'Tune Kehdiya Alvida..' // What I don't agree with.

"Life Mein Kuch Bhi Free Nahi Milta. It's All Give And Take." - Manik.

"Dunya Mein Her Relationship Give And Take Hota Hai. So Don't Fool Yourself Ke Iske Beyond Bhi Koi Relationship Hota Hai." - Nyonika

Today I'm not going to be poetic. Today, I'm just going to talk. Not that I ever was poetic so to say. I think everyone already knows my love for Manik. I LOVE HIM. I love that guy and I'd even say I'm biased toward him. You'd think I was supporting him, but kal tak, till yesterday, you would've been wrong.

Till yesterday's episode aired I was all for Nandini. I, if not completely, did understand where she was coming from. I understood her insecurities and fears as a girl. Till yesterday I saw why for Nandini it all turned out to be toxic, why she thought what she did. Why was it so important for her to distance herself from Manik. Because, no matter what happened, we cannot deny what had bred between them. Their relationship, if has its good memories, also, has its ugliest scars. The kind that have in them, the potential, to weaken the whole structure. And didn't it happen?

Was it just the lack of trust amidst them? Not exactly. It was not just trust but the difference of ideologies as well. Sometimes, in all the baser emotions we forget the characteristics that make a personality, the values that breed the blood. I'd again say, Manik and Nandini are more alike than they're different. Both of them stubborn, loyal to a fault, selfless and impulsive to the core.

But both of them also have different values at heart. Both of them deal with situations differently. Both of them see things in a different manner. Both of them believe in handling matters differently, both of them have different opinions.

Like trust.

Both of them believe that trust is important for love.

But even then both of their respective definitions and limitations of trust are vastly different.

For Manik trust is implicit and bare. Naked. Give it all, without question, see through, feel it, for Manik trust is a gift very few people can give and maybe that's how he protects himself. Because he is, if nothing, than a demanding man. Of himself and others.

For Nandini, trust is a different matter altogether.

But trust is not the magic a wand can weave. It's the roots of a tree that takes a lot of time to grow. Doesn't happen overnight. Not even in a month or three. Trust is knowing that person.

I'd say that Nandini knows Manik in more ways than anyone but it still is FAB5 who trusts him more. Not the adhering to his decisions like he's some God part, but knowing, and trusting his capabilities and boundaries as a person. Knowing that Manik won't have killed Harshad. Knowing that Manik is capable of this but not that.

And even their trust falters at places. Dhruv's had when Manik had something he hadn't meant to Nandini. Like always. And Manik had been deeply hurt when Dhruv had taken his words for what they were. Because for Manik, trust is not in the words but in the eyes, in the soul.

But for Nandini to give him that there has to be more than just being apart. Trust builds when a relationship builds. Trust builds in those pillow talks, in those quiet moments where you just sit together and bare your hearts. When he tells you he hates the color yellow or you tell him your favorite childhood memory or when you tell them that which has hurt you the most or has been the nearest to you.

Yes, till yesterday, I was all for Nandini because I did feel that somewhere she'd cried more than laughed along with Manik. That somewhere Manik, my impulsive, foolish boy, who is also arrogant enough to think that he can solve anything with an apology, that he can get whatever he wants, has to realize that an apology cannot solve everything. That, you've to own up to your actions and that you have to know what it is to have had something so precious and then lost it because of your mistake. Until you don't, how will you know the worth of it? How will you stop taking it so casually? There in lied a lesson, a bitter one, my Manik had to learn.

He had to realize he loved her, he had to apologize to her, for not just hurting her, but for every single act of his that had somehow wounded her since the day he'd met her. He'd to fill the next pages of their story with so much beauty that the doubts and the scars no longer remained. That her concerns no longer remained.

So what changed yesterday? Nothing. Everything. For me it did.

I realized something else. When Nyonika told Manik he canot play the guitar and when Manik turned his frustrated gaze on the guitar and took off with it. I realized.

I realized that Manik cannot do all of that on his own. I realized that Manik cannot be expected to take all those steps, alone. His mother always taught him that relationships were give and take. Give something, have something. He'd been, in a sense, paying a debt he can never repay to Dhruv. For him, his friends have given him so much, hope, happiness, life, a bond unlike any and he makes sure that nobody ever ever can harm them. Yes he loves them, but the baser instinct and value is same. Give and take.

If you don't give enough, you don't get enough. Make mistakes, pay for them. The more mistakes you make, the more you'll pay. Aren't they Nyonika's words? And don't they ring so true with Manik's life?

So what did I exactly realize?

I realized that Manik cannot tell Nandini that he loves her, because he doesn't even know what love is. Love is too much, a big gaping hole that has given him nothing but pain, something so ugly that he doesn't even want to associate with it. He's been nothing but lonely. I realized that Manik is foolish and stupid and he'd harm himself again and again. He'd pick that guitar up, he'll not care for his own hand. He'll do wrong things and I realized that there will be no one to guide him.

Today, I heard what Nandini had to say with a lot of patience. She said that they were bad for each other. But I question her, do you not realize what'll happen if you leave him? He needs you so much Nandini. Manik needs you so much so he doesn't do something impulsive and foolish. He needs you to care for him the way only you and you can do. He needs your sensibility when he's being irrational. He needs you to calm him. He needs you to actually show him what love is and what care is and what's just sitting there and feeding someone 5 bites of food. He needs you to scold him when he tries to strain his hand, he needs you to teach to him, that which you know, and mend in him that which is broken. He needs you to take all his pain and the burden he carries as much as he wants to take away yours. He needs to know you. You need to know him. He needs to know the darkness inside you, you need to know the darkness inside him.

We think that a relationship should always start when the confession has happened. But most relationships in the world are what lead to the love. Because that's what love is, isn't it? Knowing a person more and more, feeling home in them, and falling for them more everday? A little more tomorrow than you did today.

But, also, he needs her, to teach him, that love is forgiving the flaws and giving a chance. A chance when it matters so much. That love is not just how much you give me. It's giving unconditionally and not expecting anything. That love is being there and love is forgiving and love is believing. Until you don't believe in what you've, you can never work it out. And for that belief to happen, for you to know that you'll solve all your problems and do it together, there has to be a bond of steel amidst you.

So, yes, today I don't support Nandini's decision. I do believe had she decided that today, Manik needed her more than anything, that Manik can harm himself at times with his foolish acts, that he needed her calmness, her care, her love to become the man she wants him to be, that Manik can never be that man until she helps him become that, that some things are meant to be achieved together rather than apart, that sometimes forgiving is not illogical it's simply divine, I would've been really glad.

But I also said in my first topic. A good character who has the ability to hex me and vex me, make me frustrated and yet rooted to my seat is one I root for. Can't wait for the future tracks.

#MYMANIKBESOHOT

#likeomfgmyoldmanikisback

#thisgottoolong

#ILOVEHIMBAS

Also, I believe a lot of people will disagree with me. I think the reason I'm posting this is because I want to hear the other side. I want a good debate, something that'll change my own pov XD

Okaythanksbye lmao

RIDA.

Originally posted by: MaybeSomeday...

Both of them believe that trust is important for love.

But even then both of their respective definitions and limitations of trust are vastly different.

For Manik trust is implicit and bare. Naked. Give it all, without question, see through, feel it, for Manik trust is a gift very few people can give and maybe that's how he protects himself. Because he is, if nothing, than a demanding man. Of himself and others.

For Nandini, trust is a different matter altogether.

But trust is not the magic a wand can weave. It's the roots of a tree that takes a lot of time to grow. Doesn't happen overnight. Not even in a month or three. Trust is knowing that person.

I'd say that Nandini knows Manik in more ways than anyone but it still is FAB5 who trusts him more. Not the adhering to his decisions like he's some God part, but knowing, and trusting his capabilities and boundaries as a person. Knowing that Manik won't have killed Harshad. Knowing that Manik is capable of this but not that.

And even their trust falters at places. Dhruv's had when Manik had something he hadn't meant to Nandini. Like always. And Manik had been deeply hurt when Dhruv had taken his words for what they were. Because for Manik, trust is not in the words but in the eyes, in the soul.

THIS. They both know the value of trust in a relationship, in love. But each defines it in their own way. To Nandini, never playing with the person's emotions who loves you is trust. To Manik, being able to read the person's eyes, to look beyond the actions and words is trust. Both concepts are right but also incomplete individually. This is possibly one of the many ways MaNan completes each other, because individually they lack the other half feature but together they ARE trust, they just need time and a little growth to realize that.

But for Nandini to give him that there has to be more than just being apart. Trust builds when a relationship builds. Trust builds in those pillow talks, in those quiet moments where you just sit together and bare your hearts. When he tells you he hates the color yellow or you tell him your favorite childhood memory or when you tell them that which has hurt you the most or has been the nearest to you.

...

So what changed yesterday? Nothing. Everything. For me it did.

I realized something else. When Nyonika told Manik he canot play the guitar and when Manik turned his frustrated gaze on the guitar and took off with it. I realized.

I realized that Manik cannot do all of that on his own. I realized that Manik cannot be expected to take all those steps, alone. His mother always taught him that relationships were give and take. Give something, have something. He'd been, in a sense, paying a debt he can never repay to Dhruv. For him, his friends have given him so much, hope, happiness, life, a bond unlike any and he makes sure that nobody ever ever can harm them. Yes he loves them, but the baser instinct and value is same. Give and take.

If you don't give enough, you don't get enough. Make mistakes, pay for them. The more mistakes you make, the more you'll pay. Aren't they Nyonika's words? And don't they ring so true with Manik's life?

So what did I exactly realize?

I realized that Manik cannot tell Nandini that he loves her, because he doesn't even know what love is. Love is too much, a big gaping hole that has given him nothing but pain, something so ugly that he doesn't even want to associate with it. He's been nothing but lonely. I realized that Manik is foolish and stupid and he'd harm himself again and again. He'd pick that guitar up, he'll not care for his own hand. He'll do wrong things and I realized that there will be no one to guide him.

Today, I heard what Nandini had to say with a lot of patience. She said that they were bad for each other. But I question her, do you not realize what'll happen if you leave him? He needs you so much Nandini. Manik needs you so much so he doesn't do something impulsive and foolish. He needs you to care for him the way only you and you can do. He needs your sensibility when he's being irrational. He needs you to calm him. He needs you to actually show him what love is and what care is and what's just sitting there and feeding someone 5 bites of food. He needs you to scold him when he tries to strain his hand, he needs you to teach to him, that which you know, and mend in him that which is broken. He needs you to take all his pain and the burden he carries as much as he wants to take away yours. He needs to know you. You need to know him. He needs to know the darkness inside you, you need to know the darkness inside him.

I think the idea of love scares Manik and overwhelms him. He's been denied of love from his childhood and the idea of love or true love to him is too good to be true, he has convinced himself it is something that exists only in stupid fairytales and cheesy lovestories, or it is something that only the "good boys" like Dhruv deserves. But like Abhi has put it, he NEEDS love. Like NOW. There is only one thing in the world that works as a barrier between him and his self-destructing attitude and that is Nandini.

Seriously, the only part where I keep questioning Nandini's decision is when she says they shouldn't be together because they aren't good for each other, like they are toxic. She is the same girl who had come up with the Harshad plan because she knew Manik's impulsive nature. She knew Manik would end up destroying himself if nobody's there to guide him. She somehow just knew that she is the only person capable of stopping him. What happened to that girl? I know she is young, she is hurt, her emotions are all over the place and she doesn't know what to do with them. But we've already seen her acting way more mature than her age and that's one of the traits that amazes me every time. Is it too much to expect the same level of maturity from her once again? I don't know, I kinda expected her to be considerate of Manik's hand injury and his tendency to give in to his impulses, because as it seems, she obviously can't stay away from him. Why even try?? But then again, Manik has done some pretty unforgivable things to Nandini in the past and I have forgiven him for those (except for that rag where he makes that godawful yucky noodley thingy garnishing it with his spit for Nandini to eat, that was too inhumane😳)..so I can look past Nandini's super logic for once I think.

We think that a relationship should always start when the confession has happened. But most relationships in the world are what lead to the love. Because that's what love is, isn't it? Knowing a person more and more, feeling home in them, and falling for them more everday? A little more tomorrow than you did today.

...

But I also said in my first topic. A good character who has the ability to hex me and vex me, make me frustrated and yet rooted to my seat is one I root for. Can't wait for the future tracks.

#MYMANIKBESOHOT

#likeomfgmyoldmanikisback

#thisgottoolong

#ILOVEHIMBAS

*sigh* Your hashtag make me remember the old Monster Manik..He is back with a bang but also with a broken heart..he is same but also not the same and it pains me everytime I see him putting up that I-don't-give-a-shit faade in front of everyone.

Also, I believe a lot of people will disagree with me. I think the reason I'm posting this is because I want to hear the other side. I want a good debate, something that'll change my own pov XD

Okaythanksbye lmao

RIDA.

Rida I louu your post and I LOBE YOUUU❤️🤗 I be sho chorry for not being able too debate with you on the topic. Just accept my apology 😡*throws 'apology' Manik style* 😎