Shivaay's plight: Belongingness

Shivaay - a simple man complicated in a web of his beliefs and ideas... If only he understands him!!!

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I believe you belong to me... Whatsoever happens or doesn't happen, this would never change.

I believe you are different from the rest... the exceptional one...

I believe, you raising question on me and at me is valid, inspite of me liking it or not.

I believe, you could never act immoral, but I cannot trust myself

I sense you are the one for me, though I hate to admit it.

I sense I could give away anything for you, though I am not brave enough to do it.

I sense you, because I want you to be around me somehow always

I sense the connection between us, inspite of running miles away from the realisation

I know I want to lose myself in you and evolve, but I am scared for the change

I know you are priceless, but such thing doesn't exist in my world.

I know I could renounce everything for you, but I am bound to it.

I know I cannot be myself if I ever happen to be away from you.

I realise my life slowly started revolving around you.

I realise your acceptance is needed for my every action

I realise your words are needed for me to function

I realise your presence is needed for my existence.

But...

I thought you've wronged me...

Yet...

I want you to prove me you belong to me...

I want you to show me you are the one for me...

I want you to lose you in me...

I want you to be my life...

Because...

I accept you belong to me and... just me...

Will you be mine... and just mine?

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A sense of Belonging, that is what he needs the most... Acceptance by a person, whom he can consider only his... That's the prime reason, Annika has always been his target of various moods and that's why, he makes sure she doesn't change her opinion about him - Tadibaaz.

Since the beginning, even after initial understanding, though he hates her badtameezi, he makes sure she is always badtameez to him. Because he is not sure how he would feel if she be nice to him. He thinks that's their equation. And that will be their formula equation.

Shivaay's complicated mindset - owes to his family, taking over the family responsibility in younger age, none to be an example to him. His life hasn't been that easy - struggle, responsibility, stress, loneliness... Though his siblings are his life, he is a guardian to them, first, then a brother. His frustration and his disappointments over the years are being vented on the person, whom he considers he belong to...

In my opinion, he is not a namoona, but one among us. He belongs to the category - If a trusted one deceives him, he will destroy them and they don't exist for them.

If that sense of belonging is truly meted, then he will melt down slowly. Though love exists, belongingness and acceptance secures the person. When it is met with, Shivaay will come out of his complicated web by himself. He is not the 'taming the beast' category, he is the one who needs 'Main hoon na' category.

P.S: It's entirely my own POV, based on my real life examples. No offence to anyone plz...

Lovely..

Originally posted by: abhilashasharma

Shivaay - a simple man complicated in a web of his beliefs and ideas... If only he understands him!!!

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I believe you belong to me... Whatsoever happens or doesn't happen, this would never change.

I believe you are different from the rest... the exceptional one...

I believe, you raising question on me and at me is valid, inspite of me liking it or not.

I believe, you could never act immoral, but I cannot trust myself

I sense you are the one for me, though I hate to admit it.

I sense I could give away anything for you, though I am not brave enough to do it.

I sense you, because I want you to be around me somehow always

I sense the connection between us, inspite of running miles away from the realisation

I know I want to lose myself in you and evolve, but I am scared for the change

I know you are priceless, but such thing doesn't exist in my world.

I know I could renounce everything for you, but I am bound to it.

I know I cannot be myself if I ever happen to be away from you.

I realise my life slowly started revolving around you.

I realise your acceptance is needed for my every action

I realise your words are needed for me to function

I realise your presence is needed for my existence.

But...

I thought you've wronged me...

Yet...

I want you to prove me you belong to me...

I want you to show me you are the one for me...

I want you to lose you in me...

I want you to be my life...

Because...

I accept you belong to me and... just me...

Will you be mine... and just mine?

-----
A sense of Belonging, that is what he needs the most... Acceptance by a person, whom he can consider only his... That's the prime reason, Annika has always been his target of various moods and that's why, he makes sure she doesn't change her opinion about him - Tadibaaz.

Since the beginning, even after initial understanding, though he hates her badtameezi, he makes sure she is always badtameez to him. Because he is not sure how he would feel if she be nice to him. He thinks that's their equation. And that will be their formula equation.

Shivaay's complicated mindset - owes to his family, taking over the family responsibility in younger age, none to be an example to him. His life hasn't been that easy - struggle, responsibility, stress, loneliness... Though his siblings are his life, he is a guardian to them, first, then a brother. His frustration and his disappointments over the years are being vented on the person, whom he considers he belong to...

In my opinion, he is not a namoona, but one among us. He belongs to the category - If a trusted one deceives him, he will destroy them and they don't exist for them.

If that sense of belonging is truly meted, then he will melt down slowly. Though love exists, belongingness and acceptance secures the person. When it is met with, Shivaay will come out of his complicated web by himself. He is not the 'taming the beast' category, he is the one who needs 'Main hoon na' category.

P.S: It's entirely my own POV, based on my real life examples. No offence to anyone plz...

This is beautiful. The best analysis of Shivaay that I have ever read.👍🏼

You have explained Shivaayvery well. Very good post

Although I don't agree completely but your writing is so beautiful and makes sense.

Explained Shivay so beautifully here...loved it, brilliant ❤️

Lovely post...sheer brilliance 👍🏼

Wow...superb post...beautifully written on Shivaay.👍🏼

well written abilasha.