Chapter 13- Getting Back my Love
Guys I started to rethink my decision of being a writer on this forum and I feel like maybe I will quit as soon as I finished this Fan Fiction because even after I asked all of you to step by and read my updates after writing on them for so long, most of you did it for a chapter and then stopped. I don't want to write if you are not interested so pls tell me: What am i doing wrong? What is it that you do not like?
Sorry If I offended anyone but those who write as well will understand me somehow.😭 Of course I want to continue to write but without your support that is not possible
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Amel
Shlok what happened between the two of you? Why is Aastha still at her maternal house?" Varad looked at his younger brother and sipped from his drink. After a week away from the Family with Sojal and Kavya, Varad finally managed to solve his own problems in his marriage and intended to give Sojal another Chance. He had returned with the thought of having a chat with Aastha and a drink with Shlok but to his surprise he found out Aastha was staying at her parents' house for obvious reasons. He knew Shlok must have done something wrong, like always. Why couldn't his brother see how much Aastha loved him? How she always put his happiness before hers? Varad thought sadly.
Both were now sitting in Shlok's Bedroom, watching some TV when Varad had asked the question Shlok was afraid of.
It has been almost one and a half week since that terrible night and Aastha was still on not talking terms with him. He had sent her thousands of sorry messages, roses everything but she stayed firm in her decision of staying away from him for a while. After that night he realized that he had done a terrible mistake and he regretted it truly. Never in his wildest Dream did Shlok think he would stoop so low and would force himself on her. He knew that this time he could lose her forever. Because he had questioned her character and her Love. He had accused her of infidelity knowing she couldn't forgive him that easily this time- and she was right in that.
I just hope she will forgive me, he thought and drank his drink in one zip.
"Shlok I asked you something." Varad said again. He knew Shlok avoided to answer but if Shlok didn't open up then how could he help him?
"I have done the unthinkable Varad. I questioned her character. Questioned the Character of the Woman that loves me more than anyone else that woman that carries my child." Shlok closed his eyes and narrated the whole story of how Karan came to office and after that he and Aastha went on a Lunch Date and he had kissed her forcefully. He even told him about the Night in which he had almost forced himself on her. Shlok left no stone unturned.
"Shlok...I know Aastha! She could never do something like that, kissing someone else than you. She loved you! It was always you for her. I mean think about it she endured you even when you were taking your revenge on her and hurt her so much. SHE STAYED SHLOK: She stayed because she loves you and she could have had married someone else but she didn't! Why can you not trust anyone completely little brother?"
After listening to Varad, Shlok felt even more miserable. He felt like he had done the gravest mistake in his whole life.
"I know that dada...I know you are right and I know how much Aastha loves me and that she would never cheat on me but in that moment I was blinded by my wrath! And after seeing those pictures I felt so insecure and vulnerable like I was stupid enough o fall in love again and to have my heart broken again. That Aastha once wanted to marry Karan didn't help, it actually fueled my anger."
They looked at each other and then it hit Shlok. His brother was waiting for him to realize what he wanted him to do.
" I need to get her back, right now. She should be with me; always. The past days I felt so incomplete because she wasn't here. I felt like I couldn't breathe because she wasn't here. I-I-I felt like I would die If I had to live another moment without her Varad. I will get her back, right now."
"Why?" Varad asked; testing him. He knew that one reason was their child. Maybe that was even the only reason. He wanted Shlok to realize that Aastha was a human being with feelings; he couldn't play with her emotions like that. They were not alone anymore there was a tiny life they had to think of and If Shlok ever repeated something like that he could say for sure that Aastha would leave him- with the baby. And he would understand her, would help her. That is why he tried to test if his brother really meant his apology or whether he just desired her.
"What kind of stupid question is that? I will get her back because I can't live without her Varad. She is my everything, my Life. Even though I did a mistake I know she will forgive me because I will rectify it! I will give her the one thing she always had asked for: My trust! Because that is the only way to get her back."
"So you don't just want her back because she is pregnant? You want her- Aastha?" Varad smirked and drank a zip from his Glass. Somehow it amused him to see how sweetly his Brother tried to explain him why Aastha was the reason of his life.
Shlok got irritated not realizing that his brother was mocking him- What was Varad even saying, Shlok thought, How can he think so low of me? I want Aastha because of her not because of the baby.
"Dada...Do you really think that low of me? Or are you mocking my Love? The Main Reason is Aastha and not the baby. I can have a dozen of them but only one Aastha." He stood up and looked for his car keys. Now wasn't the time to talk it was the time to act.
"I know Shlok. I was just teasing you a bit, testing you. Because woman are ...very insecure. They would think that way. Anyway good Luck bringing back my Sister in law little Bro."
Shlok thanked him and left to bring his tiny wife back.
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At the same Time Aastha was sitting on the swing in her parental house in the garden when she felt a male hand touch her Shoulder.
She didn't recognize the touch and knew it wasn't him! No Matter what the circumstances may are she would always recognize his touch.
Aastha turned around with a half-smile only to see Karan standing behind her.
"Just go...Please! You ruined everything. I considered you my friend!" She pushed him away and tried to leave but slipped over her chappals. Before she could hurt herself he prevented her from falling; his hands on her hips steading her. She blushed slightly and took a step back. She didn't feel good with him so close to her. It felt wrong, like he was trying deliberately to come closer to her.
"You need to be a lot more careful now. After all you are not alone anymore Aastha, you are not anymore the little girl I knew once. You grew up into a beautiful and mature woman." Both looked at her abdomen and somehow Aastha smiled; caressing her baby inside her. She felt her baby kicking and bit her lip.
"Right...I am not alone anymore but actually I would have had my husband by my side wouldn't it be for you. He thinks I cheated on him with you...just because he thinks you love me and want to win me back..." Her voice trailed off.
"Aastha because I do...he thinks that way because I do love you- I loved you ever since the day you stood in front of me with your mouth full of ice cream wearing your PJ's standing in front of my door asking me whether we would always stay together. Do you remember that day? That is the day I realized I love you Aastha and I have loved you ever since."
"What...? Why now? Karan why? I mean are you willing to sacrifice my love for yours? You know how much I love you as a friend. You are an important part of my life but Shlok is the one. For me it is him, like you remember the day you fell in love with me I still remember the day I fell in love with him." Even trying hard not to she came closer and cupped his face. Tears were pricking in Karan's eyes and he smiled at the woman that yet again broke his heart.
"I know Aastha that is why I won't come near you again. But I have to tell you as to why I did it in the first place. A Niranjan called me and asked me to do him a favor. First I didn't know what he wanted but then he mentioned your name 8 Months ago and I thought...Maybe...Maybe she isn't happy with her husband and I would get my Love but I was wrong and I am sorry for that. Please I won't ever do it again." Slowly he folded his hands in front of her, getting down on his knees while asking for her forgiveness. Aastha knew that he was really sorry after all she knew her former best friend very well. When he said something he meant it.
"I forgive you Karan! Really I do. I pray to God to give you someone who will love and cherish you. Someone who will fill your life with Love, Happiness and the Colors of Life."
"Thank you Aastha that means a lot to me. I couldn't have left without you forgiving me. Now I can leave but only after I talked to Shlok."
"No..."She whispered, "There is no need for that Karan. If I forgive you, he too forgives you. We are one." Aastha tried to smile. She didn't want him to know that the Moment Karan would meet Shlok he would be beaten up blue and black for misbehaving with her. After all her husband was a possessive and very jealous man.
"Are you sure?" He asked again and she nodded. She wanted him to leave for good. She hugged him tightly and he embraced her even harder.
"I will miss you speedy. I wish to get someone just like you." Karan caressed her face gently and pecked her forehead in a brotherly manner.
"I will miss you too. Take care." Aastha smiled at him and waved him good bye as he left through the gate; leaving her by herself to fix the damage he had caused.
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"Aastha?"
Aastha was still sitting in that swing when she heard his husky voice calling out her name. His voice made her go rigid for a brief second remembering how he had insulted her the last time they had seen each other.
"Shlok..." She ran to him but stopped right in front of him. Her Body had reacted like always seeing him but her mind refused her to forgive him that easily.
"Aastha...Please come back to me Aastha. I can't live without you, I am a complete mess."
"Shlok Our marriage doesn't stand the chance to last if you don't trust me. Maybe I can forgive you for almost forcing yourself on me but I can't forgive you for not trusting me. Trust is the basic element for a marriage to work Shlok not just Love and Lust." She looked away not able to meet his eyes. He would see immediately how hard it was for her to even pronounce these words; to even think of letting them separate. But Aastha couldn't stay married to him anymore if he didn't believe her. How can that work? Yes, they did love each other but for Aastha trust was equaled important.
"So ... You already decided to leave me? Did you already decide I was not worthy your love, your trust? How easily you would just erase me from your life, from our child's life?" Shlok came closer and grabbed her Hands. She tried hard not to cry or to feel something but his proximity did wicked things to her. Aastha felt herself getting weaker by his touch and before she could say a word he kissed her lips gently. For a brief second nothing else mattered except from them.For a moment Aastha let him kiss her, let herself feel loved and wanted.
"Shlok I could never separate you from your child but I can't be a part of your life if you don't trust me. Can't you trust me? Did I ever do something to make you doubt me, my intentions?" She looked up to him; trying to read his expression.
Shlok began thinking about her words. He did trust her, he believed her that she would never cheat on him, would never tell him a lie. It wasn't a question about trust for Shlok moreover it was a question whom he believed more: How could he doubt his father, the one that raised him? The one that took care of him? How could he trust a woman, that was just a part of his life for 2 years saying bad thing about his Father?
Ever since He and Swati had broken up Shlok wasn't able to fully trust those who claimed to love him. He did with Swati and she had betrayed him so badly. He wasn't worthy to trust or to love or to be trusted or to be loved. All this time He had waited for Aastha to realize that and to leave him, to realize that he did not deserve her love. And after seeing Karan and her he had believed she deserved someone like Karan, someone who would take good care of her from the beginning, who would love her and cherish her, someone to make her happy because ever since she came into his life she never ever had been completely happy. He couldn't give her happiness so he wanted to free her to find her happiness somewhere else.
"Aastha...Before you decide anything and believe me I won't stop you after you decided but please let me explain as to why I reacted that way, why I didn't believe you. I couldn't believe you because I don't think I deserve you, your love or your trust. You need someone like Karan in your life, someone who would always cherish you, treat you well and would never hurt you or make you cry. Why would you choose someone like me? Someone who always hurt you treated you badly and who isn't even able to trust those he loves the most due his past? I was waiting for the day you would finally realize that I don't deserve you, that I don't deserve happiness and someone who trusts me fully." He closed his eyes, when his mouth voiced out his inner feelings. Shlok gave her his heart and asked her to choose whether to give him another chance or not.
Whether to believe him or not. He hoped she understood that he trusted her and that he would never doubt on her again.
"Why are you always so strict with yourself? Why do you always think so low of yourself= you deserve everything this world can offer you: Love, Trust and Happiness. You need to believe the people you love that they love you too despite your flaws. That they trust you and you too should trust them as well. Trust is important for any relation honey. I love you and you deserve every bit of my love but you have to prove that you trust me and that something like the other night doesn't happen again. Else I will leave you and I will take my child with me. But for now I can forgive you...Because I can see in your eyes that you finally believe me, trust me..." She smiled at him the way she always smiled. Smiled the way she did to ensure him she loved him; only him.
Shlok grabbed her gently and pulled her closer to himself. For a moment she became rigid but then hugged him back. His lips kissed her cheeks, her nose and finally her forehead.
"I will trust you dear; From now on I won't ever give you the chance to doubt my trust in you. But I would fight for you if you would ever choose to leave me Baby. I am too selfish to let you go."
He smiled at the woman that had changed his life yet again. Aastha had made him rethink his character, his beliefs and now he knew for sure that he did deserve her as long as he trusted her.
"I have a request. Shlok said; caressing her face, his thumb driving over her lips. She shivered and moaned a:"What is your request?".
Her voice was merely voiceable; she had lost herself in the storm of his desire. Aastha never knew how easily she could trust him again. How easily it was to cross the bridge that could save her marriage and her self-respect. She knew he trusted her but not when it came to his father. She needed him to trust her, to win her completely back. To get back her Love he needed to prove that he would listen to her no matter what.
"Come back home."
"I will but only under one Condition: You will allow me to prove to you that I was right all along about your father."
Both looked at each other for a while; Shlok nodded slightly.
"I will...I will try to but Aastha I am afraid I don't want to know whether you are right or not because no matter what the result would be I would be shattered. But I know how much that means to you and to get back your Love I would do everything: So yes I will listen."
"I know Baby but I won't let you break. I will always be by your side okay? As long as we both are together nothing bad can ever happen. Believe in God and in me. And thank you for trusting me"
Again she hugged him tightly, she could sense his sadness. He believed her but still he hoped that his Father, the person he knew and loved was the way he thought he would be and not the way Aastha tried to tell him.
After telling her Aayi she would go back home, she did her packing and both of them left to get back home. To get the truth unfold.
Edited by GoWithTheRhythm - 11 years ago
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