"I wish you would have never come into our life. It's because of you that Dhruv is in this state today, you are responsible for all this. I hate you; hate you for having my Paro's face, for giving a hope to my son when we had learnt to live without her. I hate you so much!" Rudra said with a chocked voice as he watched her eyes fill up with hot tears
"You can never be my Paro. Do you get it? She was everything you are not, she was my one and only love and she is the only one who had touched our souls, something which you wouldn't even understand. You are nothing but a fake, someone who only looks like her but can never be her" he said turning away from her crumpling face as tears finally made their way over her downy cheeks
He stood leaning against the cupboard as she wiped the tears from her face, trying her best not to drop on her knees and cry her eyes out. How can someone be so hurtful? What had she done that she should be given such treatment by Rudra?
She cleared her throat and went to stand in front of him as he tried to look away from her, his eyes reflecting a dying anger and some guilt at the words he had spoken toward her "You can think whatever you want about me Rudra, I won't stop you, can't stop you because as you said, I am no one to you or your family. But just answer my one question" she said as he looked at her pale face, the tear tracks now drying up slightly
"Is it my fault that I fell in love with you? Can someone stop themselves from falling for someone? I know you hate me, and you have a reason to as my face reminds you of your beloved, but where is it my fault if I look like her? Why didn't you tell me earlier, show me her picture even before going all out and hating me and for what? Because I look like her? Because your son thinks I'm his mother? Because I remind your family of her? Where is my fault in this Rudra? Tell me...please" she said sobbing as she clutched onto the cupboard with trembling hands
"When I first came into this house, your family was so warm and made me feel like I'm in my own home. Yes, I wanted to stay here to explore the possibility of having my wedding here, a wedding in which there was no love, something based on a compromise. But you...you made me feel Rudra, maybe in your mind you were imagining your wife, but what about me? You led me on Rudra. I thought you felt all that for me, for Myrah Mehra..." she said as Rudra looked at her eyes full of pain
"When I kissed you and you kissed me back, how was I to know that you were imagining your wife? You hate me right? Then why did you let me come so close to you? Why did you make me fall in love with you? Your care, protection, possessiveness; how was I to know that it was never for me? Why didn't you stop me then? Tell me Rudra" she said as she took a deep breath and walked on wobbly feet to the bed where Dhruv lay
"What was my fault if Dhruv took me to be his mother? Why didn't you tell me earlier so that I could have avoided ever coming here. Becoming a part of your family and living with you all, he obviously felt that his mother sent me. He's so innocent Rudra; you played with his feelings too when you kept me in the dark, and now you blame me?...blame me for loving him like my own?" she asked accusingly as Rudra suddenly turned to see her holding a sleeping Dhruv's hands, her fingers caressing his soft skin
She looked back at Rudra, her eyes now dry and red "I broke my engagement because I could not get into another relationship when my heart yearns for you. But you hate me! So where does that leave me? You hate me because I look like her, because I make you feel things that you felt only for her...right? And you can't take it...you can't take the fact that you can feel those feelings for someone else other than her, and that makes you hurt me and hate me more" she said sniffing as she tucked in Dhruv more cozily into the soft bed
She got up slowly and came to stand in front of Rudra who was now looking at her with so much guilt and pain that it made her heart cry for him "Despite all this Rudra, I still love you and even though it can never be reciprocated by you, I can't stop loving you...for me, you are my first and probably only love like your Paro is for you" she said as Rudra closed his eyes in guilt
"And for that love, even though it hurts me so much, I will stay here...for Dhruv, till he is better; because whatever the father thinks of me, his innocent little boy has shown me real love; not because of me looking like his mother, but as Myrah...someone he thought his mother had sent" she said as Rudra felt a stone settle in his heart, bearing him down
"And then...I'll be gone from your life, so that you can give a rest to that hate, so that you can go back to living in your memories where you were happy before I came into your life. I will not say a sorry for whatever you think I have put you through because I was never at fault...you were. So let it go Rudra...let it go...stop before this hate consumes you to a point that you won't be able to come back..." she said as Rudra hung his head, too ashamed to say anything
"Like you said, I don't mean a thing to you...you only have to bear me for a few more days and I'll make things easier for you by not coming in front of you till then. But I only want one thing from you, if you can give me" she said as he looked up with heavy eyes "Please don't say you hate me...it hurts...hurts a lot when you belittle my love" she said before quickly making her way out...leaving Rudra slumped against the cupboard as his body slid down...watching Paro's laughing face on the opposite wall looking down on him...what had he done Paro?
So how was it? 😃
