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Hello everyone! This is Krishi. Well I love TwiNj as much as everyone here does. I have been stalking this forum for quiet a number of days 😛. I wrote this in a hurry so you might find a few mistakes here and there but try ignoring them.
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TwiNj OS- Judaai
Everything is over... Kunj thought as he rubbed his red eyes. They were burning. Not because he had been crying from the past few hours but due to anger...
How could Twinkle do this? Didn't she care about him or his family? Didn't she trust him enough to share anything with him? Only if she would have told him. He would have helped her sort things out. It was because of her his Dad was in the ICU, because of her his mom was broken, his family was insulted in front of the whole world, just because of her.
Raajhan dhoondan main chaliya,
Raajhan mileya naa ye..
Jigra vichh agan lagaa ke Rabba
Lakeera vichh likhdi judaai...
Twinkle was sitting on the steps near the Gurudwara. She clenched her fists. She was angry at herself. Seeing Kunj broken she cursed herself. Seeing Usha, Bebe and the other family members broken she cursed herself. Her father-in-law was fighting between life and death because of her and she cursed herself for this. She cursed herself for everything wrong that happened. She always wanted to protect the family, wanted to protect Kunj and his father's bond. She had never thought in her wildest dreams of harming the family's reputation. She did everything in the best interest of the family. Yet some things went wrong. Why?
Everyone's anger was considerable, she had done wrong. She did not intend to do so but it happened. She only wanted the family bonding to remain the same. But she also had excpected Kunj to believe her. Now when he didn't she also started feeling another emotion... GUILT ... She was guilty. Everytime she closed her eyes she could see Kunj. Crying and shouting at her. Blaming her for everything that happened. She broke his trust, his heart.
Kho gaya, gum ho gaya
Waqt se churaya tha jo,
Apna banaya tha
Ho tera, woh mera
Saath nibhaya tha jo,
Apna banaya tha
Kunj was restless. He wanted to know where was he faulty. Why couldn't Twinkle trust him? Why had she taken such a big step? Tried solving things on her own. Hadn't she always created loads of problems for the family? Even after knowing what the consequences could be... Why? Why didn't she think of the family once before taking those steps?
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He decided that he needed fresh air. He wanted to calm himself down. He had to mend everything that Twinkle had done. Thinking so he walked out of the house. Anand was outside talking on the phone. As Anand saw Kunj he knew something was wrong. He asked where he was going at this time, if something was wrong but Kunj turned a deaf ear to him. He drove the car towards the Gurudwara. The same Gurudwara where Twinkle had acknowledged him as her husband. Given him respect. Wait. Why was he even remembering her? She did not trust him to share her problems, problems which not only concerned her but also the family. She did not trust that he could help her. She did not think of him as... Responsible?
Chadariya, jeeni re jeeni
Chadariya, jeeni re jeeni
Aankhein, bheeni ye, bheeni ye, bheeni
Yaadein, jheeni re, jheeni re, jheeni
Twinkle was crying, her tears not ready to stop. It was freezing cold outside but from the inside... From the inside she was burning. Her whole body was paining. Of all the pain, the fiercest pain was experienced by her heart... She was remembering all the happy moments spent with Kunj. Their constant bickering, their caring moments, his love for her. Everything.
Chadariya jeeni re jeeni
Chadariya jeeni re jeeni
Hai aankhein bheeni ye bheeni ye bheeni
Yaadein jheeni re jheeni re jheeni
Kunj reached the Gurudwara... He was finding some peaceful and dark place to sit. Away from the lights. Away from the happiness. He reached a place just as he desired. He went and stood there lifelessly, staring somewhere faraway. He had no strength left in him. All the happenings of the day had sucked his strength. He hated to see his father on the hospital bed. Hated to see his mother and Bebe crying. Somewhere he knew that he also hated everyone who blamed Twinkle. Even himself. He couldn't build trust for him in her heart. Why was he then blaming her? He wasn't trustable. She wasn't at fault.
As these thoughts flashed in his mind his eyes welled up. He did not know how long he was standing there like that, his face tear streaked, his limbs weak.
Suddenly he heard soft sniffs. Someone was crying. As he recognized who it was his heart went through a sharp pain. His eyes adjusted according to the dim lightings and he saw her figure sitting only a few feet away, her face buried in her hands. He saw Twinkle. His Twinkle. He forgot everything for a few moments. He couldn't see her in pain and walked towards her. To soothe her pain, to wipe the tears from her face. To bring back the smile on her face which lit his world every time. As he went near her, all the memories of the events of the evening came flooding to him. He sighed and turned away. He couldn't face her, not now at least.
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Twinkle felt his presence. She pushed aside the thought of him being here. Why will he be here, when his family, his mom needs him? Still to let her heart accept the fact that he wouldn't be with her, when he did not understand that she did everything for him, she turned. She turned to find him with hurt evident in his eyes. Twinkle felt shards of glass piercing her heart seeing him in pain. She mentally chided herself for causing him pain. But she was also happy seeing him. Maybe he understood that she did not intend to hurt anyone. Maybe he understood that she won't do anything that would cause pain to him.
She knew he needed someone who could support him while he supported his mom. To fight through this pain, this anguish. Only if she wasn't the reason for his anguish she would have helped him. She would have supported him with his every decision. She would have helped him come out of and leave behind the pain. Only if she wasn't the cause, she would have been with him.
They stared in each other's eyes for what felt like eternity until Kunj finally looked away. He couldn't bear the pain of being near her, finding her in front of his eyes yet not be with her. Not hugging her, feeling her. Twinkle bit her lip as she saw that her husband, her Kunj didn't trust her decision or even trust her.
Yet her heart won over and she stood up. As she started coming towards him, he turned away. But she fastened her pace caught up with him and held his wrist tightly. He knew he couldn't face her but she had held him so tight he had no other option. He turned. She was looking downwards. She motioned him to sit with her. But as soon as he saw her he couldn't control his anger, jerked away her hand and sat on the stairs, pulling his hair in frustration. This made Twinkle wince, yet she sat down.
Aissa bhi kya milna,
Saath ho ke tanha
Aissi kyun saza humne hai paayi
Raanjhna ve, phir se mujhe jeena
Tujhpe hai marna,
Phir se dil ne di hai ye duhaai
Saajna ve, lakeeron pe likh di kyun
judaai
There was a long silence between them... Kunj was lost in thoughts, had almost forgotten where he was, when Twinkle kept her hand on his and he realised his surroundings. She could see anger in his eyes. But a lot more of sadness and pain. They looked at each other, their eyes saying volumes of what their hearts wanted to say. Twinkle opened her mouth to speak but he raised his hand signalling silence. She obliged, surely upset.
Gair sa huya khud se bhi,
Na koi mera
Dard se kar le chal yaari,
Dil ye keh raha
Kholun jo baahein,
Bas gum ye simat rahe hai
Aankhon ke aage,
Lamhe ye kyun ghat rahe hai
Jaane kaise koi chahta judaai yaan
Yet another pain ran through Twinkle but understood what he felt and turned away. She controlled her tears.
Chadariya, jeeni re jeeni
Chadariya, jeeni re jeeni
Aankhein, bheeni ye, bheeni ye, bheeni
Yaadein, jheeni re, jheeni re, jheeni
They kept silent all the time. Every now and then they turned to look at each other. Their eyes did the talking while they stared at each other. Twinkle wanted to make him understand but she did not know what to say. Her words had left her long back.
Chadariya jeeni re jeeni
Chadariya jeeni re jeeni
Phir aankhein, bheeni ye, bheeni ye, bheeni
Yaadein, jheeni re, jheeni re, jheeni
Twinkle started feeling tired. She slowly lowered her head on his shoulder. Kunj slightly shifted as she did so and Twinkle quickly straightened herself. She looked at him, her eyes shining with tears, her face beautifully lit by the moon. Kunj had a small smile when he gestured her to rest her head. Maybe they could set things straight later. Right now they both needed a shoulder to weep on. They needed someone to support then. They held each other's hands tightly and stared at the moon that lit the night sky.
Raajhan dhoondan main chaliya,
Raajhan mileya naa ye
Jigra vich agan lagaa ke
Rabba, lakeera vich likhdi judaai
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I know this is a little messed up with a crappy ending! I tried my best to depict all their feelings though. Do comment what you felt about this OS. Constructive criticisms are highly appreciated. 😊
Regards,
Krishi
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Everything is over... Kunj thought as he rubbed his red eyes. They were burning. Not because he had been crying from the past few hours but due to anger...
How could Twinkle do this? Didn't she care about him or his family? Didn't she trust him enough to share anything with him? Only if she would have told him. He would have helped her sort things out. It was because of her his Dad was in the ICU, because of her his mom was broken, his family was insulted in front of the whole world, just because of her.
Raajhan dhoondan main chaliya,
Raajhan mileya naa ye..
Jigra vichh agan lagaa ke Rabba
Lakeera vichh likhdi judaai...
Twinkle was sitting on the steps near the Gurudwara. She clenched her fists. She was angry at herself. Seeing Kunj broken she cursed herself. Seeing Usha, Bebe and the other family members broken she cursed herself. Her father-in-law was fighting between life and death because of her and she cursed herself for this. She cursed herself for everything wrong that happened. She always wanted to protect the family, wanted to protect Kunj and his father's bond. She had never thought in her wildest dreams of harming the family's reputation. She did everything in the best interest of the family. Yet some things went wrong. Why?
Everyone's anger was considerable, she had done wrong. She did not intend to do so but it happened. She only wanted the family bonding to remain the same. But she also had excpected Kunj to believe her. Now when he didn't she also started feeling another emotion... GUILT ... She was guilty. Everytime she closed her eyes she could see Kunj. Crying and shouting at her. Blaming her for everything that happened. She broke his trust, his heart.
Kho gaya, gum ho gaya
Waqt se churaya tha jo,
Apna banaya tha
Ho tera, woh mera
Saath nibhaya tha jo,
Apna banaya tha
Kunj was restless. He wanted to know where was he faulty. Why couldn't Twinkle trust him? Why had she taken such a big step? Tried solving things on her own. Hadn't she always created loads of problems for the family? Even after knowing what the consequences could be... Why? Why didn't she think of the family once before taking those steps?
---
He decided that he needed fresh air. He wanted to calm himself down. He had to mend everything that Twinkle had done. Thinking so he walked out of the house. Anand was outside talking on the phone. As Anand saw Kunj he knew something was wrong. He asked where he was going at this time, if something was wrong but Kunj turned a deaf ear to him. He drove the car towards the Gurudwara. The same Gurudwara where Twinkle had acknowledged him as her husband. Given him respect. Wait. Why was he even remembering her? She did not trust him to share her problems, problems which not only concerned her but also the family. She did not trust that he could help her. She did not think of him as... Responsible?
Chadariya, jeeni re jeeni
Chadariya, jeeni re jeeni
Aankhein, bheeni ye, bheeni ye, bheeni
Yaadein, jheeni re, jheeni re, jheeni
Twinkle was crying, her tears not ready to stop. It was freezing cold outside but from the inside... From the inside she was burning. Her whole body was paining. Of all the pain, the fiercest pain was experienced by her heart... She was remembering all the happy moments spent with Kunj. Their constant bickering, their caring moments, his love for her. Everything.
Chadariya jeeni re jeeni
Chadariya jeeni re jeeni
Hai aankhein bheeni ye bheeni ye bheeni
Yaadein jheeni re jheeni re jheeni
Kunj reached the Gurudwara... He was finding some peaceful and dark place to sit. Away from the lights. Away from the happiness. He reached a place just as he desired. He went and stood there lifelessly, staring somewhere faraway. He had no strength left in him. All the happenings of the day had sucked his strength. He hated to see his father on the hospital bed. Hated to see his mother and Bebe crying. Somewhere he knew that he also hated everyone who blamed Twinkle. Even himself. He couldn't build trust for him in her heart. Why was he then blaming her? He wasn't trustable. She wasn't at fault.
As these thoughts flashed in his mind his eyes welled up. He did not know how long he was standing there like that, his face tear streaked, his limbs weak.
Suddenly he heard soft sniffs. Someone was crying. As he recognized who it was his heart went through a sharp pain. His eyes adjusted according to the dim lightings and he saw her figure sitting only a few feet away, her face buried in her hands. He saw Twinkle. His Twinkle. He forgot everything for a few moments. He couldn't see her in pain and walked towards her. To soothe her pain, to wipe the tears from her face. To bring back the smile on her face which lit his world every time. As he went near her, all the memories of the events of the evening came flooding to him. He sighed and turned away. He couldn't face her, not now at least.
---
Twinkle felt his presence. She pushed aside the thought of him being here. Why will he be here, when his family, his mom needs him? Still to let her heart accept the fact that he wouldn't be with her, when he did not understand that she did everything for him, she turned. She turned to find him with hurt evident in his eyes. Twinkle felt shards of glass piercing her heart seeing him in pain. She mentally chided herself for causing him pain. But she was also happy seeing him. Maybe he understood that she did not intend to hurt anyone. Maybe he understood that she won't do anything that would cause pain to him.
She knew he needed someone who could support him while he supported his mom. To fight through this pain, this anguish. Only if she wasn't the reason for his anguish she would have helped him. She would have supported him with his every decision. She would have helped him come out of and leave behind the pain. Only if she wasn't the cause, she would have been with him.
They stared in each other's eyes for what felt like eternity until Kunj finally looked away. He couldn't bear the pain of being near her, finding her in front of his eyes yet not be with her. Not hugging her, feeling her. Twinkle bit her lip as she saw that her husband, her Kunj didn't trust her decision or even trust her.
Yet her heart won over and she stood up. As she started coming towards him, he turned away. But she fastened her pace caught up with him and held his wrist tightly. He knew he couldn't face her but she had held him so tight he had no other option. He turned. She was looking downwards. She motioned him to sit with her. But as soon as he saw her he couldn't control his anger, jerked away her hand and sat on the stairs, pulling his hair in frustration. This made Twinkle wince, yet she sat down.
Aissa bhi kya milna,
Saath ho ke tanha
Aissi kyun saza humne hai paayi
Raanjhna ve, phir se mujhe jeena
Tujhpe hai marna,
Phir se dil ne di hai ye duhaai
Saajna ve, lakeeron pe likh di kyun
judaai
There was a long silence between them... Kunj was lost in thoughts, had almost forgotten where he was, when Twinkle kept her hand on his and he realised his surroundings. She could see anger in his eyes. But a lot more of sadness and pain. They looked at each other, their eyes saying volumes of what their hearts wanted to say. Twinkle opened her mouth to speak but he raised his hand signalling silence. She obliged, surely upset.
Gair sa huya khud se bhi,
Na koi mera
Dard se kar le chal yaari,
Dil ye keh raha
Kholun jo baahein,
Bas gum ye simat rahe hai
Aankhon ke aage,
Lamhe ye kyun ghat rahe hai
Jaane kaise koi chahta judaai yaan
Yet another pain ran through Twinkle but understood what he felt and turned away. She controlled her tears.
Chadariya, jeeni re jeeni
Chadariya, jeeni re jeeni
Aankhein, bheeni ye, bheeni ye, bheeni
Yaadein, jheeni re, jheeni re, jheeni
They kept silent all the time. Every now and then they turned to look at each other. Their eyes did the talking while they stared at each other. Twinkle wanted to make him understand but she did not know what to say. Her words had left her long back.
Chadariya jeeni re jeeni
Chadariya jeeni re jeeni
Phir aankhein, bheeni ye, bheeni ye, bheeni
Yaadein, jheeni re, jheeni re, jheeni
Twinkle started feeling tired. She slowly lowered her head on his shoulder. Kunj slightly shifted as she did so and Twinkle quickly straightened herself. She looked at him, her eyes shining with tears, her face beautifully lit by the moon. Kunj had a small smile when he gestured her to rest her head. Maybe they could set things straight later. Right now they both needed a shoulder to weep on. They needed someone to support then. They held each other's hands tightly and stared at the moon that lit the night sky.
Raajhan dhoondan main chaliya,
Raajhan mileya naa ye
Jigra vich agan lagaa ke
Rabba, lakeera vich likhdi judaai
~
I know this is a little messed up with a crappy ending! I tried my best to depict all their feelings though. Do comment what you felt about this OS. Constructive criticisms are highly appreciated. 😊
Regards,
Krishi
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