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ISHITA IYER to ISHITA RAMAN BHALLA to ISHGUN RAMAN BHALLA
Its quite long n may b boring for u... It may nt b gud too... Its ISHITA's journey... Read at ur own risk...
ISHITA IYER
From d day she got to knw dat she cant conceive at d tym of her engagement wid subbu n he left her... she had feeling dat no man can love her as she is incomplete n can nevr gv him dat happiness..
Though wid tym she accepted ds bitter truth BUT she ws constanlty reminded of ds by subbu's mom n had to face so rude comments from her n society as a whole...
ISHITA RAMAN BHALLA
Her shaadi wid raman ws also a compromise as in dat way she cud get a child who wud cal her MAA..
At dat tym also she had nt thght dat she wants love of a man... She had acceptd it.. N aftr shaadi also she ws reminded by shagun n subbu's mom of her limitation... But by dat tym RUHI n RAMAN had made her happy n contented wid dem...
Finally she had got d love of a man also thru raman.. Raman loves her n nw she ws happy... Bt jst one hope by raman n dat to bcoz he loved her n cud nt tolerate people calling her by dat name...
On ruhi n raman's insistence she gathered al her courage n agreed for it.. But dn again a bad news dat she can conceive bt cant carry n dat tym d love care n assurance of raman made her feel complete n satisfied dat raman loves her for wat she is n dosnt need a baby to proof...
N dn a miracle n she got pregnant n she ws happy n on top of d world... aftr al d major limitation for wich she had been taunted n insulted time n again ws being washed away... She ws pregnant wid d baby of a man who had accepted her wid al her limitations bt nw by god's grace she ws able to b a mother in evry aspect...
But who knew dat ds happiness ws short lived n she had lost her only hope her new baby died... She lost dere baby... She ws shattered bt had to recollect herself for her love raman, her kids ruhi adi n family... She didnt wanted anyone n specially raman to feel guilty for al ds... Ds loss ws a major loss for her n she ws jst broken totally frm inside...
Dat ws nt it dat she had to face more... dere ws more... Raman had started to go close to his ex-wife to mother of her kids SHAGUN... She cudnot tolerate it...As d days passed he ws jst caring for shgaun more n more... She got to knw dat shagun ws pregnant n nw her insecurities of loosing her love raman had risen to a new level... She had jst lost her baby n nw raman... She ws on d cliff n ws afraid dat she wud jst loose her life...
N dn d day came whn she got to knw dat shgaun ws pregnant wid raman's baby... She had jst got to knw thru simmi bt nt officially so didnt agreed wid d fact.. Dat day she voiced out her true pain wich she had hidden inside her... Her insecurity dat she can never give dat happpiness to raman.. She cud nevr be his first love her first wife.. She vl always remain d SECOND one.. d DOOSRI...
D night ws complete disaster for her whn she officially came to knw dat raman is d father of d baby in shagun's womb... DEVASTATED ws less to describe her situatn... NO word is made dat cud describe her pain her feelings whn she got dat news... Bt dat ws half truth n whn she got to knw d full truth i.e. d baby in shagun's womb is ishra's n she is jst d surrogate mother.. she ws no less bt jst one satisfaction dat he ws nt involved wid her... But ds full truth ws no less for her to b in peace... At dat tym raman her love had only made her feel hw incomplete she is n dat word BAANJH ws truly in al sense meant for her.. N she can nevr forget dat... Dn a new baby wich ws in shagun's womb ws also short lived n shagun committed suicide... Wid her d baby also died...
For ishita, she had lost her another baby n shagun n she cud nt save her... In front of her eyes she had seen a person jumping off d terrace n reason ws d insult n allegations by he own family... She had lost al her senses by dn...
Nw as al d ritauls of her death ended days became normal bt she ws dead at dat vry moment whn shagun had jumped...
ISHGUN RAMAN BHALLA
All d trauma frm d day she got d news dat she can never conceive n to today whn shagun died is enough for any person to loose senses...
Loss of first love...
Repeated n constant society insults...
Loss of first baby...
Fear of loosing true love of life...
Insult by d true love of being a BAANJH...
Loss of second baby...
Guilt of a person's suicide...
Guilt of not saving a person's life...
Insecurity of being always d DOOSRI...
After loosing d actual self... N In quest of being d first love d first wife she is changing herself bt nt by will... She has suffered so much dat nw her MENTAL BALANCE has been lost... She jst wants to b d FIRST...
I think al ds mental trauma is capable of her having to cause MPD... MULTIPLE PERSONALTIY DISORDER...
I dnt knw whethr al ds made sense or nt bt ws jst a JIST of ISHITA's SUFFERING frm DAY1 to TODAY whr she has reachd...
From being ISHITA IYER to ISHGUN RAMAN BHALLA...
Pushpa Impossible
