SaiRat Today: A Tennis Match?

Today's episode has left me feeling so confused. It was like watching a tennis match between two great players, neither willing to back down, playing one fine shot after next. I have to say, it's one of the most interesting rallies I've ever watched. What sets apart the legendary tennis players from the good ones? Even when their minds and bodies are giving up, they don't. It was the same with Virat and Sai today. My heart was breaking for Sai. For the first time, she looked lost and exhausted. Even after the traumatic events of Gadchiroli, she didn't seem as defeated as she did during the bedroom scene. "Thank you yeh jaane ke liye kabhi kabhi main bhi sahi ho sakti hun"- it was said in a lighthearted way but revealed so much more. How tiring it must be having to always prove yourself, always listening to taunts and that to from people who mean nothing to you. Sai and Virat were not just playing metaphorical tennis but also metaphorical chess- each word carefully rehearsed before being uttered, just to gauge the reaction of the other. Neither wanted to budge and both wanted the other to admit that it's more than a farz/responsibility wala rishta, hence the Hum Aapke Hain Kaun encore 😆

Virat would have thought that while saying "Main jaanta hun mera Pakhi se baat karna acha nahin lagta" he had served the greatest ball, it was going to be a sure shot ace but Sai foiled that with the greatest return- "Mujhe farak nahin padta. Farak tab padta jab aap mere kuch lagte."

Honestly, I feel Sai hasn't forgiven Virat but she has just chosen to let it slide and even his apology didn't feel that heartfelt to me. But I did love this back and forth between the two. Virat toh khair shuru se confused hai but a confused Sai is a first. She doesn't know what Virat is to her, she doesn't know what she is to Virat but whatever all this is, it's very confusing. It certainly feels more than a dealwali shaadi but is it supposed to feel this way? I don't think Sai even romantically likes Virat yet but unknowingly she is getting attached. When Virat said, "Main tumhara dost hun"- she turned away and wiped away a tear. This is not what she needs. "Dost toh bohot hai mere, ek aur ki zaroorat nahin hai". True, she doesn't need a mere 'friend'. She needs somebody who will accept her wholly for who she is, with all her imperfections and cracks, somebody like her Aaba but Virat is nowhere close to that yet. That loneliness would have hit her.

All in all, it seemed like a total dimag vs dil scenario. Both didn't say what they were feeling but how could they when they didn't know it themselves? It was a perfect tennis match. Both were fatigued and just wanted to stop but their brilliance wouldn't let them expose any vulnerability.

Originally posted by: I-Am-SherLOCKED

Today's episode has left me feeling so confused. It was like watching a tennis match between two great players, neither willing to back down, playing one fine shot after next. I have to say, it's one of the most interesting rallies I've ever watched. What sets apart the legendary tennis players from the good ones? Even when their minds and bodies are giving up, they don't. It was the same with Virat and Sai today. My heart was breaking for Sai. For the first time, she looked lost and exhausted. Even after the traumatic events of Gadchiroli, she didn't seem as defeated as she did during the bedroom scene. "Thank you yeh jaane ke liye kabhi kabhi main bhi sahi ho sakti hun"- it was said in a lighthearted way but revealed so much more. How tiring it must be having to always prove yourself, always listening to taunts and that to from people who mean nothing to you. Sai and Virat were not just playing metaphorical tennis but also metaphorical chess- each word carefully rehearsed before being uttered, just to gauge the reaction of the other. Neither wanted to budge and both wanted the other to admit that it's more than a farz/responsibility wala rishta, hence the Hum Aapke Hain Kaun encore 😆

Virat would have thought that while saying "Main jaanta hun mera Pakhi se baat karna acha nahin lagta" he had served the greatest ball, it was going to be a sure shot ace but Sai foiled that with the greatest return- "Mujhe farak nahin padta. Farak tab padta jab aap mere kuch lagte."

Both of them want the other one to say something more. The hesitation is real. They have been through so much together already and so much is yet to come. For a fraction of a second it was visible too that she didn't mean what she said "farak nahi padta". There was a hint of "farak" not in her voice or tone, but before she spoke. But Virat wasn't looking at her or he would have caught that like the tear in the end. Still, this "farak" is not wifely romance but that sense of belonging. I LOVED this whole exchange because it reflected exactly the point I have been pondering about -- the vulnerability and the sense of belonging. They both have that empty space that someone needs to fill. The kind of belonging you seek from "one" person. You said yesterday on my post that Virat has not lost anything like Sai. But to yearn for that kind of belonging, you don't need to lose anything. It is that belonging that you don't seek from a family but from a 'soulmate' and that belonging in the other person is only yours, and in you, that belonging is only the other persons. No one else.

Honestly, I feel Sai hasn't forgiven Virat but she has just chosen to let it slide and even his apology didn't feel that heartfelt to me.

I actually liked that they were not seeking any apology from each other. Virat has never expected Sai to apologise for her rants and Sai, as well, did not actually want an apology. But because he said "sorry", she served a mild-taunt about his notion that she's usually in the wrong.

But I did love this back and forth between the two.

Me too. It was so subtle, so deep.

Virat toh khair shuru se confused hai but a confused Sai is a first. She doesn't know what Virat is to her, she doesn't know what she is to Virat but whatever all this is, it's very confusing. It certainly feels more than a dealwali shaadi but is it supposed to feel this way? I don't think Sai even romantically likes Virat yet but unknowingly she is getting attached.

Whether she likes it or not, she is 'possessive' about him. It is a very mild feeling still but it has been there since the beginning, unknowingly. Agree about the 'confused' part. A part of her wants him to say something more than 'farz, farz' all the time. Farz must sound like a "thing". She is a human with emotions, so it is understandable that she doesn't want to be seen as a "thing". They are already way ahead of the 'farz'.

When Virat said, "Main tumhara dost hun"- she turned away and wiped away a tear. This is not what she needs. "Dost toh bohot hai mere, ek aur ki zaroorat nahin hai". True, she doesn't need a mere 'friend'. She needs somebody who will accept her wholly for who she is, with all her imperfections and cracks, somebody like her Aaba but Virat is nowhere close to that yet. That loneliness would have hit her.

Actually, she doesn't even have friends. Who are her friends?? She doesn't have anyone except him. But she does not want his 'dosti' either. She doesn't also want to hear anything on the lines that PP wants. As complicated as it may sound, she just needs to hear something to assure her of that feeling of 'belonging'. They will get there soon.

All in all, it seemed like a total dimag vs dil scenario. Both didn't say what they were feeling but how could they when they didn't know it themselves? It was a perfect tennis match. Both were fatigued and just wanted to stop but their brilliance wouldn't let them expose any vulnerability.

Right now, they are in the nascent stage of exposing their vulnerability. Love has many stages -- they are at the doorstep of the first one so not even into it yet. They will only expose their vulnerability right now in moments of loss of self-control --anger, stress etc. But when you consciously do not mind being vulnerable in front of each other is when you truly enter the phase of love where you cross disillusionment. Still time for them to sing "ye kahan aa gaye hum... yunihi saath saath chalte"

Lovely post, Sharon 🤗