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The real - Sid hears her say '' mein bhi tumse... '' he is so elated to hear her confess, that he turns around and asks almost in disbelief '' tu bhi kya?...tu bhi mujse pyar karti hai?
The real - This must be the happiest moment in his life..The girl he so ardently loves and was dying to hear confess, loves him for real... the joy of her confession filled him up with so much love that it overcame the pain he had in his heart ..his world lit up and for a second he forgot the crushing feeling of having to let her go...❤️
The real - He never wanted this moment to end...her confession was all he wanted to savour as the last memory of their togetherness.. he gently caresses a lone strand of her hair touching her delicate face that glowing smile that warms his heart will be treasured forever..probably the last time she would smile for him...💔
The fake- He closed his heart, he shut his mind and did what was supposed to be done...Even it if crushes him from within, he has to let her go... fake it if you have to.. push her away, tell her its only you who loved ...not me.. my ego, that you bruised is what matters the most to me.. not you, yes I will lie , I will fake..don't go by the love you see in my eyes.. I will not let it come in my way to hurt you today, the way I am hurt... this is how its meant to be... 💔
The fake- Don't look into my eyes I fear you may catch the pain they hide.. there is only so much I can hold.. look at me laugh at you and fake that smile which will make you hate me..hate me with all your heart just the way I love you with all I have... I don't want you to feel you lost something worthy of your love..I should mean nothing to you..but you will always mean everything to me..
The real - Siyali looks in disbelief at him.. the shock, the pain...is real...Is this the same boy who I fell in love with? Who should I believe? What should I believe? Is this how love turns out to be?Was I right all along? why did I ever believe him..? who is this Siddharth Rajput? where is the Siddharth Rajput who held my hand a while ago and promised the world to me?
The real - I can't see her like this...on the verge of tears.. ripping her heart apart pains me like nothing ever has... I can't see her tears.. I will die a thousand deaths with each tear that she sheds... Don't cry... how do I stop her from crying.. let me hurt her ego...are you gonna shed tears for me... knowing her that should work..it did..I know her so well...
The real - Sorry I can't wipe your tears off... sorry I can't lend you a shoulder to cry on.. it pains.. My body, my soul, my heart pains today...'' bohot dard ho raha hai Siyali'' he keeps his hand on his heart..he gives away..only if she could see..perhaps not!
The fake- Now its my turn Siddharth Rajput.. Yes I am in love.. I still am...and I hate myself for that..but I am not letting you do this to me.. I will not break..I will fake it better than you can.. I will not let my tears flow..I will give it back to you and walk away with my head held high and pretend like nothing happened.. you mean nothing to me..I will be strong.. you hear me?
The real- It hurts to see you hate me but I deserve this...I admire your courage even if I can't muster enough to face you today...I hate to let you hate me when your love is all that I wanted
The real - I give up... Watching you walk away from me, is more painful than I imagined...it feels like someone punched a hole right into my heart and it bleeds..The smile I have been faking to ridicule you has left me..perhaps forever..and my eyes have given way to tears that are never gonna stop...
The real - This is me... bleeding from outside and inside alike... something, a part of me, has parted forever.. the only real joy I ever had in my life is never gonna come back to me.. that feeling has crushed me from inside..its never gonna be the same again.. the pain is real and immense!
The real- I am glad you are gone.. thank god you didn't turn back to see me like this... I can mourn in peace..I can be real.. I am tired of faking it..putting up a brave face infront of you, mocking you...I am glad you did not see me so vulnerable..so broken.. I deserve to be alone in my misery..be punished and left alone in my pain coz I hurt you...
The fake- I am Siyali Rajput..I am not going to let anybody hurt me...not Sid of all people.. I am strong..I just showed him how nothing affects me... even if I look shattered..I wont give in to this pain...I will keep going..
His eyes have never had any love for me...then why did it seem so real? no i was wrong..
His closeness has never affected me..then why did it seem so real?..no I will not think about him..
Why did I go looking for him...perhaps I was delusional..but why then did his words sound so true to me..
The warmth of his lips pressing against mine..the feel of his gentle soft breath ,his touch, nothing was real, yet why did it seem so perfect?
It was all an eyewash...nothing in the world seemed so pristine than the love I got and lost almost in a flash... this is no nightmare, that I can forget when I open my eyes..the pain, the heartbreak is real and I have to live with it...
The ache is immense..as deep as my love is, my first ever... I may always fake it in front of him and pretend to be in control, but from within only I know how much broken I am... What did I do to deserve this? Will anyone care to explain? Why was I held by my hand and asked to walk on a path I never wished to tread... now I have been abandoned..to cry on my own..can I go back to where I was? never...that's the sad part... coz no matter how hard I try, I can never fake to not love you,Siddharth Rajput!!
Arjun
Sensational South
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