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Author's note -this update is dedicated to Sanjna55 aka sanju, who asked for its update yesterday, so here is the update sanju, want a long comment from u now.
Ishita was looking at Raman without blinking her eyes, she wasn't believing that the man sitting in front of her is real or just an illusion. Coz she has never seen someone so good in his life.
Seeing her not reacting anything, Raman hold her hand and asked -r u even listening what I am saying. He said breaking her trance. She looked at him trying to hear and observe what he is telling when he said again -jaan, suna tumne.
Ishita looked at him and said -take me home raman.
Raman -huh, tum kya karna chahti ho.
Ishita -just take me home. I want to go home. She said and got up and went to his car. Raman was confused seeing her reaction and went to his car. Both settled in the car and he start driving .he was looking at her with confused eyes only to get more confuse as she was sitting void of emotions.
Soon they reached home, ishita open the door and was going inside the house but the house was locked. She looked at Raman, he gave her the keys. She opened the door and went inside. Raman too went behind ishita parking his car. He looked around and saw shreya was not at home. It's her time to buy veggies, so he has went out to take veggies for the day.
Raman closed the door and went to their room only to see her sitting on the floor crying vigorously. Raman got shocked seeing her crying and went to her. He sat next to her and asked -kya hua, why u r crying jaan. He asked only to get no response from her. She continued crying without saying anything .raman got scared and said -kya hua jaan, tell me why u r crying, ishita tum mujhe dara rahi ho. He asked cupping her face.
Ishita-i am sorry raman really sorry. Please mujhe maaf kar dijiye.
Raman -maaf but why. Kya hua jaan, bolo mujhe.
Ishita looked at him and said -I Am sorry, I doubted on u.
Raman -doubted Matlab.
Ishita -aap mere liye, mere parivar ke liye itna kuch kar rahe the.u were saving me from all accusations and what I did. I doubted on u, apne pati par shak kiya, apne raman par shak kiya, please mujhe maaf kar dijiye, she was saying in between her cries while Raman wasn't getting what she is telling.
Few minutes passed, ishita was still crying uncontrollably while Raman was too confused why she is crying. He gave her a glass of water and said rubbing her back-dont cry jaan, and tell me jaan, why u r crying.
Ishita looked at Raman and said -I am sorry raman, main bahut buri hoon, aapke pyaar ke kaabil nahi. I doubted ur love, main wahan aise hi nahi pahunch gayi thi, I went following u, coz I thought u r cheating on me. And I was about to fall not because of sun stroke, it was because I was shattered seeing u with another girl. Main mar rahi thi aapko kisi aur ki baahon mein dekh kar, aapki baatein sun kar mujhe lagaa, u r really going to leave me, sorry Raman very sorry, aap mujhe itna pyaar karte hai, still I doubted u, Aap please mujhe maariye,slap me, punch me, just crush me into pieces for doubting u and ur love. Just punish me raman just punish for being a jerk always. She was saying and crying while Raman was shocked to hear all this from her.
Raman's hold on her lessen while hurt was clearly visible in his hurt.
Raman -u thought I was cheating on u, tumhe lagaa ki main tumhe chodne ka plan kar raha hoon. He asked in disbelief.
Ishita nodded in yes and said -I Am really sorry raman, I was, she was saying when Raman showed his palm making her silent.
Raman -tumhe mere pyaar par vishwas nahi, u went behind me thinking I am cheating u for someone else. U really think so low about me. He said still trying to believe that his ishita doubted on u.ishita was about to say something when Raman said -no need to give explanation, coz I don't want it. Tumhe mujhpe bharosha nahi, u know why coz u still don't love me. He said angrily making ishita cried bitterly.
Ishita -nahi raman, aisi koi baat nahi hai. I love u, she was saying when Raman said -yahin baat hai ishita, u don't love me thats why u still don't trust on me. Mujhpe dhokha dene ka shaq kiya. I think u r forgetting, u r the one who went leaving me alone. Dus mahine, dus mahine tak maine akele nibhaya hai iss shaadi ko. Aur agar mujhe rishta todna hota naa yaa tumse peecha chudana hota toh koi rok nahi sakta tha mujhe. Tum aaj meri zindagi ho, just because I loved u madly. Dus mahine tak tumhari pics sabse baat karta raha, tumse Itna pyaar kiya jitna aaj tak kisi se nahi kiya ,aur tumhe kya kiya, mere pyaar par shaq. Did I deserve this ishita, kya tumhe itna pyaar karne ke baad bhi I deserve this only. He said in anger while tears were flowing continuously from his eyes.
Ishita was also crying hearing his harsh words. She went to him and said wiping his tears-meri galti hai, mujhe saza dijiye ,khud ko kyun saza de rahen hai, aap kyun ro rahen hai Raman.
Raman smiled in between his tears and said -yahin toh problem hai jaan, tumhare liye main aur tum alag hai, par mere liye nahi. For me we r one, tumhari takleef meri takleef se alag nahi hai. Kyunki hum tujhse alag nahi hai, for me u r not my wife but a part of me, and I can't tell u how much hurt I am hearing that u didn't trusted me. Tumne mujhpe vishwas nahi kiya, he said with moist eyes.
Ishita leaned on him and said -please raman, don't say like this. Main pyaar karti hoon aapse, bahut pyaar karti hoon, jaan se bhi jyada. Please mujh par vishwas kijiye.
Raman -vishwas, sach vishwas karun, tumne liya mujh par. U just thought that I am betraying u.
Ishita -ur talk with mihika was like that, toh mujhe lagaa.
Raman -its not about the talk, it's ur mentality. Tumhara mera peecha karna hi galat tha, if I have told u something, agar jhooth bhi bola toh u have trusted me thinking that I can never cheat u, u should have thought that there might be something because of which I am lying. But nahi u trusted my words not my true feelings for u. Mere itne mahino ka pyaar, Ek pal mein maayne badal diye uske.
Ishita hugged him tight and said -nahi please don't say like this raman. Please mujhe maaf kar dijiye, apni ishita ko maaf kar dijiye, she was saying and crying hugging him tightly while his hands were laying down, he wasn't hugging her back and his eyes were moist.
Ishita -please raman maaf kar dijiye mujhe, main aap par kabhi shaq nahi karungi, mujhse galti ho gayi. Please raman, please. She was saying and crying.
Raman -u know ishita last time I forgive u coz I think u r immature, and u didn't knew that how much I love u, but iss baar kaise maaf karun, when u doubted on me even after seeing my love for u.
Ishita looked at him with guilty eyes and said -one last time.
Raman -achcha batao,agar main tum pat shaq karta toh tum maaf karti mujhe.
Ishita -main shayad nahi karti, par aap kar sakte hai. Coz u love me way too much. Please raman mujhe maaf kar dijiye. Ek Aakhiri baar.
He broke the hug and said -sorry ishita, but this time I need time to forgive u. He said and went out leaving ishita alone.
Ishita crushed herself on the floor and cried bitterly, Raman looked at her and said -this time u have gone far jaan. Trust is the base of any relationship, aur jab tumhe apne pati par bharosha hi nahi toh I don't know, how many days our relationship will sustain. This time, I really want u to understand ur mistake and want u to always trust on me, like I do on u. He said and went out of the room.
Ishita sat on the floor and cried for long. Raman came to check her time to time and find her crying only. He so wanted to scoop her in his arms and console her but this time he was really hurt. So he just went away.
Later raman sent shreya home after she made dinner for them. Raman went to call ishita and told her to eat.
Ishita -jab Aap maaf nahi karenge, main kuch nahi khaungi.she said crying.
Raman -iss tarah zabardasti karke tumhe maafi toh mil jayegi par woh zakhmynahi bharega. Give me some time, I will be fine soon.
Ishita couldn't deny him ,so she went to have dinner. Both had dinner in complete silence. Ishita was sobbing silently and was eating slowly, making her food stuck in her neck. She started coughing, she took the glass of water to drink but wasn't able to pour the water due to constant coughing. Raman got up and gave her water caressing her back. She was coughing continuously while Raman was rubbing her back.
After sometime, she was OK. Raman was going to sit in his place when ishita hugged him holding his waist and said -please mujhe maaf kar dijiye, mujhse aapka gussa nahi saha jaa raha. Main nahi jee paaungi aise, main sach mein mar jaaungi. She said crying.
Raman released himself from her and sat. Ishita got up crying and ran to her room. Raman felt bad seeing her condition and left the food himself.
He went to his room and lay down changing his clothes and start thinking about the day happenings .how he lied to ishita and went to meet mihika. How scared he was seeing ishita fainting,how worried he was for her. Her crying and finally her confession that she doubted on him. And then his outburst. He was thinking all .
Raman -shayad maine overreact kar diya. She was crying so much. I can't see her crying but main bhi kya karun, it was really hurting that she still don't trust me. He was thinking closing his eyes when he felt weight on him. It didn't took him a moment to realise that it's ishita.
Ishita has came to check him and seeing him with closed eyes sje thought that he is sleeping. So she lean on him resting her head on his chest while her arms were around her. She adjusted herself in the little pain beside him and said -i am sorry raman, really sorry. I never intended to hurt u but still hurt u. Mujhe pata hai maine joh kiya uski maafi aap mujhe itni jaldi nahi denge, aur dena bhi nahi chahiye. I really did very wrong with u, aapke pyaar par shaq kiya, nahi karna chahiye tha. But what to do Maine sach aaj tak kisi ko, kisi se itna pyaar karte nahi dekha. Kuch ho dino mein aapka pyaar, aapka saath meri jarurat ban gaya hai, aur kamzor bhi. Ab aapke pyaar ke bina rehne ki sochna bhi mushkil hai. I really wanted to trust u but Aap kho dene ke darr ne mujhe aapko trust nahi karne diya. I don't want to loose u for any cost. Main aapko explanation nahi de rahi, coz I know I hurt u much. Bas bata rahi hoon taaki Aap agar baar yeh naa bole ki main aapse pyaar nahi karti. Sach mein bahut pyaar karti hoon aapse. Bas mujhe apne paas rakhiye, main aapse alag nahi ho sakti. Sirf main jaanti hoon ki mujhe kaisa lagaa tha when I saw someone in ur arms. Mujhe lagaa jaise meri zindagi hi khatam ho gayi hai, shayad kuch der aur yeh sab dekhti toh saansein hi ruk, she was saying when he opened his eyes and closed her mouth.
Raman nodded in no signalling that not to say a word more, while her eyes again got filled. She folded her hand and said -please maaf kar dijiye Raman. Main kabhi aisi galti nahi karungi. I will always trust u, chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye. Please forgive me, main nahi reh paa rahi aapke bina. She said crying, Raman couldn't take her cries more and hugged her tight. She too hugged him tight and said -I Am sorry raman, really sorry. Mujhe maaf kar dijiye, mujhe yun khud se alag mat rakhiye. She was sobbing and saying.
Raman hugged her more tightly and said -I Am also sorry jaan. I overreacted. Actually it wasn't u but the situation which make u distrust me. I am also sorry, I really overreacted.
Ishita cupped his face and said -aap sorry mat boliye, just tell me that u have forgiven me .
Raman nodded and kissed her temple softly. She cried feeling his touch and said -please mujhse kabhi gussa mat hoiyega, I love u alot.
Raman -tum bhi mujh par shaq mat Karna, I too really love u alot.
Ishita -i know that u only love me. She said and closed her eyes surrendering herself to him. He smiled and captured her lips for a passionate kiss.
That's all for now, enjoy and do comment and hit like. Will wait for it.
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