NiBir Story-My Hell My Heaven epilogue up - Page 7

Hi kitty

Me back again to irritate you. So as i told you about me being intrigued by kabir and his behavior. Days passed like this and the same thing continued sometimes i use to be so irritated with him that i use to avoid him and then he would be after me asking reasons for ignoring him. You know kitty at that time when he use to ask reasons like a innocent child i use to get very very angry on him, i mean you only think na you yourself make mistake and then question others what wrong you did?? But only later i got to know that he never actually knew what he did. Once i was very angry on him, he in front of all the staff had shouted on me saying that i am always after him, irritating him even when he clearly has said that he did not know me. I was very upset and angry that day, i use to think of him as a good friend or might even be something more then only and what he did insulted me like that. I stopped talking to him after that. Few days he tried i gave him a cold shoulder and then one day he stopped me on road to answer him, i tried leaving but he held my hand and in anger i slapped him and went from there. I today also remember he face clearly he was shocked, confused but i had also seen hurt in his eyes that day. And that hurt in his eyes haunted me all night and i felt it was not right what i did as i was in rage so next day while going to office i said sorry to him and he forwarded his hand to start the friendship again. You kitty i felt very low in front of him that day, he said that our friendship is important to him and he did not want to loose it because of some ego. I felt very low, he had shouted on me and was rude to me so i decided to end the friendship and here i had slapped him on road and he said its ok.

Our friendship renewed that day and i had some more respect for him from that day as he valued relationships more than anything. We rarely get people like that these days kitty and he was one of them. I was always attracted towards him and i felling as if i was falling for him and believe me kitty that is a wonderful feeling and then the small small things he use to do for him use to make me feel as if i am on top of the world and then when he use to be weird and cranky i use to have a hard fall on ground. I at that point felt that he has some anger issues and when he is angry he just burst that out in any way possible. Sometimes he use to come little he apartment to drop me especially when we use to be in a conversation though his apartment in on ground floor and mine 4^th but still he use to come al the way and then we use to end the conversation at my door and he use to wish me good night and go down stairs and then sometimes without even telling he use to just walk to his house not even bothering to say a bye. He use to confuse me a lot but now i was fed up with his regular answers so even stopped questioning, in fact by that time my feelings had grown quite high so i even use to ignore them.

Our friendship had turned one year and even valentine's day was arriving and every year all my office colleagues use to book a club to celebrate it and i decided that i will speak my heart out to kabir that day and whatever his answer be our friendship will remain same. I spend on a lot of time on my look and finally when i felt i was looking ok i went to the club, i had denied to go with kabir and i even needed some confidence and being with him would have drained all my confidence. I reached the club, wished everyone a happy valentine's day. I looked around for him and found him at the bar counter drinking, i remember him telling me once that he could not handle drinks and here he was gulping one after another. I went near him and pulled the glass out of his hand, he shouted on me "how dare you stop me? Give me my glass back." "kabir you are already drunk stop drinking more." I told him calmly.

"just shut up . who the hell are you to order me? Hain" he roared. Everyone was looking at us i was feeling embarrassed now. I calmly told him to not to crate ant scene, who you what he did he took another glass from counter and threw the entire content on me. I was shocked and heartbroken. I had planned to propose him this was what i got as answer. I did not utter a word and rushed to the washroom and cried there. After sometime i felt ok so i came out washing my face, he was still on the counter drinking continuously. I don't know what took to me, it was hurt, humiliated anger everything, i wanted to be free from these and having heard the alcohol makes feel light i headed towards the bar and kept drinking without break.

I remember being totally dizzy and then vomiting. When i woke up i was on my bed and my head paining horribly. I stepped out of my bedroom and found kabir on the sofa sleeping. I ignored him and went to make a coffee for me. He woke with the sound and walked towards me showering questions on me "Nisha you woke up? How are you feeling? You go and take rest i will make a nimbu pani for u." "stop it kabir and what the hell are you doing in my house?" i questioned me. "you don't remember actually u drank a lot and started vomiting very badly even u vomited on me and brought u home and since you were not well i decided to stay here incase you need something." He answered. You know kitty that time i wanted to hit him with the pan and tell him that you were the reason of my drinking so much. I did question him the same but ya did not hit him. And as usual the answer was same confused look accompanied with "what did i do?". That time i wanted to bang my head somewhere...