SAJAN SS... Silent Nights... Part 9A upd... - Page 47

PART - 9: SILENT NIGHT...

PART A:

"What have you done Samrat??"

"How did it happen??"

"This is all because of you Samrat"

"This is your entire fault Samrat"

"This would have never happened if she was with me"

Words like curses attacked him once Gunjan was taken out of their sight... But he stood speechless... He could answer none...

All he could see was his bold stained hands... They were hers...

Nothing else strikes him... Nothing he could hear...

Only a huge thudding sound of rocks that came crashing over a white Audi inside which she was sitting alone in her bridal attire...

Nothing else he could remember except the last ray of light vanishing slowly on her pale yet freshly bloomed flower like face...

Her eyes tightly closed trying hard to stop those wretched tears...

God knows for how many cursed minutes he waited there at a distance staring at her, with the hope that she will change her decision... Hoping that she will come back to him at the end...

But fate had other decision...

Fate like always played its last stroke at the end...

Had he known it before; Samrat would have never waited there at the same cursed place where nine years back Dia was taken away from their life...

Back that day he had blamed Gunjan for losing Dia... And after so many years the table has turned when now he is being blamed for the probability of losing Gunjan...

Samrat Shergill was standing in the same hospital corridor where nine years back he had received the death news of his friend Dia...

The same place where he had once asked Gunjan to get out of his life forever after losing his father...

"You have only snatched away everything from me Gunjan"...

"So, just spare me Gunjan and please do stay away from me as much as you could"...

"Gunjan Bhushan I'll make sure this time you go far, far away from me and my life"...

His own words, his own promises... Samrat had never in his worst nightmare thought they might turn out to be true one day... That too to this extent...

His own words were now haunting him down with a very well known fear... Only this time his fear is much much more than all the previous times...

Only this time his fear was killing him both physically and mentally...

Staying away from Gunjan for all these years was a punishment... Losing her to Ranvijay was like hell... But losing her forever was nothing but an end...

Living in a world where She doesn't exist would be like dying everyday...

The pain would be much severe and he can already feel it...

Samrat's tired unblinking eyes continued to stare at the red light on the top of closed door of the room inside which Gunjan was taken...

God knows for how many hours he was standing at the same place leaning on the cold white walls of the hospital corridor... His dizzy eyes could see nothing but that brighten red light as if right now it was the only source of his living...

His family was there too... His mother was sitting on the waiting chair kept for the visitors... She was still crying maybe but Samrat couldn't hear... RV was there too consoling her probably...

Both of them had blamed Samrat for what had happened with Gunjan... He had just listened, long forgotten to reciprocate... Every part of him knew no one else is to be blamed for, not even his fate...

It was him, him all alone whom Samrat can blame now...

It was his mistake all those years...

It was him who had thrown away Gunjan out of his life all these years...

It was him who wanted to rectify his mistake and in turn committed a much bigger one...

It was him who had once again taken Gunjan back to the same place where it all started...

Samrat could still hear Gunjan's repeated pleading in his ear; in his mind...

~Flashback~

"Where are you going Samrat?? This is not the right way to the wedding hall"... Gunjan shouted in vain...

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"Samrat are you even listening??"...

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"What are you doing Samrat?? Stop the car and turn back"...

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But Samrat seems in no mood to listen... He was too determined to make things right, starts everything afresh... And the best way of beginning was to go back to the place where it had all started...

He turned down Gunjan's every request and speeded his car towards totally opposite direction of the wedding hall...

"Where are you taking me Samrat??"

"You will see"... He replied...

"Samrat everyone is waiting at the wedding hall... This is not the time to play around"... She had said...

"And I've been waiting for nine damn years Gunjan... I know this is not the right time... I know it is too late... But I don't want to waste my entire lifetime"... Came the reply...

Samrat didn't knew what happened next coz from that very moment Gunjan tuned silent... She didn't respond nor she asked another question or argued with him...

She just sat quietly staring at the road on which Samrat's car was heading speedily...

"Chashmish??" He had called once staring at her but received no reply...

"Excuse me??"

Samrat's thoughts were interrupted by a voice... It was one of the nurses... She was addressing him, she was saying something to him but he couldn't make any sense of it...

"B -ve" Samrat heard another female voice from a distant, it was his mother's; he realised... "Pari's blood group matched only with Dia's" He heard her sobbing...

His mind travelled along five years back at the same corridor where he was sitting now completely shattered...

"Candy was never your sister Gunjan... Just because both of you were born in the same night doesn't make Candy your sister"...

Irony!! Or was it destiny?? Born at the same night, almost same time, at different places but Pari and Dia were brought together by fate... Sisters from different mothers but both of them were raised together by one...

It was only him who failed to see the deep connection between them... No one else even remembered the fact that Pari and Dia were not birth sisters... It was only him who had blindfolded himself and was trying to be practical that none of the facts were true... That there was nothing like destiny...

But guess he failed to do so... Or else how could he take her to the same place where she could have died too nine years back...

~ Flashback~

"Chashmish??" He had called once staring at her but received no reply...

He did not bother her anymore and rather concentrate on the hilly roads... He was driving in those hilly roads after many years and anyone driving on the hilly roads needs to keep their senses extra alert always...

Almost after half an hour he reached near his destiny... He was not sure whether he was doing right or wrong bringing Gunjan in that place but they were almost there and there was no turning back...

That was the right place for correcting all the wrongs... Or so he thought...

Gunjan sensed the car stopped and the engines were turned off too... She had so long kept her eyes close maintaining an eerie silence since Samrat had said those words that he had waited nine years and had no intentions to waste his entire life...

Sensing they had reached wherever Samrat was taking her Gunjan opened her eyed and received another bigger shock... She recognized the place immediately and jerked up in her seat...

"Why have you brought me here??" Gunjan asked shockingly seeing Samrat stopped the car at the very cursed place where nine years back Dia was snatched away from her life... The same place where she could have died too along with her...

"As I said Gunjan; I don't want to waste my rather our entire lives... I want to rectify my every mistake that had started in this place"... Samrat get out of the car and coming to the opposite side held open the door indicating Gunjan to step out of the car...

But Gunjan refused to come out...

"What do you want from me now Samrat?? And all these you are doing why now?? It's my wedding day for God's sake... And you don't have any right to ruin it"... She was shivering then... She was scared of this place... This very place has haunted her since Dia's death and returning back to the same place with Samrat was something she had never imagined even in her nightmares... But realities are sometimes weirder than nightmares...

"I'm not ruining anything Gunjan... I'm trying to mend what I've ruined long ago... I'm trying to mend our lives once again Gunjan; mine and yours"... He replied stretching out his hand towards her asking her to come out once again...

"You don't have to bother about my life Samrat; I do can take care of mine... In fact my life has already decided my destiny"... Gunjan replied refusing him once again...

"Who are you kidding Gunjan??" Samrat this time hold on to her wrist and pulled Gunjan out of the car forcibly... He wanted to talk, he wanted to correct everything but she was not co-operating with him... "You are not even willing to get married to RV, then why this scarifies??"

"What makes you think so Samrat??" She was getting restless in that place...

"I know you inside out Gunjan; in fact no one knows you the way I do Gunjan... Not even you"... He said cupping her face...

"I'm sure you know me very well Samrat"... Gunjan replied calmly... "An orphan girl who was abandoned by her biological parents... A selfish self oriented girl who is the sole reason you have lost your Love and your Father... A curse to your perfect world... That's me... You do really know me more than I do Samrat"...

"I'm sorry Gunjan"... Samrat closed his eyes... His hands fell down... Those words were pricking his heart... His own words which he had thrown on her face a long time ago and now hearing them back from her was unbearable...

"Samrat!!" A gentle touch on his shoulder and a soothing voice that called out his name brought him back again from that horrible incident...

"Sister Marian!!" Samrat hold onto her hand immediately like a lost child...

"What have you done child??" Sister Marian took a sit beside him...

Samrat could not hold back his tears anymore...

"Everyone hates me Sister Marian"... He cried letting his heart out... "Everyone including Gunjan... No one has ever been there for me... Everyone has pushed me far away... Why didn't they just say the truth?? Why didn't Gunjan ever say it that it was all Dia's plan all those years back??"...

"She was hurt Samrat" Sister Marian said stroking his hairs... "Gunjan loves you too much to hate you... She was upset when you choose Dia over her... But she was hurt beyond repair when you accused her of Dia's death... She can never hate you child... If it was in her nature then she wouldn't bother to be around you all these years like a shade... She is just upset with you... And one who loves you unconditionally has the right to be upset with you, isn't??" She smiled gently...

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