Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
She also dreamnt of falling in love and she did. Her first love. Never did she knew nothing remains same after you fall in love. Before falling in love, The heart is blank. Unwritten. She fell for the wrong one. The one she should have stayed miles away. That's the thing about love, emotions and feelings start controlling the brain. She trusted him with all her heart and he always broke it.
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known
She still thinks of the time he fooled her and she got fooled. Falling for the playboy, that was her fault. Her only fault. She scolds herself for being that naive that she never understood his intentions. How stupid of her to become a toy in his hands. Giving in to his wishes and desires.
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
After the first love fails, the heart isnt the same. It isn't unwritten instead the walls are inscribed. No amount of scrubbing erases the memories and the sketched images. It feels there is nothing left to give or take. Useless as a barren piece of land.
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
She was a game for him. A bet. Have her in a month or lose money. That's what it ever meant for him. But she had no idea. She thought she would her bad boy whom she will turn into a good boy one day. Her love. He used to smile at her, and she used to feel like a teenager. He used to touch her and she ended up melting in his arms.
Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
(My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand)
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know
She also dreamnt of their happy ending. Wanting to spend her life with him. Thinking he was her soulmate, her other half. She heard his friends congratulating him, for what...?? For having her as his girlfriend... In just a month. This was it. It was all unreal. His facade. She couldn't believe it was all a lie. The bouquet she brought for him, fell from her hands in shock. The ground beneath her feet was snatched away. Not a single tear fell from her eye. He didn't deserve her... Not even a single tear of hers.
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
That day she realised life isn't a fairy tale and happy endings don't exist. She was broken... Devastated and scarred. He looked at her in shock and took a step towards her. But she wanted nothing from him. His million words would also not affect her, she knew it. She ran from that place and hiding in the confines of her room. Cried. Cried not because of the heartbreak but because of the pain and emptiness she felt within. She felt like a fool.
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
Calling her all day, sending sorry messages or standing outside her hostel building. It wouldn't make up for the damage that was caused to her innocent weak heart. Her heart blessed every time she saw him. Those eyes made shiver ran down her spine, even after what he did to her. She was adamant she wouldn't fall for him. Not this time.
And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
She tried hating him but from the core of her heart, she wanted him to cone back to her. She wanted him to tell her that that was some misunderstanding and he loves her. She wanted him to apologise and start a fresh. But when he did it. She couldn't let herself forgive him. He told her he loved her, that bet meant nothing to him. He only wanted her and her love. He begged to her for her. But suddenly it all felt meaningless.
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
It was too late. She wasn't living in that fantasy world any longer. She grew up suddenly. From a girl to a woman. She wanted someone who will value her more and respect her. Not the one who doesn't treats her well. He was a mistake. A beautiful mistake. But who in the world lives with mistakes. People hide and forget their mistakes. They move on from them. That's what she was doing. They didn't deserve a second chance. Its ok to get fooled once but falling in that trap again. Well that's a big no no. She wasn't falling ng for him again.
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now
No matter how much he begged her and tried to make her understand. They weren't meant to be. She realised it and hoped he would realise it soon. He didn't deserve her. She was too good for him.
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now
There was no looking back. Yes he was her first love but who said love couldn't happen again. Yes the heart is inscribed now but there is always a space for someone else - in between the words and in the margins. And she was sure she would find someone, who will make his place in her heart. One day. For sure.
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