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We all had a childhood dream.

A dream that fizzeled out as we grew big.

A dream that we deemed childish.

A dream that will never come true.

My dream?

I did not have one simply because I wasn't allowed to.

Or maybe because I was not as courageous as my brother- Sirius.

Afterall, we have been bought up on the same beliefs. Yet he strived to break them.

To bring about a change.

For me,my life was dictated.

Go to Hogwarts. Get sorted in Slytherin. Purge yourself in dark arts and loathe all the mudbloods.

And follow the next big thing in the world of evil.

I did all of the above yet my conciousness protested.
But I blindly followed my beliefs.
Those beliefs that were thrusted upon me.
Those which I stupidly held.

Maybe because I envied my brother to break out of this vicious cycle or maybe it was the sight of my meek, obidient, faithful and harmless house elf trying to explain the horrors that he went through, I shifted my perspective.

For once I stood up for the greater good.

Maybe generations down our line might consider Sirius as the hero, the rebel, their idols.

Might scoff at my stupidity and narrow-minded thinking like I am now.

But for once, I stopped caring for the outoward opinions.
For once I broke free, refusing to succumb.

I know no one will come to know about my one good deed except him.

It had amazed and frightened me that the sorting hat had even considered to put me in a house other than Slytherin.

Maybe I should have expected on that offer.

And now, I wrote off all my regrets. What house I was sorted into doesn't matter now.

I smiled as the memory of my brother being Cruciated played before my eyes. The potion burned my throat,leaving it parched. Dry.
It was showing me my weakness, making me relive all my horrors.

But I didn't care.
The past didn't matter.
I smiled again as I switched the lockets.

Because for the first time I believed that I had brought upon a change in this world.

For the first time I had broken free.

Sad,how I realised how wrong I was as I am about to die.

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