IT'S PAIN!!!
Yes... Ishwari... It's all about your pain... I can see you are emotionally done... mentally drained... spiritually dead too🤪... And physically tired... (Take some rest, Ishu... you are getting old...😆)
And all because you have been in the bubble that "Nothing is gonna change my world"... Isn't that the problem you want to introspect?!! Didn't you struggle hard to change your poor state and progress till here🤔?! And you very well know that you can't go back anymore, from where you started all this😉... Or do you still want to?! But you used your smoking stove in your hi-fi modular kitchen... 😆 And yeah.. now it's gone too..😲
Yes agree, it is painful to let go and change... And it is inevitable.. So... let the pain change you.. pain isn't new to you... But the suffering that you are holding yourself to... It's out of your own choice, Ish...
Are you so proud of your own stubbornness🥱??!! That anything.. anything you can achieve with it??!! Then try achieving a 'change' for a change!!!😆
IT'S TIME!!!
Yes... Ishwari... It's all about TIME to be the change... And you are only wasting the time thinking about things that you can't change🤪?! If you are waiting for a TIME to be ready, then you never will be ready for it.. NOW is the TIME... And you are only taking the TIME to resist the change with all your energy!!! Focusing more on what you have to give up...
With all your resistance, Ish...
Will you be cherishing your "bachcha-maa" moment after killing the love in his heart?!
Will you be seeing the innocent face of your "bachcha" after stabbing the childlike feelings inside him?!
Will you be smiling like a kid with him after depriving him of his happiness?!
Will you be secured under his warmth after removing his secured zone from his vicinity?!
Will you be the righteous human-being after doing everything wrong to a little kid?!!
Will you be happily stubborn in your own skin unwilling to change, for want of not changing anything between you and your son?!!...
Only to see everything changing once for all after removing his only choice of life that he chose for himself?!
Will you be the lovely mother who puts her own happiness in front of everything else and have her son learn the reality of life in hard way... Only to know everything was so WRONG!!! And you were so WRONG!!!🤔
May be you will go through some more pain and then time might bring you back to be THE HUMAN in you! But wouldn't it all be too late?! Can the kid go back to seeing you as YOU... beyond the black mask that you painted yourself with?! 🤔
Or in fiction it's all possible to just say "All is well" after making everything SO UNWELL!!!🤪
It only takes one person to change your life!!! YOU...