
CHAPTER 18
"Mummy can I have a shower today?" Shanti asked her mother. Sugni was preparing to give her sponge bath.
"No baby" Sugni said. "The doctors said we have to wait a few more days before that...in the mean while I guess we have to make do with a sponge bath again." She said. Shanti made a face that made Sugni smile.
"Is the cut hurting?" she asked looking at her.
"Not much..."
"ok...if you feel any different you tell me right.!" She said.
"Yes mummy."
A week after her operation Shanti was discharged from the hospital and now she was back at home. Sugni had strict instructions to follow on the home care she had to receive. She was progressing well and after a few weeks, she should be well enough to return to school and start her normal life.
During her stay at the hospital, Shanti's teacher visited and left her some schoolwork she could catch up on when she was ready. So Sugni was beginning to tutor her at home, slowing getting her adjusted back to some normalcy.
"Is uncle Vickram coming today?" She asked.
"Yes he will be here...later... he has work to do." She said.
"Good he can help me with my homework..." She said.
"I can do that...besides he will be here late and you might be tired."
"no I won't be ...I'll rest now so when he comes I'll be ready." She said.
"So why can't I help you...yesterday we did it on our own." Sugni said.
"He makes it fun!" She said
"And I don't?" She asked. Looking at Shanti she gasped when Shanti shook her head no.
Leave it to her daughter to speak her mind.
"Shanti...you really like uncle Vickram don't you?" Sugni asked as she laid the clothes out on the bed and brought the bowl of warm water to start her bath.
Hamm" She said nodding. Lifting her arm to be washed. "He is very nice." She said
"Yes he is..." She said. "you really like spending time with him right?" She asked.
"Yeah" Shanti replied, as her mother dried her skin and started to change her clothes. Sugni smiled. She sat on the bed and combed through her hair.
"How would you feel if he was a permanent part of our lives?" She asked nonchalantly...as she observed her.
"Permanent? What does that mean?" She asked looking at her mother curiously. Sugni thought about the best way to explain this to a five year old.
"Shannu...see Uncle Vickram and I have a special relationship...we...we love each other. A lot ,and when two people love each other like we do they get married and share their lives with each other" She said "Uncle Vickram has asked me to marry him..."
"Marry him?...you mean like Betty's sister did?" She asked. Referring to a wedding, she attended of one of her friend's sisters, where she was asked to be one of the flower girls.
"Yes...yes like that!" Sugni said. Remembering how excited she was walking down the aisle throwing flowers with her friend.
"NO! No you can't marry him!" She said alarmed.
"Shannu?" Sugni asked stunned by that reaction.
"Tell him you don't want to...Mummy you can't marry him." She said getting visibly upset.
"Shanti...why are you saying this...I thought you liked him...I don't understand?" she said.
"No I don't like him. I hate him!" She said.
"SHANTI!...you can't talk like that!" Sugni said sternly, shocked by her reaction. Where was this coming from? Taking a deep breath and not wanting to upset her further she said.
"Calm down...What is wrong? Hmmm tell me baby...you get along very well with him...I don't..." Sugni was interupped by a knock on the door that indicated Vickram had arrived. Hmm the one time he arrived early.
Tell him to go away." Shanti said. As she lay on the bed and closed her eyes. An indication that she was mad. It was a reaction Sugni could count on one hand with fingers remaining the amount of times she saw Shanti angry over something..
"Shanti...behave yourself...you are being rude and I don't like it...I'll be back." She said. Picking up the bath water she made it to the living room where she opened the door to reveal Vickram.
"Hey did she have her bath?" he said as he walked in noting the bowl in her hands.
"Yeah...let me just get rid of this." She said turning towards the kitchen.
"Ok ...Is she awake?" he asked going towards the room.
"Umm yes but I would not go in there if I were you." She said. "I'll explain in a minute." She said as she left leaving Vickram staring after her confused.
Sugni returned to the living from a few minutes after.
" HI!' She said going up to him and hugging him.
"Hello!" He smiled kissing her on the cheek.
"So what's going on?" He asked
Sugni sighed heavily as she sat on the couch patting the space beside her.
"Well we were talking and I decided to tell her about us. "
"Hmm. How did she react?""
Well that is the strange thing. See, it was all going well; but the minute I mentioned that, you asked me to marry you she freaked. I mean she got upset really upset. I don't understand it. I was trying to get to the bottom of it when you came. I don't understand." She said giving him a bewildered look.
"One minutes she is excited asking me if you are coming and wants you to help her with her homework and the next minute she says she doesn't like you anymore "
"hmm...Ok that is confusing...maybe I should talk to her."
"I know. But I don't want to upset her much...her cut isn't healed yet and crying or moving about to much will just irritate it." She said. "It's just that she seemed to be in a rally happy mood I thought it would be a good time."
"I understand...I promise I won't upset her...let's just see where she's coming from...if she gets too upset. I'll drop it" He said.
"Ok" She said as they got up and went to the room.
Vickram knocked on the door as he walked it.
"Can I come in?" He asked Shanti who was lying on the bed.
"NO! Go away!" Shanti said as she pulled the covers up over her head.
"Shanti!" Sugni said. "I told you about being rude," Sugni said walking towards the bed
She stopped when Vickram shook his head.
"Hmm I see my little princess is angry at me...why?' he asked. Taking a chair from the corner of the room and sitting at the side of the bed.
"You can't marry her!" she said her voice muffled under the covers
"No...no...Shanti...if you are going to tell me something you have to look at me, not hide. So come on move the covers. Please." He said.
After a few moments, she removed the covers from her head,
"That is better..." He smiled. "Now tell me why can't I marry her?'
"Because she is my mummy..." She said.
"I know that...she will always be your mummy... We getting married won't change that." He said.
"Yes it will!" She said. "I know...you can't marry her... go away she won't marry you." Shanti said rudely
"Shanti! You cannot speak to Uncle Vickram like that, this behavior of yours is not nice and I don't like it. Now you apologize to him now." Sugni said sternly ignoring Vickram who was shaking his head. Sick or not she was not going to have a rude child.
"I am sorry.!" Shanti mumbled. She turned her face away frm them he reyes filling with tears at being scolded by her mother.
"it's ok...come on sit up." He said softly. She did as she looked at her mother who was still looking at her seriously then to Vickram then at her lap.
"Hey...no don't cry...no one is mad at you ok." He said wiping her eyes.
"We are friends right?" He said.. She nodded, her head was bent again.
"Well even friends sometimes get mad at each other, but then they try to work it out."
"So tell me what's bothering you...hmmm?" He asked. "Why don't you want us to get married?"
"Because...because ...you'll take her away...and I won't see her no more." She said softly.
"What?" Vickram said... "No. That's not true..." He said as it began to dawn on him the reason for her weird behavior.
Yes it is...Betty's sister got married and then Betty said she can't see her sister no more because he took her far away. And now you want to take my mummy away." She cried..
"Shanti no..." Sugni said coming to stand next to Vickram at the side of the bed. She exchanged a glance with Vickram as it became clear what was wrong. .
"Hey Shanti...look at me... "Vickram Said. She looked at him. So that is why?...you think I am going to take her away from you?" He said. She nodded.
"No ...never!" He said ..."Shanti look I love you and your mom. She will always be your mummy and she will always be there with you, because the two of you are a team the two of you are a family. I just want to join in this team as a part of your family." He said looking at her.
"Now if we are going anywhere we go together...the three of us...cause families stay together. And when we get married you'll have even more family...and more people who love you...you'll get a grand ma...some cousins."
"Cousins?" She asked
"Hmm you remember Adi and Amtira who came to visit you at the hospital"
"The pretty lady?" She said.
"Yes..." He laughed. "Well they are also a part of my family. So you see you're getting a whole lot of people in your life" He said.
" Do You really think we would leave you alone by yourself?" he asked
"Betty's sister did," she said.
"Well that is because ...she was starting a new life with her new family...and she will come back to see Betty I am sure. Our situation is different...we would like to start a new life as a new family with ALL of us."
"Shannu...I'll never do anything without you baby...you know that." She said as she knelt at the side of the bed looking at her.
Shanti stared at the two of them for a moment in silence.
"Well now that you know I am not going to take her away from you...I am going to ask you now." He said as he looked at Sugni. He took Shanti's hand in his and looking at her seriously, he said,
"Ms. Shanti Mathur," He said formally causing her to blush and giggle at being addressed so formally.
" I love your mother and I would be very very very sad...if I can't marry her, and it will make her sad to if she does not marry me. I promise to take care of her and you, to love you and to be here for you always. So may I marry her with your blessing?" He asked.
Sugni looked at her mother. "I don't want you to be sad mummy."
"So you won't mind if we get married?:" she asked.
"You can...I don't mind." She said.. Sugni let out a sigh of relief as he leaned forward and hugged her.
"Come here'" Vickram said, he lifted her onto his lap as he hugged her gently. "Thank you , Princess...you have made us very happy right now." He said, smiling. "For a minute there you scared me young lady.' He joked.
"I am sorry." She said.
"it's Ok. I know that this can all be a little scary and confusing for you. We will have some changes we will all have to get accustomed to." He said. "But if you ever have questions or confusion you can ask your mom or me Ok."
"OK." She said.
Good. "
"Now that that is out of the way...I hear you have some school work you wanted my help with. How about we go to the living room and work on that huh." He said as he set her on the floor and stood up holding her hand.
"Ok." She said. Sugni grabbed her book bag from the corner and handed it to him.
"I guess I'll go fix you two some snacks" she said "Milkshakes?" She said.
"Yeah cool!' Shanti smiled once again reverting to her happy self. Sugni and Vickram looked at each other and exchanged smiles as well, relieved that the mini crisis was over.
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The next hour was spent concentrating on her school work which managed to pick up fairly quickly on despite missing out from the lessons in class.
After she finished her reading lesson, she closed the book.
"Very good!...that is it for today you keep this up you will finish this book soon!' Vickram Said. "Any questions?' He asked.
"Do we have beaches here?" She asked referring to the lesson in the book.
"Yes...but it is far away few hours' drive, you ever been to the beach?" He asked
She shook her head.
"Well...I'll take you there ... how about that."
"Really?" She said excitedly
"Sure"
"Tomorrow?" She asked.
"No...um when you get all better and the Doctor says you can...Ok"
"OK...'
"Mummy did you hear that we're going to the beach!!!" She said
"Yeah. Very good." Sugni said from in the kitchen where she was tidying up.
"Ok let's pack up your books." Vickram said as they began picking up the books and pencils into the bag.
"Uncle Vickram?" She said after she finished her task.
"Hmmm?"
"If you get married to my mummy... will it be like in the book? She asked
"What do you mean?" He asked
"I mean like the family...with a mummy and a daddy and m...you'll be like my uncle daddy Vickram.!"she said.
"Oh...yes I guess...in a way..."He chuckled...but don't you think that is a long name for me." He said.
"Well what should I call you?" She asked looking at him curiously.
"Hmm..see when we get married...that will make me your step-dad...which is just like a dad." He explained. " So you can call me whatever you wish if you want to call me daddy or dad or my name, Vickram or anything you are comfortable with. Take some time and think about it...hmm?" he said.
She got quite for a while thinking over what he said..
"I don't have a dad"
"I don't have a little girl ...but if I did I would want her to be just like you" He said genuinely. She smiled
Sugni cleared her throat
"Mind if I interrupt this serious conversation." She said. "It's somebody's bed time.'
"Ahhh..." Vickram said. "I see..."
"Tell Uncle Vickram good night and thank you!" Sugni said.
"Thank you...'night." She said as she stood up.
"Good night princess, have a great sleep." He said as he kissed the top of her head. She walked with her mother towards the room.
Vickram leaned back against the couch and closed his eyes; what an evening this was turning out to be! He hoped that he did manage to put all her fears and doubts aside, which she had earlier. He was beginning to see that Shanti was not only smart but also and intuitive child. He smiled as he replayed the conversation she they had about what she should call him, at least it told him she had no problems with the marriage , unlike his mother who was now giving him the cold treatment, hoping he was sure that he changed his mind. Although she acted like nothing was a miss, but the minute Sugni's name came up she got all tense. He pretended he did not notice, because he was doing as he said and not going to argue with her about this. He was confident once they got married, she would eventually thaw out.
Vickram opened his eyes when he felt a light tapping on his forearm. He smiled thinking Sugni came back from putting Shanti to bed. He was surprised to see Shanti standing at his side instead.
"Hey I thought you went to bed." He said.
"I am going I just want to tell you that..." She got quite as she looked down.
"What is it?." He asked. Instead of answering him she came forward and hugged him, stunning him.
"I thought about it... I'll be your little girl and you'll be my dad. So now we both have what we didn't." She said as she looked at him and smiled.
. Vickram looked to see Sugni standing to the entrance of the room looking at them with a watery smile on her face. No doubt feeling the same emotion, he was feeling.
"Thank you Shanti...I'd like that very much." He said.
"Ok...Good night!" She said again kissing him on the cheek.
"Good night.". He said as he hugged her back, then released her as she went back to her room.. Vickram suddenly felt choked up looking at her. The simplicity and the wholeheartedness with which she accepted him as part of her life were stunning to him. It was in that moment he lost his heart again, to this little girl who now an equally important part of his life as her mother was .