Rikaara FF: Lost & Found (completed) index pg 1 - Page 41

Gauri was giving weird look at him. Omkaara went near her. "Gauri.. tum teek to ho? " He touched her hand. She pushed his hand away.

"Tumhe pata hai tum duffer ho"

Omkaara was shocked again. "Kya.." Is she calling him duffer? He uses this word frequently and now she is calling him that.

"Gauri.. tumhe chakkar nahi aaraha hai naa?"

"Chup karo. Jab bhi moo kholte ho bina sochke bina samjhe kuch bhi keh dete ho. Phir mere peeche pade rehthe ho usse sudarne mein. Tum na bilkul..mmm.. duffer ho" She was totally out of her control

He wasn't knowing whether to laugh or frown on her state. She was going on without inhibitions

"Har baar kuch na kuch gadbad kar dete ho. Jab bhi main dil se tumhaara paas aane ki koshish karti hoon, Tab to aise pagalpan karthe ho. Pagal ho.. tum.. pata hai.. poori tharah." . She was enacting that he has gone nuts.

"Haan pagal to hoon Gauri. Pata nahi.. mujhe kya hojaata. Main tumhe bahut pyaar kartha hoon. I can't think of losing you or staying away from you. But seriously it was my mistake, please mujhe maaf kar do. I was being possessive and mujhe naaraz issliye hogaya hoon kyunki mujhe laga that he is taking advantage of your gratitude. If I have hurt you, am very sorry. Mujhe phir saza mat do please. Nahi seh saktha hoon main" His voice was pleading

Gauri was looking at him with a strange expression. She went near him. "Mujhe utake bed pe chod do" Her voice was sounding like a command.

"Gauri?" Omkaara had a question in his face.

"Utake meri bed pe chod do.. Mujhe na sar ghoom raha hai" Shewas holding her head.

He lifted her up, left her in the bed and sat beside her.

"Peene ke liye kuch laon.. Lime juice..?"

"Abhi abhi maine juice piya.. bahut karvi tha.."

"teek hai.. tum so jao.. kal baat karenge"

"Nahi.. mujhe abhi baat karna hai"

"tum nashi mein ho.. Gauri. Bat mein baat kar lethe naa"

"Main nashi mein nahi hoon. Aur aaj main baat karoongi tum sunoge. Beech beech mein gussa nahi karoge"

"Teek hain. Main tumse gussa karna bhi nahi chahtha hoon, Gauri. Bas main toda over possessive hogaya hoon. Issliye main sab kuch galat samajh letha hoon. I will handle it Gauri. Aage se tumhe taqleef nahi doonga"

"Tum shuru se hi aise hi karte aaye ho pata hai. Gusse mein aakar tumhe jo dikhayi deta hai jo tum dekhna chahthe ho. Tab bhi ab bhi. Tab kaali takur aur ab rishab. Pata nahi tumhaari problem kya hai" Gauri wanted to vent out all that has been pressing in her heart. Her intoxicated state helped her a lot and she felt much lighter to pour out everything without inhibitions.

"Rishab sir ko mujhpe interest zaroor thi.. Par maine kab kaha main usse pasand karti hoon? Kal tumhaari bahon maine itna kuch kaha, phir bhi tumhe barosa hi nahi hota" Gauri was cut midway

"Please Gauri aisa mat kaho. Mujhe tumpe poora barosa hai. Par abhi bhi mere Mann mein tumhe lekar insecurity hai, ki wapas tum mujhe chod kar na jaye. That's why I lost my mind

"Insecurity insecurity .. pata nahi tumhaari insecurity ki wajah hi kya hai. Main keh rahi hoon na.. main dobara iss shaadi main rehna chahthi hoon. Phir kaise chod kar jaoongi tumhe

"I am sorry. Aage se aisa kuch nahi hoga. Please mujhe maaf kar do His face fell due to guilt and he was looking down.

"Sach mein aap mujhe shak nahi kar rahe the?

"I promise Gauri. Sach mein nahi kar raha tha. Main jhoot nahi bolta. Tumhe pata hai na.. Please believe me

Gauri gave a sarcastic look

"Pata hai.. tumse aur koi jhoote ho hi nahi sakthe. tum ek number ki jhoote insaan ho

"Gauri Omkaara was having a shocked expression "Aisa kyun keh rahi ho. Aisa kya jaanti ho

"Yakeen nahi hua. Main batadeti hoon. Hum dono ke beech mein contract ki baat hui na. tab aap humse kya keh rahe the? Gauri main tumse nafrat karta hoon, tum giri hui ho, tumhaari shakkal bhi nahi dekhna chahtha hoon.. yahi naa. Phir kyun aap mujhse zyaadi hi kareeb aane ki koshish kar rahe the? Aise nafrat karta hai koi? Svetlana humpe zaroor nazar rakh rahi thi. Par iska matlab yeh to nahi hai aap mauka milthe hi meri saath kareeb aane ki koshish kare. Asli pati patni aise todi na karthe hain?

Wo kidki waali baat yaad hai aapko? Aap meri saath kya kya kar rahe the aur phir bol rahe the Svetlana yahaan aa rahi thi. Uski jaane ki baad bhi 10 minute tak aap mujhe nahi chode.. Yaad hai.. Aise koun nafrat karta hai ya phir aapne mujhe itni giri hui samjha ki koi bhi kuch bhi kar saktha mere saath?

Omkaara was sitting with a shameful expression. Had she realized all what he did in the pretext of the contract marriage.?

"Nahi.. Gauri.. aisa mat kaho please, mere tumhaari baare mein aise kaise soch saktha hoon.

"Phir kya sochke aap daaru peeke mere saath wo sab kar rahe the

Omkaara got slapped with reality. He is a damn liar. He never left any instance to instigate her, taunt her, tell her he hates her but what he was doing with her was just the opposite. Everytime after he gets closer to her, his mind will bring on all whatever he believed about her being home breaker, but he just couldn't stop his heart falling for her, despite all the accusations. He felt a strange comfort whenever he held her, like a strange connection. The 2 months of contract marriage was a torture for him since he wasn't able to control his overpowering emotions and the potential breach of his own self respect that his mind is warning against. But it was she, who always won. She had such a level of influence on his heart, that he got alarmed and tried to force her away by his taunts. But as always after he tried to keep her away with overdose of rudeness, her child-like fallen face will haunt him day and night. He ends up more near her to soothe her and his own self. She is absolutely right. He is a liar, a fakester and a selfish hypocrite. He became all that he hated by virtue of his principles, for keeping her with him. He is madly in love beyond all levels.

Omkaara heaved a big sigh "Gauri, pata nahi jo kuch main kahoonga tumhe yakeen hoga bhi ki nahi. Par sach ye hai, ander hi ander I was falling for you then. Jab bhi tum meri paas aati thi, mujhe ajeeb sa sukhoon miltha tha. Aur I was losing control over myself. Mujhe accept nahi hota tha, ki main koi giri hui ladki ke saath aise feel kar raha hoon. Phir bhi, main tumse pyaar karne laga. Yehi sach hai. Wo nafrat ki baat sab jhoot hai. Aur rahi baat uss night ki jab we kissed, I was in a party with some business friends, they were discussing about intimacy. Maine bahut kuch dekh liya when I was in London and even here. But nothing affected me. Par uss din, wo baatein sunkar mujhe tumhaari chehra yaad aayi. Main tumhaari saath wo sab feel karna chahtha tha. I was totally not in my senses. I know ki tumhe idea hi nahi hai ki main aisa feel kar raha tha, tumhaare liye, ander hi ander. Sab mere galti hai Gauri. I am a damn liar Omkaara's face showed disgusting feeling.

Gauri was just letting him speak all along. She was right. She was damn right. She knew from the beginning that he was falling for her. She had got confused many times by his hatred talks, but her intuition was right. She got excited that he fell for her even before the misunderstanding got cleared.

"Omkaara Her voice was way softer than silk.

Omkaara turned immediately at this voice.

"idhar aao she pulled him closer with his hand. He sat closer to her just inches from her face, facing opposite to each other.

She kept her hand on his face and caressed his entire face starting from forehead to the chin. He stopped her palm and placed a soft kiss on it

"Gauri, am sorry.. I am ready to say it again and again. Par I had tortured you enough I think" His caramel eyes were portraying guilt.

Gauri can't bear to see it more

"Pata hai, tumhaari aankhen na bilkul choclate ki tharah hai"

"Gauri..Kya.. Choclate" Omkaara was surprised at this sudden turn of talk

"Kabhi kabhi main isse dekhte hi reh jaati"

Omkaara was going mad. What was she talking a little while ago and what is she talking now.? But the way she said definitely did excite him.

<to be cont>

**Me running away from jhootis/bulldozers/Anda**