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<Chapter 13>

"Aaj raat nahi.. Kal mujhe kaam pe jaana zaroori hai. Audit hai na..

"Phir se? Omkaara made a frustrated face. "Teek hai, kal raat nikhalenge.. isme bhi koi problem hai?? She was not ready to budge hence he had to.

"Nahi..

"Teek hai.. main bookings karwata hoon

The next day, it was a long drive that too in the night. It was a full moon night and the moon light was seeping in through the moon shade of the car. It was a pleasant windy night and Gauri's mind eased out on this pleasant long drive. Omkaara was in his own passionate shaayari smiling self. She saw him taling and smiling and was wondering afterall what is this emotional cocktail made off?. One moment he erupts in volcanic anger, another moment he displays unsatiable thirst for her presence, he bursts out in frustration with red eyes and another moment he is bringing her flowers as a gentleman gesture. She has gotten into soup, she thought. Hey sankarji.. akhir ye aadmi hai ya paheli? Isko kya kab chaltha ab tak mujhe pata nahi. Regarding this resort thing she was confused on what was coming. Her biggest problem is to resist him when he goes into unsatiable mode. She can easily push him away and throw guilt at him easily. But that would make the situation tougher. Either he will go into volcanic mode or unrelenting guilt. Gauri was emotionally drained. She wanted to be at peace of mind without all this behes and drama. Omkaara was talking something general and was inbetween seeing Gauri. She was sitting thoughtful.

"Hey Gauri..

"Hmm

"Kya soch rahi ho

"Kuch nahi.. Bas yu hi

"Dar lag raha hai, tumhe?

"Mujhe kyun dar lage ga?

"Yahi soch rahi naa.. ki main iss pagal aadmi ko akele kaise jheloon 2 din?

Gauri looked at him with a surprised expression. She didn't exactly think about this, but indeed she thought only on the same lines.

"Sahi hain na. mera guess

"Nahi nahi.. aisa nahi hai

They arrived at the resort around 2am. Their suite looked magnificient. It was a beautiful sea view with French windows. The sea was looking splendid in the night. Gauri was looking at the dcor in the room. She has never seen such an intricately designed artistic place. Omkaara went to change and came back. Gauri pulled her night suit out and came back after changing. She was combing her hair when she saw him walking towards her from the back. She was standing like a statue infront of the mirror. He came close and wrapped his arms around her. He rested his face in her shoulder and was seeing her in the mirror. Gauri expected this. Now she should find all the ways to resist him.

"Tum yahi soch rahi ho na.. ki mujhse door kaise bhagna hain?

Again, he found out. Gauri turned her head sideways in astonishement. Omkaara looked into her eyes.

"Main tumhe bahut pareshaan kar raha hoon na?

He found out this also..? Gauri eyes widened more. How is he reading her mind so aptly?

"Ek baat sach sach bataogi?

"Kya hain

"Kya tum sach main iss shaadi ko dobaara mauka dena chahthi ho? His eyes have their own power when they look deep into her coupled with this intense voice.

"Haan

"Gauri.. I love you.. He buried his head in her shoulders..

She was still standing like a statue. Omkaara took her hand and pressed it against her cheek. "Tum pressurized feel kar rahi ho naa? I am very sorry ki main tumhe pressurized feel kararaha hoon. You know Gauri.. main actually aisa nahi hoon. Sirf tumhaare saath aisa kar raha hoon. Tum mere saath hi reh rahi ho.. par actually tum mere saath nahi ho. Shaayad issi baat mujhe zyada disturb kar rahi hai..

I know ki main tumse keh raha tha.. ghar aapke jitna bhi time leni hai le lo.. But you know what Gauri, jab bhi tum mujhe ignore karti ho na.. it pains a lot His grip tightened more.

"Tumhe bhi aisa hi painful lag rahi hogi naa jab main tumse bahut buri tarah treat kar raha tha.. Mujhe thappad maro Gauri.. Please.. jitna bhi gussa hai.. nikaal do.. Par aise silent treatment mat do.. I can't take it. Jo bhi karna hai karo.. Par mujhe meri purani Gauri lauta do.. Mujhe mera best friend lauta do. Jab bhi main pareshaan tha, kuch na kuch kehke mujhe hasaathi ho na.. Kya sab bhool chuki ho tum?

"Par aapne hi to kaha.. ki Chulbul mar gaya aapkeliye? Immense pain reflected in her voice..

"Please aisa mat kaho.. Gauri.. Main ek duffer tha.. Bolte waqt I didn't realize that all these words are going to kill our lives together. Please main poori dil se maafi maang raha hoon.. Meri Gauri mujhse lauta do..

"Jis Gauri ko aap Kaali ke haath chodkar aaya, uss Gauri ki baat kar rahe aap?

Omkaara was stunned. He was a monster to have left his own wife in the hands of a third rated individual. What would have she felt when he left her in Kaali's arms and went off from that place, knowing what all might happen to her. He might have been under the perception that she is characterless, but from her pov, when she was a victim there, how dejected she would have felt when her own husband turned monster instead of savior.. This one word was equivalent to a 1000 slaps..

Omkaara just moved out of her like he touched a flaming fire. He didn't deserve her afterall. His blind judgemental nature could have ended up a biggest disaster of her life, had she not eloped from her wedding with Kaali. For her, he was another Kaali taakur who didn't care about her self-respect. Only a subtle difference.. The Khoon bari maang..

Gauri was not knowing what happened to him. She didn't shout nor she told any hateful words. She just spoke the words from her heart. He who was sticking with her and trying to bury his face in her small nape of the neck moved out of her as if he touched fire. He turned towards other side and his body was stiff. What had happened to him suddenly..? Gauri touched his hand, he removed her hand gently. He was the one speaking so much all this time, pouring out his heart, pleading her, feeling her smell..

"Omkaara ji.. aap ko kya hua?

His voice was broken down totally..

"Kuch nahi.. Gauri.. Please tum so jao

Gauri was even more startled at this broken down voice. She never saw tears in his eyes. Gauri went around and stood infront of him. His head was facing down. She tried to lift his face and she was shocked. His face was pink with shame and his eyes were red and teary.. She definitely couldn't see him like that.

"Omkaara.. First time she dropped the ji. She tried to pull his face closer.

Omkaara broke down completely at the genuinely concerned voice of hers.. He knelt down and buried his head in her waist. Gauri was puzzled. What had happened to him suddenly. She held his head and and was trying to console him when he was crying his heart out.

After a few minutes, he calmed down.

She lifted his face. That look from his deep brown choclate orb eyes melted something inside her.

"Omkaara ji.. mujhe maaf kijiye.. aapko dukh pahunchane ki iraada nahi humhe.. She was genuinely worried.

"I know, tum bahut sweet ho.. Par jo bhi tumne kaha wo sach hain na.. Main tumhe deserve hi nahi karta Gauri. I don't know karne ki waqt mujhe pata nahi tha.. ki consequences itni gehri hogi.. Par ab main rewind karke soch raha hoon.. I feel ashamed.. Tum koi aur ache insaan deserve karte ho jo tumhe saare khush, maan samman sab de sake.. Main tumhaari pyaar ki layak nahi hoon..

Gauri was seeing him in astonishment. He was the one who was mad possessive at her when just talked over phone to Rishabh. Now he wants her to seek someone else?

"Aapko kya main khilona lagti hoon..Zid karke apne saath rakh diya aur nahi chaha to doosron ke saath bat diya.. Haan maanti hoon humhaare beech haalat ki wajah se bahut kharaabi hogayi.. Isme zyaada taqleef mujhe hua.. Par main zaroor dobara kosish karna chahthi hoon. Iss ristha ko banaye rakhne mein.. Aapne bhi aap ki maa ki shaadi banaye rakhne ki koshish kiya.. Waise hi main bhi meri poori koshish karoongi. Haan.. dil ki maamle mein zabardasthi nahi chalegi.. yeh bhi sach hain.. to waqt to lagega hi..

Aap yahi chahthe hain naa.. ki main poore haq ki saath aapki patni banker rahoon.. Agar aisa karthi hoon, to who poore dil se nahi hoga.. sirf ek zabardasthi ki rishtha hi hoga.. Kya yehi chahthe hai aap? Nahi naa.. issliye main keh rahi hoon.. aap zyaada mat sochiye.. aapko apni galti ki ehsaas hai.. main samajh sakthi hoon wo ehsaas.. Aur jis din aapki pyaar ki ehsaas bhi hojayegi, uss din aapko yeh sab baatein karne ki zaroorat nahi.. apni aap aajaoongi aapki bahon mein

<To be cont>

Chapter 14

Omkaara's face was still not right. Gauri was feeling frustrated. She was not a fan of all this confrontation, rudeness and nafratbaaz. Infact she didn't think that sentence of hers would leave him wounded to this extend. Even though it may be equaling the scores, she can't derive pleasure from another person's suffering. Especially if it was Omkaara. The Omkaara who carried her in her arms after heroic save from goons, The Omkaara who occupied place in her heart next to her Sankarjee, the Omkaara whose brown orb eyes she fell in love with, the omkaara whose pareshaani drove her to any extent for solving issues even if meant staking her own life and now is the Omkaara who has broken down before her very own eyes yearning for her own love. Gauri's heart softened at the sight of this man who is hugging her like a child. Afterall he is her Omkaara. She went into her old self for a brief period.

She saw him still hugging her waist like a child. She made him stand up and wiped his tears. Omkaara was looking surprised. She cupped his face with her tiny hands..

"Omkaara ji. Please apne aapko sambhaliye. Maine aapki dil ko tez pahunchane ke liye yeh sab nahi kaha.. Bas maine keh diya jo meri maann mein thi. Mujhe naa.. logon ko pareshaan dekhna acha nahi lagta.. issliye aap yeh sab chodiye.. ab waqt bahut zyaada hogaya hai.. aap ko aaram karna chahiye..

Omkaara held her hands back and kissed in her palm. Just then he got reminded there were no extra bed in the suite.He looked around for a comfortable recliner, that was not there except for couch and loveseat.

"Gauri, tum bed pe so jao.. main neeche so jaata hoon.. ek hi room hai.. raat bhi der ho chuki hai.. we can't ask them to arrange for another bed in the middle of the night. Kal kuch arrange karoonga..

"aap palan pe so jaayiyie..

"Par tum..

"Main bhi palan pe hi so jaathi hoon.. iss kone mein

Omkaara's eyes widened. She went back and arranged the bedding.

"Omkaara ji.. raat kaafi ho chuki hai.. ab humhe sona chahiye

"Tum kehti ho to so hi jaate hain He smiled a little

They both lied down in the corners of the bed. She was arranging her blanket and Omkaara was looking at her. Her hair was stuck to the button of the kurta and she was trying to get it out before lying down. She was not able to reach.

"Main karoon?

She just looked at him. "Aur kaun hai yahan pe She thought to herself and turned her back.

He unbuttoned the one which had hair and tried to release the lock of the hair. It was still stuck. He was not knowing where it was stuck. He traced it down, it was stuck to her innerwear. It was not stuck normally instead it had tangled with the hook and has got rolled around. Gauri was feeling tickling sensation whereas Omkaara was staring at it. He wasn't knowing how to tell her.

"Omkaara ji, hogayi? She was getting a little hesitant now.

"Wo.. actually kurti ki button se nahi ulji hui tumhari baal

"Phir kahan ulji hui hai?

He would rather point than telling it out. He pulled the strap a little.

"yahan pe

Gauri eyes popped out. Kya..She turned all of a sudden. "Haan wahan pe.. He said with a raised eyebrows..

"Wo.. teek hain main dekthi hoon.. She turned pink.

"Actually it has got tangled badly and rolled around. Scissor se cut karna padega.. Nikal nahi sakthi ho?

"Scissors.. scissors kahan milegi iss raat mein?

"hmm.. to kya Karen. Batao

"Main kuch try karti hoon She went hurriedly to the washroom. Despite her best efforts she couldn't get it out. It indeed has got tangled badly. She can't even remove the garment since it has got tangled in the hook. She came back.

"Hogaya

"Nahi.. bahut uljhi hui hai She wasn't expecting this hair will land her in such a dharamsankat. She has to take his help, there is no other go. She was looking so embarrassed. Hey sankar jee.. yeh kya hai.. the strangled lock was pulling her scalp and she can't even lie down with that.

"Gauri.. Main usse nikaal saktha hoon, if you are ok with it. Omkaara's tone changed.

"kaise, scissor bhi nahi hai na?

"Yeh hook thodne ke liye mujhe scissor ki zaroorat nahi hai. I can pull it out with my hands. Though the words were in the context of situation it had more sensual meaning to it. Gauri looked at him, his face expression was still confusing for her but the voice drove her crazy. What does he mean? His gaze again turned to intense and she was feeling the heat.

Gauri was in a fix. She was standing there for brief 2 minutes without knowing what to tell. He came up to her. He noticed her flustered face and pink cheeks. Just half an hour before, there was a heavy emotional moment. He didn't think he could retract from that easily. But his wife is capable of pulling wonders even with a lock of hair. He was feeling the intensity raising within him on seeing her pink cheeks.. "Gauri, Let me do this.. he was thinking inside..

Gauri was still confused that how can he pull out the hook which is sticked so hard with the fabric. She had no other way other than to let him do this. But she was the one doing big talks a little before. What will he think now?

"Omkaara ji, aap haath se hi nikaal sakthe hain kya? She sounded doubtful but carefully avoided his eyes. She definitely can't see his eyes now.

"Shak hain tumhe..?

"Nahi.. Par wo hook itni si hai naa. Issliye pooch rahi hoon.

"idhar aao.. His tone was strong. "Main nikaltha hoon.. Agar dard hua to batao..

Gauri moved closer to him. Omkaara certainly expect this night would be one of kind. His wife is a puzzle who is capable of pulling out a myriad of emotions in him in a short span. Omkaara pulled her a little more closer with one hand. His hand seeped inside the strap with other hand. Gauri felt a pulse of vibrations when he trailed his hand through her strap. She was trying to control herself but she was new to this arena.. He felt her response to his every single touch, he was loosing sense of the situation now and was trying to control himself. He held the strap into his hands and pulled it a little. Gauri felt the fabric tightening in her chest. She held his shirt for balance. Before she could realize, he had already ripped it apart. Gauri was still holding on to his shirt. He was standing unmoved. After few minutes, he whispered in her ears. "Gauri.. Hogaya..

She was standing with a blank expression. She had never been inthis unknown arena

"Ab tumhe koi shak hai, mujhpe?

His voice and eyes teasing her, she ran into the washroom.

<To be cont>