Originally posted by: Viswasruti
This I posted in the Beyhadh2 forum. Just sharing with you, if you have a few minutes to spare, have a glance at it, in a way a concluding part from my side.😊
Coming To You To Get Back My Life
Maya was crying… she has killed her destructor Vikram a moment ago!
At the time of great emotional turmoil, her world gives way to sights and sounds of horror! Her loved ones were gone one after the other. She was cursing herself and asked herself, "How can that be?" The loss was impacted every part of her being. Sat there on the floor in front of Vikram's dead body. She looked around, the candlelight was dim and flickering, replicating the end of a life. She was stunned for her fate.
The sweat started drenching her skin, she felt the throbbing of her own eyes, the ringing screams vibrating in her ears, and the thumping of her heart against her chest. Her fingers were curled into a fist, nails digging into her palm. She was unable to hear her rapid breathing. Hesitantly, her eyes looked at the dead corpse before her, the psychopath Vikram, the same person who kept her captive in his den for long! Fear engulfed her conscience, overwhelmed her body, knocking all other thoughts aside making it drastically exhausted.
She started walking in a daze, many dark clouds started approaching her mind. There was a mental tornado there, which no-one can see nor comprehend. One may "shut down" for weeks, even months. Then, one day, the loss gravitates into a new reality. That's what has happened to her now.
This is not the first time she encountered such a tempestuous streak. At that point, all memories connected to the loss one after the other encountered with her thoughts. She lost her mother, lost her confidante Rajiv, lost her love, long back, what is there left to be lost in the future if there is no future at all for her at present?
She walked up to her mother and held her hand into hers, sat down on the floor started looking at her and tried to wake her but in vain.
Maya was crying.....crying for the death of her mother. It was more than crying, it was the kind of desolate sobbing that comes from a person drained of all hope. She sank to her knees at the body of her mother, not caring for the damp blood that stained her clothes. Her tears mingled with the darkness and her gasping wails echoed around the lifeless walls.
“Why mom … why you moved far away from me? I still remember your love's soft glow on your face and the feel of your touch and that tender embrace. Whenever I was weary from the burdens I've borne, and the path that was unclear and I feel so forlorn, I used to come back to you for your loving support which was always there as a light. Now I am feeling lonely Maa, no one is there to care for me, this heartache is too hard to bear, no one is there to tenderly wipe away my tears like you used to do whenever I cry.
Everyone wanted to play with my body as if I am there to fulfill their lust! They said it is love, they used me, accused me, abused me and finally abandoned me Maa, what sin I did to be punished like this? I don’t want this love anymore. I hate this love Mom. Love made me lifeless!
This love prepared a graveyard for me, I brought a few corpses to gift to it, now, the fate itself brought many corpses to this burial ground called life. What to do Maa.... what can I do now? My head swam with half-formed regrets, grated my nerves now “ Still she was crying, was inconsolable.
“After all these years, I knew nothing about you Rudra other than your attempts to find me. I fought with you, tested you with a teasing smile, then reached out with my open heart and invited you to reciprocate, to make that connection. Why haven't I seen you for long? Why won't you send a simple message to me? I miss you so much. Why you left me to these vultures Rudra?”
Falling in love with you was like entering into a decorated house and finally realized that I'm home! When you smiled at me, I felt like, those invisible hands wrapping around me to make me feel safe. When your eyes are locked with mine, it's like I can see galaxies instead of your eyes there. Having you in my life makes me feel like everything's possible in this world like I can conquer anything. But why I lost you Rudra? Why I lost my love?” She was thinking …
Every time he kissed me I felt like the world stopped rotating, leaving just the two of us to wander the earth together. Every time he held my face between his palms it felt like he was untying all of my knots! Is this the real feeling of what falling in love means, then I never wanted to end this story. For so long, I had longed for it, and now I can't bear to lose it –
Trying to trace you Rudra, I am coming, coming to you, to reveal the truth, to open my heart to show you the wounds which are still raw and wrecking me whenever I recollect those moments.
I can't express my pain to you, I can't hide it in my heart too, want to reveal everything to you Rudra. Now no more concealed thoughts, nothing but the sweet nothings in our life!
Coming to you to get back my life, coming to you to give back what you lost since long, my sweetest love with all truthfulness. To the one I love I give myself to, I want to place myself into your hands. I’ll give you the power to save me or destroy me. With perfect love comes perfect trust. Coming to you Rudra , let me limp back into your hands to recover... to recover to live again!
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