Dear Diary thread #2 Part #37 page #122 29/01 - Page 13

Originally posted by: --Evil_Angel--

Superb update..Thank you
Rk called the whole malik family in the mansion..
and madhu is amazed to know the fact about Rk being involved with her family from Before..Yes she doesn't know anything
and then Rk.. he is right at his emotions..
he eat padmini made food !He didn't want Madhu make breakfast and she is not well because she didn't eat. That is why he refused her to make breakfast but agreed that she make lunch
and Padmini gave a good piece of advice to madhu..!Yes but it was too late

at last.. rk is shifting to other room..
he is creating distance !
infact he Told her to not call him Rishab !She is stranger for him now and he can't accept her calling his name

uffo.. like this they are going nowhere !They will not so soon but they will

thanka fr pm..You are very welcome
cont. soon !I'll do my best

Part #23

Dear Diary

How could I do that? How do I hurt him like that? How do I sacrifice my love like this? For years, I loved him so much. And I was sure that he loves me. How I didn't listen to my heart. Everything was telling me he doesn't love me. But my heart kept screaming in my head he loves you. But what did I do? I betrayed his love. I left him alone. I hurt him badly. Now I even didn't have the courage to ask about him. I couldn't ask mom how he is doing. Did he call again? Did they hear from him again? I don't know how is he in this strange country. He is alone there. He is in pain. I hurt him. No I stabbed him in his heart. I never felt this helpless. I can't do anything for him. I hurt him and I can't even comfort him. He is the one I loved. And I left him alone. Look Madhu what did you do? You spoiled his life. No you spoiled your lives both. No I spoiled our lives all the three of us. I hurt Sultan. And I hurt RK. He did nothing but good to me. And what did I do to him in return. I spoiled his life. I made him marry someone, which will never love him. I forbid him from love for the rest of his life. Oh God please help me. I never meant to hurt anyone or harm anyone. And I ended up hurting the one I loved and the one who loves me. I hate you Madhu. I hate you so much. For all what you did. Oh God tell me what to do. I'm helpless. I'm hopeless. Please help me. My head is going to explode from thinking. Thinking of what I did. And what can I do to fix it. I wish I can control myself like RK. He was happy today with my family. As if, nothing happened. As if, we were the happiest couple. How does he do that? I even thought that he doesn't care. I thought that he got over it. But the moment they left his look and his face changed. I saw hate in his eyes to me I never saw before. Even when he was completely mad at me in college, I never saw this intense hate in his eyes toward me. Does he hate me now? Did I lost his love? I know I lost his respect and his trust. He trusted me wholly and completely and I have taken that trust and crumpled it into ash. He has all right to hate me. He gave me love and support. What did I give him in return? Just pain. Destroyed dreams. I crushed his dreams to have family and loving wife. I'm very bad person. I don't deserve him. I don't deserve Sultan love. I don't deserve anyone love. I'm bad. I'm bad lover who betrayed her love. And I'm bad wife who hurt her husband. I'm good in nothing and to no one. I wish if I'm dead

Next day RK went to his hospital and he got busy with his patients until he got call

"Yes" RK

"Sir I'm Neha" Neha

"Yes is everything OK at home?" RK

"Yes sir everything is fine. I'm just calling to tell you it is 8pm now and we all need to go" Neha

"Ok did you all finish your work?" RK

"Yes sir" Neha

"So why you calling me? You could said that to my wife and left" RK

"Sorry sir but Madam didn't come out of her room" Naha

"What? All day she is staying in her room?" RK concerned

"Yes sir. And when I prepared lunch I knocked on her door and she didn't open she just said from inside that she is sleeping and not hungry. She asked us not to disturb her anymore. That is why I'm calling you sir I'm sorry" Neha

"It is ok. You all can go now" RK

"Ok sir bye" Neha

After RK ended his call, he continue his work and he had two surgeries in this day so he went home very late. When he reached home, he found it in complete dark as if no one is there. He got worry and ran to Madhu's room. He knocked on the door and she didn't reply. So he enter her room to find her sleeping in her bed. He tried to wake her up but she was not ready to wake.

"Madhubala. Wake up. Madhubala. Wake up. You didn't eat anything all day. You can't stay sleeping till morning. Madhubala" RK trying to shake her hard to wake her

"Mmm leave me I want to sleep" Madhu

"Madhubala. You have to eat. Wake up now. I'm too tired for this" RK

"I don't want to eat I just want to sleep so please let me sleep" Madhu

"I will not leave you. Come on wake up" RK shouting at her

She sat up on the bed didn't open her eyes and got angry from him for waking her up

"What do you want from me? I want to sleep. Why you waking me up?" Madhu

"I'm waking you up to eat, You didn't eat anything since yesterday" RK

"I don't want to eat. I just want to die" Madhu in low tone

"If you want to die why did you marry me to die in my house? You could die before that. And saved me from that pain" RK angry

"Ok I'm coming" Madhu felt guilty from what she said to him

"Go and freshen up and I will heat the food till then" RK

Madhu get out from the washroom and get downstairs to the dining room to find RK serving the food she sat down and started to eat and he started to leave to his room

"Aren't you going to eat with me?" Madhu

"No I ate at hospital" RK lying because he didn't eat since previous night also

"I can't eat alone" Madhu

"Look Madhubala. It is 1am. I had long day at hospital. I'm so tiered to play this childish games with you. I will go and sleep" RK

"So you wake me up. Disturbing my sleepiness asking me to eat. Then you go and sleep. Is that fair?" Madhu

"What do you want Madhubala. I have bad headache and I really can't control myself more than that" RK

"I want you to eat with me. I can't eat alone" Madhu in pleading tone with puppy look eyes

"If I eat with you. Will you leave me to sleep in peace?" RK

Madhu nods with her head as yes

"Ok I will eat now. Are you happy?" RK with nervous tone

"Thank you" Madhu

Dear Diary

It is been four days now. And she is in the same routine. She locks her room all day sleeping not talking with anyone not eating anything. Until I back from work after midnight to force her to eat. And she forces me to eat with her. I don't know what to do. We can't live our life like this. She hates me. She loves someone else. And I hate her. Every time I see her or hear her voice, it reminds me the pain she caused it me. I can't take it anymore. I wish if I would not see her ever. I wish if I never hear her voice again. Every second I be with her, I feel the pain of hundreds knives stabbed in my heart. When this pain will reduce? I can't breathe. It hurts so much. She hurt me so badly. I know she didn't mean to. But this is what happened. She hurt me. Oh God please take this pain away. Please God heal my wounds. Please help me to fulfil my responsibility to her. She is my wife after all. I must support her. And protect her. I must give her happiness even if I am not happy. I promised Mami ji, that I would keep her happy. That I will support her for the rest of my life. I must keep my promise. No matter how hard this for me.

Dear Diary

It is been a week now since my wedding. We can't continue like this. We don't talk with each other. We don't live with each other. It is not right. RK has nothing to blame for my problem. I'm the one who didn't wait for her love. I'm the one who betrayed her heart. I can't punish RK for that. Sultan is my past now. Yes, I loved him. Yes, I dreamed of life with him. Yes, he was all my wishes. Now I'm Rk's wife. Not Sultan's. my responsibility is for RK not Sultan. RK is my present and my future not Sultan. I must forget about Sultan and start my married life with my husband. He had enough from me. I can't hurt him anymore. I will not hurt him anymore. I must make him happy. It is my duty as his wife. To help him and support him not to cause him pain. He was taking good care of me all these years. He supported me every time I needed him. Now it is my time to pay it back to him. Even if I don't love him. That doesn't mean to be cruel with him. Like you shut up your heart before wedding to make this decision. You must continue shutting up your heart from any other love except your husband love. He is the only one who deserve it. Although you don't deserve him

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Part 24

Both R living in the pain
Seems Rk wanna leave her to sullu and Madhu wants to do the opposite. She wants to give their relationship a chance..
Nyc part..

Nice Chapter.
Both RK And Madhu Are Hurting Each Other.
Wish They Both Would Give Their Marriage A Chance.

Both are in pain

Nice update dear

Nice update.

Awesome very nice dear

wow lovely update wat rk is gonna do now