Arshi SS: Lonely last Part up 3.6.17 - Page 21

I am surprised to see Nanheji. He comes towards me and wipes my tears.He was my only true friend. He was the one who blindly trusted me when I told about Shyam.

" I am sorry for not being here when you needed me" he is guilty for something which wasn't a mistake.

"You need not apologize Nanheji, in fact you have never hurt me" I hold his palm n assure him.

" Don't cry. These tears don't suit you" he says.

I smile amidst the tears.

"I missed you, thanks for being here" I say while a lone tear flows from my eye.

He side hugs me.

"Now I m here, so I won't let anyone hurt you, or let you be alone"

"Why is life so complicated Nanheji?" I ask him sadly.

"I don't know, maybe its the harsh truth." He sighs.

There is mere silence.

"Don't hide your pain Khushiji, let it go"

I nod my head.

"Why did they have to blame me for each n everything? I just wanted to show the bitter truth to Mrs.Jha. But as people say, everyone love the beautiful lie than the bitter truth. I guess I shouldn't have told the truth, they ruined me!! "

"No Khushiji, you didn't do wrong. You wanted to save Di, but if they treated you badly, it doesn't mean that you did wrong. You are a nice person Khushiji, you have been tolerating their taunts n tortures, if I was in your place then I would have put them in jail."

"I don't want to put them behind the bars. I just want some peace, that's it! I want them to realize that they can't hurt one person for another, but maybe they were too blind for their daughter." I cry.

He wipes my tears.

"You are a strong woman Khushiji, don't cry" he consoles me.

He gets a phone call. Its an important call i guess. He cups my cheek n tells me to take care. He goes out of the room. I close the door. I am very much angry n frustrated with the Raizadas.

its all because of Phati Saree
For you Anjali bitiya is suffering
You are responsible for her sadness
Khushi bitiya don't go before Anjali bitiya.
You almost killed her!
Why did you have to tell the truth?
Why don't we send Phati Saree to jail?
She took our bitiya's happiness away, Shyam wasn't like this before she entered our life
She must have trapped Shyam
She cast evil eyes on our bitia's happily married life
She is responsible

I am unable to bear more. Their harsh words are ringing on my ears. I scream. Nobody is gonna come because of the soundproof wall. I cry aloud. I throw all the things away! I want to let my frustration out. I cry more.

*************
Arnav's POV

I am much late today. I was busy with a meeting. I just hope everything is alright with Khushi. I don't know why I am getting a bad feeling. I am feeling uneasy. I open the door of our room. Khushi is keeping a vase back on the table.

The room looks pretty clean. Maybe she shifted the places of few things.

"Hi" I say, hoping that she turns to see me.

"Hi" she says sweetly. I m very surprised. She never greeted me happily in this one month. She has always ignored my hi byes. What's wrong today?

Why is looking happy? No, she is faking. I can see that. There is something wrong. I can make out from her face.

"Is everything OK Khushi? R u fine?" I ask her out of concern.

My heart is beating faster. She doesn't look at me, she nods her head. My Khushi is lying, I know. She is hiding something from me.

I go to her and cup her cheeks.

"Khushi look at me and tell if everything is fine" I demand.

The next minute I feel her in my arms. This is the second shock I m receiving today. This is the first time she is initiating the hug. I feel a tug in my heart when she sobs in my arms.

My hands automatically reaches her hair.

"Khushi" I exclaim. She cries more.

"What's wrong, love?"

Khushi (clutching my shirt): Thak gaye hum aise ghut ghut ke jeekar. Ab hum mein aur himmat nahi hai yeh sab sehne ki. Hum ab aur bardaasht nahi kar sakte. ( I m tired living with this suffocation. I have don't have any more strength to tolerate these. I cannot tolerate anymore.)

I cannot stand her tears.

"I regret today for telling about Shyam's truth. It caused more harm n misery in my life. But what could I do? I could not see him destroy our lives. I was quiet when he betrayed me. I thought Mrs.Jha would be heartbroken! But I couldn't stop myself from revealing the truth when he kidnapped you, because it was about YOU!!! But I realize that it was my biggest mistake because I m getting punished for that. They think I ruined her life."

She gulps her throat whereas I snuggled more into her. I know she needs me. I keep caressing her hair. I was getting emotional too.

" I didn't do anything Arnavji, trust me. I m not responsible for Mrs.Jha's sadness. But why do they think that its my fault? They told Me not to go in front of her, I obeyed them. It was difficult for me to stay alone. They made me feel lonely, and when I finally got adjusted to being alone, they want me back. I m not a toy to be played. I have feelings. They want me because Mrs.Jha is happy. Why is my freedom, my actions based on Mrs.Jha happiness? Why am I allowed to be happy or act happy only when she is happy? I denied to join them for dinner, yesterday, and that became a sin for them. They denied me to join them since a month, and that's their "concern" for Mrs.Jha, no matter that decision of theirs broke my heart into pieces, but yet its CORRECT according to them.

I whispered a Shhh, when I feel her hicupping between her tears. A lone tear escapes from my eyes. I can feel her insecurities regarding Di. Today I see myself in my wife's position n i can feel her pain. Anyone in her place would have left this home by now. I feel extremely bad about my family's behavior. They were indeed partial towards her.

I feel bad when she cries non stop. I guess its an improvement in her health, because she had not cried since one and half month, even when she was hurt. Its good that she is letting out her pain.

"Am I not a human and don't I have feelings?" She asks Me.

"You do" I reply softly, kissing her hair.

"Then why do they take me for granted?"

I am speechless. I don't know what to say. She hugs me tighter.

"Hushh" I try to calm her, "I will make everything alright Khushi" I assure her. I can't see my wife suffering anymore. I am heartbroken seeing her devastated. She needs me now, a lot.

She slowly breaks the hug. I wipe the tears from her cheeks.

"I have to confess" she says, gulping her throat. I wonder what she has to say now. I patiently listen.

"I broke your favorite coffee mug, out of anger. Blame your family, they provoked me" she says like a small kid.

I chuckle and touch my forehead with hers. She smiles.

"Its OK, I will buy another one." I say calmly.

"Will everything be alright?"

"Yes Khushi"

I bend and lift her in my arms. She wraps her hands over my neck. That's her usual way. I look at her and take her towards the bed. I lay her above the soft bed. I kiss her forehead and cover her with the blanket.

"Sleep.. you will feel better" I say.

I stand properly, n turn to go out, but she holds my arm.

"Don't leave me alone" she pleads.

I nod and sleep beside her. She hugs me tightly. I won't let her suffer anymore. Enough of pain, now she deserves only happiness. I kiss her hair.

***********

I glance at her before going out of the room. Its 11.00pm now. She is deep asleep. I know Nk is back, in fact he came back on my request. I go out. I m surprised to see No awake at this hour.

"Nannav" he calls me.

I go towards him. He hugs me.

"How are you Nk? Thanks for coming back"

"Anything for Khushiji. BTW how is she now?"

"You know the matter?" I ask him, surprised.

"I saw everything from my eyes, I loved the way she confronted them. Nannav I never knew that my family was so selfish that they hurt a poor soul" he says angrily.

"I was a part of her sadness"I confess.

He frowns.

"Meaning?"

We both now sit on the staircase.

"Ours was a contract marriage. Everyone thought we had a runaway marriage because we loved each other, but that was because I misunderstood her . I thought she and Shyam had an affair n they were betraying Di. I wanted to say this to Di but then I came to know that Di is pregnant. N hence I married Khushi to save my Di's marriage, n that became the beginning of her sorrows. I treated her worse than a human, I blamed her each n every second. I made her life miserable. She tolerated everything for Payal. I had threatened her that if she wants Payash to be happy with each other then she has to stay with me for six months. One fine day in GH, I told her why I married her. She kept pleading that she didn't cheat Di, she said she didn't love Shyam, but I didn't believe her. I thought she was faking a story. But, when I was kidnapped, she saved me, and that's when I started believing her. She had to risk her life to prove me that she loves me and only me."

A tear escapes my eyes. Nk gives me a disgusted look.

"She had to fake that she loved him, just to know your whereabouts Nannav. You know how disgusted she felt when he was near her?" He tells me angrily.

I gulp my throat. My wife is an angel.
I know that now.

"That was not the end of her sorrows"

I explain him how I blamed her as the biggest mistake of my life and how my family treated her all along.

"The turning point of my life was when she went missing. I can't forget that day when Di did an accident"

I am damn shocked to know that Di made an accident. Why did she have to drive to meet Shyam? That snake who ruined our life. He almost tried to kill me. Nobody knows the fact other than me, Nani and Mami. I hope Mami doesn't spread this news. I don't want my Di to go behind the bars.

I go to Nani's room. Mami is already here.

"Di is very scared now. I will handle the situation. You dont tell this to anyone" I say.

"If Anjali bitiya had not drove the car then this accident wouldn't have happened" I see Nani exclaiming.

"I have talked to the doctor, the patient is fine now"I say

" What if he opens his mouthwa? Anjali bitya has to go to jailwa." I see Mami crying.

"Mami he hasn't seen her face. It was too dark when Di had called me. The patient told only about long haired woman. He doesn't know more than that."

"What to do Chotte? I have made her sleep with great difficulty. She was crying all along. She is very guilty for what she did. We can't send her to jail." Nani says

"Why did she have to drive? Was that creep so important? " I am angry

" Bhy don't we hide her from the police? That car belongs to us, n the scratches on the car clearly says that the accident took place from our car. We can't escape from police." Mami is still crying.

"She has sufferer so much right now and upon that this accident" Nani is on the verge of crying.

"How can we hide Di from police?" I am worried.

Mami wipes her tears.

"Why don't we put the blame on Phati Saree? Even she has long hair, n if you remember, she has also worn the same coloured Kurta today. Thankfully Anjali bitiya had wiped her fingerprints"

I am disgusted to hear her. What kind of person is she? How can she even think of blaming my Khushi for something she never did? I love my Di a lot, maybe blind love, but I am not so blind in her love that I will send my wife to jail to cover her mistakes. Why should my wife suffer always? What is her fault. I am hell angry on Mami.

"Yeah you are right,why don't we send Khushi to jail? In fact why don't we start a scheme, 'Khushi has to cover Anjali bitiya's mistakes and she has to suffer'. That must make you all happy. Why Mami? What say? Di has done a mistake, but why the hell do you want my wife to suffer? Isn't she a part if this family? Doesn't she have the right to stay happy? Why do you blameher for everything? Why is Khushi targeted as the scapegoat always? I am very much disgusted on hearing you " I am angry.

"But phati Saree.."

"Stop. I don't Want you to take her name from your mouth. I won't let you send Khushi to jail. My wife doesn't deserve it. If Di has to go to jail, then she will, but I won't let you send my wife to jail"

She keeps quiet. Nani glares at Mami. There is a knock on the door. We all step out. It's the police. I am a bit scared.

"I will handle this"

"Mr.Raizada we have got to know that Mr.Shetty's accident took place from your car. Who made the accident?"

"Yeah, it.."

"It happened because of me. I did the accident" I hear Di. She is crying.

"Anjali bitiya" Mami n Nano nod their head in a no.

" no, I can't live with this guilt. I have to admit my fault. I am feeling bad for what I did. I shouldn't have run away that time, I had even tried to cover my mistake by wiping the fingerprints, I am sorry. I feel extremely bad for what I did." Di admits her fault.

I am happy they Di didn't try to hide the truth. I respect her decision of admitting her crime. I see the police arresting her, I won't let her stay in jail for a long time. I immediately call Aman to make the bail paper's ready. After all it's a minor accident.

**********
After 2 hrs Di gets her bail. Finally Mr.Shetty's wife takes back his case after I and Di persuade her. I come back to home with Di. I finally enter my room. But khushi is missing. I wonder where she is. I search for her everywhere, she isn't here. I take my car and go to GH. She isn't there too. Her phone is switched off. I search for her in the city, but I can't find her. I am hell worried. Did she leave me? I make a ticket to Lucknow.

**********
Its seven days since she went missing. I had to take the help of police.

It was useless to go to Lucknow, I didn't find her there. She was nowhere. I am back to Delhi. I am crying in the streets of Delhi. How can she leave me? My Khushi left me. Suddenly I get a call on my mobile.

"Asr we tracked Khushi, she is in Xxx street in Delhi,in yyy house" he gives me the address. I am thankful to Aman.

I immediately go to that house. I don't even ring the bell n just enter the house, calling Khushi. She hides behind some lady. I pull her out.

Nk, "then what happened?"

"That day she made me realize how important she is, in my life" I say

"She misunderstood that I came to put her to jail. She was reluctant to come back to me"

"Khushi why do you think I will send you to jail?"

"Because the only person you are concerned is your Di. Nobody else matters to you. Your Di did accident n you want to send me to jail? Why Arnavji?"

"You r getting Me wrong Khushi" I try to explain her.

"I heard you. You wanted to send me to jail, I m sure of that"

"Khushi.."

"I am not yet done. Kyun Arnavji? Aapki behen ki izzat, izzat!! Aur hamari izzat? Kya woh koi mayne nahi lagta? Kya sirf aapki behen dukhi hai? Hamare dukh ka kya? Aap usey nazarandaaz kaise kar sakte hai?" She shouts.

"N that day I realized how partial I was with her n Di. Even my wife's self respect is important. How could I ignore that? I was guilty for my deeds."

"Where had she stayed?" Nk asks

"In Dr.Naina Batra's house. She had argued with me a lot. Khushi was also reluctant to return.Back with me. Then I had to explain her that she had misunderstood me. Dr.Batra was no less than Khushi's lawyer. I had to explain her how much I missed Khushi, and how wrong she was about me. I hadn't intended to send my wife to jail, it was Mrs.Manorama Raizada. Naina had taken care of my wife very well. If Khushi had a sibling, then she would be like Naina."

"Ohh."

"That day when Khushi believed me when I told she had misunderstood me, my respect for her had increased. I felt I am not worth her. She deserved better. When she had told me about Shyam, I hadn't trusted her, but that day when same happened to me and when I explained her, she trusted me. After a long argument she came back with me. Naina had left no stone unturned to keep Khushi with her and deny her to come to me. Then I was told about Khushi's depression." I sigh

"Khushiji is under depression?" Nk is shocked.

"She is under treatment. After Khushi came back, Dr.Batra had called me, and told me about her depression. I was also shocked. But right now Khushi is doing better. I thought everything would be alright after Khushi came back. I started concentrating on Khushi more. I gave my whole time to her and her health, but I guess the situation in home turned worst. I am sad that she had to suffer so much today"

"So basically it was just you and Naina on Khushi's side?" Nk frowns.

I nod my head.

"No wonder how much I dislike Dr.Batra, I cant deny that she loves and cares for my wife" I state proudly.

"What about Payal bhabi?" Nk is curious.

"Don't even ask. She turned out to be a vamp." I grit my teeth.

" I am sorry for not being here when she wanted me" Nk says sadly. I side hug him.

"Now when you are here, I want you to take care of my Khushi, in my absence" I instruct him. He obeys.

We hear some noise from my room. I guess Khushi is awake.

"I need to go" I say to Nk.

**************

"What happened?" I ask her, "what was that noise?"

"It was so dark here, so when I got up to find you, I bumped with the tea table. Btw where were you?"

I check her leg, she doesn't have any wound.

"You should have taken care. I wasn't sleepy, so I just went out" I reply.

"Its already 11.45, we need to sleep" she tells me. I agree.

I cant believe I Spoke with Nk for 45 minutes.

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