AarYa OS: The Crush Contained

The unfamiliar face in school bus, School bag in shoulder and math book in hand.. I never knew the adventitious will snatch my sleep away.. I don't know when I started writing strange things in my diary about him.. The hidden feelings, the meaningless letters which he never knew..

Hiding beside stairs, Peeping inside his class just to see one glimpse of him and sometimes keep looking at him in the prayer, I feel all those are definitely were stupid..

Or at the cricket ground when I waited for his batting.. The time come, he did best as always but my mind used to say when my turn will come when he will just look back at me.. But never he did.

And the craze went beyond limit when I started following him.. I mean seriously? That was indeed nonsense, but still I did as then the Heart was most important.. Even I decided to go to his place.. The saree i decided which was best in my mother's collection, i would wear that but never had the courage..

I still remember the orchestra show, the schoolmates attended together. Did he look at me at least once? Damn I was in my best attire. It took 3 hours to get ready. But what could I do if someone decided to be blind always?

He looked at me, he come forward to talk.. But I was in most horrible look I ever remember. It was the end of the hockey match. I was sweaty, my hair was mess, I looked like one monkey. Didn't he get another time to talk to me? Oh yes he just come to congratulate me.. I was ready to die to listen anything from him.. I could not believe myself when I saw he was moving towards me, my heart almost stopped.. But I was definitely disappointed listing the only "Congratulations for playing best" But i shouldn't expect anything else from him.. That was the moment i learnt that he was very shy..

But what happened to me? Couldn't I say two more words with "Thanks"? But I was clueless, He had left before I could get back to my normal self..

My crush.. My first ever crush at my teenage. That developed to love in two years but I never dare to open up my feelings to him. Stealing his glances was much more easy. I never got tired while looking at his handsome face. But when our farewell party arrived at that moment i have realized it is last.. May be after this we will be away forever. I would never get the chance to steal his glances..

The party was over. As the clock was moving i was becoming more nervous. I still couldn't reach him when he bid bye to every friend but not to me because I was not in count of his friend circle.. And I was following him again. I found that was much easy that face him , "Listen..."

I called for him when felt his home was near.. I could read the confusion in his face when I was in front of him but still he was silent..

"I Like You", I couldn't utter the Love word but i would be more honest if I used that. He stood stunned for a moment.. Then bring out his wallet and showed me one picture of a girl. My heart broke but he was so nice that he apologized when he wasn't in fault but at that moment i was not ready to take anything.. I cried and ran from there.. Then I don't know what happened with the shy guy.."

"And then?" Her husband's friend wanted to know more..

"Then after 10 years now I am happily married with someone more handsome and mother of one boy too." Aarti said finishing her story.

"Aarti, your story is so interesting.. Oh the shy guy is so poor to miss the chance". Mansi said.

"Did your husband know about this?"

"You can ask your friend till i serve the dinner". Aarti proceeded towards the kitchen "You can say your first crush story to them till then", she winked at her husband.

"They already know about Arpita Darling", He winked her back which made her face grumpy..

The dinner went well.. She went to tuck their son to sleep. The evening was lovely with old friends and old memories.. He always love to listen about her first crush. The first time he saw her never ever thought she will end up proposing him like that. He was aware about her. He would feel at the time she was staring at him or trying to find him in any crowd.. But he didn't take all those seriously. She was a nice girl and judging her for that was out of question. He simply said sorry when she said about her feelings as he was already in dream with Arpita. He used to keep her picture too knowing Arpita don't think him anything..

He was not much surprised when she cried getting his denial. With time he understood the infatuation was growing but he was clueless. It was then he felt bad when he saw her crying. He didn't try to explain her anything but it felt bad that she cried for him..

He remembered the time when he found her after five years..

Though he was busy with his studies but he has realized his feelings just after the incident.. Arpita was busy in her own world and he never tried to approach her as he knew about the answer.. He found that he was not looking at her picture anymore after Aarti confessed. He found that he was not thinking about her anymore instead Aarti's face coming in front of him every now and then. He was studying in the school with scholarship. As the exams finished and after farewell party he had moved from the city and got busy with his study and career. But truth to say the girl never erased from his memory. He hardly knew her name but at the free time of day he would find himself thinking about her. The innocent eyes especially.. The way she used to look, the sound of her laughter..

He was helpless but he felt he fall in love with her more and more. He couldn't come out from the grip of her for a single day. Sometimes he used to curse himself. It was five years latter when he went back to that city. Aim was not to find her just with a hope that he at least can meet her for once but he was somehow prepared that she must have moved in her life. May be she has someone in her life too.

His heart beat grew when he knocked the door of her house. He has managed to get her address from the old friend circle.. He stood speechless when he saw her after years. There were miles apart difference. She was still beautiful then but this is something difficult to describe. This has become the gorgeous creation but still he could understand it was her..

"Yes.. Who are you?" She asked seeing the stranger at the door.he jolt back to reality, its kind of hurt him that she couldn't recognize him but it is not unrealistic, "Yash..". He could say this only and then her expression changed. She felt the face a quite familiar but she just wake up from sleep so her vision was not so clear. The name made sense in her.

It was quite unbelievable for her to believe that this is the same shy guy. He had become more tall and handsome as well. She should welcome him into the house but she felt this guy still has the ability to make her forget words..

"I Like You too". He had said standing on the same place, giving her the answer which she started years back. " Better to say I fall in love with You". He didn't want to say but it happened

She was shocked, confuse to say anything when someone screamed, "Aarti, who is there? Come on you have to get ready for the engagement.."

It had bring sense in him. The time has gone.. It's so late now, "I am Sorry", he mouthed. And before she could react anything he has gone..

***

He has returned to Bhopal on the very day. He couldn't bear the thought that she was engaging with anyone else. Though he has prepared himself by thinking she can have someone in her life but that hurts. He was about to ruin her engagement moment. Next day he thought to skip office but the empty times bringing her thought only and that was becoming more tough.

He tried to concentrate on his works when the door of his office flew open.. "You have no right to say sorry every time when it is not your fault", It was her and he was surprised to see her in his office.

He stood up clueless, feeling like same when she saw him at her door, "How dare you to go away after confessing? You have ruined the moment of me." She was angry..

"I am sorry if i have ruined your engagement.." He said sadly

"I will drag you out and kiss you in front of all if you say sorry again" she come dangerously in front of him

"What?", he was shocked, "It was your engagement yesterday."

"It was my sister's. And you ran away reaching to the conclusion without listing me?" A sadness come to her eyes which sadend him more but still he was confused

"It was first time that someone said he loves me and you didn't even let me feel that or enjoy that, you were just gone like you came, it is not done".. She pouted

And first time he smiled in the whole day, "I thought it was your engagement and my presence can ruin that... I am.."

She rolled her eyes before he could say sorry

"I would love to say sorry again and again but i can't afford to get my first kiss in front of all, i want it in private" his comment made her blush as she realized what she said

"Your first kiss?, what about the wallet girl?"

"Well she was in the wallet only, never come true.."

"Do you know how the known paths were mocking me when I was returning while crying when you refused me?"

He held her both hands, "I wish i could stop you then, it was you only that after years i had the guts to meet you and confess my real feelings. It was only then I realized that I loved you when you were not around, the emptiness provoked me more that It is love only and that's for you"

Her eyes were teary, "I know its not dream but I am so lucky to get my first love like this after years"

"So my girl may i have the permission to kiss you without saying sorry also?"

She laughed, "Oh yes my shy guy." And claimed the lips of each other to seal the heart's deal, teasing and nibbling each other in a passionate way, holding each other tightly when their tounges are talking with each other in their own way..

As they broke apart looking at eyes, "I have just realized yesterday I have loved you all the way but your confession only bring it on", She said

"It was meant to happen my dear.." He said kissing her once again

******

He come to the present when his wife entered in the room "So my admirer girl still miss her first crush?" His eye brow danced as she looked at him

"Yes, I miss the shy guy a lot who has become the most shameless one with passing time"

"Wasn't that the admirer girl only who threatened to kiss in case of any sorry" he moved forward to her and she stood there knowing his intension

"It was one only time but you take advantage of every sorry.."

"Who can resist the beautiful punishment anyway?"

She giggled, "I am sorry for the punishment i announced first time"

He pulled he in another kiss "Now you get ready for the result of sorry"..

And the result was as well passionate like always which come forward after the kiss