Today's episode has left me feeling so confused. It was like watching a tennis match between two great players, neither willing to back down, playing one fine shot after next. I have to say, it's one of the most interesting rallies I've ever watched. What sets apart the legendary tennis players from the good ones? Even when their minds and bodies are giving up, they don't. It was the same with Virat and Sai today. My heart was breaking for Sai. For the first time, she looked lost and exhausted. Even after the traumatic events of Gadchiroli, she didn't seem as defeated as she did during the bedroom scene. "Thank you yeh jaane ke liye kabhi kabhi main bhi sahi ho sakti hun"- it was said in a lighthearted way but revealed so much more. How tiring it must be having to always prove yourself, always listening to taunts and that to from people who mean nothing to you. Sai and Virat were not just playing metaphorical tennis but also metaphorical chess- each word carefully rehearsed before being uttered, just to gauge the reaction of the other. Neither wanted to budge and both wanted the other to admit that it's more than a farz/responsibility wala rishta, hence the Hum Aapke Hain Kaun encore 😆
Virat would have thought that while saying "Main jaanta hun mera Pakhi se baat karna acha nahin lagta" he had served the greatest ball, it was going to be a sure shot ace but Sai foiled that with the greatest return- "Mujhe farak nahin padta. Farak tab padta jab aap mere kuch lagte."
Honestly, I feel Sai hasn't forgiven Virat but she has just chosen to let it slide and even his apology didn't feel that heartfelt to me. But I did love this back and forth between the two. Virat toh khair shuru se confused hai but a confused Sai is a first. She doesn't know what Virat is to her, she doesn't know what she is to Virat but whatever all this is, it's very confusing. It certainly feels more than a dealwali shaadi but is it supposed to feel this way? I don't think Sai even romantically likes Virat yet but unknowingly she is getting attached. When Virat said, "Main tumhara dost hun"- she turned away and wiped away a tear. This is not what she needs. "Dost toh bohot hai mere, ek aur ki zaroorat nahin hai". True, she doesn't need a mere 'friend'. She needs somebody who will accept her wholly for who she is, with all her imperfections and cracks, somebody like her Aaba but Virat is nowhere close to that yet. That loneliness would have hit her.
All in all, it seemed like a total dimag vs dil scenario. Both didn't say what they were feeling but how could they when they didn't know it themselves? It was a perfect tennis match. Both were fatigued and just wanted to stop but their brilliance wouldn't let them expose any vulnerability.