Ashlok FF- The Love I don't deserve Ch.24 Teaser pg. 133 - Page 21

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lovely update. loved last part very much. plz no harm to ashlok baby..

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Shlok is not able to digest his father's true face..Hmm hope he realizes it soon😊

thank god, he still cares for Aastha in your story..It was lovely the way he carried her from bathroom to bedroom..😳

Plzzz continue soon😊

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Chapter 8- Silent Love

After that Night both of them didn't talk about what happened between Aastha and Shlok's Father. They did talk to each other but something was different. They did not trust each other and they did not come close to each other. Since the past few days Aastha avoided any physical intimacy. In the beginning Shlok could understand it to some point but know he was just clueless as why his Wife didn't even want him to hug her.
That was the reason why Shlok did not come early from office like he used to do, he thought: Why should I come early, when the one I am coming home to doesn't care whether I am home or not.
Aastha couldn't tell him why she didn't want any physical contact he wouldn't understand her or her feelings. A few more days passed and finally Aastha decided to join office again. She was getting bored staying at home all the time and if she would at least join half the day she could still finish all her household chores. But first she needed to ask for his permission- somehow she thought that would make him feel better. She didn't want him to think that she didn't care for his opinion.
,,Shlok?" She entered his study room and he couldn't suppress a smile seeing her growing stomach. Her pregnancy was starting to be seen, gosh he thought she was looking so beautiful.
,,Yes? Do you need something?" He looked again at the file he was holding in his hands. Their Organization planned to launch two new Scholarships which meant a lot of work for him and that despite of the other stuff he had to deal with. His working hours have been more than hectic and he enjoyed any minute he was alone or with her.
,, I want go to office again. Maybe doing some of the work that steals your time from launching the scholarships." Aastha looked down and Shlok smiled for an instant- That was the very first Time she asked for his permission and he had to admit he liked it. He felt like she cared for his opinion cared for what he thought would be the best. Like he was the man in her life , that one person to help her decide on something,
,, Of course Why not? You would do me a favor by that but.." he stood up and closed the file. She began absently caressing her stomach.
,, but you will sit the whole time and whenever you are hungry or not feeling good you will immediately tell me! Do we have a deal?"
He came closer and she inched away. She turned around to leave but Shlok caught her wrist and pulled her to his chest. After a long time she was again touching him, was close to him. Their proximity was daring and dangerous. She knew she would lose her Head the Moment she would give into him. So she did what she could best: Act as if she wouldn't care.
,,Are you alright?!" His husky Voice reached her ears and she shivered. She had missed him- very much but somehow she couldn't surrender to him. Trust was lacking in their relationship making her uncertain about their future development.
,,Yes I am." He came even closer and his lips touched her earlobe.
,, and..." his fingers traced their way down to her stomach, caressing her.
,, and our Baby?" He looked straight into her eyes.
He was afraid she thought the only reason he might care for her was the baby but that wasn't true. He cared for her because he loved her more than anything and he loved their baby. Aastha was touched that he cared for their baby and became softer; he immediately saw that and hugged her tighter. Her eyes closed for a second and a smile crept on her face.
,, Yes the Baby is healthy and fine. My doctor said I could ask for the gender but... but I what it to be a surprise. Only if that is okay with you?" She was unsure whether he would want to know it for himself or his dad.
,, that's fine with me. You know how much I Love surprises."
,, I know." She whispered.
Silence again. Their Love had turned Silence and did not talk like it used to. Normally he would have instantly knew what was wrong with her, what was bothering her by looking into her eyes. But these Days she kept him outside of her Head. He felt like a Stranger.
Why was there a communication gap between them? Shlok thought sadly.
,,Aastha..." Shlok started but Aastha shooke his hands off. She needed some fresh air, she wanted to get away. Sometime being with him felt like being held in a cage. Only the times he wanted her to she was allowed to do what she wanted. And at the same Time she felt like flying with him.
Why was she so confused? Why was she in an inner turmoil?
Without looking back at him she walked away.
,, I will make you some Ice Coffee." And with that she left him.

Shlok was hurt beyond imagination. Aastha didn't understand him and he was confused by her behavior. Why was she avoiding him? Why was she like that? Why was she silent? He missed his madcap Aastha. The Aastha that would sing while cleaning or that would tell him silly jokes just to irritate hi. But what could he do to make her be the way she was before?
Shlok had the idea and ran to their bedroom to plan his surprise for his petite little wife.

Aastha entered their bedroom and found Shlok arranging a beautiful candle light dinner. Slow music was playing in the background and the only light came from the candles and the moon shining into their room. It was a picture perfect Moment. She closed her eyes against the tears. Shlok really tried to talk to her, to come close to her. She knew he was hurt by her behavior and that he maybe was even sorry for not believing her. Aastha knew the right time still hadn't come to prove to him what a wicked person his Father was. Why should she sacrifice her relationship for that? One Day she would prove to Shlok that she was saying the truth but not Tonight- Tonight she wanted to be loved by her Husband, Her soul mate.
Looking at herself in the mirror she couldn't understand how he still could want her. She was looking like fat cow since she was in the end of her 5th Month.
,,Shlok?" Aastha looked around but didn't see him anymore.

Chupke Se Ahista...

Aastha turned around and smiled listening to their song, the song she heard the first time after realizing her feelings for him.

uljha sawaalo mein.. ab tere hi khayalon mein

(confused and lost in ur thoughts)

kaisi yeh chahat hai

(what kind of a love is this)

roke yeh na ruke

( cant be controlled)

ek pal na raahat hai

(i have no escape from this)

dhadkan gawaan chuke

(lost my heart beats)

iss pyar ko kya naam doon

(what do i name this love)

khoye hai kuch alfaaz kyun

(i am out of words to express)

iss pyaar ko kya naam doon.. kya naam doon

Shlok came closer and led her to the table he had arranged for her .
Both sat down in silent and started eating.
,, It is good isn't it?"
Shlok looked up as Aastha waited for his reply. It hurt her to see how surprised he was that she was starting the conversation.
,,Yes it is indeed. Thanks to Sita."
Again both didn't know what to say. When did that happen, Aastha thought.
,,Shlo-"
,,Aast-" both started and laughed.
He took her hand and kissed her softly. She smiled.
,, Aastha I miss you."
,, I miss you too meri Akdu."
,,They why are you avoiding me?"
She blushed and looked away.
,, You can tell me you know."
,, No you won't understand."
,, Try me."
She sighed and looked at him.
,, I am avoiding your touch because I feel not pretty and fat and not at all sexy. I mean just look at me. I am like a cow." She looked down.
Shlok couldn't control his happiness and started laughing loudly: So she was afraid he wasn't attracted to her anymore? Aastha stood up and went to the dressing table. How could he laugh at her? About her insecurity? Shouldn't he pacify her= By telling her that she was indeed beautiful?

Slowly she started to remove her bindi, her bangles and her earrings.

,, Baby I am sorry! I didn't mean to laugh at you and hurt you but it was so sweet that you could even think like that. You are my smoking hot wife. You are sexy and I will always think that way of you, I will always find you attractive."

Shlok came closer and hugged Aastha slightly. She gasped out and leaned her Head against him. Again she felt the desire rising but was too shy to make the first move. Right now she just wanted love, no second thoughts. She had enough time to prove him what kind of Monster his father was. But not tonight. Tonight it was about the two of them. Slowly she turned around and kissed his cheek.

,,Are you sure?" She whispered her bosom's brushed against his chest and he felt himself immediately reacting to her.

,,Do you want a proof?" He said and rubbed his hardened Member against her.

Aastha began shaking as he kissed her neck.

,, No Need of that" She whispered while her lips parted and he used that opportunity to take her lips into a soul eating kiss.

That was all they needed.