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Hola amigos, I am back with a new OS. Got really bore of studying, so thought of writing this.From where I got this idea, will tell you after the OS.
Silence
"Wow di! You are looking beautiful! Jiju will not going to leave you today! " I smiled, looking at me, on his big mirror!
"Shut up Preety! It's nothing like that! "
"Achcha! Look at your face, you are practically a fire ball now!" Preety nodded! "By the way, you never told me, how jiju expresses his love, like, does he say, ' Sumo meri jaan mere paas aao, or does he say, my love looking so sexy! Can't control myself' haan?"
I looked at her beaming face, "So sorry to burst your bubble my little sis, he doesn't say any of this! "
"Hain!! How come! I don't believe this! Jiju is so romantic! Have you ever seen him, watching you! My god! I wish Pushkar bhi aisa hota! " she sighed! "Woh to bass baatein hi karta rehta hai! No intensity! "
I laughed at her antics! "But sometimes it is good to express your self!"
"Sometimes di, not all the time! Chalo.. You get ready for the party! Jiju bhi aate hi honge! " she got up from the couch and scrutinized me "waise party mein jaa paoge yeh guarantee nahin hai! "
"Chal bhag yahanse, kuch bhi! "
"Sumo ready? I am going to get... " Shravan stopped looking at me and gulped the next sentence down! I was wearing his favorite peach coloured saree after all!
Seeing his reaction, I smiled and asked " how am I looking? "
He just kept looking at me!
"How am I looking Shravan? " I asked him, this time closing the distance, encircling my hands around his neck!
"Ahemm! Nice! " he cleared his throat!
"Just nice? "
"Noo, I mean really nice! "
I rolled my eyes and captured his lips, and he reciprocated with same fervour!
"Go get ready Pati, or we will get late! " I smiled after this beautiful encounter!
"Sumo stop please! Sumo please listen to me! "
"I really don't want to talk to you! So...if you don't mind may I? " I put my necklace and earrings on the vanity, and took my towel and went straight to bathroom!
"Sumo? " he nudged me slightly. "Sumo? So gayi kya! " I was quite awake, but didn't answer!
"Sumo I know tum jagi hui ho! "
"Haan hoon! To? Disturb mat karo! "
"Sumo...please I am...I am... " he fumbled!
"Kya Shravan... I am what? " this time I turned to look at him! And what I saw was something I never wanted to see! His teary eyes! "Shravan yeh.. .tum.. " I sat up facing him, crossing my legs!
"Sorry! " he whispered! "really I am! "
"I am sorry too, I over reacted! But tum hi socho...tumne kya kiya! Actually kya nahin kiya! "
"Sorry! " he sat there with that sulky face!
"It's okay! Chodo! So jao! " I caressed his face and smiled!
"I..woh I... ! " he whispered again!
"Abhi koshish kar rahe ho wahan kyun nahin kiya? Chotisi dare thi, apni biwi ko I love you bolna hai! But no! You couldn't! Sab hans rahe the! "
"Actually itne sare logon ke samne... Main.. " he was still looking at his hands which were intertwined with mine!
"Shravan! Abhi bhi to nahin bol paa rahe ho! Abto koi nahin! "
"I love you! " he only mouthed the word, there wasn't any sound, not even a whisper!
"Shravan aise kaise..."
"Par tum to janti ho!" he sounded so guilty!
"Haan to? Kabhi kabhi sunna bhi achcha lagta hai na! It feels special Shravan! Har baat apne dil mein daba ke rakhna! Yeh bhi to thik nahin hai! "
"Tum to mujhe samajhti ho Sumo, main aise.. "
"I do Shravan! That doesn't mean ki I don't want to listen from you! It feels nice, it's just that...you don't love me enough to... " he looked at me and the hurt in his eyes were so prominent, that I couldn't finish my sentence!
"Sorry Sumo, mujhe laga tha ki, tum mere dil ki baat aise hi jaan lete ho! Aur koi na sahi, tum mujhe... Chodo.. Shayad meri kismat hi kharab hai! " he pulled his hand away from mine.
"Shravan.. I didn't mean it.. Shravan! "
He lied down beside me "Good night Sumo! I hope ki tum... " he sighed and closed his eyes!
"What happened di? Mood off? " Preety asked me while making breakfast!
"Kuch nahin! " I nodded.
"Don't tell me, firse!" she rolled her eyes! "Waise aap jiju se jhara kar kaise lete ho yaar! He is such a sweetheart! "
"Haan ghalati humesha meri hi hoti hai! "
"Di please yaar, aap... " preety's accusations stopped in middle as we heard a loud crunch from upstairs!
"It came from jiju's study right? " preety was already running towards the staircase.
"But Shravan to kabka nikal chuka hai Chandigarh ke liye, uski hearing hai na, parso lautega! "
"Hain... Fir yeh awaz kaisi? " she was debating whether to go there alone or not! It might be a thief but at this hour!
"Ruk main bhi aa rahi hoon! " I put the gas off.
We went to Shravan's study, and there we saw Kamal sitting on the floor with a wooden box on his lap, clutching his head, and there was a visible bump on his forehead,
"Kamal, yeh kya hua? "
"Sorry bhabhi woh saaf kar raha tha, to yeh box upar se gira! " he was almost on the verge of crying!
"Upar se? "
"Ji woh uss ahlmari ke upar se! Itni dhool thi to socha saaf kar doon! " he got up still holding his head.
"Aap ayiye main baraf de deti hoon! " Preety took him along her.
"Aisa kya hai isme!" I opened the box and there were diaries that too eleven! "Itni saari..." I opened a random one!
Year 2010
"Today is 1st January, going for a party with my friends, , but...still missing my Sumo! "
The line stung me somewhere! He was in London that time. And more over he was angry with me! He described each and every thing that happened in that party, but the things that captured my eyes were, he also described how much he missed me, how much he wanted ne to be there, how much he was feeling lonely in that crowd!
I closed the diary and called Preety, to ask if she could send my breakfast to my room. I lifted the box and went straight to my room! This was something I couldn't miss! My key to enter Shravan's head!
I opened the first diary,
year 2006
"I am going Sumo, tumse door, humesha humesha ke liye! Tum khush raho apne doston ke sath! Main tumhe kabhi pareshaan nahin karunga! Tumne jo kuch bhi kiya hai mere sath, main kabhi nahin bhuloonga! Itna sab kuch hone ke baad bhi I love you Sumo! I love you! "
All of a sudden the words becoming hazy, I realised, I was crying! I flipped the page over, and started reading, I read it all! This was the first year of his in London! He wrote everything that happened in that year, how he was hesitated to befriend others, how he was missing home, his father and of course me!
2007
2008
2009
2010
2011
2012
2013
2014
2015
2016
It took me 3 days to complete ten diaries! I didn't come out much from my room except for breakfast, I had my lunch and dinner at my room!
Reading this ten diaries was rollercoaster ride for me! I always had this confidence that I knew my Shravan in and out, I knew, that he loved me, I knew he longed for me, just like I did in those ten years! But now that I had read his diaries, I knew I was wrong! He loved me, he missed me, he longed for me more than I could imagine, I had my family here, but he was alone there! Whatever he had done in London, he only wished to be with me, only wanted to share with me!
I sighed! Holding the last diary!
2017
In this diary he wrote about how he felt, when he saw me first time after ten long years, our fighting, our friendship, Preety-Pushkar's shaadi, Aditya and how he got so jealous of him, our court marriage, the way he behaved initially after getting married and how much he hated it, our confession, our first night together. He had written, every small thing about me, he noted my habits, my likings, my dislikings, and he had written how much he loved me! He never told me any of this! But astonishingly, he had not written a word after we became one! The rest of the diary was empty! "Aise kaise... " I went to his study again, "Shayad ek aur diary ho!" But all in vain,! "Bich mein chod diya likhna! Par kiyun!"
Shravan had returned from Chandigarh, the monent he stepped into the house, he knew something was wrong with me! All the time he was looking at me with a v in middle of his eyebrows!
After the dinner I retired to my room, "Kya hua Sumo? Kuch hua hai kiya? " he was waiting for me!
"Nahin to... Kyun? "
"Nahin, tumhara chehra, aisa tabhi hota hai jab tum pareshan hoti ho! " he caressed my face!
"Really? Aur kab kab mera chehra kya kya hota hai? " I encircled my arms around his shoulder and looked into his eyes!
"Woh... Main... I mean! " he fumbled!
"Kya Shravan diary main likh sakte ho, par bol nahin sakte? "
"Diary? "
I pointed towards the box, sitting on the table!
"Tumhe yeh kahanse mila..."
"Thanks to Kamal warna mujhe to patah hi nahin chalta, kay I smell like a wild flower! " he gaped at me, "mujhe yeh bhi nahin patah chalta ki main jab neend mein hoti hoon, tumhare T-shirt ka kona pakad kay soti hoon.. Aur.. "
"Sumo.. " he was truly embarrassed!
"Kya Sumo, Shravan? Tumne kaha tha ki you have moved on! Par London mein itna miss kiya kay har page pe mera hi naam! Haan? "
He smiled, "I was an idiot! "
"You still are! " I laughed. "But ek question hai! " he nodded, "Tumne suddenly diary likhna chod kyun diya? "
He made me sit on his lap, and pulled me closer in his embrace, "Kyunki tum mujhe mil gayi thi, puri tarah se! Main diary tab likhta tha, jab tum mere sath nahin thi, mujhe koi samajhne wala nahin tha, par ab tum ho, mujhe diary likhne ki zaroorat hi nahin hai! "
I smiled in his chest, clutching him more tightly, how dumb I was truly, I was angry with him, why, because he couldn't say 'I love you' to me! I whacked my head, in my head!
"Shravan.. "
"Hmmm"
"I am sorry, for that day, I will never do that again! "
"It's okay Sumo, no need to say anything more! " he tighten his arms around me!
"Sumo..." he whispered in my hair!
"I know, I love you too! "
'Sometimes, the most meaningful things are found through silence.' I understood that day.
So this is it! I don't know, whether it makes any sense to you all or not! But now, from where did I find the idea, I was reading some comments on Destined, I read comment of Mystic Rever, she never really commented using more than two words! This story is for you! Thank you for commenting on every post I have made! Those are really special for me!
P. S. please let me know whether this OS make sense or not, will be waiting for your comments or messages!
P. S. S Destined will be up by 3-4 days.
Ohhh yes, please excuse the typos!
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