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HARTALIKA ...MEANS PENANCE ...FAST ...STRIKE ... SACRIFICE ...A TRIBUTE ...SANGAM ..MERGING OF SELF IN SOUL ...OVERCOMING ALL HARDSHIPS...LIKE A RIVER ...STARTING AS A TRICKLE...FROM A FROZEN ICE HIGH UP ...FLOWING SLOWLY FORWARD...CASCADING DOWN THE PATH ...BREAKING ALL BARRIERS...CROSSING ALL LIMITS ...AND THEN ...BECOMING A TRIBUTE ... BY SAVING AND GIVING LIFE TO OTHERS ON IT'S WAY ...AND THEN FINALLY MERGING AS IN SANGAM ...INTO THE GREAT OCEAN ...WITH LOVE ...FOR SOUL ::::;;;;;:::THE SOUL HAS TO TRAVEL FROM IT'S BIRTH... OVERCOMING ALL IN ITS PATH... GOOD OR BAD... TO REACH IT'S FINAL GOAL...THE SOUL::::::BUT ONLY LOVE CAN REACH THE SOUL...AND SO HAS TO LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND TO MERGE WITH ... TRUE LOVE...TO BE... ONE SOUL.
BUT ASHLOK'S LOVE... IS DEFINITELY STRONG... AND SO IF STARTED...BY FROZEN HATE...TRICKLED WITH THEIR WARMTH...SLOWLY FLOWED FORWARD HESISTATINGLY...WITH MISTRUST...BUT BECOME STRONG WHEN THEY SEPARATED BY.. CASCADE OF DIVORCE...AND CAME TOGETHER...ONLY TO NOW BECOME... TWO BANKS OF LOVE... WILL CROSS ALL BARRIERS INBETWEEN...FOR HAPPINESS OF FAMILY TOO... FINALLY...TO MERGE IN TRIBUTE OF OCEAN OF LOVE ...AS ONE SOUL.
SHLOK ...ONCE AGAIN ...SEEMS TO FEEL ...THAT LOVE HAS ABANDONDED HIM AGAIN LIKE BEFORE...EK BAAR PHIR ... ...AS SHLOK SEEMED TO HAVE REALISED THAT...DEEP TRUE LOVE ... THOUGH GIVES HAPPINESS...HURTS VERY DEEPLY IN THE HEART TO. ...AS SEPARATION FROM LOVING ASTHA...HIS LOVE... LIFE...AND HAPPINESS OF HEART TOO ... WAS NOW LIKE A HEAVY HEART ...BURDENED WITH ...MISERY AND LONELINESS ...WHICH WAS LIKE A DEATH TO SHLOK'S OWN HEART AND TRUST IN LOVE ...EK BAAR PHIR ...AND SO SHLOK MAY DISTANCE HIMSELF FROM ASTHA ...BY TRYING TO CLOSE HIS BURDENSOME HEART ASTHA HERSELF FROM HIS LIFE ...LIKE A TOUCH ME NOT ...BY INVITING DARKNESS ...INTO HIS LIFE ...EK BAAR PHIR ...
IF LOVING ASTHA ...ALONG WITH ANJALI AND OTHER WOMEN ...WAS DOING...NIRJALA HARTALIKA FASTING VRAT FOR ...PATIDEV SHLOK'S LOVE AND HAPPY LONG LIFE FOR ETERNITY ...OUT OFCOMPLETE LOVE FOR SHLOK AS HER SOULMATE ...EVEN THOUGH ASTHA TOO NOW WITH... LOVE AND EGO ...WAS ADAMANTLY NOT GIVING INTO PATIDEV SHLOK'S ...CONSTANT WARNINGS TO APOLOGISE TO... HIS GOD LIKE BABA ...FOR HER BASELESS ACCUSATIONS AND ALLEGATIONS AGAINST BABA ...BECAUSE ASTHA KNEW EVIL BABA'S TRUE FACE ...AND SO WAS FIGHTING FOR TRUTH AND RIGHTS ...FOR SHLOK AND FAMILY TOO...TO GAIN BACK HER OWN LOVE AND SOUL SHLOK ...AND FAMILY'S HAPPINESS TOO ...AND SO WAS READY TO FACE ANY HARDSHIP ON HER WAY ...EVEN SHLOK'S ANGER AND IRE TOO ...LIKE AN HARTALIKA FAST FOR LOVE AND HAPPINESS. ...FOREVER. ...
BUT POSSESSIVE AND INSECURE PATIDEV SHLOK ...TOO WAS NOW SLOWLY TURNING MORE ADAMANT AND AGGGRESIVE ... THAN BIWI ASTHA ...NOT ONLY IN BABA'S BLIND DEVOTION ... BUT BECAUSE SHLOK NEEDED ASTHA'S COMPLETE LOVE AND ATTENTION ...MORE THAN TRUTH OR EGO ...AND SO THOUGHT THAT ASTHA WAS NOW NOT CARING ABOUT HIM ABOVE ALL ENDING THE SEPARATION BETWEEN THEM ...BY APOLOGISING TO BABA ...SO LOVING AND CARING SHLOK ... NOW AT THE END OF HIS OWN PATIENCE AND LIMITS MAY... EK BAAR PHIR... MAY BECOME AGRESSIVE ...AVENGEFUL... DARK SHLOK AGNIHOTRI. ...AND MAY GIVE BACK BOTH... OBSSESSIVE BABA AND ADAMANT BIWI ASTHA ...HEARTACHE AND MISERY TOO... IN HIS OWN ... SHLOK AGNIHOTRI STYLE ...WITH LOVE AND HATE TOO ... ESPECIALLY BY DISTANCING HIMSELF ...PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY ...FROM ASTHA :::
So Shlok has now decided to go on a... HARTAL-IKA STRIKE HIMSELF ...AGAINST ASTHA HERSELF TO MAKE ASTHA SUBMIT TO HIM EITHER WITH LOVE OR HATE ...AND SO DECIDED NOT TO BREAK ASTHA'S HARTALIKA FAST ... she kept on his name for his long life ...as astha was not giving into shlok's orders to apologise to dear baba for her baseless accusations ...and ending the separation between them ...by surrendering to shlok...in complete love and submission ..ek baar phir ...and also because shlok seemed to be thinking that astha does not love and care for him anymore ...More than her truth and ego ...and so shlok seemed to be getting ...DEPRESSED. ...AND ... FRUSTRATINGLY ANGRY and slowly turning back into THE DARK AGRESSIVE SHLOK AGNIHOTRI EK BAAR PHIR ...against Astha herself ...even at mother anjali's insistence of baba's rules and paramparas ...which baba himself was now not following ...AS BABA HAD AGREED WITH SHLOK'S ORDERS AGAINST EVERYONE EVEN KAVYA ...NOT TO BRING LORD GANESHA TO THEIR HOUSE THIS TIME FOR IMAGE ...to gain shlok's trust and love now against Astha and Anjali too ...more than ...BAPPA...LORD GANESHA'S BLESSINGS ...WHO WAS THE REAL REMOVER OF ...MISERIES AND OBSTACLES TOO ...GIVING ...BUDDHI... GYAANA ...AND SIDDHI TOO ...AND SO COULD BRING HIS OWN DOWNFALL COMPLETELY THROUGH SHLOK HIMSELF ...
So shlok even though seemed to be thinking in his heart for astha adamantly had stayed back in the office instead of going home and breaking astha's fast ...not only because of devotion to dear baba ...but also because .. shlok would have to face an sacrifycing astha and be tempted to break her fast out of his love for her ...and so came late ...only to find Anjali and Astha had invited a brahmin to fix a time to bring ...Lord Ganesha ..even against his orders but kept quiet ...as shlok also came to know that if a Son or Daughter both performed ...Surya Namaskaras ...in the early morning ...it would bring his dear baba...long life and good prestige too ...which anjali realised that shlok will definitely follow and would use it for Astha's benefit slyly ...if shlok was still adamant not to break astha's fast himself. ...
Whereas shlok in his room ...called down for dinner...in helplessness was getting ... angry and impatient now ...as shlok knew astha too had not eaten anything or even had drunk a drop of water ...from morning in his name with love ...with astha for not caring or loving shlok enough ...to apologise to dear baba ...AND ENDING THE SEPARATION WITH SHLOK ...AND SO SHLOK THOUGHT THAT HE TOO WOULD NOT CARE ABOUT ASTHA ANYMORE TOO ...AS ASTHA TOO WAS NOT CARING FOR HIM AT ALL ...IN HER EGO...AND TRUTH AGAINST BABA ...HE DIDN'T WANT TO KNOW OR ACKNOWLEDGE TO HIMSELF ...as shlok did seem to remember astha's accusations of baba ...which may also be turning burdensome to him ...AS SHLOK LOVES HIS DEAR BABA VERY MUCH TOO ...WHETHER GOOD OR BAD ...
But shlok who went down to eat without caring for astha's plight to baba's happy ego ...only to be stopped by ... brave little kavya ...who seemed to be like his own guilty conscience prodding him in his heart ...asking him innocently why her fasting dear chachi was not eating ...along with him too ...MAKING SHLOK ACCEPT DEFEAT IN FRONT OF ASTHA ...AND SO WENT AWAY WITHOUT HIMSELF EATING TOO ...SHOWING HIS LOVE AND CARE FOR ASTHA ...TO THE DISPLEASURE OF BABA ...AND COULD ALSO BE THAT SHLOK TOO KEPT A FAST FOR ASTHA HIMSELF ...AS HE DID BEFORE ...GOD KNOWS...
Shlok now seemed to be in a deep contemplative mind thinking of astha's fasting and her request to end their fight ...whereas Astha too was now in a conflict of why shlok was not caring and giving into her ...wishes and sad plight too as always ...remembering shlok's love when he had asked her to eat the apple of their second coming together first ... shlok's taking care of astha even while sleeping giving security to astha ...shlok mixing her food for her as she couldn't eat cause her hurt finger looking after astha like a . Small child ...as he had always cared and gave into her wishes with love ...BUT ASTHA WAS NOT REMEMBERING SHLOK'S WARNING THAT SHLOK WOULD LOOK AFTER ASTHA AND HER HAPPINESS UNTILL SHE WAS WITH HIM IN LOVE ...AND WOULD NOT CARE BUT INSTEAD CREATE PROBLEMS IFAND WHEN ASTHA WENT OUT OF SHLOK'S ORBIT FOR ANYTIME OR REASON ...WHEN EVEN ASTHA HAD PROMISED TO NEVER EVER LEAVE SHLOK AT ANYTIME OR COST ...BUT BOTH ASTHA AND SHLOK COULDN'T HELP COMING DOWN TO EACH OTHER ...IN LOVE AGAIN ...AND THIS TIME SHLOK WENT AND BROUGHT A GLASS OF WATER TO BREAK ASTHA'S FAST...WITH LOVE ...BUT IT SEEMED BABA'S DEVOTION AS WELL AS BABA'S EVIL EYES ...ONCE AGAIN ...MADE SHLOK REMEMBER ASTHA REFUSING TO APOLOGISE TO BABA ...AND SO MAKING SHLOK POUR THE WATER DOWN AND BREAKING THE GLASS TOO ON HER SIDE ...INSTEAD OF BREAKING ASTHA'S FAST...ONCE MORE TO BABA'S HAPPY EGO AND ASTHA'S HEARTBREAK ...
BUT IT WAS ACTUALLY SHLOK'S REMEMBERING ASTHA NOT LOVING AND CARING ABOUT SHLOK ENOUGH AND GIVING INTO HIM WITH LOVE AND NEED ...ENDING SEPARATION BETWEEN THEM BY APOLOGISING TO BABA ENDING THE ISSUE THERE AND THEN SO ASHLOK COULD STAY TOGETHER EK BAAR PHIR ...AS LIFE SAVING WATER REPRESENTED ...LOVE AND SENSUAL FEELINGS OF THE HEART TOO ...WHICH BREAKING FAST WITH WATER BY HUSBANDS OWN HANDS MEANT GIVING HIS LOVE AND AFFECTION FOR LIFE ...AND THE GLASS MEANT PHYSICAL BODY OR HEART WHICH CONTAINED THEM...WHICH IN A RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN A COUPLE ESPECIALLY LOVERS WAS NESSESSARY ...BUT WHICH WERE NOW BECOMING NILL IN ASHLOK'S RELATIONSHIP ...WITH THEIR SEPARATION ...AS THE BROKEN GLASS SUGGESTED ASHLOK'S BROKEN PROMISES AND RELATIONSHIP BY BETRAYAL OF LOVE ...AS THEY WERE NOW ...INTIMATELY AND EMOTIONALLY DISTANCED TOO ...NOT WIFE AND HUSBAND ...OR LOVERS TOO...ANYMORE .. ...SO SHLOK WON'T BREAK ASTHA'S FAST IN SEPARATION ...INDIRECTLY HINTING TO ASTHA TO COME BACK TO SHLOK ...AS HIS WIFE AND LOVER ...EK BAAR PHIR ...
Astha who though seemed to be strong on her own now ...actually seemed to neeed shlok's protective presence and his love now in her life very much without which she could not live anymore ...and so seemed to not only panic but also seemed to be deprived of her own strength without shlok ...making her weak ...not only in body but her maksad too ...AND SO WAS PRAYING TO BAPPA TO HELP HER BREAK HER FAST BY SHLOK HIMSELF ...AND BAPPA SEEMED TO HAVE ANSWERED HER PRAYERS THROUGH HER OWN... AAI ANJALI...WHO BEFOREHAND ...KNEW THE SOLUTION...AND SO TOOK ASTHA TO THE PLACE FROM WHERE ABOVE ... SHLOK WAS PERFORMING SURYA NAMASKARAS. ..FOR BABA'S HEALTH AND GOOD NAME ...AND WAS POURING WATER FROM A COPPER POT ...LIKE A CASCADE DOWN ...WITH HIS WHOLE HEART AND BEING WITH LOVE AND DEVOTION FOR BABA ...BUT WHICH ASTHA DRANK INSTEAD ...AS SHE WAS THE TRUE LOVE AND LIFE IN SHLOK'S LIFE ...AND HIS HEART TOO ...MORE THAN BABA ...AND SO WAS THE RIGHTFUL PERSON TO DRINK THE WATER ...AS HIS WIFE AND LOVER TOO ...IN SHLOK'S LIFE FOR EVER...
THE SUNGOD IS THE GIVER OF... LIGHT AND WARMTH ...AND THE REMOVED DARKNESS OF IGNORANCE ...BY DESTROYING INNER AND OUTER ENEMIES TOO ...AND GIVING LIFE AND HAPPINESS TOO ...FOREVER...FOR ETERNITY. ...AND THE WATER FROM THE COPPER POT ...SUGGESTS ...HEALTH AND PHYSICAL AND MORAL STRENGTH TOO ...WHICH IS NEEDED ... TO WIN WARS ...OR MAKE LOVE ...AND FOR A ...GOOD LONG LIFE AND HAPPINESS TOO ...MEANING GOD HAS PUT BABA'S DESTINY IN SHLOK'S HANDS AND SHLOK'S LOVE WILL BE ...ASTHA'S STRENGTH ...TO FIGHT EVIL BABA ...AND WIN SHLOK'S LOVE ...AND FAMILY'S HAPPINESS MAYBE...
But when shlok saw astha drinking the water got angry at first but seemed relieved too as maybe shlok's conflict and worry for breaking astha's fast was automatically solved ...by bappa himself ...and so was going away from there silently. ...BUT ASTHA COULDN'T STOP HERSELF FROM TAUNTING AND QUESTIONING SHLOK ABOUT HIS DUTIES AS A LOVING PATIDEV NOW ...who had loved and cared for astha very much ...THAT GOD HIMSELF MADE SHLOK BREAK HER FAST BY HIS HANDS...as she knew that shlok loved her very much too just as adtha loved shlok very much AND BEING SEPARATED FROM SHLOK WAS HURTING HER TOO DEEPLY JUST LIKE IT WAS TO HIM TOO ...ASSURING INSECURE AND ANGRY PATIDEV SHLOK OF HER LOVE AND NEED FOR HIM TOO ..UNDERSTANDING WHY HE THREW THE WATER DOWN AND BROKE THE GLASS ...INSTEAD OF BREAKING HER FAST ...EK BAAR PHIR .. ...AND ALSO GAVE GYAAN TO PATIDEVSHLOK AT HIS INSISTENCE THAT HE LOVED BABA MORE ...that loving baba more than his wife was very good as it was elders who guided the young when wrong ...and so it was the duty of the young too to correct the elders when wrong...AND ASTHA ALSO NOW SAID IF SHLOK DOESN'T DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE MATTER AND END THE SEPARATION HIMSELF ...THEN HE AND ASTHA WOULD BE LIKE THE BANKS OF ONE RIVER NEVER MEETING AT ALL ...BUT SHLOK TOO HAD SAID THE SAME DIALOUGE TO ASTHA ONCE AFTER DIVORCE BUT ADTHA HAD CHALLENGED SHLOK THAT THEY WILL MEET DEFINITELY AT THE SANGAM OF THE OCEAN...SO NOW IT SEEMED IT WAS SHLOK'S TRUN TO SAVE THE RELATIONSHIP OF ASHLOK ...HIMSELF ANGERING SHLOK THAT IT MEANT THAT HE HAD TO CORRECT HIS GOD LIKE BABA(SHLOK'S SIGNAL OF AWARENESS OF BABA ) ...IF HE WANTED ASTHA BACK IN HIS LIFE AS ...WIFE AND LOVER ...ASTHA SHLOK AGNIHOTRI ...EK BAAR PHIR...
BUT ASTHA THREW THE ACTUAL GAUNTLET NOW TO PATIDEV ...THAT IT WAS SHLOK WHO FIRST NEEDED TO LEARN AND UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS RIGHT OR WRONG IN A WAY DECLARING SHLOK HIMSELF WAS WRONG ...SO NEEDED TO CORRECT HIMSELF FIRST ...BEFORE CORRECTING BABA ...OR PUNISHING OTHERS...WHICH SHLOK PERFECTLY UNDERSTOOD ...ASTHA'S CHALLENGE TO HIM AND BABA TOO...AS SHLOK WAS NOW ANGRY THAT ASTHA KNEW OF HIS LOVE AND NEED FOR ASTHA IN HIS LIFE ...WHEN HE HAD WANTED TO THROW HER OUT OF HIS LIFE IN HATE BUT DEFINITELY COULD NOT OUT OF LOVE... ...AND SO THREW AND BROKE THE PICTURE OF ASTHA WITH HER FAMILY ...MEANING ...SHLOK WAS ANGRY ...ON INDEPENDENT ASTHA KIRLOSKAR WHO DIDN'T NEED OR LOVE SHLOK . ...WHEN ALL HE WANTED WAS ASTHA SHLOK AGNIHOTRI ...HIS OWN WIFE AND LOVER WITH HIM FOREVER TILL ETERNITY ...
SO SHLOK NOW IN EGO AND RESENTMENT ... DECIDED TO PROVE BABA RIGHT AND ASTHA WRONG . ...THIS MAYBE HOW SHLOK WILL COME TO KNOW OR ACCEPT BABA'S WRONG DEEDS ...AND CORRECT THEM ACCORDINGLY. ...BUT IN BETWEEN THEY WILL DEFINITELY BE A LOT OF INNER AND OUTER CONFLICT TOO ...GOOD OR MISERIES ..
But ofcourse once again ...Kavya...who had come to ask her favourite chacha shlok to bring ...her favourite god ...Ganesha ... came into the scene ...and saw shlok's breaking of her favourite chachi 's ..astha's picture ...and was angry that nobody in the house was listening or caring for her ...and herself declared her chachu was very bad ...ek baar phir ...prodding shlok's own guilty conscience for hurting kavya by not giving into her demand to bring Lord Ganesha to Agni mansion . ...AS KAVYA WAS JUST LIKE HER CHACHU SHLOK TOO THOUGH STUBBORN ...BUT LOVING TOO AND SO WILL GET WHATEVER SHE WANTS ... BY HOOK OR CROOK TOO..as kavya also helped Astha ...in getting water touched by her Ajoobha NA ...slyly...for breaking fast of Ajji Anjali ...when NA ... not only refused to break anjali's fast ...and instead had blatantly told anjali he wouldn't care if she died...but which anjali broke through sahib's hands only with the help of astha ...and so helped astha too to break her fast by shlok's hands itself. ...
BABA NOW IN BLIND OBSSESSIVE LOVE FOR SHLOK ... MAYBE INVITING HIS OWN DEMISE OF EVIL EGO😉BY TRYING TO GAIN SHLOK'S LOVE AND DEVOTION EVEN AGAINST GOD ...IN THE FORM OF AN AGGRESIVE LION LIKE SHLOK HIMSELF ...WHO NOW THOUGH .. SEEMED TO BE IN A TWILIGHT ZONE HIMSELF WITH A INNER CONFLICT (ANTHAR MADHANA )BETWEEN BABA AND ASTHA...TRUTH AND EVIL ...WITH LOVE AND HATE ...(AS LORD NARASHIMA WAS SAID TO BE STILL IN THE EVOLVING STAGE(OF CREATION ITSELF ) OF TURNING INTO A HUMAN BEING ...FROM A BEAST )...AS BOTH THE QUALITIES OF NOBLE AND BEAST WERE NEEDED ...TO KILL THE DEMON HIRANYA KASHIPA ...WHO HAD A BOON OF DUALITY...TWO FACES OF GOOD AND EVIL TOO ... AS HIS PROTECTION ...AND SO NEEDED THE RIGHT TIME OF,,, CORNERING HIM ,,, BETWEEN THE TWO ZONES ...IN TWILIGHT OF DECLINE ... ..TO BE KILLED ). ...AS SHLOK DEFINITELY HAD THE DUALITY OF BOTH HIS BABA'S TRAITS ALONG WITH ANJALI'S GOOD TRAITS ...AND SO SHLOK DEFINITELY HAD THE POWER OF BOTH THE NOBLE AND BEAST TOO ... THE QUALITIES TO BECOME ...THE LION KING IN THE FORMING... ...AND BEAST TOO...WITH AN KILLING INSTICT FROM BABA NEEDED TO FIGHT EVIL... PUSHING THE OLD KING BABA BLACK SHEEP OUT OF HIS LAIR ... BY REMOVING BABA'S CLAWS OF AUTHORITY FROM HIM ...WITH HIS LOVE AND SUBMISSION. ...AND TAKING DECISIONS ALL BY HIMSELF ...BENDING EVEN ...BABA ...AT HIS WILL AND WISH ...AND SO MAYBE THE END OF BABA HIMSELF ...WHEN TRUTH IS EXPOSED ...FOR GAINING... NECTAR OF HAPPINESS..
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