sorry for the delay again and sorry for the editing mistakes. Will clear it one by one. Please read and let me know your honest comments. To me their actual challenge starts from now on. What do you think? Would love to hear from you 😉
PART 32:
She makes her way towards the exit out of Maan's room..her eyes have been glued to the floor..and just then..she stopped seeing a pair of shoes and she slowly looks up at the person and moved back with shock. Hey babaji..how come he appears right when I am about to leave the place? Now, I have to face the real HIM?? Why it so happens that I am about to leave and he appears from no-where? I really don't know what all words he is going to pour out on me?
Maan is equally shocked… Why she had to wake up right when I had to finish with some important calls? He wants her to sleep well and take enough rest as she had a very stressful day but she is awake at this hour.. His heart sank seeing her carrying her belongings and moving out of this room..and in reflex to all what he got to see, he ends up speaking out louder What's going on here?
She gasps... expecting to face his real face that she has been known and adapted to. Ji..Main..Woh.. woh..She gulps and grips on to the airbag which is hung on her shoulder.
He curses himself to talk this loud and almost jerking her with his tone. She accumulates enough courage to talk to him. Well..I am moving out of this room. You see I didn't know how I landed here until your maid told me everything. She bows her head with shame and embarrassment.. instead of a blush and this churns his heart....I didn't realise when sleep took over me. I am so very sorry for the trouble I have given you.
She just got silence as a reaction to all what she is talking and this stresses her more..
M ST: Why she is pleading sorry...its me who is supposed to apologise to her. Owing an apology to his wife is increasing his burden of his life and he is not able to ask for it and get over it that easily.
G: And I will leave now..you can take good rest without any disturbance.
All what he heard clearly is one sentence... “I have to leave now”. Why she needs to ? She is his wife afterall!.He is the one who created this invisible thick wall in between them and he will ensure to break all the barriers between them. Its not quite easy but yes, he will give in all his efforts. He keeps a calm posture now.
M: LEAVE to where? And that too at this hour?
Geet was just looking back at him not understanding what he actually meant. Why would he be ever concerned about me? Oh yes, he needs to know as he will make sure he would not pass by that room where I am going to stay? Hmm quite possible. Well.. all that matters is that I am staying away from this room. So, what else he would bother about?
G: I am moving to my room. A room that's away from yours and hopefully we will not get to face each other. exactly like how it used to be in KM! I am just waiting for that lady to get the keys. She told me to wait for few minutes and then I will be out from here. she thinks for a sec. and further talks...I understand she is taking long time. Don't worry, I will wait for her outside.
He is already drowning in his guilt that’s stopping him to confront her personally and her casual narration about all what she had faced and what she is about to do is simply advancing his guilt to the next level. And for Geet, her fear also gets advanced with each and every second passing by. She almost looses her mind when he pulls down ther airbag hanging on her shoulder as well as the suitcase in her hand.
Geet: Yeh aap kya kar rahe hain? (What are you doing?) I said..I am going from here...
Al though he is burning within, he doesn't show any reaction to her. he just sidelines her things and talk to her. Where as she is totally confused about what’s going on.
Maan: I need to talk to you... I...
She glares at him. HE who never ever wanted to even look at her, now insisting to talk to her? what more he has to talk or say when he or she does not owe to this relationship. Also, she finds some strange weirdness in him today that fears her even more.
He could sense all her confusions and he corrects himself....WE need to talk first.
His talks are not like a command like it has been till date.. From when he consider ME and HIM as WE?? Its been only HIM... Any ways, what he needs to talk? May be the same rules..or new rules added to it as its a new place.
Geet: Well I can understand what you are coming to say. You want to share your concerns about those rules set between us right? You need not worry. I am still aware of it and will strictly follow them. And its pretty clear to me that mere change in place will not change our rules. She pauses and continues.. Like you, even I am here as Daadima insisted me. I will not take any advancement or advantage. So, stay rest assured.
He was moved to an extent that he rush to her and grabbed her by shoulder...she gasps as she looks back at him questioningly.
At least on their first night he spoke all what he had to speak, maintaining a distance and without even glancing at her he left her and exited the room for ever...and today..he is holding her in a way he doesn't want to let her go. But to her, it feels violent and puts her into more fear and her body gets rigid.
He loosens himself sensing her reaction and moves a bit away from her...I wanted to tell you that you need not go anywhere. You can stay here itself.
She is not able to believe nor understand what's going on. How she was expecting him to tell her to get out of his room or stay away from him...and over here, he is telling me to stay back? Oh..May be Daadi would have insisted him to give me space here. That's useless as I can never make a space in his life, heart and soul but at least I can hold on to my self respect.
She is no longer prepared to take any more emotional turmoil as she has accepted her fate with open arms. Well..let me make myself very clear.. I have agreed to move to this farmhouse not into this bedroom of yours.
He didn't expect these phrases from her. It was strong and clear. But he calls it off thinking that She is headstrong in following all what he had set on their wedding night. and he is proved wrong with what he gets to hear further.
You need not worry about what Daadima will think. The strong barriers between us are still intact. She tells it so coldly without any anger, fear or any tears..
Here, he is taking all efforts to lead their life with togetherness and she is talking about the barriers! It was like a sudden force hit him and he lost hold on himself. Even though he was mentally prepared to take any of her reactions but didn't expect her to be so cold.
Maan: There are no barriers between us.
She is really puzzled with his talks today. For her, all that has been told by him is just for the sake of formality. And she would rather take his true bitterness than his fakeness. I really don't understand what you are saying! our relationship is bound by the barriers between us isn't it? then what’s the point in denying it? she asks him casually..Oh..may be you are concerned about the people surrounding us? You see we are far away from all our close relatives and connections. Now, its only YOU and ME in this room. You don't take any trouble anymore and you no longer need to pretend you care for me!
His eyes gets red listening to what all she says...What did she just say? I am pretending in front of everyone?
Geet: You can just be yourself....And continue to live your life as you please ...a LIFE where you wouldn't prefer me to step into your surroundings. There is no interference from my family and At the same time, you need not worry for Daadima or what the servants here will think about both of us. I have dealt with them very well till now and I can still continue to do so.
Maan ST: So, she thinks that I have been showing off in front of everyone that I love her and care for her? How could she think like that? But then, she is right..he was s**t rude to her whenever she came near him or to meet him. And all what she is saying is nothing but a disturbing image of himself which he has imprinted in her mind and soul.
She seems to hold no grudge or emotions anymore and when this happens to a person, he/she will not even believe even when true happiness invades their lives. All this is happening to her is because of him. He has done all wrong with regard to this relationship but he is not pretending or showing off now. He genuinely wants to make up for all what he has done..but how would he make Geet understand all this?
M: I am not pretending I really mean it. I am changing myself.
G: Please Don't!
Her soft voice gets tough with each second passing by. She very well knows what Maan thinks about her and she doesn't want to be a puppet in his hand anymore.You need not change yourself for me. Let it be like how it has been and that suits you more. Like you have always wished, I have valued your personal space and I will continue to do so. Don't stop me and spoil your own life.
M: No you are not spoiling my life and I am really changing for good.
G: Well..Maan....I repeat what I said, there is no need to change yourself in any which ways...and most importantly don't rank yourself good or bad... its just YOUR LIFE that comes into picture and by forcefully involving me into your life will not help you, me or anybody!!
How to tell her that his life is residing within her as she is his better half and even before that she is his Pari. Even to this moment she doesn't want him to be referred to as a bad person. But he has been one. How stupid he had been to completely ignoring her in this last one year. He could understand how terrible it could feel. He really doesn't stand a chance any more? At Least she calls him with his name and that gives him some ray of hope.
Coming to her, All what she has experienced for the last one year is enough to make her feel that she never belonged here and no way holds any hopes as she knows that he loves someone else.
She closes her eyes and speaks...you see..YOU...she stops and corrects herself … I mean, WE both have got used to living like this in our own ways and lets not change this with pressures surrounding US..I mean, YOU and ME.
It really hurts him so much with what ever she says especially when she splits and talk..but yes all what she can give him back is all what she got from him...he takes a sigh and tries to explain her again..There's no one putting pressure on me..I just want to...
He wanted to tell her that he wants to start fresh..but by then, Geet takes a lead.
Well our relationship is a forced one..so, lets not force it further.
She is giving in his own words, and its almost stabbing him back. He nods for a no
No Geet...and walks ahead..
She stops him...by showing her palm.. Lets not further complicate things between us. Her eyes have dried up to an extent that there are no more tears left...Jo jaisa hain na waise hi rehne dijiye... we are more happy in our respective places without interfering in each other's lives.. or say, not looking at each other.
He can understand that she is still living in her isolated life of last one year...He is the one who had pushed her into this. She has got completely dissolved in her bitter memories and he must get her out of it. But how? It seems to be too late now. He is realising how a tough challenge it is. and giving into her current health condition, he cannot force her on anything. Especially forcing her to believe in him would put her into more stress.
I have not agreed to come over here to take any advantage of the situation. I am here only caring for Daadima's health condition. She is the only one who has loved me to an extent that I never missed my own grandmother. And also, I am aware about how much you care for people around you..except.. she couldn't complete the sentence but he understood it. she is trying to say that she is the only one who was not accepted by him. Its such a shame on his part to make her feel what she is feeling now. She being new to this family had accepted each and every relationship whole-heartedly and she kept her husband almost in her god’s place and see all what she has got from him?
Where as for Geet, she recalls how Maan would interact with everyone with his charm and love filled words...but when it came to her, he hated if someone would even take her name. And when this is his mindset as against her, then why he has to ask her to stay back here? she turns away as her eyes gets moist. Well, my mere presence has only made you feel so pathetic. This room is All yours..Who am I? You see, only your closest relatives, friends and maids or say, everybody apart from ME had the permission to get into your room....because you hate me that much.
He has made her feel so low and she is absolutely right from her point of view..He behaved so inhuman with her during the couple of times she came to meet him. Now does he even possess the right to even give an explanation?
G: You see, I knew that you hate me..but didnt know its depth until my last day in KM. If I knew it, I wouldn't have met you before I left from there.
She recalls all what happened that day. She was waiting for him so that she could bid Good Bye.
And all that followed cannot be forgotten easily. But that was the day, that gave me the true insight about our relationship that we are bound in and I have truly involved my heart and soul in learning another good lesson of life and I will follow it more than my own life.
He has arranged a special day where in he could give in his apologies followed by a promise of a new joyful life..but it seems right time has not yet come for that. He doesn't want to tell a mear sorry as its like throwing a drop of water into a huge ocean.
M: I understand how I made you feel.. He is not getting any right set of words that would make up to all what he spoke that day. I didn't know you were leaving from KM on that day…
G: Of Course I didn't expect you to know it as it is of your least concern if I am present or Absent.
He just couldn't take her words... No..its not that..
G: Well, IT IS!!! You clearly mentioned you are least interested to know or learn anything about me..
Maan again nods for a NO helplessly. wish he could take back his harsh words that he used against her and Geet is not even facing him as she fears she would collapse under the burden of her own emotions.
G: Well, I can understand. Why would you even try to know more about a person whom you hate the most?
M: Trust me..I never intended to be like that..It just happened because..I..
G: Your trust and intentions has nothing to do with the hatred that you portray for another person. Your hatred for me was deep and straight from your heart...and so, you do not owe me any explanation.
Again Maan holds her Shoulder...putting her into a shock. This has been his common expression from the time he has visited her maternal home in HP...But why? Again it depicts his aggressive self. But when she looks deep into his eyes, it reflects how deep his love is..but his love is for his
Pari only and she can no way replace that place.
M: I know you are not willing to believe or understand..We do have a lot to sort out. Before that, we need to bridge the gap that's between us.
G: That gap was not created by ME!
That was highly spontaneous of her to have answered him. He slowly loosens his hand on her shoulder. What ever she is saying is very true.
I was never responsible for it and no way contributed to it and now out of blue you claim that WE have to bridge that gap and that too right away?
YES...It was HIM who was responsible and he never checked with her before taking his decision all alone or valuing her thoughts and opinion about their wedding at that point of time.
He is not able to believe that its his PARI who is talking like this. Ofcourse by now, he knows very well that she is capable of doing so as he has witnessed her dealing with Sasha. Then why She never got to speak even a single word for the last one year. OR she was not allowed to and it seems she cannot hold on to herself anymore. Also, her current health and psychological condition that is taking further toll on her.
After speaking out her heart, she should feel light but she is feeling her burden is increasing every second passing by. Her head spins slightly and she holds on to her head.
Maan could sense she is stressed at this point of time. Its OK Geet. Dont take stress.
He tries to hold her but she stops him again...I am all fine. Don't worry about me. I am just tired and want to get to my room so that I can rest peacefully.
M: All I want you is to stay far relaxed here and this room has all facilities.
G: Well..Thank you for being so kind Maan!!! She is obviously sarcastic...You are depending more on these luxurious facilities..NOT ME!!!! I have lived a very simple life and that suits me better.
He realised how strong she is to keep up her self respect and he had been thinking about her to be a gold digger. She pauses for a while and continues...Any which ways, I have no reason to stay back here. You are so fond of your privacy and I do not intend to spoil it. This room belongs to you and my room is getting set at the terrace.
M: Its your room too Geet!!! ITS OUR ROOM!
She is not sure that if her eardrums are clear enough as she can never hear something like this. What? My room? OUR ROOM? She smiles sadly... To remind you, you have preset rules and the primary one being we can never live together.
M: I know I made those rules. It was due to the rough patches that I was going thro.
G: I know what are those rough patches you are talking about..because I have walked thro it too. Wish you could understand this. but your hatred towards me is the most understanding factor which you have maintained. Moreover, you have been thinking that my family has tricked in getting me married to you and I am here to trap you. And that's the reason you didn't want even my shadow to pass by you or your big room in that KM.
She is telling all this in a calm posture and that itself is hurting him then how she would have felt facing his rude attitude? He cannot hide the fact that all she says is true to some extent but its not the 100% truth.
M: No..you are mistaking me..
G: I might be a “Anpadh-Ganwar”...but I can clearly see and feel what people surrounding me think about me.
Yes..this one statement which he never even used against anyone pinpointing their cultural and educational background. Not even his maids and servants and he had shamelessly accused her of being an illiterate and country brute without even knowing even a single detail about her. How disheartening it could be? But She has accepted this statement as well!
And there are many more things that I know and I dont want to talk or argue about it as it would lead to no where and moreover its none of my concern. Geet tells this hinting it to his lady love his PARI. And Maan is still unaware of all what Geet knows about it.
A thorn that struck your skin can be easily removed..but the sharp words that he used for her is struck deep within her heart for ever. Nothing can soothe the pain. She has to go thro it for ever. Coming to Maan, he knows how deeply she is hurt with his words and actions. It was not him, his blind love for Pari and his restlessness, his failure in finding his Pari that made him behave like that...and unknown to him he has been hurting his Pari only.
where as she is lost in her memory lane. The first day I stepped into KM, and after all the formalities, I was taken to your room. You just dictated all what needs to be done henceforth and for once if you could have asked me how I am feeling and valued my opinion at that time, then things would have been so different.. She smiles sadly...Anyways, you kept your gentleman promise and you never even looked back or bothered me in any which ways.
He knows the irony behind what she is saying.. He never came to check on her even during the conditions where she would have needed him the most.
So today, its my turn to keep up my promise and that’s also my wish to move out of here. Please dont stop me.
She takes her belongings..when he again stops her by blocking her way.
M: I agree that I have been doing all wrong. A Lot has happened in these few days. I have changed a lot.
G: There's nothing wrong Maan...Its just that you have been hating me way too much so let it be. Atleast it represents your true feelings towards me. And now, why would you change yourself? And what has happened in few days that could replace your thoughts and attitude towards me? She asks this straight looking into his eyes. He expected this question to come. But its come in such a wrong timing.
Well...I know what has happened. Daadima's health is of your major concern and that's the same with me. So, dont worry and you need not feel that you are doing something wrong and most importantly, dont change your attitude towards me. Continue what you have been doing...HATE ME ! Be yourself...BE TRUEFULLY YOU!
GEET!!
The way he calls out her name, she feels her heart bounces against her chest. Not even for once he had called out her name like this during her KM days. She feels like hugging him tight forgetting all her sorrows. But that would only end up hurting herself further. Aur haan, I value your concerns with regard to Daadima’s health condition. I will never tell Dadima that we are living in different rooms until and unless she specifically asks for it.
M: This has nothing to do with Daadima's health..It has to do with ME..
She looks deep into those pair of eyes..it pours in the same emotions that it did on the day she got to spend some time with him in the outhouse. That’s it. She is not prepared to take any more illusions in her life.
G: That's what even I am trying to explain you. It has to do with YOU and also ME as we are bound in a forced relationship. You have already gone thro enough pressures by marrying me. So, lets not get carried away and take decisions based on what people around us will think about us. We can lie to the world but not to ourselves. We shall continue to live our life like we have lived so far. She joins her palms and pleads him...And its MY decision to move out of this room and MY Decision matters too. HENCE I AM GOING FROM HERE… AND MY DECISION IS FINAL.
Once she said this, there is a silence but all what she said clearly echos in his ears.
M: Why Cant we set aside our differences and give ourselves a chance?
G: Do we really know what are our differences?
That was a million dollar question that was thrown on him...she gives an ironic smile.
G: You know nothing about me and there's nothing wrong about it as in arranged marriages its common where husband and wife dont know each other and that's the beauty of it as they get more curious to know and understand each other...She sighs...but this is applicable for the couple who have accepted their relationship or at least respect each other’s point of views. But you and me never got that opportunity and will never get it in future as well.
He looks back at her with so much concern. How tough her life would have got when she had to leave her maternal family behind and had to forcefully accept it and she did it. But what she got in return is so well explained by her as its true.
They say, the very first year of married life is very crucial. It clearly portrays the married couples bonding and understanding. And you can clearly see in our case where do we stand? Can you even stand me for a single second? And you are talking about giving chance for each other? What for? We are not even made for each other?
M: Don't come to any conclusion like this. Please Understand my POV
G: Well, our married life got concluded on the day it had even started. but still, I have always valued only your point of view and even now I am trying to do things that suit you more.
He never ever expected that he would get to listen to something like this from her. He really wished there’s atleast 1% lie in what ever she has said but no...she has been very honest and truthful to this relationship. Now, on what grounds he can stop her?
She holds on to her belongings...Before I leave from here, I just wanted to say something... as I know we will be in the same place but will not get to see each other much...
Thank You for everything..for standing by me with regard to my maternal family. And you did a good job by not letting them know what's our actual relationship. And thank you for understanding my tiredness and letting me to sleep here for some time... And over and above all, THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO SPEAK At Least for today. I have been longing to speak with you for the last one year and share my point of view.. but never got an opportunity until now.
Her sorries and Thank Yous are irking him as she is trying to be so formal with regard to this relationship.
she drags her belongings till the entrance of her room. He again tries to stop her.
M: You are under medication and I have to make sure you are having your medicines on time.
G: Having medications has been a very common scenario of my life and I have learnt to handle it by myself. So don't worry about it. The best ever lesson that I have learnt in the last one year is to be self dependent. Hence, I can take care of myself very well.
He is not able to understand whether she is stubborn or kiddishness...but he is really not willing to give in to her decision anymore. Stop being stubborn I have to make sure that you are taking medicines on time.
She is really not able to understand him now...why do you even want to care for something which you have never done before?
In last one year she had been falling ill frequently but he chose to ignore her. It was wrong on his part. forget about caring...had he even addressed her presence at that point of time? Now how he can ever justify her?
she takes her medical prescription with daily dosage. I have this with me. I can clearly read the dosages and ensure to follow it. I will take my medicines on time and I don't think I need anyone’s help for this as I am not a kid anymore.
Radha (Maid) came there on time.. Ji..Memsab...I have got your room ready. You can shift there as and when you want.
G: RIGHT AWAY
R: Par memsab..that room is not this big..I hope its ok with you?
G: Oh...that's even nicer. As I have always preferred a smaller room as big big rooms makes me feels so small about myself.
What she just told says it all about how she would have felt so small in such a huge Khurana Manscion. Radha finds everything so very strange. But still she obeys Geet’s words as recommended by Shantima. She takes all Geet’s stuffs which she has been holding. Let me shift these to the room in the terrace. She takes it and moves out the room.
Maan is completely sidelined as she is not atall listening to him. GEET..
She is not in a position to face him further. Its getting too late for me....I need to move to my room. Once again..thank you for everything that you have done for me so far.. I will not trouble you further.
She just moves out by saying this...leaving a helpless soul behind.
Precap (Upcoming) - Geet realises she is in the same farmhouse she had accidentally visited one year ago and was always thinking about this place and wished to visit here again.
So, that's it for this episode. Some of you might think Geet is over reacting. But she deserves to maintain her self respect isnt it?
Will be updating next within a week's time.
Edited by Vaidhumom - 3 years ago
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