Rakshabandhan and Sushant's eldest sister's note

गुलशन, मेरा बच्चा

आज मेरा दिन है.

आज तुम्हारा दिन है.

आज हमारा दिन है.

आज राखी है.

पैंतीस साल के बाद ये पहला अवसर है जब पूजा की थाल सजी है. आरती का दीया भी जल रहा है. हल्दी-चंदन का टीका भी है. मिठाई भी है. राखी भी है. बस वो चेहरा नहीं है जिसकी आरती उतार सकूं. वो ललाट नहीं है जिसपर टीका सजा सकूं. वो कलाई नहीं जिस पर राखी बांध सकूं. वो मुंह नहीं जिसे मीठा कर सकूं. वो माथा नहीं जिसे चूम सकूं. वो भाई नहीं जिसे गले लगा सकूं.

वर्षों पहले जब तुम जब आए थे तो जीवन जगमग हो उठा था. जब थे तो उजाला ही उजाला था. अब जब तुम नहीं हो तो मुझे समझ नहीं आता कि क्या करूं? तुम्हारे बगैर मुझे जीना नहीं आता. कभी सोचा नहीं कि ऐसा भी होगा. ये दिन होगा पर तुम नहीं होगे. ढेर सारी चीजें हमने साथ-साथ सीखी. तुम्हारे बिना रहना मैं अकेले कैसे सीखूं. तुम्हीं कहो.

हमेशा तुम्हारी

रानी दी

I am in tears.. Losing your one and only brother at such a young age..who you have probably seen like a child is a heartbreak no one can ever let go off.. Some who cried that she was losing her brother when he denied to go with her.. what would she going through today.. Oh this is painful..

She was the same one who who mentioned to Ankita ..mumbai ne hamara sab kuch cheen liya.. Sushant worshiped Rani Di ..

Gulshan, my child

today is my day.

Today is your day.

Today is our day.

Today is Rakhi.

This is the first time after thirty five years that the plate of worship is decorated. Aarti lamp is also burning. There is also a turmeric-sandalwood tika. There is also dessert. Rakhi is also there. It is not just the face that I can do Aarti off. It is not the forehead on which I can put mark(tika). Not the wrist on which I can tie rakhi. Not the mouth that I can sweeten. Not the forehead I can kiss. Not the brother whom I can embrace.

Years ago, when you came, life was bright. When there was light, there was light. Now when you are not, I do not know what to do? I can't live without you. Never thought that this would happen. It will be a day but you will not be. We learned a lot of things together. How do i learn to be without you alone You say that

Always yours

Rani di

This is so heartbreaking. He was literally like their child. How is this fair? No one should have to go through this!

Heartbreaking

Strength to the family.i can't even imagine how difficult it must be for his family and sisters on Raksha Bandhan.

He is there with u in spirit...❤️

Sushant please give ur sisters some sign that u r there...

Oh Lord...please give this family strength....a lot of it...as if losing a brother was not enough...to lose him in this way....and now its Rakshabandhan..💔

She was his second mother his eldest sister rani di💔💔💔

Rani Di wanted to take him with her to Chandigarh. But Sushant refused for some reason. Ankita said that Sush treated Rani Di as his mother. He never denied any of her requests. It was the first time he did. May his family gets to know what killed. That's the least they deserve.

Heartbreaking.Hope the Almighty gives them the strength to bear with this loss.

This is so painful and heartbreaking to read. Can't imagine what the poor sisters must be going through. Elder sisters are like mothers to their younger siblings....it's like losing your own child, it just cuts deep inside your soul. I can just hope and pray that may God give strength to the family and peace to Sushant wherever he is.