AsYa OS : Her Bleeding Words

AsYa OS : Her Bleeding Words


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Muhabbat! Limitless! Bepanah... sirf tum se! Just with you! Just for you! Always and ever!
Your name rule my heart! My heart beat just by your name. You are my everything and will always hold the same importance because forgetting you is like forgetting my soul!
You was my life so you had the right to snatch my life from me, to separate me from you, it was your right. See you won I don't have any life in me see you took it all. I wish I would have given you my heartbeat you yourself would've been my heartbeat not your name so that day when you decided to separate us I would have died! When there would've been no heartbeat then no heart no life... no pain! Death would've been beautiful than living dead! Shyd mout k bd hum ek ho jate shayd...
You know it hurts a lot! You hurt me so much... I know I don't have the right to complain because I gave you the right to hurt me but I want you to know how much it hurts! It hurts to give someone right on yourself thinking he will always take care of you but he broke you instead broke beyond repair. Bhut takleef hoty h yahin dil mai bhut...
I always love you and I know you love me too. You was my first priority but sadly I was NOT your first priority. Isn't it shocking how did I even got the entry in that long list of your love ones. It is funny no? An orphan got the entry!
You never listen to me, never, you always thought I am wrong. You didn't even care to know that day how did I end up in that place with your brother when I would have been at home but you was so immersed in your sister pain that you didn't notice me. How would you notice me? I was just playing doll for you that you love and according to you who had no feelings whatever you do I will look on smilingly right? But am sorry to say am not a lifeless doll you maybe my life but am a human who has heart, who cry at everything that hurt.
I may not understand the huge family love and all those things after all, am an orphan but I know this much that if you love someone you trust them, care for them and don't hurt them jo hmare darmiyan abhi nhy dikhe, jo ap ne kabhi nhy kiya. Insaf to karte Asad, kya mai insaf k kabil bhi na thy?
I was helpless when you asked me to go and live with your brother remember I tried to protest? But you didn't care for what I wanted. You keep on forcing me and I just keep on weakening. I could have fought against the world for you but how could I have fought against you? Meri zindagi mai mujood pehli aur akhri muhabbat! Kese larti us k khilaf? The tears in your eyes your continuous requests and I was force to do what you wanted. I would've still denied but you left me alone Asad left me alone with the people you yourself can't stand with. I would've still ran behind you but you know what Asad I was broken you know why? Because you didn't even thought for once what will a girl go through when she has to fake a nikah when she has to live with a stranger in same room for don't know how many days as a married couple! Have you ever thought what might happen when you would declare that I and your brother were not married who will believe my innocence? Or let the world burn, how will I face myself? You didn't thought even for a second. Har lamha mout, har lamha zindagi khafa thy.
You always said I talk a lot lekin ap ki dy hoye takleef ne mere alfazon ka katl kar diya. Bhut kuch kehna chahty thy when you came infront of me at the function for the celebration of our relationship death but words didn't supported me. Your face reminded me all the pain you cast on me. Tears blinded har dard shyd ankhon mai jama hogya tha shyd hy ap ne dekha ho... but I saw in your eyes just a pain of separation nothing else mere dard ka ehsas bhi nhy.
I realized you can only love me but cannot understand my pain or feelings I realized we can't be together ever. I am sorry Asad I can't be with you to wait for another humiliation, another pain,I can't.
I can never stop loving you but I can't even be unjust to myself. I have self respect that is hurted a lot by you now I can't wait for another hurt by being with you. Bhut toot chuky hun ab aur himat baki nhy hai. I can't even face myself as in your love I have done things my values don't allow me now not more.

You never listen me so I am write this letter so I could tell you everything without interruption and go away from your life. Ab to tmhry behn ki shadi bhi hogye and my time limit to stay here too. Forget me Asad and live your life. I can never forget you Asad I will live with your name for the rest of my life. Just comply my one request please for once just once, don't ever try to find me please, don't. I have certain illusions about you I don't want them to break so please don't ever try to find me. I will live with those illusions you too live your life and forget that there was some girl named Zoya.
And yes don't ever hurt someone whom you love or who love you.
It's time to move out, to move out of your life Asad.

Good bye,
Zoya

Asad folded the paper and looked at sky with tears rolling down his cheeks. From last one hour he has been reading this letter again and again written by Zoya. Every word Zoya wrote tear his heart and burned his soul. Her every word was filled with sadness that kill him it was like the words were bleeding with Zoya's pain while the knife was pierced in Asad's heart but it was too late for Asad to repent he has lost Zoya for ever.
An hour before when they were going to be together just when he go to bring her back he found not her but this letter in her and Ayaan room.
And now he is alone crying at his own mistakes but it was useless now...

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I hope you guys liked the OS
Will be looking forward to your views.

Asshi

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Sorry was not able to upload so got late

Nice OS dear
Liked the way you wrote Zoya turmoil, what she felt when Asad left her there. It's too late for Asad to correct his mistakes.
It was well written OS
Thanks for pm in advance

Awesome OS Dear👏😊

Originally posted by: asifiqbalsh

Nice OS dear
Liked the way you wrote Zoya turmoil, what she felt when Asad left her there. It's too late for Asad to correct his mistakes.
It was well written OS
Thanks for pm in advance

Thanks
Am glad you liked it
I wanted to write in a way where her love is alive but hurt has also reach its limit
Oh yeah welcome 😃

Originally posted by: angel_juhi04

Awesome OS Dear👏😊

I wanted Zoya to leave in d show but immediately eidout living in Ayaan's house for a minute. During dat track, there were so many wanting d same. Some even called it prostitution n also dat Zoya is a toy which can be shared. I hated Asad more than Ayaan cuz he was Zoya's love not Ayaan. I wished dat either Zpya left for New York or put d entire family in jail for objectification of woman. A girl even wrote a story where Zoya attempts suicide n files complaint against Asad, Ayaan n Shirin. I too wrote a story where Zoya marries her childhood friend after leaving Asad. Wat if Ayaan was bad like Akram or Vikram n tried to take advantage of Zoya?

Thanks juhi
Am glad you liked it
Yes Zoya should have left right away but I wanted to show a girls turmoil after she live with forced family but in the show there was not of much Zoya emotions show cased on it after she came back to Asad everything turned right for them like they didn't went through these phases

wow excellent os loved it thank you for pm.

Originally posted by: Asshi...

Thanks juhi
Am glad you liked it
Yes Zoya should have left right away but I wanted to show a girls turmoil after she live with forced family but in the show there was not of much Zoya emotions show cased on it after she came back to Asad everything turned right for them like they didn't went through these phases

Nice..
But I still think zoya shouldn't have stayed..
She is not 17th century women she is strong n 21st century women to be forced into something like that...
Asad or not no one have rights to force others ...
Leave it..
Very emotional...

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