This is not a post if you want to be happy ... And the suman part is somewhere in the middle...
And this is for 15 november 2016
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Those cvs have seriously up their dosage of what ever they where smoking in the writing room...😡
If you thought this show was Mother-
effing confusing before then you where fooling yourself..the suman-Rk-sujata equation just got complicated...
Jnndsd just went from illogical , confusing to out of this world... The cvs just single handedly killed , every point of reason that ever existed on this earth... For those who didn't care it was a good episode but for me I couldn't enjoy it because , everything that was said just ,canceled everything from before...
I just want to skip and go to the parts that pissed me off ...
How is it possible that ramakant has been gone for 27yrs and not back , but suman says he left for sujata on kc while married to her , but sujata said when he left not to come back it was to marry suman...
Was he with both of them before he got married to sujata then suman or am I going crazy...if Atharva is older how old is ravish and how old would that make sumans first child??...
And the other part that pssed me off was the timeline and the fact that RAVISH found suzy and a at a hospital ... On his wedding day cvs that makes no sense ...and this part is discussed somewhere in the post...
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Let's try to take this step by step..try being the main word
Before I go on ravish , I think this is the reason I had some little faith in you , the fact that even though you have been chickening out of it for too long , when push came to shove . You shove without looking back...thank you young man...
The episodes starts with suman , and ravish going at it.
Atharva told suman ravish brought them there and ravish was like

At atharva , "but I can take it from here"
And so he told his mom

Suman couldn't believe her saint of a son could bring another human being into their house and when he confirmed that he was the one to bring in her one sided life time nemesis ( one sided because sujata has always been like

When I came to hating suman)
And with that she

Poor ravish...
After the slap she asked if vv knew about this. And ravish was like

Because on one hand , she was suppose to marry him , she love s atharva , she knew about what happened to him and knows who he is , but to answer your question .

Which just made suman angrier . I mean how dare ravish , make a decision , on his own . Without asking anybody ...
And ravish was like

And suman was all

You are grown when I say you are grown...she was angry at ravish , for ruining her life by bringing , the supposed cause of all their pains in to her house , ravish never ever thought of how she would feel, seeing the woman who had nothing , but took care of her son and brought him up into a fine young man . This woman who has fought the world all her life and suman wanted to Kill this woman because she took her husband's love . As if the giving of the love wasn't in ramakants' hands...and worst of all he lied to her ...
This woman who made her husband not really be present for ravish... I mean it made sense atharva who never knew his father and Sujata who never had a husband was the reason as to why ramakant was a shitty father / husband...
Ravish was like
No one is to blame
And suman went crazy

Its all sujata and atharv's fault. She is the reason ramakant was all


To me even in his dying bed... After 27 and up years of marriage...
And ravish was like

You can only see things from your point of view. Sujata had no husband , all her life she had to hear taunts from the society , you on the other hand was married .yet she fought to give her sone everything ,you had a husband to provide for you . she had no family just her son , you have everyone .
My father was a

And he knew that and he still did nothing. He was a coward That is why he asked ( only after his death), as his last will to find atharva and give him his rights. And so I went to look for him. On my wedding day and found him in the hospital. The same day as my wedding day . You see I with a wounded arm , in one day , after a battle searched and found my brother and also got married .
And cvs am guessing because the staff at the hospital where incompetent , that is why we had blood all over the house that night...I mean taking a brain injury patient out of the hospital immediately after he was admitted seem like the best idea of the year...and cvs don't forget this same person who needed to have broken bones and so on was running around the house like no mans business... Ravish I am very sorry that we have incompetent people writing such nonsense...
Ravish was like

The truth is I lied for your happiness.
I know you are an insecure woman . Who spent most off her life hating , two people she never met . I love you very very much and was looking for the right time to tell you...
Suman got angry and explained that the reason they don't have kc , is because when she was pregnant with her first child , she found out on kc that rk was with suzy and with the shock she miscarried ... Because of sujata always took her husband away from her...
Ravish asked why did you live him if you knew he still loved her why did you stay , you know I love you and don't want you in pain but why did you never ask him..
Suman explained , that it is the rule of humanity to always blame the woman ... I know ramakant is the two timing , spineless bas***d who gave two women hope and still couldn't keep it in his pants. ( Personally for me if a man claims love me and ends up having sex with some else while claiming to love me , I don't buy that , sujata I don't buy that . I believe , if that intimacy is there for us it should be just for our love , it should else you to want to sleep with someone else , it shouldn't be so easy that , you get some pregnant THREE times that is not love) , he did not love me a I don't think he loved sujata enough to have not fought for her. but society states , its the woman who keeps the husband from his family , not the husband taking his own two feet and walking to the woman. I was just foolish enough to love him and think that over time he would come to love me too , and because the man is never to blame , because we are suppose to worship our men , I blamed sujata , not because I think it was her fault ! But because I was jealous of her and I needed a place to direct my anger...
And ravish asked her why didn't she blame dadaji then , I know he is a man but this the wasn't your husband , he is the man that got you married to his son knowing that , that son loved some one else , he knew his son wasn't strong enough to leave him and his "duty " for his 1st wife and coming son ...why don't you blame him the man who brought up a spineless son , who made a mess of life so much that after his death , not only his wives but children are now suffering...
Dadji got angry , but ravish told him am sorry to hurt your feelings but am not sorry for speaking truth...
Ravish in the end said if it came to chose he will leave the house with sujata nd atharva than not fulffill his father's last wish...
I will just end.
Am sorry if any one is disappointed ... But today has been a dejected day ... Something you should about me , am and easy person but sometimes a random thing can spoil my mood and from yesterday to today it was the frustration of the post and now with this episode I just feel dejected...
The message it enforces on people these are two women, sujata who spent her life waiting on a man who never came , and in turn creating an internalise fear in her son and suman a woman who spent life feeling like an after thought to the man who was suppose to be her husband.. Instead of hating this man who played games with their hearts and lives they are instead expected to hate each other as being his is more important than realising if he actaully cared he wouldn't put them two through all this pain in the name of honour instead of realising only selfish peopled this and later cry about how he had no choice...
I am dejected about the fact that this is enforcing in those young girls at home that , fighting with an woman over a man instead of telling them that any man who strings two women along and emotionally abuses them is not even worth it , I am dejected and I am sad its not even worth it ...
There's a word

Let's look at suman...
All her life( okay the lost baby revelation screwed up my time line)...
She most have lived , not an unfulling life but , a live stuck in fear...
From what we know she really loved/loves ramakant...
Let's look at this from the start , suman either didn't know about sujata before she got married , or maybe dadaji told her there was a woman in Rk's life , but he is letting her go for YOU, suman like ravish as we are all claiming went into this marriage with hope ...
I don't know if she was already In love with him or fell in love after they got married , but she went in there with hope ...
Hope that if rk decided to marry her he was giving her a chance . A chance to proof that she could be the woman in his life...
I think rk gave her hope ... He gave her hope am sure , if not intentionally but by his actions ... She knew he was inlove with someone else but he had decide to committ to her and start a family with her , and he wasted no time in doing that ,.. And I think sumans hatred and eye opening started the day she lost her first child ... She couldn't hate her husband the man she loved , the man society had taught her was close to god in her eyes , so it had to be sujata's fault after all , it was this woman who had the heart she thought was becoming hers ...I think this was the first, time she really hated sujata ...
This woman who because of her, suman's husband left her on kc and went away...this hatred started because she lost her baby , this was the first time the other woman had a Big impact in her life ... Suman in her pain and believe that rk could , and would love her if it wasn't for sujata ... and that was true ... After this things got worse ...
She realised that no matter what she did she could never be "sujata" , she could never be good enough , rk might have promised never to go see sujata , but sujata's ghost was sumans competition... Suman loved rk and most have done everthing to proof that to him , perfcet wife , friend and mother but

This is a woman who had everything , but the one thing she needed was her husbands love ...
Am sure as life moved on her heart has been broken many , many times ...
As we could see rk , was her best friend . The first person you usaully call after some type of news is usually a loved one , a best freind maybe ... And he called her ... This is nothig new ... You can love your best frined and not be IN love with them , from rk's side he loved her but from sumans side she was in love with him ...
There most have been times when she most have confused, Him caring about her for him being inlove with her , I mean after years of marriage , she had the right to hope that , maybe , just maybe she might be good enough this time , maybe just maybe she won't be an after thought anymore , maybe this time he will see that she was doing her best to be the one in his heart ... And then she gets dissapointed , when an action , or word tells her that he didn't love her in that way ...

Suman most have spent sleepless nights crying her eyes out , asking her self over and over again..

What was wrong with her , why wasn't she enough , what did sujata have that she didn't . She was here now doing everything for him. Taking care of him and his family , doing everything in her power to make them happy but still , she wasn't enough... What about suajata made her husband love her soo much , what did she have to do to proof that she could be better if he just let her be ...
Sumans hatred for sujata didn't grow over night .. Its easy to hate some one who you spend your life being compared to and not in the possitive way ... Its easy to hate someone who has made you feel inadequate all through your marriage , but the person am sure suman hates the most is herself ... Suman most have thought many times throught this circle


But

So

But its too late , she can't stop caring . This is a man whom she shares three children with this is a man , she for some unknown reason to her loves and she would forever be trying to get him to love her .

because she was not sujata...
And now her son too , is chosing sujata over her . I think it has more to do with fear than hatred . I think she is thinking because of this same woman , I wasn't a good enough woman , a good a enough. Wife , my children couldnt get a comitted father, to suman its not ravish is helping someone but its "even after his death through my son , both the most imprtant men in my life are still choosing this same woman over me "

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I think to his mother ravishs' love and protection is the best think that ever happened to her ...

He understood or tried to be there for her ( he is or was the only one because we as the viewers don't even try )
He was the male present in her life , who did everything in his power to be the man that his father wasn't and couldn't be for his mother ...but the problem is his father never really respected her enough to keep her happy, he never respected her enough to not make this amazing woman feel like a stranger in her own home , he didn't respect her enough to not make her feel like she desevered to be loved ...
I don't understand how you can leave with someone for sooo many years ( before today I would have said 27 yrs 😕) and that person in all those years was sure you didn't love them at all... Was ramakant so indifferent that he made her know she wasn't the one ...??
Suman hates sujata because she is the woman who she had to fight her entire life to be better than but could never succeed...and she couldn't ever stop fighting because she was married and had children and when going into this marriage she had hope ... She thought things will change and she couldn't leave the marriage because that wasn't who she was brought up to be ... She was a woman and if something was
Wrong it had to be her ... She wasn't taught in her generation that divorce was an option ... Its a womans job to keep the house going and if it doesn't work the its her fault and because she couldn't handle the blame she shared it with sujata ...
Suman is not really fighting for the "property" but for one more thing she doesn't want to share , something in all rightness of the matter isn't supposed to be shared and her husband again haas taken away that from her and is giving it to sujata... but she again forgets she should be angry at rk...
Ramakant

You took a powerful beautiful woman who had all the hopes in this world to be happy and you made her so miserable

Sujata maybe , and the saddest part is , she doesn't see that ... She doesn't see that sujata wasn't better than her , she doesn't see that she is perfect the way she is , she doesn't see that the only person to blame is you .
You who , took the lives of many people and made the feel less adequate and the only person to every call you out on that was atharva and for that am happy about and I want ravish to be the one to open his mothers eyes to this fact ... This is the part am waiting for ...
And this post is for dreamer.ankita I promised a post and you said something about suman... Am sorry if its not that good , this was an unplanned post and I just had to post its anyway...
So tell me what do you think??
Ps: paper three was writing and creative writing😆