am i moving on really?

ok genrally i am viewer of rr who only watches just this on n practically watch nothing much on tv now days.as everyone knows last week was hell week for every rrian as wel as same for me .people r here were the only people with whom i could share my pain coz outside th
is world no one realy bothers bout it .
some people here r saying they have accepted it majority stillwants n belive for myra being paro n everything but but i am still stuck i really dont know if i have moved on or not as a viewer i couldnot connect myself with the death seq coz may be i was in denial but leaving the show was never my option but after that epi i realized that i am not able to watch privious epi with same love even now i cant bear to listen any rr song or tune or the songs they have played on parud
everytime i tried doing these things there is different kind of paini start feeling but still i did not left the show .i liked myra n dhruv n new rudra but i do not dare to watch any of the epi again onlinen last friday epi when they started showing all fbs it was like a pandora box n my all courage or whatever was doing was back to square one . i so wanted to watch the epi but i am not able to .
guys i dont want to spoil anyone mood n even liking the show but i dont know what it is n i just wanted to get over with it so just typed.

It happened with me too. Usually I re-watch old RR episodes on weekend. This weekend when I tried watching it, it was fine in the beginning but then after few minutes I started feeling a strange pain😭. My heart was voicing like all this love and promises they made to each other were finally destroyed.😭 Yeah I am kind of liking the new track but whenever there are FB's then the pain comeback. But I will continue to watch the show. Hope someday I will able to watch the old scenes without being hurt😊. So ur not alone in this.(I believe there re many more out there in same situation).But lets try to be happy😊.