I so relate to this! I take loads of efforts for the people, I met recently or I want to be just formal with them. I will make sure i am smiling and responding to whatever they are saying. So much formalities! But with my childhood/oldest friends I am myself. I forget to call them back, reply to their messages, I am not always smiling with them, I call them out on face and grill them. Still neither of them takes it to their heart and are same with me. 😆
I can understand because this is exactly the way I am... With my family and friends, I can be the most moody and I don't have to think nearly as much about what I am saying or doing because they know me very well... But around those who don't know me as well, I am a lot more fake and may put on a fake smile... So it may seem that I love the people who I am not comfortable with more than my family or friends, when that is not reality at all