He hates the effects she has on him
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You hate her.
You hate every single thing about her.
You've hated her for all your life now and you don't see the feelings disappearing at any time soon.
You hate the way that she wears her hair; it's like she has no shame, flaunting a particularly sensual female asset like that. The lustrous black hairs(I liked her black hairs better) cascade freely down her back, like they're deliberately taunting you. She used to wear it pulled back in a tight plait or a ponytail before marriage but not anymore. Not now. Now it's almost as if she makes a calculated effort to show it off in all it's black satiny glory. It is no longer demurely confined to a hairclip & you hate that you notice it so much. When they come at her face you have to practice another level of self control to not go near her & play with them.
You hate that you cannot look away.
You hate her cute nose. Stupid small cute nose that crinkles when she's irritates or angry or when she's thinking something. It gets puffy & red when she cries. And you hate it so much because you are the reason of it mostly.
You hate her big brown eyes. You've made a concerted effort not to look directly at her for long enough now, but occasionally if your eyes do accidentally meet (which is admittedly not always an accident on your part),you can't look away. You hate that suddenly brown is your favorite color and you can't say why. You hate that they always look happy to see everyone even you.
You hate that when she is doing some work or lost in some thoughts, sometimes her tongue runs over her plump lower lip, licking it or perhaps unconsciously biting it as her eyes brighten with interest. Her long eyelashes sweep downward as she is in the world of her own, delicately fluttering over flawless skin. You clutch your fist tighter as you desperately look away and hate yourself for being affected so much by a mere gesture.
You hate that she was in love with your brother, you hate that all she is doing a compromise with you, you hate that if given the choice she will never chose you.
But most of all you hate Raavi because she is your mami ki behan ki beti, since childhood you did everything in your power to hate her & never let her come close to you and you know that if it was any other girl then you wouldn't have to stop yourself from loving her.
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I'm going to write one from Raavi's POV
Anupamaa
