Hello to everyone who is reading this one shot. it is nothing special but i just wanted to try something for shivika. i haven't written anything in almost 2 years. my previous works were ton TaaRey - D3
so the idea for the one shot came when i was listening to the song " kabhi yaadon mein" and all i thought about was when shivaay came looking for anika and i dont know if this song suits this os ... thats for you to see...
its almost same as the original and still very much different..
if you like it do hit the like button and comment
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That day when pinky aunty told me to leave him I wanted to say no but maybe she was right, I was responsible for his critical condition. He was fighting for his life when it should have been me. I should have been there and it wouldn't have mattered if I had died. I know it was pathetic, the self pity I was feeling but what else could I do. I couldn't see him die with the knowledge that he took the bullet for me. I wanted to stay so bad but I had to go so I waited outside the hospital atleast till I knew he was out of danger or maybe he was awake and then I would leave... for good.
Kabhi yaadon mein aaun
Kabhi khwaabon mein aaun (x2)
So I couldn't deny pinky aunty's wish and left after rudra came looking for me and told me that shivaay had a panic attack of sorts when he woke up and didn't find me. Rudra had a plan to sneak me in shivaye's room and as desperately as I wanted to go see him , I refused to disobey pinky aunty. even if people may think she was overeacting or she was wrong , she was a mother ,a helpless one and she was just trying to protect her son. I gave my bracelet to rudra and told him to give it to shivaay if he'll have it because that's the only thing she could give him and it was enough for her that shivaay was out of danger now, he'll be fine because he is The Shivaay Singh Oberoi.
I left and stayed at a friends house and I picked sahil from the oberoi mansion without anyone finding out I was there.
Teri palkon ke saaye
Mein aakar jhilmilaun
Main wo khushboo nahin jo
Hawaa mein kho jaaun
a few hours later
it was bright outside and sahil was sleeping. I thought about everything that's happened in the past 24 hours. My fight with shivaay and shivaay getting shot. I loved him, something that shouldn't have happened and I knew shivaay didn't love me but we did have a relationship. We were friends now, partners and we trusted each other. Shivaay wasn't a bad person, he was just fiercely protective of his brothers and his family and I couldn't understand that why he saved me.
Hawaa bhi chal rahi hai
Magar tu hi nahi hai
Fiza rangeen bani hai
Kahaani keh rahi hai
Mujhe jitna bhulaao
Main utna yaad aaun
I talked to rudra and saumya , they told me that shivaay was furious and he left as soon as he woke up at home. Apparently pinky aunty didn't trust my words of staying away from shivaay so she brought him home without any of his brothers knowing. I was so worried that I went out looking for him and kept contact with om who was also looking for shivaay and I went to the hospital thinking that maybe he thought I was still there. As soon as I reached the hospital I saw his car thereand informed om that shivaay was indeed at the hospital.
(music)
Until om arrived I decided to stay and keep an eye on him. He was in a white kurta pacing in front of his car. He looked frustrated and kept looking here and there and then suddenly he turned and banged his fist on the hood of the car. After a second his hand was on his heart and my breath stopped, he had my bracelet in his hand which was on his heart.
Haa... jo tum na milte
Hota hi kya dhoondh laane ko (x2)
On instinct I stepped forward out of my hiding place behind the tree and stopped short when I realised I couldn't go to help him, my eyes pricked with unshed tears. I was looking at him when something in his expression changed and he looked in my direction but luckily I was hidden behind the tree again. It dawned on me that maybe shivaay realised that I was there because he just knew when I was around.
Jo tum na hote
Hota hi kya haar jaane ko
Meri amaanat ho tum
Meri mohabbat ho tum
Tumhe kaise main bhulaaun...
I peeked at him from behind the tree knowing fully well that he couldn't see me. Om arrived at that moment , he had a argument with him and they left. I couldn't take it anymore and came out. I sat on a nearby bench and just let my tears flow. I didn't care if people were staring, I was sad and I missed him already.
After it was out of my system I got up and started walking towards the road. It was hard but I had to do it and leave him alone. I wiped my tears and a pair of leather chappals came into my view and I looked up slowly. My brain took time to take it all in but my heart already knew.
Tu aasmaan mera jahaan lage mujhe
Tu raaston ki manzilein lage mujhe
Tu hi meri chandni wo
Raaton ko jo halki si jale
Tu hi meri shaam-o-sehar
Jo mere sang chale
My heart was beating a tattoo at my chest. I tried to say something but the way he was looking at me ,my lips were sealed. Them om spoke and my trance broke.
"he knew you were there"
And didn't I already know that he knew I was there. Then he spoke " lets go home anika" and that was just the thing I couldn't do. He moved to hold my hand but I took a step back. " I can't shivaay, I cant go home"
"if this is about what mom said then I will talk to her, you don't need to worry"
" no! its not that, I can't make you choose between I and your mom, its wrong"
" I'm not choosing you or her, I need you anika, I need you by my side"
Hawaa bhi chal rahi hai
Magar tu hi nahi hai
Fiza rangeen bani hai
Kahaani keh rahi hai
Mujhe jitna bhulaao
Main utna yaad aaun
"but.." " no buts anika..." And this time it was om who spoke " you don't have to leave, you should understand that choti maa doesn't know tia's truth that's why she is so against you... she is just angry"
" I promised her om, because it is true, shivaay got shot because of me"
"shut up anika..." shivaay warned me " I would have done the same for my family and you are my wife and my responsibility. Mom can say all she wants but you are not leaving and I am not leaving this place without you"
" if you don't get inside the car right now, I can do it for you" he warned me and opened the backseat door .
I willed myself to move but my legs didn't coorperate. Shivaay growled my name like he does every time he is angry at me and that was enough , I sat in the car and he shut the door.
I thought he was going to take the passenger seat but he came around and got inside the car and took his seat next to me.
Kabhi yaadon mein aao
Kabhi khwaabon mein aao (x2)
I was shocked and even more when he took my left hand and tied my bracelet around my wrist and then didn't leave my hand even when I tried to move away.
He closed his eyes and layed his head on my shoulder. " I am tired anika, don't you move" he was threatening me and I realised that the tadibaaz shivaay was back and as the car neared its destination I knew that whatever happened shivaay wouldn't leave me alone.
Meri palkon ke saaye
mein aakar jhilmilao
Feeling his steady breath and his head on my shoulder I was happy and I didn't want this to end...
Ooo...
Hmm...
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also i want to say that pinky is being too frustrating and irritating but i still gave some benefit of doubt to her here...
and i am in love with this song. i played it on repeat while i was writing this os😆
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Anupamaa
