few bad days that daily soap goes through.. But instead of these bad days having a ratio of 1:5 every week its vice versa.. But then today was a good episode and the team needs the praise from a 'CRITIC' like Asmi as well 😆..So here you go..after a lot of contemplation I watched the episode and further more contemplation posted in favour of the episode after ages...🤣

she melted...She gave up ..she disrobed herself from that armour that garb, for her Virat Sir..She can see him angry..she can see him rude, she can see him as a controlling husband , but not a broken man. Virat said Aaba can break her zidd, without realising that in this world, its just him who can break her zidd and no one else, after Aaba gone..

Beautifully put..💕

We understand them better than themselves…

It was a fantastic episode, I remember a beautiful quote that I read somewhere “Your marriage will not be defined by the size of your struggles, but by the size of your commitment to overcome the struggles together”

Isn’t their commitment something… for me they are a typical married couple, who love each other for really who they are.
Neil and Ayesha rocked as SaiRat.

Originally posted by: asmi_joya

So after being emotionally manipulated by a friend I consumed Ghum Ganja after 5 days..

Today Virat was broken.. Realising that he might not be able to stop her from leaving him was destroying him within. To think that he would not be able to probably get her back , not be able to spend his life with Sai was getting him anxious.. He also is too affected by his actions which indirectly led him to almost lose his life(Sai)...I have mentioned before as well, If he gets the confirmations that Sai is not leaving , Virat would be okay with a loveless marriage, unrequited love, would believe is love is enough for the two of them... He did mention it to Patralekha, whether Sai loves him back or not, but he is going to love her forever..and thats the Virat I saw today. He was not able to breathe when he realised he would not be able to even have that life. Neil was Virat today, the Virat I understood and fell in love with.. Neil brings him to life , Neil brings his emotions on foray, Neil makes me want to forgive Virat....He went on to pack her things himself in order to convince himself that she is going to leave and yet the moment she starts doing it herself, he became restless... He did not know what to do.. While apologising to her and Aaba he went in a trance. A trance where he wanted to end his life, anyway a life without Sai is not something he wants to think about.. And in all this, I realised that though Virat knows he loves Sai , Sai loves him way beyond her self respect, her anger, her ego , her life..

Sai had forgiven the moment the morning he came with her clearance paper. If at all there was anything else to forgive, she forgave him in her heart when she saw him standing there, while she was leaving with Pulkit. When she entered CN, she was overwhelmed with whatever love she was showered with. She knows Aai loves her, Mohit loves her , Devi Tai loves her, SHivani Bua loves her, even Mansi Bua and Sai on that hospital bed thought that she had no home to go, no one to call her own.. She forgot about these people specially about her Saayi...because for her , her home, her world is her Virat Sir.. Sai in that room , when realises Virat is packing her bags and is not willing to talk about her and him , she came back with her garb or rather her armour and started packing herself trying to distance him from her.. She hated when he removed her hands from her waist..She wants to be called his, she wants to be his and the moment he denies that in anyway, she gets hurt. When Virat came to hold her suitcase, she wanted to know if she is feeling bad because she is leaving and the moment she saw him breaking down to an extend , becoming anxious on her leaving, asking her to beat him wanting to kill, all covered with sweat and tears, she melted...She gave up ..she disrobed herself from that armour that garb, for her Virat Sir..She can see him angry..she can see him rude, she can see him as a controlling husband , but not a broken man. Virat said Aaba can break her zidd, without realising that in this world, its just him who can break her zidd and no one else, after Aaba gone.. She made him relax, she assured him of her forgiveness, of her presence, of her not going away....wiped away his tears, his sweat, set his collar because she cant see him that disoriented.. making him the Virat Sir she loves and yet denies to realise or accept..

That was Sai and her Virat Sir for me today..

Tagging few friends I wanted to share this post with.

@bold

Beautifully put...yesterday I wanted to write something but couldnt get good words to express. But you did capture wonderfully what they were going through....

@Red

This is a nice PoV. Yeah may be Virat is okay being in Stalemate and slowly getting her to open up to him...His outburst mostly comes from his inability to assert his feelings for her, infront of her. He doesnt want to bind her and at the same time, doesnt want to leave her also. He is torn apart with these two feelings..

The best dialogue I liked yesterday is when Sai says he doesnt understand the feeling when someone so close leaves you...and virat says that "the pain is more when you willing decide to move away"...I think he dreads that more...if Sai wants to be freed, he has to willing move away...which broke him down yesterday.

That dialogue is kind of foreboading too, he will try to move away and will be painful for him. 😒

Anyways, awesome post Asmi...loved it.

Originally posted by: asmi_joya

So after being emotionally manipulated by a friend I consumed Ghum Ganja after 5 days..

Today Virat was broken.. Realising that he might not be able to stop her from leaving him was destroying him within. To think that he would not be able to probably get her back , not be able to spend his life with Sai was getting him anxious.. He also is too affected by his actions which indirectly led him to almost lose his life(Sai)...I have mentioned before as well, If he gets the confirmation that Sai is not leaving , Virat would be okay with a loveless marriage, unrequited love, would believe his love is enough for the two of them... He did mention it to Patralekha, whether Sai loves him back or not, but he is going to love her forever..and thats the Virat I saw today. He was not able to breathe when he realised he would not be able to even have that life. Neil was Virat today, the Virat I understood and fell in love with.. Neil brings him to life , Neil brings his emotions on foray, Neil makes me want to forgive Virat....He went on to pack her things himself in order to convince himself that she is going to leave and yet the moment she starts doing it herself, he became restless... He did not know what to do.. While apologising to her and Aaba he went in a trance. A trance where he wanted to end his life, anyway a life without Sai is not something he wants to think about.. And in all this, I realised that though Virat knows he loves Sai , Sai loves him way beyond her self respect, her anger, her ego , her life..

Sai had forgiven the moment the morning he came with her clearance paper. If at all there was anything else to forgive, she forgave him in her heart when she saw him standing there, while she was leaving with Pulkit. When she entered CN, she was overwhelmed with whatever love she was showered with. She knows Aai loves her, Mohit loves her , Devi Tai loves her, SHivani Bua loves her, even Mansi Bua and Sai on that hospital bed thought that she had no home to go, no one to call her own.. She forgot about these people specially about her Saayi...because for her , her home, her world is her Virat Sir.. Sai in that room , when realises Virat is packing her bags and is not willing to talk about her and him , she came back with her garb or rather her armour and started packing herself trying to distance him from her.. She hated when he removed her hands from her waist..She wants to be called his, she wants to be his and the moment he denies that in anyway, she gets hurt. When Virat came to hold her suitcase, she wanted to know if she is feeling bad because she is leaving and the moment she saw him breaking down to an extend , becoming anxious on her leaving, asking her to beat him wanting to kill, all covered with sweat and tears, she melted...She gave up ..she disrobed herself from that armour that garb, for her Virat Sir..She can see him angry..she can see him rude, she can see him as a controlling husband , but not a broken man. Virat said Aaba can break her zidd, without realising that in this world, its just him who can break her zidd and no one else, after Aaba gone.. She made him relax, she assured him of her forgiveness, of her presence, of her not going away....wiped away his tears, his sweat, set his collar because she cant see him that disoriented.. making him the Virat Sir she loves and yet denies to realise or accept..

That was Sai and her Virat Sir for me today..

Tagging few friends I wanted to share this post with.

First of all...welcomd back to the ganja 🤣

Asmi....this was so beautiful.❤️Loved it so much.

Funny how perspectives can be mirror images - I just wrote a post about how this episode was Virat - and his Sai.

@red You feel so? Is it possible for anyone to have such a strong heart?

@blue Loved it. And this always intrigues me. I understand what Virat seeks and finds in Sai. What does Sai seek in her Virat sir? (I'm trying to figure out where her attachment to Virat comes from - is it his magnanimity in taking over her responsibility - let's face it, no acquaintance or even friend or relative would have done it).

Love Neil today. He was spot on in almost he entire episode. Still wished they could have toned down on a few things - the slap me part, him talking to aana could have been shorter and his words of wanting to kill himself could have been a little more poignant. But I'm not complaining.

I can't but help think....why can't the writers use their brain lke this more often?

Beautiful post, Asmi. I just wrote something a bit similar about Sai's love for Virat... she can tolerate him insulting he character and breaking her to the core, but she cannot see him in even the slightest bit of pain... her love for him supersedes her all of her ego & self-respect...

Originally posted by: nethraa_99

First of all...welcomd back to the ganja 🤣

Asmi....this was so beautiful.❤️Loved it so much.

Funny how perspectives can be mirror images - I just wrote a post about how this episode was Virat - and his Sai.

@red You feel so? Is it possible for anyone to have such a strong heart?

@blue Loved it. And this always intrigues me. I understand what Virat seeks and finds in Sai. What does Sai seek in her Virat sir? (I'm trying to figure out where her attachment to Virat comes from - is it his magnanimity in taking over her responsibility - let's face it, no acquaintance or even friend or relative would have done it).

Love Neil today. He was spot on in almost he entire episode. Still wished they could have toned down on a few things - the slap me part, him talking to aana could have been shorter and his words of wanting to kill himself could have been a little more poignant. But I'm not complaining.

I can't but help think....why can't the writers use their brain lke this more often?

@red: I completely agree with you, Asmi. I see this side of him every time he decides not to confess. Because, it would be easier for him to just blurt out his feelings. At this point, burying these emotions within him is suffocating him. But, what is stronger for him is the fear of losing Sai. So, he would rather continue in this messy/unlabeled relationship forever than to risk losing Sai. There is a rather beautiful dialogue in KD where he tells Pakhi that even if Sai does not ever reciprocate the love he feels for her, he will have lived the perfect life just in their current situation...

@blue: Sai has been attached to Virat since before they were married. It was evident in the GC days that she felt a sort of attraction towards him. Perhaps it is because she has always seen a part of her abba in him. Or perhaps it is because of the way he challenged her. In the car scene when he was dropping her off as a final goodbye, it was not only him who wanted to make sure that she would remember him... it was her too. And, once they got married, she saw that he took her hand when she was all alone in this world, and she knows that he has never faltered in his zimidari. He has made mistakes and he has hurt her, but throughout it all, he has been her rock.

Originally posted by: asmi_joya

So after being emotionally manipulated by a friend I consumed Ghum Ganja after 5 days..

Today Virat was broken.. Realising that he might not be able to stop her from leaving him was destroying him within. To think that he would not be able to probably get her back , not be able to spend his life with Sai was getting him anxious.. He also is too affected by his actions which indirectly led him to almost lose his life(Sai)...I have mentioned before as well, If he gets the confirmation that Sai is not leaving , Virat would be okay with a loveless marriage, unrequited love, would believe his love is enough for the two of them... He did mention it to Patralekha, whether Sai loves him back or not, but he is going to love her forever..and thats the Virat I saw today. He was not able to breathe when he realised he would not be able to even have that life. Neil was Virat today, the Virat I understood and fell in love with.. Neil brings him to life , Neil brings his emotions on foray, Neil makes me want to forgive Virat....He went on to pack her things himself in order to convince himself that she is going to leave and yet the moment she starts doing it herself, he became restless... He did not know what to do.. While apologising to her and Aaba he went in a trance. A trance where he wanted to end his life, anyway a life without Sai is not something he wants to think about.. And in all this, I realised that though Virat knows he loves Sai , Sai loves him way beyond her self respect, her anger, her ego , her life..

Sai had forgiven the moment the morning he came with her clearance paper. If at all there was anything else to forgive, she forgave him in her heart when she saw him standing there, while she was leaving with Pulkit. When she entered CN, she was overwhelmed with whatever love she was showered with. She knows Aai loves her, Mohit loves her , Devi Tai loves her, SHivani Bua loves her, even Mansi Bua and Sai on that hospital bed thought that she had no home to go, no one to call her own.. She forgot about these people specially about her Saayi...because for her , her home, her world is her Virat Sir.. Sai in that room , when realises Virat is packing her bags and is not willing to talk about her and him , she came back with her garb or rather her armour and started packing herself trying to distance him from her.. She hated when he removed her hands from her waist..She wants to be called his, she wants to be his and the moment he denies that in anyway, she gets hurt. When Virat came to hold her suitcase, she wanted to know if she is feeling bad because she is leaving and the moment she saw him breaking down to an extend , becoming anxious on her leaving, asking her to beat him wanting to kill, all covered with sweat and tears, she melted...She gave up ..she disrobed herself from that armour that garb, for her Virat Sir..She can see him angry..she can see him rude, she can see him as a controlling husband , but not a broken man. Virat said Aaba can break her zidd, without realising that in this world, its just him who can break her zidd and no one else, after Aaba gone.. She made him relax, she assured him of her forgiveness, of her presence, of her not going away....wiped away his tears, his sweat, set his collar because she cant see him that disoriented.. making him the Virat Sir she loves and yet denies to realise or accept..

That was Sai and her Virat Sir for me today..

Tagging few friends I wanted to share this post with.

Beautiful post 🥰. You should write more often even if the episode is crappy 😜

@bold - Word!!. Neil truly portrayed Virats state so beautifully that we could feel for him. The moment Sai said she forgave him you could tell he started breathing again and held on to her so tight like she was his life boat and would die with out her. He was increasing the intensity of the hug like he was holding on to something so dear yet scared it would slip away if he wouldn't hold it tight. Neil as Virat is Brilliant!!!!

@italic- Word!!! Isn't that what love means forgiveness and accepting each other with their flaws. You love a person inspite of all the things you may dislike about them, our heart doesn't search for someone with perfect qualities and then fall in love. It just happens and the same happened with Virat and Sai.

There are situations where spouse's say mean things to each other in anger , but do they really mean it? If yes, yes it's an end of a relationship, but here Virat was truly sorry for what he did and Sai can see the pain he is going through. Sai, put aside her anger, hurt, self respect and decided to forgive Virat.

Yes she wants to be his and wants him to say the same so she will be back to deal in no time and put on a mask that she doesn't love him. The deal holds her back and whenever she is about to move forward she is pulled back before she gets to atleast confess it to herself. Until Virat and Sai both openly talk and express their feelings that they love each other the circle of deal- Vaada will continue.

I had written a paper in one of my psychology classes years ago in high school about the way in which humans experience guilt vs. how they experience shame. Virat in yesterday's episode reminded me of it, and I had been trying to dig it up. I was finally able to find it... here are some bits...

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"Guilt tends to be about something we have done, and the regret and/or humiliation we feel is situational. Shame is more tied to who we think we are in our own eyes. Shame tells us that we are so defective as to deserve whatever bad is coming our way. Not only do people feeling shame believe that they are flawed, but they think that others see them in that same way too.

Therefore, shame is one of the most damaging and perhaps even dangerous emotions. It can cause depression, addition, violence, and other behaviors that are self-destruction and hurtful to those whom we love the most.

Shame is isolating and can make us feel alone. However, sharing our experiences with others can remind us that we really are not an island unto ourselves. The act of connecting with others and being accepted can help us feel more compassion for ourselves. Sharing and staying connected reduces shame’s ability to cause harm."

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This to me really did sum up Virat's situation leading up to yesterday's breakdown...