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Posted: 10 years ago
This song is for Jen:

Dil tadap tadap ke keh raha hai aa bhee ja
Too humse aankh na chura, tujhe kasam hai aa bhee ja

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbuqJU0oUrw[/YOUTUBE]
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Posted: 10 years ago
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hee heee this res is not required ..saw everyone res and res'ed without understanding Jen's note.. this shows how desperate I am for this update ;-)
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Saffron Fields...
A journey of self-discovery...




Aashiqi sabr talab aur tamanna betaab,
dil ka kya rang karoon khoon-e-jigar hone tak ..




(Love demands patience and yearning restless
How do I placate my heart till my destruction?)

Humne maana ke taghaaful na karoge tum lekin
Khaaq ho jaayenge hum tumko khabar hoone tak.



Mirza Ghalib.

Edited by IPK007 - 10 years ago
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me first :-)

hee heee me first in second page :-) I am sure I will have enough comments to post on both my res's ;-)

I will go to Cleveland clinic, beat up K sisters and come back to comment !!

Am back..first thing first..Jen, take a bow for such a wonderful update..

couple of things in my mind after reading the update :

1) Anita..Kushi is so lucky her parents had an "accidental" baby who turned out to be a blessing for Kushi..wish she was at home when Manya came..

2) Manya..she has no respect for Astha..she says "his mom told that last night"..what the hell..she is fine with her sister doing it but Astha telling it to her dad is a crime..grow up girl.. initially she tried to confront her sister about the baby but later she just accepted with "chalta hai" type attitude..and how dare she point fingers again at Kushi..

3) Lavanya proves that some things never change..!! she slept with her step mom's son..thats very yuckkk...speaks so much about her character (forget her mental state)..I dont think he took advantage of her..she willingly did it..
she slept with a drunk Arnav and after that Jason and she blames Kushi for her broken marriage..she really needs tight slap from her dad..
btw I want Shashi to know the Jason truth which Manya came to know..want to see how will he react..
she talks about stars.. its like Salman's dialogue from Hum aapke "kya aap chat par din mein taare gin rahi thi? "
Arnav cared for her and tried to make the marriage real and hence the wonderful nights they had..!! not bcos he loved her like he loves Kushi..

4) Kushi..she once again blaming herself..you really need a break from everyone sweetheart..

Arnav walking in at parking lot..I am desperately waiting for next update Jen..

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Thanks Kavitha 😊
Shailaja beat me this time...generally I take first spot before Jen reserves šŸ˜†

Desperate stalkers reseved on wrong page 🤣

Jen, Thanks for your special reservewala love for me šŸ˜‰


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Jen,

Once again this update is simply superb and emotionally exhausting. I can imagine how hard it must be for you to write these emotionally draining chapters.


Sisters always share special bond whether it is Kushi-Anita or Lavanya - Manya. I just love how Kushi and Lavanya shared their grief and received a shoulder to cry on from their siblings.

Lavanya character is getting complicated in every chapter. It is interesting to know that Lavanya was not aware of Aarav's paternity at the time of marriage. But why didn't Lavanya try to resurrect those so called moments that she fondly remembers to strengthen their relationship earlier?. Did she realize all her mistakes after she came to know about Arnav & Kushi relationship? Or did she think that Arnav will be pinning for her and miraculously return to her just before divorce is granted?. To me Lavanya just lives in imaginary bubble and false hopes. Is Lavanya talking about bright sun blinding Arnav in the middle of a full moon night?😔

Arnav tried to work on his relationship with Lavanya for three years but failed. He did give her flowers, blissful romance etc but Lavanya ditched all those with her insecurities and fear of getting caught. Why Arnav had that imperceptible flicker when Kushi asked him loving Lavanya?. Did he love her or was he just thinking of those god forsaken moments spent with Lavanya?

Meeting between Manya & Kushi is interesting. Why does Kushi needs assurance from Manya that she didn't take away that small chance of Arnav & Lavanya marriage survial?. Why is Kushi so guilt driven about her choice?. Manya words definitely hitted Kushi where it hurts the most. It is definitely time of introspection for Kushi to prioritize her priorities. I guess Arnav is the person walked in from parking lot?.But what is he doing there? Meeting Lavanya / Manya / Lavanya doctor or did he come to know about Kushi meeting with Manya?. I am waiting for next week to come soon.







Edited by jduke - 10 years ago
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Now that's an explosive chapter from start to finish. I already read it a few times just to get acclimatized to the brutal honesty coming out of Anitha, Khushi, Lavanya, and Manya. I bow down to your skill of penning together something so intense, bold and honest. This all girls chapter will be something to cherish.

I loved the way how Anitha was just being herself. Everything she said and everything she asked, oh I wish Khushi could come close to even half of that. I think her conversation was really important for Khushi to get some of her own demons out. I guess that is what the religion of sisterhood is all about.

Lavanya - It was me hoping against hope, but I felt some bright spots for her at the beginning of her conversation with Manya. But, it did not take long for me realize, that I was betting against a dogs tail (No offense to dogsšŸ˜‰). I so wish she realizes that her right to entitlement of her own opinions does not apply to facts. At this rate, I have a feeling that even Arnav's honesty would fall short for her "star theory". Her entire view of Aarav, Jason and Arnav is so self-centered around herself, she is going to be searching for those stars for a long time to come. I guess denial is a state where there are many roads that lead you in but none to get you out.

Manya - Pardon me for borrowing your analogy, but I think she is the phoenix of the chapter for me. She was ashes for me after outburst at Khushi's home. But her conversations with Lavanya and Khushi have definitely made her rise again. I am sure most of it has to do with her own guilt but I admire her for trying to drill some sense into Lavanya and admitting her mistake to Khushi. In spite of her skewed feelings, I think her questions for Khushi to ponder on, were spot on. I may be biting my own tongue later for saying this but I think, she acted her age finally.

Khushi - Despair to resolve to despair again? What is going on with her and what is going to happen to her? At the beginning, she was in state of despair replaying to herself Manya's and her parent's questions. Out came the steely resolve from nowhere to get the answers. And now, she is back to replaying mode again? Her actions clearly indicate her emotional state and for all our sake, I am hoping that the opening of the parking ramp door answered some of her prayers.

Overall, for me, this chapter would have been the hardest one to write and I just cannot keep myself from going back to read it again and again. Blessed is the ability that you possess to make a heart content and mind restless, both at the same time.

I am already eagerly waiting for our stars next week and don't you worry about anything blinding us, because, all those stars are nothing compared to you, our sun, the most biggest and brightest star that we can see. Thank you again for the awesome chapter.
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jenny for ušŸ‘..the way u written this chapter emotions, fears, weakness,helplessness..all in one...sisters talk...how different u written jenny...kushi-Anita, Lavanya-Manya...

1.lavanya and manya...sisters talk...still lavanya din't change i guess untill arnav talk, she will never change all she wants is sympathy form the people who will support her...she knows every bodies weakness...i guess lavanya knows she is loosing her battle on arnav, so she needs support thats why she is playing...

Manya, all i can say she is blind ...she knows everything ,instead changing her sister views she is blaming others what right she has??????...

2.love Anita she is correct for everyone...she is young but she is matured enough to see things in both perspectives,kushi is lucky to have a sister like her...thanks god at least kushi shared everything to anita...

3. kushi,she is in worst state than lavanya,she is not thinking properly,all is happening because the way her parents reacted, anita is right...

Oh my god jenny u stopped here...much waited scene...

thanks for the lovely lovely chapter...

Edited by kushiarnav1 - 10 years ago
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How many reses I made out of desperation. LOL. šŸ˜†

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Jen, what an emotional update this was.

First atleast there is someone in this story who is practical in her thinking and outlook. Anita is perfectly correct when she said that someone should have stopped Manya when she was spewing vemon at Khushi. And the fact that her parents are also equally responsible in hurting her and that she should move out at that instant.

I am guessing that apart from the guilt that is ripping her heart and soul apart, its her parents' attitude too which drives Khushi away from everything and everyone.

If people in all directions keep pointing fingers at you, I guess gradually you start feeling responsible for the actions you never committed. I think that is what is happening with Khushi too.

On one side her parents have been saying that right from day one, then now Lavanya's suicide attempt and her pathetic excuse of a note, combined with Manya's outburst has enlarged and inflated the guilt in Khushi in a big way, the same guilt which she did feel initially and but later buried it deep within her heart on Arnav's insistence and his love.

Khushi forget the phoenix, forget the flicker in Arnav's eyes, stop this guilt phenomena from engulfing and devouring you completely. That is the only sane advice I can give Khushi now. She is not the first person to ever fall in love with a married man who was almost divorced. I am sure such stories are there right from early human ages to the present.

And for the sake of your own sanity, why are you seeking clean chits for your actions from people who don't care for you like Manya or Lavanya. Who the hell is Manya to say whether you are correct or not? Look into your own conscience and decide for yourself.

And coming to Lavanya, I am so exhausted with her. Even while typing this line, I let out a deep breath.

How much can one lie in their life? How much can one try to manipulate the circumstances according to their whims and fancies? How much low can one stoop in their life? How much can one blame others for their bad actions?

First and foremost I don't agree with loony that she only came to know that Aarav was not Arnav's son after his birth.

Ok even ignoring that, the four years she and Arnav were together, did she sincerely try to build a nice relationship with her husband instead of always nagging him and not being satisfied with anything he does. Whether its her nature or her guilt or whatever crap, I really don't care anymore, she not only made Arnav's life a living hell but also ruined her marriage with her own hands.

Now how conveniently she comes up with some stars theory for her marriage saying that there were good moments like stars in the night sky and Arnav has been blinded now due to the sun.

Well I would like to say that that the stars have died and become black holes long ago Lavanya, wake up and see for yourself, the night sky is totally dark now with no stars and no moon or no anything. Its just dark and plain dark. And this darkness was there even before Khushi came into Arnav's life.

Wake up Lavanya and realise that irrespective of Khushi being in the picture or not, Arnav was going to divorce you. He was not coming back to you.

I hope someone tells her these facts and just asks her to sign the damn divorce papers and get it over with once and for all.


Edited by canapoem - 10 years ago
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Posted: 10 years ago

Hey Jen... I guess I'm never going to cease to be amazed by the lucidity of your writing and I'm definitely not going to tire of telling you what a wonderful writer you are. That was quite something. Confrontations, confessions and introspections. And looks like it's not over yet...

Firstly, I admire Anita for the way she assessed the situation with little prejudice and gave her frank opinion. It shows her maturity beyond her years. I love her for being there for Khushi the way her whole family should have been. Like Anita said if they're hurt and shocked, Khushi is too. Isn't it up to parents to comfort their children first instead of judging and condemning them?

Secondly, I understand what Khushi is going through. Her doubt about herself, her choices has increased dangerously. Along with these doubts and uncertainties, guilt, blame and hurt are slowly pushing her towards misery. Even though I'm glad she had that conversation with Manya, I think it has just added to her burdens.

As I was reading this chapter, perhaps for the first time, I felt myself step into her shoes and it surprised me that my feelings weren't very different from hers. And that's when I found the certainty in the correctness of her decision to put some distance from this situation and the people. With some space and time, I hope she will see that even if the timing may have been off, her choices, her love, their relationship is not wrong or immoral. I hope she will see, as I see, that The Phoenix is not Lavanya-Arnav's marriage but Khushi and Arnav's love, their relationship, which might burn owing to doubts, insecurities, unfair accusations and judgments but it will rise again, it will be reborn to take flight again, stronger, more dazzling than before.

Coming to Lavanya... I tried my best to be as neutral as possible (it's rather difficult considering I'm restrained by my resentment towards her)

I am glad that Manya tried to put some sense into Lavanya. However, it doesn't surprise me that Lavanya is thick enough to not see it and continues to be delusional. Magic pills to make things right, I mean, seriously?! I don't deny that everyone deserves some getaway from problems at times but not by losing touch of reality like this woman is hoping for. Escaping reality and wishing for the problems to disappear without any effort. "No change of circumstances can change a defect in character". For me, La's defect is her inability to accept the gravity of her errors and their consequences.

One thing I do not deny is her claim that there were moments. As much as it pains me to imagine, I'm sure there must have been moments of affection, romance, camaraderie because they were married for quite long and friends for longer before that. To compromise with the situation that they were dealt with, Arnav certainly must have tried to make their marriage work and they must have made some good memories in the process. But the fact remains...that it was a compromise. It was not really a choice. They had moments, but no balance. Are some moments, few good memories good enough to sustain a marriage that began as an adjustment and was crippled by lies, guilt and insecurities?

I am not married but as a woman, as a person, I don't think I would settle for being a compromise or a second choice, especially now that there is no child to be considered. Why should anyone? Don't we all deserve to be loved wholly, without conditions? La's problem is that she wants that only from Arnav... Moreover, I hardly think what she feels for Arnav is love anymore...if it ever was... It's an obsession, a demand of a petulant child. If she truly loved him, she would not begrudge him the happiness, a second chance at life.

Stars, Lavanya called them, didn't she? And Khushi, the sun? I don't know if she is right or not. But I recall something I had once read...

"The sky may hold a million stars but it is consumed by only one, the Sun." And I, for one, do not see any incongruity in the fact that Khushi is that sun for Arnav. But, what La fails to see is that even if Khushi wasn't in the picture, she would never be His sun. Eventually, that truth would have caught up with them and La would have reverted to being her insecure, neurotic self.

I think this is quite apt here:- "Yours is the light by which my spirit is born; you're my sun, my moon and all my stars." (E.E. Cummings)

It is apparent for anyone to see, even Manya, that Arnav and Khushi share that kind of a connection; something he never felt for Lavanya even when Khushi wasn't there, even when the truth about Aarav was not revealed. It's time to concede that he never really belonged to Lavanya. In spite of all this if she still insists on holding on to her desperate delusions, I don't see any hope for her.

I guess, I got carried away, once again. If I think anymore, I'm sure I'll come up with more stuff to analyse and dissect. So, I'll stop here. Apologies if I have gone far overboard.

I'm eagerly awaiting as well as dreading the next update! It's going to have 'the conversation'... šŸ˜•

Edited by UV_Arshi - 10 years ago

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