Love Asylum: Epilogue on Page 78! COMPLETE. (May 21st)

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cherrynicolem

@cherrynicolem

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Posted: 10 years ago

#201

Amazingly penned

True love

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Saffi Sanam

@ilovepyaar

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Posted: 10 years ago

#202

Thirty

Diary Entry #3:

It's like our paths are meant to cross... and Randhir wants to know more about me. A few days ago, we bumped into each other in the canteen accidentally. My books fell, but he just walked away. I couldn't stop myself from smiling. It was like he was trying his best to show me no attention.

I just knew inside that he cared to know more about me, I intrigued him... there was something about me that was mysterious and he wanted to know what. He wanted answers.

My gut feeling was confirmed when he came to my house tonight. And oh God... I can't even express my happiness.

I just took a shower and walked into my room, when he had covered my mouth with his hand and told me not to scream. I knew it was him, but when he turned on the lights, I pretended to be surprised. He had my diary in his hands and obviously I grabbed it from him. I don't think I would be able to deal with the embarrassment if he read this. These feelings... they might scare him away, they're very intense. And this diary, if it ever fell into his hands, he would know so much about me... so much that maybe he'd even feel guilty.

Anyways, something he said today, made my heart soar. I'm afraid to believe it... I'm afraid to get my hopes up.

Randhir told me he was madly in love with me.

I just wanted to hug him tightly and cry. I wanted to break down crying because I know how much my ears have ached to hear those three words from him.

But as always, I had to play my part.

I had to behave neutral, as if it wasn't a big deal... because for all I know, he might be pretending. Maybe he just wanted answers.

Yes, I was crazy in love with him, but my love didn't blind me. I could see clearly.

He kept on asking me, over and over again, if I loved him too. But I told him I needed to think about it. I couldn't tell him the truth. Even when he kissed me and I ached to just confess, I knew I couldn't. I couldn't fall weak.

My purpose was him, not me. I couldn't lose myself in my own feelings, and completely forget that the reason I did all this was for him. I had to continue.

Oh how my heart aches for his confession to be true, but I know he confessed for reasons other than love, and for that... I have to be strong. I won't interfere, I won't lose myself, but I will let destiny write its story, because I know that whatever happens, my love for him won't fade.

We're graduating next week.

I wonder if I'll ever see him again. I wonder if he'll even speak to me again.

I try not to wonder, because it hurts to think about it... to think about not waking up every day and seeing his face from far away, to not seeing him laughing with his friends... to not seeing him studying in the library.

Four years though, of feeling this beautiful feeling called love. Four years of seeing him almost everyday in class. Four years of watching him flirt with other girls, and imagining him saying those words to me. Four years of tears, of smiles, of happiness and sadness, all thanks to him. And that one night of bliss.

At least I had four years... whoever the writer of destiny is, they are so compassionate to give me that much time to love him, and to even let me feel complete in every sense with him for that one night.

What more can I want?

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nitzrushi

@nitzrushi

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Posted: 10 years ago

#203

she is so crazily in love with him re...its so much suspense filled

please please please update the next part sooner

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Soniya

@TUKI.MICKY

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Posted: 10 years ago

#204

OMG!! All the 3 Diary entries are freaking amazing!!

I'm so excited to know Randhir's reactions after going through the diary 😳 😳

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Saffi Sanam

@ilovepyaar

Stunner

+ 7

Posted: 10 years ago

#205

Thirty One

Diary Entry #4:

I wanted to see if we were really meant to be. I wanted to see if he would put in the effort to come and see me. I wanted to see how far his curiosity would take him.

So I avoided him for the next week.

I wasn't expecting to ever speak to him again, and with great sadness, I had parted with the idea of having one last conversation with him. I told myself that we may never see each other again, and then reminded myself of that one night, and immediately I would feel a warmth in my heart. Like they say, we get greedy sometimes as humans. I ached to feel his body on mine again, but I knew not to, because it would ultimately lead to heartbreak.

My focus was him, not me. I couldn't get lost in thoughts about myself, I wouldn't allow myself to drown in my own desires... because if I drowned, I may never see the surface again.

My heart leaped when I heard him call my name a few hours after college ended for that day. I had been in the basketball court, getting emotional with memories of school. Memories of Randhir. I had seen him play basketball here many times. I always admired the way he interacted with others, and when he played basketball, he'd always lose himself in the game... you could tell that he really loved it.

When he came to speak to me, I nearly broke down crying, but I composed myself... I couldn't lose. It was the last moment I had with him, I had to take a strong hold on myself. I couldn't let four years of hard work go down the drain in the last second.

My heart filled with love, with love for the writer of destiny. They had shown their compassion once again by bringing him to me. With a heavy heart, I told him that we wouldn't be able to make it work, because he had a reputation, a player reputation. He asked me how he knew it was true, and for a quick moment, I thought I detected shame in his eyes, but he covered it up quickly. My heart melted. I wanted to hug him and tell him that I wouldn't judge him based on his past... but I had to remain firm.

He was truthful. He told me it wasn't a lie, so I asked him how I could be so sure that he wouldn't play with me, then drop me off in the end. To be honest, I don't mind being played with. I already played with myself for four years... and at this point, I knew I loved Randhir more than I loved myself. I would happily give him everything, my everything, and let him discard me in the end, if that was what made him happy. But I knew that wouldn't make him happy. I knew him getting me wouldn't make him happy either, nor would answering his questions.

What would make him happy, was me simply being kind to him. I didn't want to play God. I wasn't God. I didn't want to write his future for him. I didn't want to be manipulative. I just wanted to distance myself enough to see if inevitably, we would still be brought closer. I wanted God, or the universe, or destiny, or whatever was out there, to take care of his happiness. I wasn't powerful enough to keep him happy. I knew that.

If being with me made him happy, he would come and get me. Otherwise, his happiness was never with me to begin with.

Then he told me he'd come to Mumbai and I couldn't control myself. Tears formed in my eyes. I didn't know whether he was being genuine, but the thought of it being true made me want to break down.

I asked him not to do anything for me, but he touched my face and said he'd see me there before he walked away.

My heart hurt.

He either loved me so much... perhaps more than I loved him, or he wanted to leave an impression on me. I don't know. I don't know why he was doing what he did. I don't know anything.

All I know is that I love Randhir Singh Shekhawat, and I am putting all my faith in destiny to keep him happy.

I won't attend graduation. I will wait for him in Mumbai now.

If he comes, then we'll see where to go from there. If he doesn't come, I will still be okay, because I can imagine that wherever he is, he will be smiling... and I will smile, imagining his smile.

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Rashi Bhargava

@newmoon18

Sparkler

Posted: 10 years ago

#206

Yipee one more update
Love u didu
These three entries were freaking awsme

God sanyu is madly in love with him
She's a true lover

Cnt wait to see rd reaction

Update soon
Wtng

Love u
Keep smiling