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Hello...!!! Back with a new OS...!!! (Haha... I really don't know what's this...it can be more.. But I doubted..!!)
"Uhhh... WO kuch nahi... Bas kuch soch rahi thi...!!! Kuch yaad aa gaya tha...!!" She must be shaking her head listening that I guess... As I still didn't turn towards her...!!! "Tum aur tumhare memory flood...!!!" She said..!!!
"Sakshi... Arjun ka msg aaya tha...!! He was saying... Finally he will come tomorrow to meet us... And will take us to show his city...!!! " I closed my eyes... Hearing about him once again...!!! Its so difficult to forget someone...!!!
"Kal ki kal dekhenge..!! We are here since last week... And he has got time now to meet us...!!" I said bit rudely...!!! "Arrey mujhe pata hai tere Mann me laddu foot rahe honge... Finally tere wo tujhse milenge!! After whole one and half year!!!" I clutch my eyes tight... Hearing her...!! But then replied pretending to be normal "Aisa kuch nahi... Socho tumhe Jo sochna hai...!!!" "Hahaa... Mujhe sab pata hai... Tum dono na... Bohot chupe rustam ho...!!"
"Nisha ki bachchi kyu usko pareshaan kar rahi ho...!!! Love with guy that too by Sakshi... Possible hi nahi hai...!!!" Aisha di said so coming in room and smacking Nisha's head...!!! I can't tolerate it anymore...!! I quickly went out from there... And ran towards terrace!!!
I stand holding railing and tears fall down from my eyes...!! As once again their talks come into my mind...!! They thought I can't fall in love..!! As I m not much talkative towards boys... Not liking anyone so easily if he/she is isn't relative..!!
But the truth is I fall in love without this all tooo!!!! Yaa so true... I had fallen in love with him...!! Although we hadn't meet face to face since one and half year after that wedding ceremony and family reunion...!! Still I fell in love with him...!! His simplicity... His calm nature...!!! Made me fall for him..!!!
So weired na...!! After that meet I was liking him...!! And caring for him... I thought its just simple as like with other..!!! As we were having normal chit chats weekly...!!
But soon things changed...!!! His mom came to my home...!! He was that time alone and fallen ill...!! I started thinking about him...!! Having an urge to talk to him once..!! Was becoming upset on my ownself... That whats this all happening to me... Hearing about him from his mom!!! That time I realised his effect of him.. And reason of that was still unknown... May be known to my self but I wasnt ready to accept it!!! That was time when I hadn't talk to him for one whole month...!! As there wasn't reply from his side...!!So I had also stop msging him month before!!!
But in that time hearing about him from his mom... finally one day I msged him asking about his health...!!! I got engrossed in my own things as I didnt expected his answer!!! When I checked cell there was three missed call from unknown no.. And two three msgs of him!!!
I was so so happy that feeling like gaining my life back!!!! And we talk on msgs till an hour!!! He shared all the things what happen what's going on.. I scolded him tooo for his carelessness as being ill still he wasn't taking care of his self.. And the new phase begins...!!!
The same day we had talked on call too as he called me tooo...!! Reason of the call was to talking to his mother...but still I was happy that after whole one year I heard his voice...!!! That was the time I realised my love for him...!!!
This all begin once again...!! Daily chats till hours!!! There wasn't remain a single thing which he didnt share with me...!! Starting from his daily stuff to his mood.. And reasons of his mood changes!?? Asking about all the family member... Laughing on their nicknames...!!! Taking care of each other's...!!! And specially scolding him for his careless ness...!!
The best part was sending photos of his and his works and projects...!!! And specially always asking how's it!!!?? And when I give compliment confirming it two timesss...!!! We had so much fun... I felt so happy... Just by listening him and talking on massages... Knowing about my love... That it can't be describe in some of the words!!!!
That was the time I was confirmed that I m badly fallen in love with him...!! But I never said to him... Just to be afraid that if he denied may be this all little chats and our relation will be break..!!! I always knew he wasn't the guy who fall for a girl so easily...!! But sometimes his talks and sharing made me feel so special that I never felt before by someone...!!! It may sometimes indicate that he too is having feel for me...!!! But the fear always remain and my love becomes silent love!!!
Every time talking to him... I was having urge to just told him about my love for him...but never got strength to do so..!!! But before some days we plan to come to his city... Where he is staying for his training period...!!! Our chats were continues...!! And that day he told me something..!!! Not something... Its about his dream... His goal in his life... His destination.. Where he want to reach...!!!
I wasn't much shocked to hear those words about his dream as I had get it before...!! But I was little taken aback when he told me that he had only shared his dream with ME...!! And no one else knew about this...!! Not even his mom too... He told he will tell them all when he will get little start of success in his way...!! And I just wish him lots of success and prays for him...!!! By that sharing thing I felt may be he likes me... As he was an introvert person.. And sharing something like this which he didn't told even his mom too was big thing for me!!!
A ray arise in my heart... That there may be chance to get my love...!! And I decided to told him... Not directly.. !!! But before that I do the confirmation about his thoughts towards having GF...?!!!! This is the talk before last week... When we arrive to this city but he didn't come to meet us... Not for a once...!!
He was asking forgiveness... As he thought I m angry because he won't be able to come...!! So just to divert his mind I asked...!! Can I ask something..please don't be angry... He said of course... But then I denies saying no you won't like it...!! But he continuesly ask me to ask what I want and finally I asked "Are you having GF...???" And I got the reply which I already knew... "No...!!"
But something else was there tooo... He had written "You know my dream... My goal of life... I want to serve my country my best... I m walking on this way... And I don't want any distractions...you knew it very well that I m not interested in this stuff!!! Also I have denied someone's proposal tooo!!" I asked auickly aren't the person having same work having relationship?? You cannot spend life alone!! But he said just one thing "Hota hai ye sab... But I don't like all this stuff... And let this things go!!!"
Knowing those things of him my heart get broken... Now I m confirm that he don't love me... If he had love me he must say something which shows his love... But there was totally unexpected answer from him...!! I cried a lot that night... Just his thoughts remain all the night.. And other thing which was there was an extreme pain... Pain of not getting love from person who has become my life now a days and I cannot think life without him...!!!
I cried alone... There was no one who know about my feel as I didn't tell anyone... And the one who knew all was very far from me... My Angle...!! She always supports me in every way... Made me happy and done a lot of things for me!!!! Just she is too far...!!! The loneliness was killing me..!!! She was the one who asked me to move on... And try to forget him...!!! And I know its best thing which I should do for me but was the most difficult and painful work of my life ..!!!
I didn't tell all this to my sis too... Of course why should I when already know its one sided and having no future... But still that Nisha always tease me... Although she knew nothing about my feel... Just for fun she always do so and still teasing me...!!! I cannot bare it anymore...!!!
Now a days we had limited talks... I tried my best to be far... So I won't feel hurted again but truth was I felt hurted each time I saw his massages... His happiness still lights my life and make me happy but the pinch of hurt always remain that I wish I had told him once how much I love him...!!! So I had stopped my talks with him finally now a days...!!! And trying my best to forget him...!!
The reason of my cry standing here is only this... No matter how much I engrossed myself to forget him and little success not thinking about him... Nisha always drew my mind towards him... Teasing by his names with me and many stupid stuff...saying he miss you and all... As she was also talking with him...!! Its not so easy to forget him...!! I cried standing there only... On my fate and just prayed to God... To help me..!!
Next morning...!!
We get ready for outing...!! Although I want to denie .. Not wanted to face him afraid because of my feel... But sisters and Sam jiju didn't leave me... And on the otherside I also want to see him once after all this long one and half year gap!!! So finally drive towards our place where he was waiting for us...!!!
As I stepped out of car... Find him in front of me!!! Wearing red shirt with jeans...!! I greeted him slowly...!!! And he smiled towards me replying back... He was extremely happy meeting all of us again after so long...!!! And specially meeting with Sam jiju...!!!
Whole day we spend together... Exploring the beauty of the city...!!! I kept myself distanced from him... May be he get it too...!!! But didn't say anything...!!! And finally we reach our last spot of evening...!! A famous sea shore of city... Having gardens and rides little far from it...!!! Di and Nisha all decided to went there in rides... But I denied saying I wanted to be here with nature!!!
All left assuring me to be safe...!!! And they will come back soon here to take me back!!!! I sat on the wet send...!!! Near the water...!! I was astonished to see the view...!! Its time of sunset... And I always want to see that sitting near sea or beach...!! And finally got chance...!!! The cool water was continuesly hitting my leg... !! I felt peace by that place calmness...!! And closed my eyes to enjoy it more...!!
"How are you Sakshi...??" He asked smiling at me... Sitting next to me letting a proper gap between us...!!! "M fine... What about you...???" I smiled a little and replied looking away...!! He replied same he's fine...!! I kept on looking the beautiful view...!! But then asked "why are you here!??" "Not only me... All are coming back here to watch sunset..!!! Just that they are walking slowly...!!!" He laughed a little saying so and I smiled at him...!! And his chats begins...!!!
He keep on asking and kept replying...!!! I was feeling happy but the strike again and again is I have to forget him...!! Finally he said "Will come to your place tomorrow evening...!!! To meet all of you once again...!!" I looked at him for two minutes then said... "I m lefting from here in noon tomorrow... I can't stay here anymore..!! I dont want to be here!!! You can come to meet others..!!" He was slightly shocked by that...!! But then it was truth... Last night I had called Dad and asked for tickets..!!
He didn't said anything.. I stand up looking all others coming towards us laughing on their talks...!! I was going to walk towards them when he hold my wrist ... I stared at him shocked... He looked at me then left my wrist "Are you running out of this place or from me??? Are you trying make distance between us...??? That's the reason why you stopped chat too!!!?" By now I was looking otherside... Eyes again started getting wet but I replied "When we were close so I will try to make distance between us...!! Its just your thinking...!! I m having important work... And that's why I m going back!!!"
Saying so I didn't let him chance to say anything more and walked towards otherones ... Not looking behind at him for just once!!! Heart was crying badly thinking may be I had hurted him..!!! But I can't do it anymore!! Have to left him...!!! Have to forget him... For myself...!!! And I know its not so easy... Still I will do it...!! Determined to my self I walked for a new journey!!!
Its tooo specially for my princess!!!!! Love you princess!!!
Hope you will like this theme in my way!!
Totally Saki's P.O.V...!!
Her Innocent Love...!!!
We were sitting together... Laughing on silly jokes... Pulling each others leg and having fun... After all it was reuniun of our family after so long...!!! All the cousins and friends were there!!!
I was making tattoos on my friend's hand...!! Just by pen..!! And carving designs...!! Just then he call me... "Sakshi... Put 'S' on my hand..!!" I looked at Arjun for two minutes when he asked for that!!!
"Ye S kiska hai...!!?? Lover haa???!!" Sam jiju asked from behind..!!!! Teasing him...!Hw is Aisha di's hubby and Arjun is his friend...!!! "Wait Sakshi ka to nahi...!!!???" Nisha added with him...!! I stared at her shocked...! What's this going here... !!! I turn to look at Arjun... Who too was shocked...!!!
After sometime he come in sense...!! Looking all others laughing at his face!!! Well... All knew he wasn't this type of guy!!!
"Oye... Pagal.!!! S is of my name... " Shaan"..!! Keep your theory to you only!!! Mujhe ye lover me koi interest nahi hai...!!!" As soon as he complete... Nisha quipped again "Really Arjun.. We didn't heard this name before!!!!" But jiju replied instead of him... "He is saying truth.. His mom called him by that name!!"
Finally they get silent..!!! And Arjun give his hand to me!! I hesitate for a second to hold his hand...!! I haven't hold any boy's hand till now...!! Still I hold his hand loosely just to carved it perfectly...!! He looked at me for once and I looked down showing my interest in design!! But then he said "Wait... Write A & S...!! Arjun and Shaan...!!" He clears before anyone get start again teasing...!!
I write A & S... It was perfect ...!! I smiled at it... I did it so well...!! "Perfect...!! Thanks Sakshi...!!" He smiled at me... And I nodded...!! I released his hand...!! And as soon as I did that...!!! Arjun look at his hand again said to his own self...!! "To good..!!"
But this time I was in mood to tease...!! "Achcha ... Suno.. Ye batao... Seriously no one...!??!!!" I said... And he said looking little pissed off...!! "Arrey yaar... Me mere ghar walo ke alawa kisi se baat tak ni karta...!!! Aur nahi mujhe ye sab me interest hai... WO to I like your designing style... So I asked to drew this!!!" He explained in detail...!
Although... I knew it all... He is very shy type guy... Not much talkative... Having his peaceful life without much people...!!!
"Sakshi..!!!" I looked at Nisha... Who shout loudly and I came back in reality... From my memory land...!!! My eyes were getting little wet... So I turn other side showing that I m going to study and she asked "what happen to you?? Kaha khoi hui thi????"
"Uhhh... WO kuch nahi... Bas kuch soch rahi thi...!!! Kuch yaad aa gaya tha...!!" She must be shaking her head listening that I guess... As I still didn't turn towards her...!!! "Tum aur tumhare memory flood...!!!" She said..!!!
"Sakshi... Arjun ka msg aaya tha...!! He was saying... Finally he will come tomorrow to meet us... And will take us to show his city...!!! " I closed my eyes... Hearing about him once again...!!! Its so difficult to forget someone...!!!
"Kal ki kal dekhenge..!! We are here since last week... And he has got time now to meet us...!!" I said bit rudely...!!! "Arrey mujhe pata hai tere Mann me laddu foot rahe honge... Finally tere wo tujhse milenge!! After whole one and half year!!!" I clutch my eyes tight... Hearing her...!! But then replied pretending to be normal "Aisa kuch nahi... Socho tumhe Jo sochna hai...!!!" "Hahaa... Mujhe sab pata hai... Tum dono na... Bohot chupe rustam ho...!!"
I stand holding railing and tears fall down from my eyes...!! As once again their talks come into my mind...!! They thought I can't fall in love..!! As I m not much talkative towards boys... Not liking anyone so easily if he/she is isn't relative..!!
But the truth is I fall in love without this all tooo!!!! Yaa so true... I had fallen in love with him...!! Although we hadn't meet face to face since one and half year after that wedding ceremony and family reunion...!! Still I fell in love with him...!! His simplicity... His calm nature...!!! Made me fall for him..!!!
So weired na...!! After that meet I was liking him...!! And caring for him... I thought its just simple as like with other..!!! As we were having normal chit chats weekly...!!
I didn't tell all this to my sis too... Of course why should I when already know its one sided and having no future... But still that Nisha always tease me... Although she knew nothing about my feel... Just for fun she always do so and still teasing me...!!! I cannot bare it anymore...!!!
Now a days we had limited talks... I tried my best to be far... So I won't feel hurted again but truth was I felt hurted each time I saw his massages... His happiness still lights my life and make me happy but the pinch of hurt always remain that I wish I had told him once how much I love him...!!! So I had stopped my talks with him finally now a days...!!! And trying my best to forget him...!!
The reason of my cry standing here is only this... No matter how much I engrossed myself to forget him and little success not thinking about him... Nisha always drew my mind towards him... Teasing by his names with me and many stupid stuff...saying he miss you and all... As she was also talking with him...!! Its not so easy to forget him...!! I cried standing there only... On my fate and just prayed to God... To help me..!!
Next morning...!!
We get ready for outing...!! Although I want to denie .. Not wanted to face him afraid because of my feel... But sisters and Sam jiju didn't leave me... And on the otherside I also want to see him once after all this long one and half year gap!!! So finally drive towards our place where he was waiting for us...!!!
As I stepped out of car... Find him in front of me!!! Wearing red shirt with jeans...!! I greeted him slowly...!!! And he smiled towards me replying back... He was extremely happy meeting all of us again after so long...!!! And specially meeting with Sam jiju...!!!
Whole day we spend together... Exploring the beauty of the city...!!! I kept myself distanced from him... May be he get it too...!!! But didn't say anything...!!! And finally we reach our last spot of evening...!! A famous sea shore of city... Having gardens and rides little far from it...!!! Di and Nisha all decided to went there in rides... But I denied saying I wanted to be here with nature!!!
All left assuring me to be safe...!!! And they will come back soon here to take me back!!!! I sat on the wet send...!!! Near the water...!! I was astonished to see the view...!! Its time of sunset... And I always want to see that sitting near sea or beach...!! And finally got chance...!!! The cool water was continuesly hitting my leg... !! I felt peace by that place calmness...!! And closed my eyes to enjoy it more...!!
"How are you Sakshi...??" He asked smiling at me... Sitting next to me letting a proper gap between us...!!! "M fine... What about you...???" I smiled a little and replied looking away...!! He replied same he's fine...!! I kept on looking the beautiful view...!! But then asked "why are you here!??" "Not only me... All are coming back here to watch sunset..!!! Just that they are walking slowly...!!!" He laughed a little saying so and I smiled at him...!! And his chats begins...!!!
He keep on asking and kept replying...!!! I was feeling happy but the strike again and again is I have to forget him...!! Finally he said "Will come to your place tomorrow evening...!!! To meet all of you once again...!!" I looked at him for two minutes then said... "I m lefting from here in noon tomorrow... I can't stay here anymore..!! I dont want to be here!!! You can come to meet others..!!" He was slightly shocked by that...!! But then it was truth... Last night I had called Dad and asked for tickets..!!
He didn't said anything.. I stand up looking all others coming towards us laughing on their talks...!! I was going to walk towards them when he hold my wrist ... I stared at him shocked... He looked at me then left my wrist "Are you running out of this place or from me??? Are you trying make distance between us...??? That's the reason why you stopped chat too!!!?" By now I was looking otherside... Eyes again started getting wet but I replied "When we were close so I will try to make distance between us...!! Its just your thinking...!! I m having important work... And that's why I m going back!!!"
Saying so I didn't let him chance to say anything more and walked towards otherones ... Not looking behind at him for just once!!! Heart was crying badly thinking may be I had hurted him..!!! But I can't do it anymore!! Have to left him...!!! Have to forget him... For myself...!!! And I know its not so easy... Still I will do it...!! Determined to my self I walked for a new journey!!!
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